#watching tonight's episode made me fully realize just how not easy my baby girl has had it :(

[leslieseveride]

i need lucy to be taken care of. she always goes so far out of her way to help others in need and i love that about her, but i don't think she's had a real break since her recovery from being kidnapped and so much has happened to her since then that i just need her to be hugged and taken care of. not only by tim, but by everyone else too. 🥺💗

[herefortheships]

Tonight is it. Tonight is the series finale of Supernatural. 

When I started watching this show in 2009, I had no idea the impact it would later have in my life. I owe so much to Supernatural, and especially Destiel, for the person I became. This show basically feels like a part of me, and even though I did fall out of love with it for some time, I never stopped watching it, because Sam, Dean, Cas, and later Jack, meant so much to me, even though I didn’t like the story/plot anymore, I cared to see how their stories would end. 

I had never gotten this emotionally involved with a TV show in my life. I’d say I got even more involved than Buffy, which is the other big TV show in my life. The difference probably lies on the fact that I binge watched Buffy, but I watched Supernatural real-time for 11 years. 

Here is my story with Supernatural:

I first heard of the show from one of my best friends at University. She was a huge fan. She recommended the show to me in 2008. She showed me images she had saved of Dean and Sam, and told me the basics of it; she was a Wincest shipper (later converted to a Destiel shipper), so her biggest investment in SPN was the brothers. I didn’t think Dean and Sam (Jensen and Jared) were as handsome as she thought they were. haha But she was crazy about them! I didn’t really get interested in watching the show; it didn’t exactly sound like something I’d watch.

Later, in 2009, my mom left the TV on as we sorted the laundry, and Supernatural was playing on TNT. My mom is a huge fan of Charmed, and she would always watch the Charmed reruns on TNT. She left it on and Supernatural started, and she got interested so she kept watching it. I don’t remember exactly which episode was playing (maybe the Wendigo episode? Not sure, but it was an early season episode). And after that day, we kind of started watching it out of order. 

I became really interested in the show and kept watching it after that day with my mom and sisters, but I wouldn’t exactly call myself a fan. I mean, I was a fan, but I still wasn’t that emotionally invested. When I could finally watch the entire show up to that point in order until Swan Song, that’s when I was already emotionally invested. I had become a “Sam!girl” and I cared so much about what was going to happen next. I was really happy when I found that a season 6 was happening and Sam was alive and out of Hell, and I was really happy to see that it was Sera Gamble running it, because her episodes had been my favorite. (I regretted being excited about Sera Gamble later though lol). 

During season 6 it’s when I started to notice Destiel. Or at least, I started noticing that Castiel was in love with Dean. In my mind, though, there was no way Dean was in love with Cas because for me back then, Dean was straight. I was also raised very conservative and catholic, so for me back then, homosexuality was a sin and it made me uncomfortable to think about it. Especially when deep inside, I wondered if I was not straight myself and I was scared about it--I knew I wasn’t exactly straight, but I was afraid to even consider the possibility (turns out, I’m asexual--I’ll get to that in a minute). For me Dean was straight even if Cas did love him. I started hearing about Destiel around that time in the internet, too. And my sister from the moment she saw Cas’ intro she was like “that’s Dean’s man”, though I thought she was joking. I saw Destiel art for the first time under Facebook posts, and I remember replying to those posts that it was beautiful art, but “the show is about Sam and Dean, about the brothers” (How dumb was I. lol).

So, I watched through seasons 6 and 7, and around this time Cas had become a favorite character for me, and seeing what Sera Gamble did with the character really hurt me. I hated the Megstiel fling they wrote for Cas, and hated what happened to Cas in season 7 when he lost his mind. That was painful to watch (I especially hated the Megstiel in season 7, it felt like... rape? If you know what I mean, since Cas wasn’t okay in his mind I felt like she could take advantage of him... That’s another conversation for another time, though). I had fallen out of love with Supernatural for the first time during season 7. But watching Supernatural had become something obvious for me and my family, you know? We’d always watch it, even if I wasn’t enjoying the story anymore. So, when season 8 started, we were right there to watch. 

And that’s when I really, really, saw Destiel happen right before my eyes. It was episode 8x02, and Dean remembered the moment he found Cas in Purgatory. That scene, that moment... I ran to my sister’s room (who was no longer interested in Supernatural), and I told her. I told her Destiel is real. I started researching online to see if other people really considered Destiel as a serious ship, or if it was just a for fun ship, as I had thought until then. And that’s how I came across Tumblr. I found Destiel Meta about season 7. And it made so much sense. Like, even season 7, which I hated and didn’t make sense to me, started to make sense! As a matter of fact, it only made sense when I looked at it through a Destiel lens. I found this huge community of people who saw Destiel and hoped for it to happen in canon. People who, like me, would only ship relationships that had potential for canon, and saw this in Destiel. I found, I am not imagining this; it’s really there. Dean and Castiel really have a shot at being together in canon. 

I also discovered the word “asexual” and what it means thanks to the reading of Castiel as asexual, during this time in late 2012, and I could finally define myself after wondering for years if I was actually a lesbian and I still hadn’t really defined it, though I liked boys but not in a sexual way. I found the term asexuality and I finally knew where I fit. I learned SO much through Destiel, and Tumblr, about sexuality and sexual orientations, about gender, about identity and representation, about the struggles and fight of the LGBTQ community... I can honestly say I am a better person today thanks to this ship. This is why representation matters so much.

