#was considering make a shitty meme edit that was like 'my blog look like this 'post referenced' so they can look like this 'eeeeey 😎'

[krockat]

(sees my own post on my dash) eeeeey 😎

heyy bud what canni say. you got good stuff in that brain and also big heart a' yours.

good for me that i snagged mutualship w u b4 u grew bigger huh?

n hey - always glad to give ye that sunglasses smirk coded confidence

[technoxenoholic]

so, to make this announcement brief: my creative pursuits of any kind, art or analysis or anything else, will no longer be available on tumblr. i've already deleted all of my most easy to find art posts. i plan to search for and delete other posts as i find the spoons.

DO NOT try to reblog my things to archive them. i want them REMOVED from tumblr, so if you're reading this please DELETE your reblogs of any of my creative posts (you can save any that speak to you, but under no circumstances may you reupload them, not even the memes and funny edits). i still have all the original files, i'm also saving any relevant commentary, and i will re-upload things that i'm still proud of when i can, on another platform.

(very likely pillowfort, maybe also neocities? likely NOT cohost because its approach to privacy features and interaction-hiding look like an unhealthy environment for me. bluesky and waterfall are not even worth considering and i have no interest in the fediverse/mastodon/etc.)

yes, i'm aware there's a new option to prevent third-party sharing, and yes, i've enabled it for all of my blogs, including old, dead group blogs and password-locked archives. i'm not removing my creative works from tumblr to protect them. i'm doing it as a form of protest.

tumblr has made it crystal clear they don't actually give a fuck about artists. until they start giving a fuck about artists again, all the people who made this platform what it is—fanartists, painters, sketch artists, writers, poets, comic artists, voice actors, storytellers, gif makers, editors, photographers, musicians, comedians, and everyone i might have missed—tumblr doesn't get to host my art anymore. they've lost that privilege.

i myself am not leaving tumblr. let me make that clear: only my art is leaving. i intend to stick around and boost their "blogs we can't share with our shitty ai partners" numbers LONG after i stop posting commentary here.

[rpbetter]

Raven used to be my friend but I had to cut ties recently due to feeling like walking on eggshells everytime we spoke and they never apologized to me for when I brought up something that they did upset me. I really miss them but I don't want to deal with the if it's not about me I don't care attitude.

Pt 2 of Ravens old friend. They reblogged anti fandom posts on their resource blog and I happened to be in that fandom and it hurt. A resource blog shouldn't be doing that.

Hey, Anon! I wanted to post this before I released one of my drafts, as that draft happens to be something I do not want you to misconstrue being about you. Thought about it after the fact and honestly, felt a bit ill over potentially making you think any such thing! The post is about how pushy people can be about what they like (usually as regards fandom) that you don't, and how that can be a contributing factor toward people saying hateful things about fandom topics. It was the quickest of the finished drafts sitting around to edit, so it was being queued, that's all! I do not think you were being pushy about your likes to "deserve" this, and frankly, even if you had? One's meme/resource/help blog is not the venue for shitting on your friends.

Okay, just wanted to clarify, everyone is stressed and feeling judged enough, I don't want to inadvertently contribute to that with any drafted posts!

I'm really sorry this happened, Anon. I don't mean that in a passing, flippant way that looks good on my blog. Not that I mean anything that way lol but I frequently have had "friends" in the past who felt like it was totally fine to reblog, even make original posts, like what you're talking about. Anti-fandom, anti my part of the fandom, my muses, my takes, and so on. Really hurtful things when we'd spoken in DMs about how upsetting it was, then they go and throw full support behind it in front of me.

It would be irritating with a grain of betrayal if it was a friend of a shorter time, or a mutual one doesn't really interact with OOC, but with a closer or longtime friend, it's actively hurtful. It feels like they looked you right in the face, said they do not give a single shit about either what is important to you or sparing your feelings, and went on. Yeah, it's just fiction, but the way we treat each other over fiction is real.

Given the behaviors displayed openly, it's not a shock you received no apology. Whether you got an apology or not, though, good on you for trying to bring it up to them! It's hard to do that with friends, even ones you're more certain won't blow up at you for it. I think if we could all be a little more (calmly, nicely, reasonably) open with each other like this, we could avoid problems that result from things festering and piling up, but it's hard to take that step...and I'm sorry this was your reward for it.

Just as blogs that are not one's RP or personal blogs shouldn't be openly judging and hating fandoms like that, friends shouldn't leave you feeling like you're walking on eggshells.

And, I'm going to say something unpopular here - sometimes, we all are capable of doing that to people we care about. Bad moments in lives combine, there are misunderstandings, sensitive topics, and things we can't entirely control otherwise. I don't like this idea tumblr has that anything other than a perfect, sweet, forever-cheery relationship is the actual height of abuse, so I want to be clear on that because it's just trivializing and blinding people to the possibility of toxic and abusive interactions. When you think "toxic" means "they don't like x, I love x, we don't talk about it," you're not aware of legitimate signs like being too worried to be yourself around them.

It's when this is the typical, established behavior that it's a problem. It's when there's never any meaningful acknowledgment, apology, or attempt at changing that it's a problem. If you constantly feel like you have to be worried about what a friend is going to say or do, it's not a friendship you need to be in, and I'm glad you recognized that and got out of it!

But there's also the idea that this is easy because it's the right and logical choice. It is not, and it's often made even harder because admitting to other friends that you miss the good times with the former one is all but impossible. They're often only reacting out of concern for you, the fear that if you miss this person they watched hurt you, you'll go back to that friendship, but it effectively shuts down a more healthy way of dealing with your feelings by sharing them with better friends who could support you.

So, Anon, it's also fully alright and normal to miss Raven! They were a longtime friend, and the thing about these kinds of friendships, these kinds of relationships in general, is that we seem to fail to realize that if things were straight awful from day one, we'd not have been friends. Of course, there are memories! Of course, you have the impulse to send them a link or that meme you know is their humor! It doesn't stop for a long time, either. That doesn't mean you're fucked up for it, it's something to be ashamed of, or that you're going to drop your better judgment and go send Raven a message immediately and rekindle that friendship. It's okay!

This right here: "I don't want to deal with the if it's not about me I don't care attitude." This is the place you should be in, and I congratulate you on being there because it takes a lot of shit heaped on someone by a friend to get there. Just keep remembering the good things you experienced with them, but always with this in mind, that their end of the friendship appears to have been predicated upon what they were getting out of it only.

Case in point, like everything they displayed to the whole damn RPC that encountered them these last few months, their personal interest and viewpoint was of greater importance to them with that anti-fandom post than a friend was.

I will say, it can be a delicate thing having this blog. I have opinions and takes that most of my friends share, what's important to me tends to run in the same lines as what is important to them, that's the basis of a lot of our friendship. We still disagree! We still have different interests, fandoms, favorite characters, songs, and experiences. Sometimes, I have to address a problem that they could misconstrue, in a totally normal and reasonable way, because while they're not doing whatever in a bad way, others are. I've made a point, more than once, to contact them and talk about it a little preemptively, and that's not just to keep up friendships, it also allows for extra insight from them and better phrasing from me so that other people I don't know won't take it the wrong way either.

