#watching NC's atla reviews made me want to write something lol

[manaani]

this is pointless I know lol

I’m like, very emotional person, probably more so than a lot other people. So I cry somewhat easily I guess.

I tried to think of scenes where it happens even after I’ve already seen the scene once because sometimes the scene doesn’t make me cry a second time.

For example that one scene in Marineford arc (one piece) it gets me EVERY TIME like I absolutely CAN’T watch that scene without crying and it’s not just teary eyes it’s like face red eyes puffy gotta blow your nose kinda sobbing. And another is in Dressrosa, (the tragic end of Law’s flashback) the anime just had to pick the most heartbreaking OST to play during it like it just grabs my heart and punches it repeatedly wtf. And of course the “I wanna live!” moment though the other two hit even harder because they’re just SO UNFAIR while this one is more of a happy moment. Oh and when Brook is like “I’m so glad I’m alive” while bawling is like jeez I feel like when characters do the whole stuff like I love being alive I love life I want to live it gets me.

So in hxh... I rewatched it with my friend, and also rewatched some parts myself. When I watched it with my friend, her attitude kinda made me the mood very different than when I watched it alone (since she hated the ants and made it very clear every five seconds) so I feel like my own experience was like, a bit deeper. I hold back a bit obviously when someone else watches with me (not with one piece tho since she cries as well).

We continued it from Greed Island... I don’t think I ever cried in hxh before Chimera ant arc? I felt bad for Killua and Kurapika (moreso with Kurapika, since I could really feel the pain and loneliness he felt during Yorkshin arc, it was really moving; feeling really bad for Killua comes later). But the Kurapika stuff is different and makes me feel upset but not cry. I know if Kurapika would breakdown and cry at some point I would definitely cry as well.

The scenes that stood out to me as in having me in tears in Chimera ant arc, was the obvious choice (Meruem and Komugi death), the girl reuniting with her mom (I think the music was beautiful) , Killua’s breakdown to Palm about Gon really got me honestly? Like when crying is animated well and you can hear the desperation and pain in the voice it really gets me. It reminds me of when Zuko apologised to Iroh which was another moment like that done very well. I just really, really like seeing characters at their most vulnerable and this is what happened with Killua and the reason why it touched me, especially since it got him off guard as well. And then there is the biggest offender aka the ending of the fight with Pitou like to me that’s the moment that probably got me the most and I’m not sure why. Because like, when I was listening to the soundtracks I started crying at the OST that played during this scene like whaaat? Like if I’m not already crying before, it’s when Gon says “it’s okay” and Killua gets that look (like holy shit the animation during this part is something else) that it finally hits like it KILLS me. It probably doesn’t do that for many people, idk it’s probably more like shocking and WTF moment to a lot of other people, but to me that’s the part that fucks me up like the animation the music the narrator everything is just UGH. Everything that comes outta Gon’s mouth just makes it more sad. And I don’t know why the narrator explaining about how Pitou’s corpse sole purpose is to kill Gon just adds to the sadness?? And I don’t just mean Gon I mean Pitou as well. And then Gon goes all “it’s time for you to go sleep as well” (in which he obviously means both Pitou and himself) I’m like thanks Satan. About Meruem and Komugi, I actually didn’t cry anymore when I was watching it with my friend, but I’m not sure if it’s her attitude that kinda gave me a different “feel” when watching this arc. I mean I didn’t bawl at Killua either this time tho I think I still got a bit teary-eyed. But the Pitou corpse Gon Killua sad moment still had me in tears I guess it’s these personal things where some moment just gets you for some reason?

In Election arc I did cry too, both scenes were of course between Killua and Alluka. First is when Alluka asks if everything was better if she was gone and when Killua asks her if she was sad if only he loved her in the whole world and he gets this look like you can see the love ooze from him and it’s so sweet and touching to me. Second is of course the whole hugging Alluka/Nanika and apologising.