Moving on, I fell out of love with Supernatural again during season 9. But by this time, I was too emotionally invested in these characters to quit the show. Seasons 10 was the same. I didn’t care much. Season 11... I was really uncomfortable with the Amara thing, given she was shown as a baby and Dean had this sexual connection to her... It was so darn weird. But then I realized something: Amara was an object that was there to develop Destiel even more?? And I got interested in SPN again, but I was treading carefully, because I felt like this show was kind of always baiting the fandom with Destiel, never to deliver in the end. I cared again, but never like I used to care back during season 8. 

Season 8 was my peak as a Supernatural and Destiel fangirl. During season 11 it was when I realized that I only cared about the characters now, but predominantly, I only cared about DeanCas at this point. The storylines were not engaging anymore, and some themes had become repetitive, because everything had been explored with these characters, except for the DeanCas romance (in a textual way). I wanted to see if their relationship was ever going to be acknowledged somehow in the show. 

Since season 11, up until November 5th, 2020, season 15 episode 18, I was watching Supernatural casually, just to see what would become of the characters and especially what would become of Destiel. I thought the MOST we were ever going to get was something ambiguous and easy to dismiss. Something like hand holding at MOST, but realistically, a glance that shippers could say meant more, but haters could easily dismiss. And then, 15x18 happened: Castiel confessed his love to Dean Winchester, in a final sacrifice of love. Cas said “I love you” after saying all these beautiful things about Dean and all the reasons why he fell in love with him. How Dean changed him for good. 

Suddenly, everything was possible. Suddenly, Destiel could really happen. It didn’t matter that Castiel was dead, because Castiel has been dead before too many times, and so has Dean (lol). Cas had to come back! And Dean would say those words back. 

All of those years, we were right! Destiel was truly a love story. 

I was okay for years, if Destiel never went canon, I didn’t mind anymore, because they were canon to me. I never even dreamed we’d get a canon love confession, and even less did I consider we’d be getting such a beautiful and epic love confession as the one we got. 

Now, as I wait for the finale episode in the series, I expect Destiel will be fully canon tonight. As I wait, I am a bundle of nerves and anticipation for the first time in years, in wait for a new episode. I am once again emotionally invested in these characters like I was years ago. Because now, Dean and Cas really do have a shot at being together at the end of this story. Now it’s no longer a fan fantasy and hope; now it’s real. Destiel is real. Destiel is canon. I have to say, after the way they have set up the story, I will be incredibly disappointed if it doesn’t resolve the way I hope, with a DeanCas happy ending. I cannot forgive a one-sided Destiel ending when they could have just let us have our headcanons at the end of the show. But at least we know Destiel was always real, and it was mentioned in the show, so it’s now indisputable that this was always a love story. That’s the up side. Castiel has confessed his feelings for Dean; he was canonically in love with Dean all this time and his rebellion against Heaven was all for Dean, and nobody can take that away from us now. In my heart I know, Dean is also in love with Cas, and that will be one of my takeaways from this show, especially now that Cas has come out and said the words. If I was right about Cas loving Dean, I am right about Dean loving Cas. 

As I wait for the series finale, I know in my heart, Supernatural will always be special for me. Not only because of Destiel, but because of all the years watching it with my mom and sisters and finding the fandom and participating in a fandom for the first time in my life. It was fun, and it was life-changing. 

I am incredibly grateful to Supernatural, this fandom, and especially Destiel. I am a better person because of this fandom, and I have zero regrets having been a part of this. (Even when I complain about Supernatural all the time! haha).

Super long ramble, and probably I could have worded this better, but I had to write something today, as it is the final day of Supernatural.

Let us hope for a happy ending. 

~ Des., November 19th, 2020

[ikennyxo-blog]

Hearts don’t break around here

TAGGING: Kendall Jenner, Cara Delevingne @caradevilqueen-x

LOCATION: Los Angeles, a club and Cara’s house

TIMEFRAME: March 15th, 2017

NOTES: An upset Kendall appears at Cara’s door and what started as a fun night out ended with two friends exploring a new side of their relationship.

TRIGGER WARNING : smut  

Kendall: Kendall knew that she didn't have any right to be this upset, Colton had never promised a relationship but feelings were developing between then and he had made some promises that he now broke because of one encounter with his ex girlfriend. What was there left to do for Kendall than to wish him all the best and disappear from his life? The model was never the one to be on standby or wait for someone to figure themselves out so she cut to the chase and made a decision to just walk away. It's the very reason why she ended up on the plane to LA knowing her best friend was there, the only person who'd understand her and be there unconditionally. She made a stop at her house, showered and changed into something more suitable for a night before she drove off to Cara's place not even telling the Brit woman she was there. "Kendall Jenner is here and she's going out in 10 minutes so if you wanna join her, dress properly" Kenny laughed drinking from her bottle of gin as she walked into the place with her own spare key. "Tonight we're both getting laid one way or another. Fuck guys and their ever changing minds!"