Yes, I have some immutable, incredibly hard lines lol I think we all know what most of them are now, but expressing my purely personal opinion on something like fandom is not more important on this blog than anything else. I may genuinely feel like there is diseased connective tissue of disappointing behavior stemming from an origin point in a popular fandom, I'm not going to go off about it on this blog. It's inappropriate as hell, going to make people feel isolated and targeted whether they're my friends or not. Being passionately displeased about that does not have place here, and that's the kind of thing you have to consider, reconsider, force yourself to shut up about when you've got a blog that isn't for RP or a personal, you know?

I don't think everyone is cut out for doing that, and no one is cut out for doing it without ever making a mistake in judgment. Some people really should simply realize that there is nothing wrong with not being in the place in their lives or mental health to put that much effort into being fair or being quiet and concentrating only on memes. If you're one of those people, random reader? I'm serious, it's okay if you can't do it! It's not shameful, I'm also a deeply flawed human being, the quietest, politest, helpful meme blog out there is also run by a flawed human, they're just at a different place with themselves than you are. And. That's. Okay. Just don't hurt other people (and yourself, ultimately) by forcing it, please.

I suppose, knowing that it wasn't important enough to chill and reevaluate for the sake of a friend is some consolation lol what one won't do for friends definitely won't be done for random muns deemed problematic. So, maybe that'll make some other people out there feel a little better, and I thank you for sharing...as much as I wish you had nothing of this experience to share. I know it's an unpleasant one to have had, and I hope you have much better friends!

I promise you that I'll never post anything here that is viciously against any particular fandom or any such thing, and that if you feel like I've been unfair about anything at all, I welcome polite messages as a way of discussing it so we can all be clear and/or learn from each other. I know, I openly admit, it's kind of a draw of the blog, that I have a...um, tone of salt about things lol and sometimes, I don't phrase things the way they deserved. So, it's always okay to drop in for clarification or counterpoint, so long as it isn't being done with a shitty attitude that incites hostilities. Let's do have a legitimate conversation about it instead of hurt feelings!

Thanks again, Anon!

[acrispyapple]

why do you watermark official pics that aren't yours? i'm honestly shocked cybird hasn't had you banned for dcma laws + spoiling paid stories and epilogues, but you do you. you made it so i never have to pay money for any of the cybird games + mlqc. also i read why you aren't posting the sprites which is cool and all but you shouldn't be posting game elements either way. that's super shitty of you to do because spoiler THE ARTWORK ISN'T YOURSSSSSSS. the pic of victor on your twitter isnt yours 2

heya! i’ve already answered an ask like this recently and ignored the follow up ones because i don’t really wanna keep repeating myself. but since you’re very persistent and it’s still the same thing, here i go! putting under a cut because it’s long and has images – with stuff written on them! dun dun dunnnn (¯▿¯)

to start things, i’m the wrong person to accuse of being irresponsible with my posts because i’m very mindful of posting etiquette. have you not seen all my campaigns about not stealing from artists, from blogs, etc. i ask for permission for everything, even for random text i want to translate from someone’s post. even for cosplay i’ve seen other people freely post, i always go to the source and ask. i hope my answer clarifies things for you because i don’t really wanna have to repeat it again! (*^^*)♡

re: watermarks (complaint mostly about mlqc because i don’t really do it for cybird)

re: cybird

i’m not exactly a hidden secret blog, so i’m pretty sure cybird is well aware of me. plus, they’ve left comments on my blog in the past. sooo, there’s nothing shocking about it at all! maybe what’s shocking is you somehow expected cybird to not have noticed my blog all these years. do you actually know what the digital millennium copyright act covers? (dmca not dcma btw) as long as i know how to read and understand rules and i’m always within its boundaries, there’s nothing being violated. always post obstructed cgs / never full, snippets of 10 for screenies, never in consecutive order, etc. you should read the rules tbh, you seem unfamiliar with it. ☆

re: you never having to pay money for any cybird game

again, snippets = not full stories. everyone can post snippets. paid or not. that’s so weird that you feel you don’t need to pay for ~any cybird game~ anymore because of my blog. i haven’t been consistently posting paid content for so long. even ikesen epilogues. because i don’t have the time. and i’ve skipped posting a couple of events on my blog too. i don’t post ikerev / midcin consistently either. i’ve posted from two ikevam events in the past months with epilogue snippets. i guess you only played those? that’s hardly everything. nice attempt at creating an issue about me making cybird lose money tho! for someone who thinks i do dodgy things, you sure do like reading from my blog– if what you’re saying is true. but you seem to not know my blog content either. (⌒_⌒;)

i have another answer for this from an ask from 9 months ago:

re: not paying for mlqc

they allow posting everything from their game, i even verified with their team! but even i don’t have the time or post slot to post everything from it. i mostly post about victor soooo, i guess that’s everything you need to know about mlqc then? yay for you only needing victor! ♡

re: game elements

what?

anyway, moving forward to my twitter header:

it’s from this post i made, where i screenied scenes (and edited them a bit to look brighter and prettier) from the pv of the new chapters in the ch version.

now, i just put my username there as a marker and it was already covered in the first part of this ask. (how it helps me keep track of my posts, helps me when people are able to identify it’s from my blog and alert me of it being posted elsewhere, etc.) but i wanted to show it even clearer so you can finally let go of whatever it is you’re burning with. ( ˙▿˙ )

it just says acrispyapple on this screenie i took (that’s right, it’s just a screenshot lmao), it’s a random word or name. i made it small and inconspicuous so it wouldn’t distract from the image. the weibo watermark is bigger and clearer but i don’t use it– i can, but i don’t. when people see it, they know it’s official art and that’s it. there’s no “made by acrispyapple™©®”

(thanks for visiting my twitter btw! it doesn’t really have a lot of followers haha)

sooo, there’s weibo and its automatic watermarks (location can be changed).

“damn, all the users on weibo are claiming stuff as their own!!!! it’s not just a marker that a certain thing was posted from a certain blog!!! they’re claiming it as theirs even tho it’s clearly very easy to see that it’s one of many free-for-all official images!!!” (≧◡≦)

and i’ve seen people use the cards as banners for fanfics and other stuff, or even memes where they put random stuff on it like this:

but writing a random word on it, just because you know my blog is somehow a great sin? it’s not even acrispyapple.tumblr.com ✿

would it maybe make you feel better if it wasn’t just acrispyapple? i can use random words and it’ll still serve as a marker for me lmao

anyway anon, it pays to actually listen and read before you get mad and accuse. i’m not breaking any rules and i’m very much aware of what’s not allowed and what’s allowed. (^ ^*)♡

edit:

i kinda like it. (^◔ᴥ◔^)

side note: if you have a vendetta against me, you’re free to have one. but please don’t try to make stuff up just to yell at me. you can hate me quietly from afar or just avoid me altogether. or if you want to find a reason to yell at me, at least try to educate yourself about what you’re planning on yelling at me about. it’ll save me time trying to explain stuff! i also don’t like wasting my post slots for the day. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

i would suggest looking at my actual content first, so your lack of knowledge of it doesn’t give you away. also, try asking yourself if you really think cybird’s en team would miss me after all these years and if you’re somehow the only enlightened one who can see all my ~misgivings~? are you aware of mlqc’s rules?

