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cyberstabbing · 1 year ago

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i'm always down in the dumps in january and feeling stuck and ugly and all that but this is the third january in a row that straight male friends/friends of friends come on to me and maybe i should start using that wlw dating site again since apparently i'm sending out some signals. the wrong signals

#but it's so scary 🫠 the last time i talked about my feelings with a girl (we both liked each other)#we were at the strangest house party i've been to. cocaine in the living room and ket in the bathroom and who knows what else in the bedroom #and we were in a tiny room with ten other people on someone's bed and she kept asking me questions and i was so terrified of opening up #i couldn't move or speak or look up and i was so paranoid and deadly afraid #like if that's what i'll keep doing then i can't really meet someone can i?#but how tf do i get over it?#it's hereditary though. everyone on my dad's side are lone wolves #everyone falls in love like once and then they fuck it up and never date again and die alone #and that's my fate too #anyways men find me hot so lets get some womanly validation and love too huh!!?!!!?!!!#mine

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