Cara: Cara had spent the day working outside. Between Mirror Mirror and Chanel, she had had barely any time to relax, grabbing a quick bite midday and only heading home after 8 pm, which meant she was starving. On the Uber home, the Brit ordered a massive pizza, and planned to stay in all night, drinking beer and eating the pie, watching movies with Lion and thinking about what she'd wear on Friday for Margot's St. Patricks' day party. Everything was going according to plan, she had gotten home five minutes before the pizza, showered, and just as she sat down on the couch with the dog and pressed play on the latest episode of whatever she was watching, she heard the door jingle. She was about to ask who it was before hearing the voice. "Kenny?" She asked, her brows furrowing. She stood up, walking towards the main door and meeting her halfway, a bottle of gin in her hand "Ooh shite... What happened? Yeah, yeah... Come on, help me pick what I'm gonna wear" She said, smiling broadly at the brunette and reaching out to grab her hand, tugging her towards the room "I told you, girls always know best"

Kendall: Kenny took another swing from the bottle before she looked up at her friend knowing she had to tell her. "Well it seems our golden boy saw his ex girlfriend and realized he wants her back. So I'm back to being nothing, feeling like old rug he dumped because it could never measure up to." She trailed off shaking her head. "No, fuck him. Tonight, we're not talking about him. He can go fucking live happily ever after with her for all I care" She let Cara pull her toward the room going through things in her closest. "This top and this rock and those beautiful boots you own" Kendall decided for her, she was wearing a dress herself, something she knew would turn heads with how good it fitted her. "I'm not wearing any panties" She giggled, the brunette had already been slightly tipsy when she arrived at her friend's house. "I should just seduce you and have mom Kris pay you to marry me" She giggled.

Cara: The Brit sighed. Caity and Colton were both really good friends of hers, and even if she wasn't angry at Caity, in her mind, she was planning a million and one ways she could hurt the man mentally and physically for getting Kendall like this. She wasn't sad because she was wasted, which was good right now, but tomorrow, she'd realize it and it'd be her tears on Cara's shoulder and she wasn't having any of it. "Boys are stupid, and we're not talking about stupid boys now" She said, nodding her head and letting her hand go once they got to the room. She was about to get to the closet when Ken took her place, picking her outfit and handing it over. She stripped down from her tracksuit, wiggling into the shorts and top, reaching down for the boots and taking them in her hand, but then dropping them imediately when she heard Kendall's confession, feeling her stomach turn upside down. "I... Don't... God, you're so drunk" She said with a painful sigh, biting on her lip and shaking her head "You seduce me when you walk into a room, and your mom wouldn't have to pay me a dime, I'd do it" She said with a smile "D'you want to borrow a pair of knickers? I have new ones in a box" She said with a laugh, working for Puma had a nice payoff in sports bras and pants. Once she was fully dressed, Cara turned to Kendall again "Tequila?"

Kendall: "He promised me a vacation and said he wouldn't break his promises.... I guess I shouldn't be mad, we were never dating for real" She shrugged wanting to make it seem she doesn't care but she knew Cara would see right through it. She watched her friend as Cara was changing into a more revealing outfit, the two girls would certainly get a lot of attention tonight. "He said he was kinda jealous because others hit on me and you wanted to make out with me but it's her, it's always been her"Kendall said in a lower voice, getting lost in her thoughts until she heard Cara's question. "No, tonight I'm being a slut with no panties." Kenny chuckled standing up to start dancing around the room. "Let's get going, bring it along if you wanna drink in the car." Kenny smiled, the car that drover her here was still waiting to take them somewhere else. "Lord, you look hot tonight" She groaned once the girls were in the car.

Cara: Cara shook her head, taking Kendall's face between her hands and giving it a little shake "No more talking about him or anything related to anything that he has to do with. No. Just me, you, and the people we're gonna meet at the club. Nobody else" She said, pressing a quick kiss to her forehead and finishing a few light touches on her make up. Nodding to her demand, the brit ran to the kitchen and took a bottle of Johnny Walker, bringing it alongside her purse and running towards the car with Kendall. As soon as they got into the car, her eyes went to Ken's thighs, the voice of her saying how she hadn't put on any pants burning in her mind, but she tried to push it back. "You look smoking hot, baby" She said with a smile, pulling back the lid and taking a long swing of her bottle.

Kendall: Kendall smiled as she got comfortable in the car, taking one final sip from the bottle before she realized it was empty. "Oooops" She giggle leaving the bottle aside, she couldn't be bothered by putting it away properly. "Why does it never work out for me?" Kenny asked no one in particular as she played with the hem of her dress. The city lights were distracting so she barely noticed when the car stopped but she quickly tipped the driver before following Cara out of it. The line outside the club was long but the brunette just walked straight ahead pulling Cara along noddig to the door guy recognizing him and vice versa. "What do you wanna start the night with?" She asked over the loud music as they approached the bar, finally the younger woman was able to order and pay for drinks.

Cara: Cara laughed at Kendall's little comment when her bottle ran out, before going back to her own and realizing that it had almost emptied itself out as well. When she did finish it, she heard Ken speaking again. "Because you're way too good for all the schmucks you fall in love with. And it's easy falling in love with you, it's the easiest thing to do, and I don't blame them. But you're way too good for all the guys you've been seeing" She said, smiling at her before exiting the cab. The club was insanely loud, but they walked towards the bar, smushing between the people "I'll have a vodka tonic right now, go easy on the tonic"

Kendall: Kenny just shrugged at Cara's comments, she felt as if it was her fault, there must've been something wrong with her when all the guys she's let in, have run away like people abandoning Titanic when it hit the iceberg. The night out, loud  music and alcohol was what Kendall needed the most so she knew Cara would deliver in that. "I'll have the same." She told the bartender eyeing the crowd while waiting for the drinks. "Make sure no one sees my ladies parts if not given permission" Kendall winked at her best friend as their drinks came. "To us!" She shouted before drinking it all at once. "Another."