it’s funny because i’m not even close to covering everything for mlqc and there are blogs that cover far more than i do. i answer a lot of asks (i wish asks were paid content, as in i get paid to answer asks), but game content-wise, i’m faaaar from covering everyone. unless you really consider victor the whole game (♡). in which case i’m still missing his ch11 and ch19 screenies and one date. oh and the recent rumors&secrets! if you take a look at my posts, it’s mostly announcements, asks, fanart, general info, avatar posts, etc. i think you blindly went in with salt. ( ˙▿˙ )

i don’t really interact with people unless i have to talk about reposts and fanart-related stuff. i also just talk about games on my blog. so i don’t know what i could’ve done to merit your hatred. maybe you dislike that i ask for basic courtesy or that i enforce rules given to me by artists? i’m always polite tho. hmm, mystery-desu! ✩‧₊˚

[cavaliant]

😍, 🌛, 🍁for all of them :Y

munday meme // multimuse edition

😍 which muse is the biggest heart breaker

You would think it’d be Fergus or Beowolf, but it’s actually Diarmuid. Unintentionally, but he’s still left quite a few admirers sighing over his continued lack of romantic pursuits. He’s sweet, well-mannered, responsible, basically the perfect boy-next-door except he’s also a prince with the Charm skill and I feel like this would have quite a few village girls (and boys, and whoever) falling for him pretty easily. Particularly while he’s working as an Agustrian diplomat and makes it a point to walk around town a lot and really get to know the people of the country. 

Unfortunately for them, in my canonverse Diarmuid never settles down with anyone and just remains the single, doting uncle figure for his friends’ kids. While I think he can feel romantic love, it’s not a thing he thinks about a lot and he’s perfectly happy with platonic love. (Incidentally, he has no predestined matches in 2nd gen Genealogy, all his love growths with the girls start at 0.)

🌛 which muse is the biggest dreamer

Diarmuid again maybe? He’s the youngest of my muses and also the most optimistic, trusting, and hopeful. He knows the world is a shitty place and that it takes a lot of hard work to change things, and he’s willing to put in the work to achieve that. Still, he’d like for the world to be a better place, and he’d like believe the best in people, and things would be so much easier if people were kind to each other but they aren’t and so??? He wants to change that.

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{Last question under cut because I rambled lol}

🍁 what inspired you to write/create (specify muse)

I’m gonna list these in the order I added them…

Reinhardt: started using him in Heroes like ‘who dis’, found him useful, read up on his story and game and fell deep into liking him and also Jugdral hell, became friends with someone else who also loved him and we fed each others’ thirst with drawings back and forth. Was creeping nonpareiltactician’s blog one day when I saw a bribe pool for a Reinhardt and after about a month of waffling decided to take the plunge and dive into the FE RP comm. Haven’t regretted it since ᕕ( ᐛ )ᕗ

Fred: I don’t actually remember exactly, but he’s part of Olwen’s (and by extension Reinhardt’s kind of) character arc and so he popped up sometimes when I was looking up the Dire Sibs. I really admired his spirit and will and wanted to give him some love I guess? I felt bad for him being described as just ordinary all the time (also it is damn hard to find fanart of him, all you ever see here is Frederick art if you search for Fred…).

Machyua: I’d briefly considered adding her before because I’d been looking at more Thracia charas to add but dismissed the idea because she had so little dialogue/art/info (like everyone else in Thracia lmao…) Then caraidean was like “Ced probably has a bit of a crush on Machyua” and I was like damn…I was considering her…so that happened lol.

Fergus: Light (clericallis) and Kris (herousanimarum) and I were talking about the ‘no homo’ meme and I was lamenting the fact that my muses were all too serious to say those things (and were all really serious in general). Thus I searched Thracia for a less serious character and bam, Fergus was added (I’m not joking that’s literally the reason lmfao). Though Reinhardt ended up being the one answering those meme asks lol. Fergus’ first act on this blog was to…make puns about the dick saga (and then to get immediately chewed out by Karin. Wild).

Diarmuid and Beowolf: These two are combined because I added them at the same time. I really wanted to flesh out Fergus’ relationships with his family members and build up more solid characterizations for them in my mind, so I was just sitting around wishing someone would pick those two up but to no avail… I ended up looking more into their info and reading metas/fic and also the rest of the Blondshell Squad kept saying to just give in and accept my blond destiny. So here they are ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ 

I’m not gonna thread with myself or anything but I can make the family speak to each other now and I get to portray their relationship with my own headcanons whatever way I want. I actually expected to have a harder time writing Beo than I do? Since there’s less material about him. I definitely didn’t expect him to take over my blog. Like Fergus, he’s just a lot of fun to write because the two of them basically have no filter lmao.

[spuriusbrocoli]

I'm not straight at all and I don't get most of your posts about being LGBT vs. being straight?

So I presume you’re talking about this post that I made as well as… another one. Which I’ll talk about later.

Basically, this post is about how I have an irrational association between my experiences as a queer person (nonbinary mlm is a pretty accurate label, I think) and my experience raising my pets. And I know that this association between my queerness and my pets is entirely imagined; I draw attention to the fact that it wasn’t logical in the post.

(bolding edited in here)

I can’t imagine how heterosexuals do pet-rearing.

Like, I got my first cat at the same time as I did my first live-in boyfriend, and then we got my first dog where we were the primary caregivers to the dog as opposed to our parents.

As a result, the emotions of my overwhelming queerness and the emotions associated with raising my sons (i.e., the cat and dog) are probably more intertwined than is logical. And when I see cishets with pets I’m just like “¿¿¿¿¿¿¿???????? the straights aren’t allowed to do that”.

The point of this post is “Hey, I have this weird association that doesn’t make any sense! Isn’t that funny?” I know straight people can have pets; I was in fact raised by two straight people with pets. That’s part of the joke (that straight people can have pets, not that my parents in specific did). The punchline is supposed to be me and the inherent absurdity of my reaction to seeing straight people with pets, because, again, straight people can and do raise pets and everyone knows this including myself which is the entire joke.

Like, I did actively call attention to that fact in the post. I’m kind of at a loss as to how to make my posts more unambiguously facetious. Maybe I could tag it as “#jowak” to let audiences know that I’m kidding, but I tagged The One Post as “#rant”, and it didn’t do shit, so idk.

But anyway, let’s talk about The One Post, shall we?

On the third-and-twentieth of April, two-thousands-and-eighteen anno domini, according to Tumblr, I made a post that got… some attention.

Rather a lot of attention, actually.

My do these folks know how to make a girl blush.

Just so many lovely characters here…

And that’s without the reblogs (mostly more of the same, but editing out the usernames and profiles is a pain, so I’m not gonna bother).

Sot tldr: it got attention. Almost 5k notes’ worth of attention in fact. Yay me.

Now I will openly admit that the original is an incoherent rant. It’s all over the place, and if people missed the point, I’d understand. I considered addressing some of the legitimate points, but until now they had been too buried in the crap for me to really bother (though I will address some of the less-shitty vitriol here).

