#we shared that humor y'know but his was a tad more extreme ig
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Visit Tumblr Blog
Explore Tumblr blogs with no restrictions, modern design and the best experience.
Last Seen Tumblr Blogs
Fun Fact
In Q3 of 2020, 31% of US users access the Tumblr app daily.
Text
to think that we wanted to make a toxic friendship work ahahahaha
#long tags ahead dont open#for those whove been following me since june-ish might still remember my breakdown with this one guy friend#we got close during our senior year and we were good friends our relationship was built on mutual insulting (some insults vv unrealistic)#we shared that humor y'know but his was a tad more extreme ig#if i recall correctly he sent me some meme with the ch*** slur and me being asian and also used to be called that when i was younger#uh it didnt sit well so i told him yea could he not im offended could I get an apology#he goes on saying he wont apologize bc he didnt know i had such trauma and why should he apologize for something he didnt know#and i should sToP TryiNg to be politically correct bc it's just a meme#may i add this went down during finals week and i had a mental breakdown and even cried on the phone w my other friend#idk why i was even so invested but yea it was weird and then one night i texted him we kinda made up#oh and he also liked to 'flirt' w me but i guess he only meant it as a joke#until he said he found me cute no cap and would be alright if we stayed friends but wouldn't mind being exclusive#in the end we only stayed friends bc i was going abroad fma few weeks later and came back on christmas#and considering we only got to talking six months before is a lil concerning#we didnt talk bc the time difference made things hard to schedule and then he had his exams sometimes in october i think#in january once i was back i wanted to meet up w him but he rejected both times bc he didnt like meeting up in person and preferred texting#well everyone knows im a bad fucking texter and yes i ghost people sometimes for weeks bc i simply forget to reply them#and when i read the text im very likely busy so theres that#i was staying over at a friend's when he started a massive guilt trip saying how only he makes the effort to stay in contact once AGAIN but#but somehow we magically made up and i told him lmao we are such toxic friends but he didnt think so lmao#anyhow so uh perhaps i ghosted him for a month straight (so i am at fault too)#and today was the confrontation and i told him things from my view#it escalated into *surprise* another fight#and i think now we're done for good#now that we fknally agreed to go no contact and go our seperate ways i feel... relieved#i gotta admit my stay abroad did change me and im more aware abt my flawed personality too#and ig back then half a year ago i just didnt want to let go of him yet#not only bc we talked comfortably and perhaps i indulged too much in our platonic flirting#but he was the 2nd guy i considered an actual friend#did i make the right choice by cutting him off? i like to believe so i think it's best for my emotional stabilty too
2 notes
·
View notes