Cara: Cara laughed when she saw Kendall strongly tossing back the drink, laughing and doing the exact same thing. Boy was this night gonna end either really quickly with her passed out or Kendall with her face in the toilet, but she was planning on making this a night the brunette would never forget. "Wohoo!" She cheered, taking the two new glasses and handing out one for her friend. Taking her hand, she pulled her closer to speak into her ear to get her voice across all the noises "Don't worry, your lady parts are safe. Come on, let's go dance!"

Kendall: Kendall liked that her friend wasn't holding her back or lecturing her on not drinking so fast, Cara knew her well enough to assume what she needs. "Let's goooooo!" Kenny shouted linking their arms as she led the Brit to the dancefloor, the song that came on made her giggle, their dear friend's voice so clear above the murmur of other people, Just hold on was blasting out. Kendall jumped and moved to the rhythm, feeling free and young, not even caring about people dancing around her. As the song ended and another started, Kenny grabbed Cara by the waist and started moving her hips dangerously close to her friend's.

Cara: Cara's face shot split in a grin when Just Hold On came through the speakers, thinking of Louis and drinking this one to him and his incredible struggle and success. Her body swayed to the beat of the music, putting the glass down on a rail after she had downed it. Kendall's hands went to her waist had Cara's body tensing up for a second, but the alcohol in her veins relaxed it down quickly, her own arms around the brunette's neck, pulling her friend towards her, dancing and singing along to the music.

Kendall: The alcohol in her system make Kendall let go of the things that were bothering her, only wanting to have a great night out with her friend without thinking about people that screwed her over. "That fella over there is totally checking you out" She said in Cara's ear, a smirk on her face as she looked at the mentioned guy knowing he'd love to be in her place. "If you want him I can find myself a boytoy... I guess." She shrugged not really believing that any of the guys in there would go for. Why would they when they probably have an ex who is better than her. Story of her life.

Cara: With every moment that passed, the lights became more and more blurry, but the only thing that stayed in perfect focus for her, was Kendall. The way their bodies moved as one together, how she got closer and whispered in her ear, it felt like a drug in her veins. "Oh is he?" She said with a chuckle when she heard her voice, shaking her head quickly, her arms lowering to go around Kendall's waist in one swift move, one she wasn't even sure she'd have ever done if she was sober. "I think I've got all I ever wanted and needed right here" She said with a big smile "Tonight's all about you, making you feel like a queen, everything you could ever want, I'm here to make sure you get it"

Kendall: For a moment Kendall thought Cara was gonna go for it and although she'd be thrilled for her friend, it would leave some wounds open in the morning when she starts processing everything that happened in the last 24 hours. Kenny turned around in Cara's arms, her ass lining up with her front as she started moving her hips in a dirtier way, following the beat and grinding against Cara's front. She wasn't thinking about what she was doing, she just let her body do the work for her. Kenny took Cara's hands in her own, moving her friend's hands all over her own body, feeling herself up through her hands. Turning around once more, Kendall put her hands on Cara's ass, squeezing it lightly. "Body shots?" He asked, her mouth on Cara's ear.

Cara: Her world turned just as Kendall did. She was being a good friend, she was being supportive, Kendall had done this for her a million times... But fucking God why was this so hard. Why was she making this so hard on her. Feeling her body so tight against her, how she grabbed her hand to have it roam all over Kenny's body, feeling her through the soft fabric of her dress. She allowed her forehead to land on Kendall's shoulder, moaning quietly and complaining in a groan "Kenny..." She whispered, swallowing strongly. And then she turned around and came up close to her again, her warm breath over her ear. "Yes. Shots. Please" Alcohol was all she wanted to get this feeling as far away from her as possible. She grabbed onto Kendall's hand and sprinted towards the bar. She ordered tequila shots, and told the barman to keep them coming, and then looked at her friend. "Come here" She said, her accent now mixed with lust and sexual frustration. Pushing her brown hair off her chest, the model licked on her collar bone to help the salt stick before sprinkling it on the skin, her trick worked perfectly. Taking a glass in her hand, she ran her tongue over the salt line, drank the shot and bit on the lemon wedge, squeezing her eyes shut before opening them again and staring into Kendall's deep eyes. "Your turn"

Kendall: Kendall would be lying if she said she never felt attracted to Cara but with her past record, the brunette wouldn't dare to act upon it since Cara was her shoulder to cry on after break ups and she wouldn't want to ruin that. Hearing her friend's response, the model chuckled as she was being pulled to the bar, waiting impatiently for the Brit do lick the salt off her. What she didn't expect was for it to turn her on. Cara's tongue on her sweaty skin shot warmth down her body immediately. "That was so hot" Kendall blurted out with a moan, immediately wanting to feel Cara's lips on her skin again. As it was her turn, Kendall put the salt line on Cara's tilted neck before she smirked with a slice of lemon in her hand. "This goes here" She smiled placing it between Cara's lips. Then she licked the salt off Cara's neck, downed the shot and then took the slice, their lips touching for a brief moment. "Where do you want me next? My inner thigh like last time?" She raised a brow daring her friend.