But enough talking about The One Post, let’s just read the whole unedited thing, shall we?

a straight girl will date anything vaguely male-shaped so long as its as cis and het as she is. istfg you could line up the handsomest butches who could eat her pussy for days or the most genteel bi boys who could top her from wall to wall of her tacky apartment, and she’ll still choose her broke, ugly trogolodyte boyfriend who thinks staring at her tits is foreplay and humping vaguely in her direction will get her to cum bc gay men are meant only to compliment her tasteless dress over brunch and lesbians are gross.

(whole thing can be found here as well)

So this post was actually inspired by two very specific neighbors. They had two dogs–Pluto and Coppernicus, whom my puppy was not allowed to socialize with. The two of them were actually kind of infamously unfriendly with everyone in the building, tbth. That’s neither here nor there, but it’s some context.

Anyway, I see this miserable woman while we’re both going in and out of the laundry room. She’s, like, decent-looking, but my type for women tends to err between butch and futch. And her husband/fiance/boyfriend/partner/whatever is real ugly. Like, a potential project for Queer Eye type: utter lack for clothing or basic skincare. Except he’s also an ass.

So I made a post that was mostly about how straight boys are ugly. And straight boys are kind of ugly. Bc we as a society code that sort of basic self-care as queer/feminine, which is the fault of no individual straight boy–and certainly not the fault of this one dude.

But as I was making the post, it kind of occurred to me that many straight women are not only complicit in this system, but they actively encourage it. Straight women do avoid men attracted to women–even straight men–if they seem “too effeminate”. So I went back and edited the post to be inclusive of queer men attracted to women.

Then it kind of occurred to me that attraction isn’t really perfectly binary to begin with and that we as humans are primarily attracted to features like how our potential partners conduct themselves and not really to abstract labels like “man” or “woman”. This isn’t to say that people aren’t attracted to people with any given label (there’s a big difference between men attracted to feminine women and men attracted to feminine men, for instance), but they aren’t coherent classes. And straight women are getting wise to this; look at this comic routine about a straight woman’s first time at a gay bar (yeah, it’s hardly scientific evidence, but this isn’t my fucking thesis). Hence why I went back again and edited in the butch comment.

So yeah, the result was an incoherent mess. And I can sort of understand how someone could read this post and think I was equating butches with straight men, which I do not want to do. Women, no matter how masculine, have a fundamentally less privileged position than men, and gnc women experience the intersectional oppressions of patriarchy and gender conformity. And if this all-over-the-place rant seems to be equivocating between cis and trans people’s experiences or men and butches’ to you, I get that. My wording was bad, and I should’ve done a reread. I’m sorry for that.

What I wasn’t expecting and am definitely not apologizing for is the influx of hatemail from straight people calling me a lesbian incel. And I know that it’s coming from straight people bc wlw would never call another wlw an incel bc the incel subculture is distinctly one rooted in the experiences of male entitlement to women’s bodies. And bc wlw are objectified like all women, they understand that the experiences of an entitled straight man are not equivalent to wlw who can’t find a partner bc of systemic issues that affect all women and especially sapphic women. (Or I hope that wlw have that level of understanding at least.) Or like, just listen to the original, mournful “Slow Dance” compared to the quietly negging “White Blank Page” or “Treat You Better”. (No shade against Mumford and Sons, but both of these examples show how jealous straight men tend to turn their lack of unrequited love at either the other man or at the object of his affection; Babeo Baggins is just sad.)

So given that I am (i) assigned male and male-aligned, (ii) attracted primarily to men, and (iii) in a happy relationship with a nonbinary person with a penis; the hatemail is rather ridiculous.

And that’s exactly what it is: hatemail. Reread through that shit, and it’s just utterly vitriolic. And I’m not gonna say my post wasn’t vitriolic in turn; it definitely was. But my faggot exasperation with straight dudes is not equivalent to the degree to which people on this site harass lesbians. And even if I were a lesbian who couldn’t get with a girl bc she had some ugly-ass boyfriend, that’s still no excuse to turn her personal, rambly post into a nearly 5,000 note meme.

So tldr: Leave lesbians tf alone.

Now to loop back to your original statement, dear Nonnie (I know it has a question-mark, but I read that as upspeak in this context and not a true question):

I’m not straight at all and I don’t get most of your posts about being LGBT vs. being straight?

Well, I’m a queer talking about my queer-ass experiences and my queer-ass thoughts. If your not-straight self relates to that, well great. If you don’t, that’s kind of not my problem. My blog isn’t a resource of any sort, and I wouldn’t claim otherwise; even my linguistics tag is mostly my opinions (though my opinions on linguistics are gonna be way-the-hell better-informed than a non-linguist’s, just sayin’).

So frankly, unfollow. Or don’t. I kind of don’t care. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

[rbthemad]

alright so i was planning on making this post in like december or january cause that’s when it would have marked one year but i figured i’d make this now since it’s kind of relevant to me at the moment

so if you’ve been following me for more than a year, you may have noticed my blog drastically changed from a blog about cow chop and youtube and shit to a blog that posts a LOT about love live, and i kinda wanna talk about why that happened and why this show means a lot to me

i’m gonna put the rest of the post under the cut cause it’s long and i start talking about personal life shit. like, seriously it’s the main reason i’m making this post in the first place

so about a year ago, life was seemingly fine to me. Christmas had just passed, I built a new computer, and i was proud of myself for doing something that i thought i would have never done, and i was happy.

then my step dad kicked us out of our own house.

my mother and step mother are not meant for each other, and i’m going to stand by that statement until the day i die. They are always making bitter comments towards one another and it always feels like something bad is about to happen just in a normal day. When they argue, they do not know when to stop, and they do not realize what they are doing. they have to continue to argue until one of them seemingly “wins” the argument. They also do not know how to control their emotions, so in these intensive moments, it is always fucking loud.

I’ve been having to deal with this for the past 6 years. If I had to say one thing positive, it’s that they’ve learned to stop fighting physically. I’ve had to deal with so much shit from them that i’m almost certain it did something to me. Just the sound of my mother’s voice raising at him is enough to make me want to run and hide.

On this specific day, my step father had enough, and he kicked me, my mother, and his 3 year old daughter out of his own house.

I was staying at my grandmothers house the majority of this year, and since i had no room, i had to sleep on the couch and have my laptop set up in the dining room of the house. I wanted to just get away from all the bullshit that my mother made me endure but I just couldn’t

so anyway, extremely sharp change of tone real quick, siivagunner is pretty funny. I didn’t listen to every single video of his, but i did listen to the noteworthy stuff. I knew about most of the memes except one. the one from that one shitty looking anime. Apparently the song was called Snow Halation. I had listened to the original quite a number of times since I first found it since it was quite the catchy song. Most of the comments on the video were ironic, since the song was a meme. this lead me to assume that the show it was from was bad and you could only enjoy it ironically. So I looked up what show it was from, and decided to watch an episode of it. It HAD to be bad cause it was a meme, right?

I was hooked on the first episode.

I went into love live expecting it to be shit. I was expecting all the cringy anime shit that people would edit with a green screen of filthy frank, but you know what? None of that was there. The music was good, the girls were cute, and the plot was simple, nothing extraordinary, but it had a charm to it, and bad was definitely not a word i would call it.

I would watch an episode or two a day, and as the show went on, more members were introduced, and more songs were performed, i got attached to the show. I was starting to feel something I hadn’t felt in a while. I was happy again.

I still had to deal with the shit my mom put me in, as well as school. I kinda had to keep what was happening to myself, as I don’t really have people i trust enough at school to talk about this with. You may say, “what about the Pizzeria?” well yes, i do trust them, but i still considered myself relatively “new” and i didn’t want to make it awkward for them.

But this show was there for me. I was enjoying it so much, and at this point i was probably blogging about it. The people I consider friends at my school definitely made fun of me for it (they still do) and while the the pizzeria wasn’t as bad, they did mock me a little (they still do). I finished up school, and finished up the first series, as well as the movie. I felt like i probably should have cried, but i didn’t.

I did not start on Sunshine immediately, and it took me until season 2 came out to finally watch it. at this point we had returned to our old house, and everything seemed relatively “normal” again. While watching Sunshine and starting on season 2, this is when i started thinking about the original series again. While rewatching the final μ’s song of the series/movie, as well as their final live, I began to realize how at my lowest point in my life so far, this show was there for me, to make me feel happy again. When I was too scared to talk about what was happening to me, I watched this show.

and that is when i finally cried saying goodbye to μ’s.

now that was really fucking gay, but why did I make this post? Well, as the end of Sunshine rears it’s ugly head, the facade of everything being “normal” again faded. They argued again tonight, and as stated earlier, they do not know how to argue, so this sounded like it was a borderline fight. I didn’t want to deal with it, so I called my grandma and told her to come get me. I’m now back at my grandma’s, and that is what drove me to make this post, rather than it being a bittersweet one year retrospective.

[julystorms]

🔥 gimme that sweet sweet unpopular opinion on roleplaying o 7 o

You know, it’s interesting. When I RP’d in SnK’s community I felt like everyone was too busy stroking their own dick ego by making “really fancy” (read: shitty, hard-to-see, hard-to-follow, can’t-find-the-goDDAMN-RULES-pAGE) layouts for their blog to actually, y’know, RP. When they did write something, it was a paragraph of Big Words put together that held...absolutely no meaning whatsoever. You ever get handed a starter like that by someone? I hope not. It’s like, what the fuck am I supposed to do with this shit? It’s not even purple prose anymore. That garbage ain’t fit to be called prose. It’s just nonsense.

And for some reason pretty layouts and one paragraph of nonsense every other month plus tons of whiny OOC posts about updates on LITERALLY EVERY FUCKING THING EVER (sorry we don’t care that you’re tying your shoelaces now and will be afk for .3 seconds YOU DON’T EVEN HAVE ANY RPS ACTUALLY HAPPENING???) plus regular scheduled Munday pictures (cause god forbid they miss this) somehow netted some of these people tons of followers who wanted to interact. Did they not understand that...character interaction would literally never happen? That the blog existed to look “pretty” and consisted of 20% mun photos, 50% ooc bullshit, 20% wishlists/memes for the mun/fanart/edits of unrelated characters, 9% headcanons, and 1% actual writing, interactions, and muse memes?

When I joined the Pokemon RP community I was like, well, this is...is...better in some ways and...much worse in other ways! OKAY. 

Essentially I’m a whiny picky bitch and RPing on Tumblr is a grab bag of “haha well maybe you’ll find cool people” and “probably just one per fandom though.”

I mean it was worth it to me. I met some pretty cool people through Tumblr RP. But boy is it fuckin’ rough sometimes. I just wanna RP my character and have fun doing a thread, develop relationships... But most of the time it feels like for everyone else it’s just a popularity contest and if you don’t format your post or whatever ~artistically~ enough and use high quality promos/banners/layouts/icons you’re considered a shit-tier RPer. But the reality is like, this is about WRITING and communicating not...preening. It drove me mad seeing all these mediocre or even downright awful writers fishing for praise for their writing when they hardly ever wrote--or when they did, it was nonsense garbled bullshit. Like, I’m not here to stroke your ego. I’m here to have fun writing with you. But you’re making it not-fun so *unfollow*. (Then you can insert people getting offended at an unfollow.)

TL;DR: Rp on this site is so fucking performative it makes me wanna puke sometimes. But I know better than to say I won’t do it again LMAO EVENTUALLY I ALWAYS CAVE IN.

[leorugiet]

☢ What fads/trends are you so over?

the salty af munday meme

super super aesthetically based tags and themes and everything. maybe I’m biased because I can’t afford photoshop, and I don’t know how graphic art works half the time, so maybe if I wasn’t stupid to that then I wouldn’t feel bad, but, half of the time, it’s super complicated, some themes people use don’t work, the actual ‘blog’ of their blog is about 10% of my screen and the rest is a humongous picture of their muse with pretty graphics and stars twinkling that are made out of like twenty lines of coding.

you do you man, but, I can’t fucking see anything sometimes. I don’t even have a proper mouse for my laptop, and I can’t scroll properly, everything I do is through the touchpad, so, one theme an RP’er I once followed had unseeable scroll bars, most did, but I straight up had to click on it if I wanted to scroll. I could never click on it. I could never find it. I could never scroll. which is fine since tumblr has that viewer thing, but! I couldn’t see their rules page! I couldn’t scroll down it! So they would send me RP memes and I would not respond. Because I couldn’t read their own rules.

autoplaying billy music players too. they’re about three milimeters big on my computer screen, and I can’t click them off fast enough. also. every time I soft refresh the blog, it plays again.

I hate this because in about several months it’ll be a different fad, and we’re all just going to have to struggle through, and whoever does their adapting to weird bullshit Elite Tumblr Format™ is seen as the Best RP Blog™, whether their writing is good or not. man, I don’t have any other skill but writing, so, I’ve got no chance against fancy editing basically. Is it so wrong to get into a hobby to read and write things and also want to read what people write? The scene changes so quickly I will never catch up, by the time I learn how to do digital graphics for the way your proper RP promo should look, there’s a different format for how it should look. I give up. I’m gonna stick with my shitty theme with a large font and struggle through digital graphics or at best ask for help. I’ve considered dropping actual money on an RP blog theme and icons and a promo, but, I don’t think it’ll make a difference, nor will it make people like me more, it’ll just give off the vibe that I’m Elite™™ basically, so, I don’t want that. That and I’m broke, I like RP because it’s a free hobby, all things considered. I don’t have to pay to sign up for an email or tumblr, so that appeal is there all on it’s own.)

[webcomixwastaken]

Get to Know Me Meme

Tagged by @pink-cass, notified by @mistspinner, actually filled out on 4/23.

Rules: Tag 20 blogs you’d like to get to know better

Nickname: Comix

Zodiac sign: Pisces

Height: 157cm / 5"2

Last Thing You Googled: “Parks and Rec season 7" - I wanted to find the exact episode for Treat Yo Self 2017

Favourite Music Artists: Daft Punk, My Chemical Romance, Ben Folds and Sara Bareilles

Song Stuck In My Head: "Ghost Horse" by the McElroy brothers. I'm not even kidding.