Cara: Cara groaned quietly when she saw Kendall angle her neck to the side, making her whimper once she felt the salt over it, but she wasn't expecting the lemon wedge. Holding it between her lips, she waited impatiently for the tongue on her neck and the sudden touch of her lips over her own, wishing she could have extended it. She got the chills up her neck, making her shake it off quickly before huffing a hot breath out her neck "God... What?" She asked, looking at Kendall once again. She had no idea, what this was causing her. But she wanted to push through, she was having a good time with it, and even if she had to rub one out when she got back home, if this made Kendall happy, she'd do it again tomorrow night. "Mhm, can't do that without your knickers on. I can do it when we get back to yours if you still want to" She said, whispering into her ear and having her hands roam around her middle.

Kendall: The more she drank the more loose she was feeling and wanting Cara more. They were both like this when drunk both this time Kendall forgot the reason why she always pulled back and stopped whatever was going to happen between the two. It was easy to forget there were people around them, for Kendall there were only her and Cara in the club and this sexual tension that was always present.  "Why not? No one can see in the dark corner or the toilet" Kenny winked standing up to lean into Cara once more, her hand wrapping around her waist. She pulled her to the side and pinned her up against the wall in the dark corner where no one could see them. "Remember when you asked me to do this to you?" She smirked pressing her front to Cara's. "You're fucking frustrating me, making me want to shove your head between my legs.." She trailed off when she realized what she said. "Sorry, that was way out of line" She let go of Cara, hoping she didn't ruin the moment or their night.

Cara: "You're filling me with the wrong ideas, Jenner" Cara said with a short smirk, looking down at her while her hands were still around her waist, almost in a protective way, to keep her close. When the model stood up, Cara stood still, taking short backsteps until she found a wall to have her back stuck against it. Kendall's voice so close, her body glued to hers, the way she was talking, it was driving Cara crazy, but when she heard the words come out of her mouth, the Brit couldn't hold it any longer. She was about to make a move, before Kendall retracted  her words, and that's what she was scared of. That if she ever made a move while they were drunk, that she'd regret it the next morning. But she had been saying this her whole life. Start Living. And with that in mind, the blonde turned Kendall around with one swift move so that her brunette head of hair was now pinned back against a wall, and her lips slowly went over hers to capture them in a kiss.

Kendall: Kendall was afraid that Cara would reject her like so man others before her, she didn't know if the blonde actually wanted to do something or she just meant it in a platonic way. The brunette was burning up with desire to make a move but her insecurities stopped her from it. Luckily, Cara took the first step so when Kenny felt her lips on her own, she only pulled Cara closer to herself, kissing her back immediately. Maybe their sexual tension was only because they couldn't have each other, Kendall told hersef but the more her lips moved in sync with Cara's the more she realized it was far from the truth. "Mmmm" She smiled leaning her head against the wall once they finally pulled away to get some air. Looking into Cara's eyes, she realized she wanted her now more than ever. "I wanna kiss you everywhere" She admitted still looking at her friend, the curiosity and need were consuming her.

Cara: Cara wasn't gonna lie, she couldn't lie, this was what she had been thinking of ever since Kendall had stepped through the door of her LA house. Her hands went around her waist, bringing her body closer to hers as her lips worked against hers. Her head was spinning by the time Kendall pulled away, her eyes opening slowly and finding her brown ones. She licked her lips hungrily, slowly dipping her head to get to her neck, her lips placing wet kisses over her skin, going from the base up to her ear, nipping at her earlobe "You do?" She whispered, her hand going over her ass gently while her lips went back to kissing. "Well, why don't we get out of here. We can go back to mine and I can show you what you've been missing while you were too busy dating boys"

Kendall: Kendall couldn't tell in what moment it all changed but she wanted this now and she wanted it bad. Cara was always there for her and she knew that whatever happens, they'd find a way to deal with it. "Yes" Kenny nodded eagerly, more than ready to explore Cara's body the right way. She took her hand in hers leading her through the crowd of drunk and sweaty people out on the street and into the first car available. Getting in she said the address to the driver as she waited for Cara to join her on the backseat. She leaned in closer once Cara closed the door, nibbling on her earlobe. "You have no idea how wet you've made me" She whispered squeezing her legs shut to somehow try and last until they're home before she launches herself onto Cara.

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Kendall: "Told ya" Kendall chuckled, the blonde had her turned on since she dressed into those clothes and it was impossible not to have that feeling explode now that they were actually making out leading to more later. It felt like Cara was everyone on her, from her lips over her breasts to down there. "Need you" She groaned as Cara continued teasing her and she knew the girl only did it to torture her more and get her even more turned on. Feeling her fingers inside her, Kenny almost came right away. the blonde was just teasing her with light touches but it sent so much pleasure all over Kendall's body. "Fuck... You're driving me crazy, what are you doing to me?" Kenny moaned, it felt so good, she felt all the stress and negativity just slip away from her, her body and mind filled with pleasure.

Cara: Cara smirked up at her friend and flicked her nipple with her tongue one more time before letting it go and starting to trail a line of kisses from between them until she reached her waist. Both of her hands went to her thighs, spreading them out widely, before she snuck her face between them and gave her folds a sharp, long lick. "Fuck, you taste... God" She said, having to go in for a second lick. This was gonna get addictive before she knew it. Using two fingers to spread her lips apart, the Brit bit on her lower lip at the sigh before getting her tongue over the nerve bundle, massaging it with the flat of her tongue, alternating that with short licks and sucking it, moaning right into it when she heard the noises come out of Kendall

Kendall: Kendall wanted to do something to wipe the smirk off Cara's face but she knew she'd have to wait before she could do her revenge. She opened her legs more to give Cara more space but nothing could prepare her for the blonde's tongue. It felt like heaven. Kenny was sure this was what heaven was like. "Fuck, babe...." She moaned rolling her hips wanting more, needing more of Cara. No one could make her feel like this just using their mouth so what was this that Cara was doing to her? Why did it have such impact on her? The brunette moaned louder feeling Cara moaning, it sent electricity throughout her body. "Fucking fuck.... feeels so good" She moaned out.

Cara: Cara's eyes rolled up to see Kendall's reaction. She had gone down on many guys and many girls, but nobody had ever given her this amount of satisfaction. She continued to lick at her clitoris, alternating a quick and gentle bite here and there since she knew how much Kendall liked it when it hurt. With her mouth still attacking at her clit, the brit took her middle finger and teased at her rim for a second before slipping it in, moaning at how tight she felt. "Baby, you're so tight" She said with a short moan when she pulled out due to mere lack of breath, curling her finger once before taking it out and pushing it strongly back in again, starting to pick up a steady pace and having two fingers of her free hand replace her lips and rubbing on her clit.

Kendall: Kenny closed her eyes, her mind filled with only Cara and how she was making her feel. This wasn't the first time someone went down on her but what Cara was doing to her felt so much better than ever before. "You need to loosen me up... fuck" She groaned feeling Cara's fingers inside her. Her clit was pulsing and Kenny tugged on the blonde's hair to jsut have something to do, something to hold onto and pull. Her eyes rolled back witht he amount of pleasure she was getting, her breathing getting shallow with how intense everything felt for her. "you're so fucking good, Cara, i'd let you do this to me over and over again" She moaned out her name a bit louder feeling her fingers rubbing her clit harder. "You can be rougher"

Cara: A groan escaped Cara's throat as she felt Kendall tugging on her hair, biting on her lower lip and looking up at her. "Fuck yeah I'm gonna... Shit you're so beautiful" She said, looking at the way an incredibly naked Kendall Jenner was writhing around on a bed and she was the one getting the sounds and spasms out of her. She herself was making this happen, and it was driving her crazy. Taking her fingers out of her, the Brit was quick to replace them with her mouth once more, exploring the whole scene before letting her tongue tease her hole and slowly slide in and out of it, taking one hand to roughly rub on her clitoris once more, trying to make her feel as good as possible. "Fuck, baby" She said, pulling away from her and instantly ramming two fingers inside of her, this time being a bit more rough "Say my name... Say my fucking name" She said, looking up at her, right into her eyes, as she took her breast up in her mouth once more.

Kendall: Kendall was feeling incredible. Not only because it had been a while since she had sex but because Cara seemed to know just exactly what to do to make her go crazy. Switching from mouth to fingers to mouth again was becoming too much, the brunette wasn't sure just how long she'd be able to handle all of this.  Her legs tried to close in but Cara being there made it impossible. With her free hand Kendall grabbed the sheets under her as her eyes rolled back in with how much pleasure this was bringing her. The girl didn't want it to end but at the same time she needed the release. "Cara.. fuck.... Cara" She obeyed and moaned the blonde's name a bit louder each time as her orgasm was building up. "I won't... fuck... won't last long" She managed to get out with moans interrupting her every time.

Cara: Cara's eyes, now a deep shade of blue, didn't steer away from Kendall's face. They way it changed from one second to the other was incredible, but what was even better what that she was the one making her feel this way and flipping the switch with a move of her fingers or a flick of the tongue. How she moaned her name out, screaming, it was turning Cara on to an unfamiliar degree, the Brit moaned out herself, her hands still at work and her mouth pressing kisses over her pelvis. "Come for me, Kenny, be a good girl" She said, curling both her fingers inside of her to get to the sweet spot inside of her, going back to attacking her clitoris with her tongue to try and get her best friend over the edge.

Kendall: Kenny knew she wouldn't be able to hold it off much longer, the pleasure was overwhelming. She felt Cara everywhere, all over her body that it was impossible to control her own body and not squirm as much. "You..." She groaned when Cara told her to come and after a few minutes she did. She reached her orgasm with a loud moan of Cara's name on her lips, her whole body writhing with how intense it was. Her heart was beating  so fast and for a while she just laid there in a state of total bliss as she was trying to calm down, the orgasm completely wearing her off. "You're so fucking good. Come here, wanna kiss you" She looked at her friend with a big grin on her face, wanting to stay in this moment for a while.