Last Movie you (re)watched: in cinemas: Moana [edit: I watch so few movies I can’t keep track of when I see them] Logan. at home: She's the Man

What are you wearing right now: My blindingly neon yellow NaNoWriMo ML shirt and maroon pyjama pants. Home clothes!

Why did you choose your URL: "webcomix" was taken.

Do you have any other blogs: No

What did your last relationship teach you: Technically not a relationship, but I chatted with a very interesting person on a “dating” app for 2 months before we agreed to meet. Although I really enjoyed the evening, he sort of disappeared into the ether and our communication petered out. It drove me nuts for about 2 weeks before I got over my disappointment through lots of introspection and Sara Bareilles.

Er, so what did this teach me? No boy is worth the mindfuckery of overthinking, but you will overthink regardless and he’ll make terrific story fodder in time. And Once Upon Another Time is an excellent EP.

Religious or spiritual: I have a bit of a problem with this as I was raised in an intensely bubble-like Christian community in a non-Christian city/country. I never felt like I fit in, so I experimented with both blatant mimicry and over the top rebellion - neither of which worked to make me feel more comfortable or satisfied with myself. It took a long while before I recognised that my spiritual faith doesn't have to correspond to the social culture I'm in, so I still go to church and ponder religious tenets, but keep my activity in the community to a minimum. Most of the people I meet at church now seem to be lovely people, but we have precious little in common so we can't really understand each other. 

Then of course, there are still the ones who pat each other on the back over how Godly and Good they are when they're actually narrow-minded pompous assholes. They have no idea that the things they say and do can sound so condescending, alienating, EMBARRASSING in their claims to be people of God because they keep themselves enclosed in these Christian-Club bubbles, which makes them so out of touch with how the world shifts, and prevents them from understanding how to properly treat people who aren’t exactly like them - I know, you’re not supposed to be of the world, but you exist within it, idiots! If you choose to stomp around and boast of your wonderful church career and Living Life For God, you betcha we’ll be paying attention. Watch your words and your actions. Spend a few seconds CONSIDERING non-Christians as actual people with feelings instead of the Vile Enemy or The Lost Soul I Must Save (because the sensation you get from these jerks is that THEY’RE leading you to salvation, not Jesus Christ) and learn that “just kidding” is a very shitty band-aid for cruel jokes at a total stranger’s expense. Casual sexism is a thing. Casual racism is a thing. Don’t ridicule the person who tries to point it out to you. Listen and learn.  Acknowledge and apologise when you find yourself willingly perpetuating it. Then remain cognizant of your actions regarding the issue for the future. The Christ you claim to follow would ask you to. Stop giving him a cringe-filled name.

...Yes, this is me remembering a very specific incident/person. He has “church planter” and “Pastor” down as his work on Facebook. Anyone can be a tone-deaf dickwad, but this is a man who has the responsibility of leading people through their spiritual lives, people who will look up to him and take his action and words to heart. Dear God.

/breathes in deeply and clicks play on Sara B’s “Sweet As Whole”

Favorite colour: Green

Average hours of sleep: 6-7 a night, hopefully.

Lucky Number: I like the numbers 3 and 19.

Favorite Characters: You’ll need to narrow it down for me to answer this question properly.

How many blankets do you sleep with: Currently 2, will go down to 1 by mid-May I’m sure.

Dream Job: I already very much like my job: teaching creative writing. But if I were to leave this behind, I would pursue writing full time both with personal projects (short stories, novels) and collaborations (graphic novels or webseries).

People I want to get to know better: @mistspinner, @glassesrink, @princetins, @icouldwritebooks​,  @bowelofembers, @trowabarton, @onefootintheboilinghotlava, and I can’t actually think of 20 people (especially if I don’t repeat Cass’s picks) so if you want to, go to town

[mikeswheeler]

I was tagged by the lovely @finnxwheeler​ and @jewishstanuris​ ♡

Okay so answer the questions and then tag 8 people!

What made you sign up to Tumblr? HOOO BOI well i’ve been on this site for,,, a long time lmao i signed up with my first account aka my main, personal one in around early 2011 ??? and it was honestly just bc i wanted to see what this site was all about bc i kept hearing ppl talk about it on other sites and reference it and i was like ???? what is Tumblr anyways ?? (like it was all bc of that “What is air?” stuff that was happening and i was so confused bc i was like why is everyone asking about air and then my older brother was like oh it’s a Tumblr thing so i was like what’s that and well,, the rest is history)

What did your blog start off as being? WELL my first account was basically cringe-central, like this was in 2011 so my content was basically Memes and Tumblr-esque inspirational quotes and cheesy, basic lookin’ photography (i was also really into anime and Harry Potter at the time so that was another thing) (oh and for some reason i had a Lolita phase where i was super into that style of fashion) (i was a weeb as a child)

Have you ever received any creepy asks, and if so, what did they say? Ehhhhhh,,, kind of ??? like i’ve definitely gotten a couple that i either wanted to deflect or i just kind of conveniently deleted it from my inbox and pretended it never happened lmao 

Have you ever had a bad experience on Tumblr? All the pornbots like it’S SO ANNOYING ??? AND GROSS ?? it’s especially apparent on my personal blog idk why but i have to block so many at a time smh 

If you had to pick a favourite English monarch, who would you pick? This is like a question i’ve never had to think about so I’m not really sure what to answer... 

Do you prefer hot or cold? COLD COLD COLD i’m also in California though so our cold isn’t like...... unbearable ya know ??? but i can’t stand being super hot and sweaty, it’s so uncomfortable !!! 

Do you have a special skill or talent? UHM I GUESS ACTING ????????? idk i kinda don’t wanna say that bc that’s implying i’m like ‘good’ at or whatever, but i have been in multiple plays/musicals before and even gotten an award for one of my roles so i guess that counts for something !!! 

Do you have a phobia of anything? Tight spaces, spiders (or just bugs in general), the dark, heights, anything medical related so blood and needles and hospitals and what not, aliens/the paranormal/supernatural (it’s not such a wild concept ok like it’s all totally plausible)... uHM yah i’m a big baby about a lot of things 

If you had to pick a favourite real life villain from history, who would you pick? Again, never had to consider this question before in my life so i’m not really sure !!!

Do you have any dark traits?

There are times where i’m pretty withdrawn and moody and easily irritated 

If you could do anything, literally anything, like fly on a unicorn or something, what would it be? 

Is it weird if it’d be something like,,, be cast on Stranger Things ??? like i think i fantasize about being on that show ten times a day, i just...... i really wanna be on Stranger Things gOD IMAGINE HOW AMAZING THAT WOULD BE 

What is the scale of the worst argument you’ve ever had? Slamming doors, raised voices, lots of crying...... fun times !!!