Cara: She made the most beautiful noises when she came, and Cara couldn't get enough of them. Hearing her name vibrating all over the room, the model kept her fingers going to help Kendall ride her orgasm out gently, slipping out one finger before the other, then pressing soft kisses over her pelvis, then kissing a line up her stomach and between her breasts before reaching her lips and kissing her. This time without any urgency, like they had all the time in the world. Her elbow was supporting her weight over Kendall's body, the hand going straight for her hair and the other one going around her naked waist to bring her closer before falling onto her side, taking a deep breath "Fucking hell, I wasn't wrong when I thought you'd be an absolute freak in the sheets, babe"

Kendall: The model never thought being with another girl could bring her so much pleasure and overwhelm her the way it did. Feeling Cara's lips on her again, she moaned softly into her mouth, tasting herself on her tongue but she didn't mind it at all. The compliment made Kenny's face break into a huge since she knew her friend had been with other men and women in bed so hearing that she was good for her made her feel so good about herself. Kendall rolled to her side letting her hand roam around Cara's side as she looked into her eyes deeply. "You're so fantastic in sex" She smiled leaning in to kiss her as her hand slipped into Cara's panties feeling how wet she had become too. "Fuck, babe, you're so wet. Want me to take care of you? I have a feeling you taste really fucking good."

Cara: Cara smiled when Kendall did, fuck she had such a beautiful smile, it was entrancing. Seeing her fall onto her side, the Brit slipped a hand over her waist, resting on her hip gently, as if she needed the physical contact with her. The feeling of Kendall's hand going down south and into her knickers made Cara moan quietly, her eyes closing automatically "Uh... Oh God, Kenny" She panted quietly "I don't... If you want to... Fuck" Her mind started to fail her.

Kendall: Kendall just smirked as she curled a finger inside Cara, her eyes never leaving her friend's. She didn't know what she was exactly supposed to do but she figured if she did something wrong, Cara would lead her into the right direction. The brunette lifted Cara's shirt and got her breast out of the bra leaning in to swipe her tongue around it. It had been the first time for her but she didn't find it weird, on the contrary she very much enjoyed it. "Tell me if I do something wrong" She said smiling when her fingers found her clit so she made circles on it to pleasure the blonde.

Cara: Cara let a loud, deep moan out of her throat when she felt Kendall's finger, her eyes rolling back and her hand fisting the bed cover "Bloody hell" She said between pants, feeling her friend explore in her pants. The brunette's tongue on her breast felt incredible, as if she needed any more stimulation, getting Kendall all riled up had gotten her even more riled up, and this wasn't helping her at all. "I'll... Oh God, you're doing great Ken.. Just.. Oh right there" She whimpered, forcing her hip to have her finger hit over her clit, getting a quiet moan out of her.

Kendall: Seeing Cara writhing under her got Kendall going harder on her, she sucked and licked over her nipple, the taste  of her friend was something she never experienced before. She moved onto the other breast for a while getting hungrier for Cara, wanting to taste absolutely everything of her. As she lost her patience, Kenny almsot ripped the panties down Cara's body, getting in between her legs hoping she'd do at least decent to get Cara over the edge. Her fingers were still inside Cara when she placed kisses all over her lower abdomen, going lower with each kiss until she reached her folds. She gave her a kitten lick just to have a taste and what a surprise she got there. "Fuck, you taste so yummy" She moaned wit her lips attached to Cara's sex, licking her some more and sucking on hre clit.

Cara: Cara's eyes rolled backwards when Kendall got a bit more gutsy, she clearly liked what she was doing, and it only did more to drive the Brit crazy. Biting on her lower lip to stifle a moan, but failing miserably, she rolled her hips against her hands again, getting a second, much quieter noise out of her mouth. "Kenny... Fuck" She said between pants, biting on her lower lip as she saw her go down and get between her legs. She hadn't been with many girls who hadn't been with girls, so she wasn't really expecting much, but as a woman, one always kinda knew what she liked to get done, and fuck Kendall really liked it because the moment she felt her mouth on her folds and then deeper, she felt herself tie a knot in her stomach, one wanting to untie itself and come undone in ten seconds. She pushed herself to keep steady, looking down at Kendall and smiling at her "Yeah... Oh, just like that baby"

Kendall: Exploring this new side of herself and her best friend, Kendall knew she wouldn't regret this the morning after. She couldn't have when Cara showed her the other side of sex which she found herself enjoying so much. She only went by her instinct and she she loved being done to her so when she'd hear the blonde moan, she couldn't help but smirk against her skin. She sucked on her some more, licking between her folds and pushing her tongue in and out like Cara had done to her few moments ago. "Come on, babe, don't hold it in, so what if someone hears us?" She worked her fingers inside Cara faster and harder, picking up the pace to pleasure the Brit more. She didn't think she'd ever get tired of tasting her but she wanted for Cara to get the release like she did so she did her best with her mouth and fingers inside her.

Cara: Cara moaned quietly, trying to breathe evenly, but with everything Kendall was doing, it was starting to be impossible to control herself. Her free hand now went to her breasts, taking her nipple between her fingers and playing with it while the other hand went from the sheets to getting messed up in Kendall's face between her thighs. "Fuck.. Baby, yes" She moaned, louder this time with Kendall's incentive, her hips matching the thrusting of her fingers "Kendall... Kendall fuck, I'm really close, Kenny" She said between quiet whimpers, biting on her lower lip and looking down at her.

Kendall: Kendall was pretty much lost in trying to pleasure Cara as much as she deserved, not wanting to disappoint the older girl so she just worked her fingers inside Cara more, hoping it would be enough for her to get the much needed release. Hearing that the blonde was close made Kenny only go faster, warking her fingers faster while she sucked on Cara's clit as if it was the last thing to do on earth. It turned her on to see the reaction she was getting from her friend but right now her priority was Cara and the focus was all on her. She hummed against her sex to get her more stimulated with vibrations.

Cara: She knew this wasn't gonna last long, and the moment Kendall sped up her fingers, that's when she broke down and felt herself let go all over her fingers "Kendall" A moan coloured by her name fell over the Brit's lips, her eyes rolling behind her head with pleasure, her hips moving slowly as she rested her back against the bed and panting, feeling herself come back to life and look down at the pretty brunette between her thighs "Welcome to being a lesbian 101, you just aced your admissions test, flying colours" She joked, still panting a little bit "Come here, babe"

Kendall: The second she felt Cara coming, Kenny sucked in all the juices, getting the real taste of her friend and god was that addicting. She licked her clean before putting her fingers in her mouth one by one to lick them off too. "So fucking good" She moned reaching up and laid over her friend. "Flying colours and all?" She smirked leaning in to kiss her passionately, letting Cara taste herself on Kendall's tongue. "This was so good, babe. I fucking loved this. We should do it more often" She smirked against Cara's lips, still not wanting to burst their bubble, making out with Cara was something she'd love to repeat.

Cara: Cara groaned when she saw Kendall lick her fingers, rolling her eyes "Stop it, you're so fucking hot" She said with a smile, wrapping her arms tightly around the brunette when she came up, kissing her lips passionately and holding her close. "You liked it? How was your first experience getting eaten out by a girl?" She asked, bumping her nose with Kendall's briefly

Kendall: "You're the hot one here, babe" She smiled, it seemed that them having sex didn't change their dynamics, at least not for the worse. "Didn't you hear me screaming? It was amazing, thank you. You really are fantastic in bed." Kenny pecked her lips softly. "Is it bad if I say I wouldn't mind us doing this again? Like not just once?" She asked shyly burying her face in Cara's neck and left few kisses there.

Cara: Cara's smile broadened up, looking down at Kendall "Well yeah, but I haven't heard you getting done by lads, so I had to ask. I've got to admit though, to hear you moan is a thing I love and I never thought I'd hear, but I'm glad I did" She said. Hearing Kendall say she wanted to do it again had her eyebrows flying up, her arms tightening around her waist and her lips kissing over her head of hair "Babe, you were incredible, I'm sure I wouldn't say no to having you heated up all over my bed under me ever"

Kendall: "Really?" Kendall grinned as the compliment made her feel so proud of herself, so happy she was able to satisfy her best friend so much. "Under you?" She smirked, knowing herself the brunette was sure she'd fight for the dominance pretty soon, when she feels more comfortable taking the control. "Why haven't we done this sooner? I feel like kidnapping you to have you all to myself for few days"  The model chuckled tucking a strand of hair behind Cara's ear. "You look so pretty after orgasm, look at yourself."

Cara: Cara looked at her with endearing eyes, her lips meeting hers for a quick kiss "Yeah, really" She said with a short laugh, pulling her closer to her with a cuddle. "We haven't done this because we're been busy with fucking boys who are dickheads. A girl always knows best" She said with a cheeky smirk, leaning in to kiss her cheek once and then work her way to her neck, prepping it with short, butterfly kisses "I think you look even better, Kenny, look at you" She said, pulling away and admiring her naked body "You look like a goddess and I can't believe I just had you"

Kendall: "They really are for not appreciating us how we deserve" Kenny smiled feeling she was even closer to Cara now. Sure they were always best friends but after having sex Kendall felt their connections was even deeper now. "Babe, youre' the goddess one here, I can't believe you've let me have you like that" Kenny smiled connecting their lips once more. "Do you wanna go to sleep? Do you want me to go home?" She asked pulling away and looking into her eyes not really sure what she was supposed to do. They were besties yes, but they never did something like this.

Cara: Cara smiled and looked down at Kendall "I've been begging to have you like this for years, you only just picked it up now" She said with a laugh. Her smile turned into a serious expression though, as soon as Kendall spoke again "Are you mental? You're not going home, not after this" She said, kissing her softly "You're staying here with me, I like to cuddle" She said, pulling the brunette towards her

Kendall: "I just thought you were joking." Kenny felt better now that she knew Cara didn't want to send her home straight after. She cuddled up to her best friend, wrapping her amrs around Cara's waist. They have done this a lot, cuddloing was always a must when they had sleepovers so they had perfected sleeping in this position. "I won't promise I won't go down on you when we wake up" She winked.

Cara: Cara accomodated Kendall's head over her chest, pressing a kiss over her temple and smiling "Hey, I wont' complain about that... Just please, promise me you won't regret this tomorrow morning" She said with a sigh

Kendall: "I won't." Kendall looked into Cara's eyes, all serious now. "Yes, we have started this while being drunk but along the way I've sobered up and I don't regret this. I liked making you mine and wouldn't mind if someday we repeat it. I promise" She smiled searing it with a kiss.

Cara: "Good" She said, short and sweet, before kissing her softly and cuddling her closer, letting her eyes seal up before drifting to sleep