What is your favourite slush flavour? Not really into slushies tbh 

If you could bring back any food or drink from your childhood that has been discontinued, what would it be? DUNKAROOS ????? i feel like any snack from the 90s tho like we just don’t have anything as fun as what we had back then 

What is your favourite and most vivid childhood memory? Nothing specific but i remember playing outdoors with my siblings A LOT like we had a pretty big backyard so we’d constantly be out there, being imaginative and coming up with fake scenarios and acting them out, or like playing with the hose in the summertime or THE POOL omg we had this pool and we’d be in it so much...... also video game battles with my older brother ! my childhood was kinda shitty but at least i have those moments to reflect back on 

If you could bring anyone back from the dead who would it be? My first theatre teacher from high school... he passed away due to cancer around my sophomore year... he was really inspiring to me, i mean he’s kinda the reason why i stuck with that class and didn’t totally give up (thus resulting in me finding out that i love acting and that’s what i wanted to do with my life) 

If you could go back to any time period and live there for a week, which period would it be and why? GIVE ME THE 80′S OH MY GOD my mom grew up in the 80′s as a teenager so i always hear all the stories from her about what it was like and it seemed like ??? so cool ?? especially if you were a teen like what a dream ! give me my 80′s teen movie memories !!!

If you could visit any abandoned place to take pictures, where would it be?

Wow, this is actually a good question....... maybe like a retro arcade or art museum or amusement park ???? i feel like those could make for some Neat Photos (the aesthetic tho)

Do you have any particular, peculiar interests? Hmmmmm psychology interests me ?? i took a psychology class my junior year of high school and it was really fascinating, learning about human behavior and those stories of old psychology experiments (so Wild too like damn, i can’t believe they got away with so much shit back then)

Do you have a creepy/scary experience that has happened to you, and what was it? Not necessarily to me personally like, i’ve heard things before but idk to what extent that could mean so i never really looked Too Much into it bUT UHM i know my family has, especially in my childhood home (that place was straight up haunted like i swear) ALTHOUGHHHHH one night my mom was talking to us about something she saw in her room and all of a sudden a bunch of weird shit started going on in our apartment like our printer kept turning on and off and noises came from the kitchen like a cabinet shutting and things like that IT WAS CREEPY OK 

Do you like/read creepypasta stories? If so, what’s your favourite story? Don’t really have a favorite, but i have read creepypasta stories in the past before - they’re pretty intriguing ! (i’m a total wuss tho!!!! which is why i don’t read enough to have a personal favorite)

If you were in the Wars of the Roses, would you be a Lancastrian, or a Yorkist? Haven’t given this any thought before to decide so I DON’T KNOW !

What is your recurring nightmare? Don’t really have any ????? 

Have you ever had a lucid dream? Nah, because the moment i become aware i’m dreaming and i can do whatever i want, i wake up !!! it’s so frustrating lmao 

If you could go to another planet, which would it be? UHM i just really like the way Saturn looks lmao also Venus bc it sounds Nice but in terms of living conditions, i’m sure none of those are suitable  

What is your religion, if any? Don’t really have one !!!! (in the sense of actively practicing) although my mom is Jewish so i have always felt the most connected to that one 

Have you ever got so drunk, that you did something really embarrassing, and if so, what did you do? i’ve never gotten drunk before so lmao 

Mike, Dustin, Lucas, or Will? THIS IS ???? NOT FAIR ??? THEY’RE ALL MY SONS HOW DARE YOU MAKE ME CHOOSE JUST ONE but fine, i pick Mike just bc i feel the most related to him in the sense of personality traits 

Do you like Marina and the Diamonds? SURE ??? she’s got some good stuff 

Charli XCX? YAH SURE WHY NOT i like some of her stuff !!

Tag a blog that you’ve seen, and you love their posts, but have never told them, and would like to talk to them. @miliebobbybrown HER EDITS ARE ALWAYS SO ??? GOOD ???? her whole blog is total #goals just bc of how Nice everything is like wow i am,,, Intimidated but in the best way possible

Pick one thing you like/love from the 80s. The pop culture :^) (movies, music, fashion...... like wow, i just love it all so much)

What year were you born, and name something cool from that year. 1998 and Harry Potter and The Chamber of Secrets was published 

What was your blog name originally? (If you had another blog name) This one was originally lifeisdefinitelystrange (rip) 

Do you follow any blogs that you know the user in real life? KIND OF ?? I JUST MET @telekineticeggos FOR THE FIRST TIME IN REAL LIFE LAST NIGHT SO LMAO but we’re also planning on doing more things together in real life in the next few months so YEET 

If you are in the ST fandom, which is your favourite song off the ST soundtrack? Africa by Toto (duh), Atmosphere by Joy Division, Heroes by Peter Gabriel, and When It’s Cold I’d Like To Die by Moby (those last two songs were too emotionally impacting to not name) and from the score itself i LOVE KIDS THAT ONE IS SO GOOD TO ME LMAO but tbh i love the entire score and soundtrack ???? it’s so hard to pick just One Favorite

Finally, give your opinion on the person who tagged you! @finnxwheeler - YOUR WRITING NEVER FAILS TO AMAZE ME WOW ??? i’m always in tears over how flawless your fics are like Whiskey and Broken Hearts destroyed me my dude like oh my goddddd i love your characterization of Mike and Will in all your fics :’) one of my favorite byeler blogs ♡ (also you’re super cool in general like wow what a Neat Person)

@jewishstanuris - I LOVE TALKING TO YOU !!! you’re so nice to me and understanding when i take ten years to reply LMAO also your writing is also super good ??? you should do it more often tbh like i swear you don’t do it enough bc i remember only seeing a few things written by you on here in the fandom buT LIKE THEY WERE SO GOOD AND LIKE ???? DO MORE OF THAT MAYBE ??? another rlly good blog apart of the byeler ship ♡ :’) 

OK SO I’M GONNA TAG THESE GOOFS - @telekineticeggos, @dadharbour, @baileytsample, @elevenknope, @nessa007, @theamiableanachronism, @eggo-my-leggo, and @ghost-grantaire ♡ (obviously you don’t have to do it if you’re not interested or if you’ve done it already!)

[reticexce]

 yoooooOOOOOOO you all have no idea how grateful i am to reach this milestone. this blog was a reboot of alison, and i was really worried that i wouldn’t be able to play her like before since i was basically starting from scratch again, but i’m really glad to see that she ( and the boys!! ) have been accepted and loved, and i’m so happy i’ve gotten the chance to create meaningful relationships both ic and ooc! 

i’ve never actually done a bias list before despite how many years i’ve been rping on tumblr, but i think it’s about time i make one since i think this blog is one of my best experiences in terms of shipping, friendships, and threading and i really should just make a shoutout to some very special people and say thank you to everyone for sticking with this blog and helping me flesh out my muses!

( MY PINGU CHILDREN )

mostly an inside joke formed in a skype chat ( tbt nerdie wormies lmaoo ) , but there’s a reason why they’re my pingu children and i’m pingu mum!

@kingofevcrything: hoooly shit can you believe we’ve known each other for like four years? practically four years?? since my first year having alison, emile and cedric?? and i’m pretty sure you had a part in me adding nate to the blog too, seeing as how his only ship is your muse lmao. i really can’t say enough about you because i think you’re just so special to me, and i hold you so near and dear to my heart. i can’t express how thrilled and grateful i am to have you still be my friend after all these years. i’ve had rp partners leave and it’s always heartbreaking especially when memorable relationships have been formed. but our friendship has passed the test of time, and i hope, hope, hope with all my might that we’ll stay friends for many more years to come, even if one of us decides to stop rping. i really can’t express how important our friendship is to me, like you really have no idea. my soul weeps for our muses and our threads. i just love you lots and i always wish for good things to happen to you, and i am so glad to be your mum. i am so thankful for our friendship, and i still really can’t believe we have so many fucking aus like holy shit wtf <33

@halsionic: my bby pingu child <3 we also have a shit ton of aus lmao and i also treasure those even if we’ve only touched on them in chat and never in thread. i also can’t express how thankful i am to have met you. pure chance had us meet, and i’m just so happy that you reached out to me. i can’t imagine us still being strangers on the dash, our muses so foreign to each other. like, alien literally coNSUMES both of us now, and it’s just so taboo to imagine otherwise. i love you to bits, especially since you’ve always been so supportive to me no matter what i’m going through. i can always count on you to help me through hard times, even if it’s just a short conversation about what’s bothering me. but i appreciate everything you’ve done for me as a listening ear. and not to mention those shitposts you send to me every day too---our friendship wouldn’t be complete without good ole shitposting and sIN. smooches from pingu mum to pingu child!! i look forward to screaming about our feelings to each other in the future!

( MY SOARING EAGLES )

those whom i also consider dear friends on this site ooc ( but we don’t have a pingu family thing going on haha )

@gloryundimmed: aaaaAAAAAA G R A Y oh my god you’re gonna laugh at me but i was really scared of interacting with you at first. like, i was so happy you liked my starter call?? because that made it super easy for us to interact?? i was really worried that we’d end up being those blogs that follow each other but never interact buT NO WAY WE TOTALLY INTERACT NOW!! and i have so much fun rping with you holy shit i really do. i get real excited whenever you reply or answer my asks ( no matter how long it’s been; you can always take your time! ) because i just adore kai and alison like---i didn’t think their ship would be so wholesome but it totally is. and i love it. i also never thought we’d be such good friends, especially since we haven’t known each other for very long, but i’m super, duper, happy that we are. like our conversations are always so interesting and non stressful, and i’m just really happy that i’ve gotten the opportunity to befriend you and thread with you! also, i think your editing and themes are hella rad. also!! i’m really looking forward to more aus with you in the future if you’re up for it, and also ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) if you’re up for it too with kai and ali ( yes i totally used this as an excuse to put in a lenny face but i also meant what i said lmaoo broADEN MY WRITING HORIZONS ). anyway!! i’m glad to have you as a friend, i love your writing, and i would totally be down for interactions with your others muses too because i think they’re also great! 

@wintercursed​: i absolutely adore alison and hiro’s dynamic, and i guess in a way you could say it’s sort of our dynamic too. not exactly, not perfectly, but i suppose a little piece of ourselves could be seen in our muses. ahh, i wish i could shower you in all the memes and threads you’ve ever wanted, but alas, i’m too distracted and my muses are too fickle for such a thing. but i really do love talking about our muses together and just having fun like that; the brotp between alison and hiro is one of my favorites tbh. i also!! am really flattered you see me as a friend. i’m so glad i get to call you one of mine! i get so happy whenever things go well for you, and i hope things will keep going well for you!! we may have lost touch in the last few months ( year? has it been a year? i hope not ), but i still admire you and your muse as much as i did before. fun fact: i actually followed you even before this blog! but that was before i really got a chance to interact and talk with you haha. anywho, i hope the best for you, and let’s stay in touch! <3

@travaileur / @dulcetxdreams: ro!!! ro, ro, ro, ro!!!! man i can’t even put my finger down on how we met. i guess it started on aito’s blog with the chatzys and then it moved to here when ali and eden were struggling to figure out their feelings? and you were one of their fans haha. that was a very eventful time. and now, look at where our bbies are now! claire and alison have developed their own friendship, and it is literally goals. alison is just so good to claire, and i cry it’s just so cute. our interactions have been limited with both of us being busy bees, and that’s okay! i look forward to seeing ali and claire together no matter what, and i’d love to keep talking about them more whenever you’re free! also, i always appreciate those cat pictures your send me or those bird photos you tag me in. bless, bless, those always make my day. anywho, you’re a sweetie pie and i lov u lots and i’m so happy i got the chance to meet you and have my muse have such a cute friendship with your muse. i can’t wait to see how that will develop!

@textsfromeponinet / @evangrantconrad / @whocaresaboutlonelysouls: i’m fairly certain you followed me from blog to blog! from my old alison blog to this one, i’m so glad that you decided to stick around even through the big switch. i’ve had lots of fun playing all of my muses with you, from your eponine blog and beyond! you helped me flesh out cedric in a way too, giving rise to his pretentious character now thanks to our beauty and the beast au haha. i really have to thank you for that! and now, with emile, we have such a sweet ship, and i’m looking forward to all of the cuteness that awaits! you’re such a good friend to me too, even though i stink at replying to ims, so i’m really thankful you haven’t been deterred from chatting with me. you’ve also given me such nice advice over the years, and i’m very, very thankful for your college advice <3 i hope we can remain friends and have more threads!

@ivorybled / @hyoukan: i think about how we met sometimes and like---it’s such a unique way of meeting?? like our muses both lil shits and therefore would attract each other because they would love doing shitty things together, and that blossomed into one of my favorite brotps. lanzo and aito will always be my shit because they’re just hilarious to me, and add in eden and it’s even more of a mess. but this isn’t a bias list for aito’s blog so i’ll save that fangirling for another time, but !!! i love?? your writing?? so much??? it’s a very unique style and oh my god it’s like fking poetry and i can just indulge in your writing like it’s just so good. and speaking of what’s good, you’re good!!! we haven’t talked much recently, but i’m so flattered to be one of your fave boofs bc you’re one of mine too!!! technically you’re a bird now but that’s even better because you love birds!! i always have such a fun time talking with you on ims even if it’s just a short chat, whether it’s lanzo/aito, lanzo/alison, or eru/alison because the ideas are literally limitless with you. and it’s such a blast to yell at each other about our muses and their relationship; i can feel your passion and that’s just really great okay. i hope we can keep yelling at each other and keep in touch even if we’re both busy bees, and i’m really glad we became friends <3

( MY PRETTY CANARIES )

those whom i’ve interacted with a few times ( whether recently or a long, long time ago ) and would love to stay in touch, get back in touch, get to know better! these people are also those who i see on the dash every day and sort of consider them my friends because of how long you’ve stuck with me, even i we haven’t said much to each other! but i see you liking and reblogging my stuff! hello to you too! 

@cfdualities / @mostpeculiarmademoiselleetmsieur / @chichini / @silent-severity / @shiracpt / @lvmier / @vernxte / @noxuous / @gumihosverdict / @langvor / @tommy-is-the-rudest-bitch / @fornaxa / @manipulationandmemes / @princely-etiquette / @smolhoney / @shite-prosecutor / @amxrtentiia / @overoutrage / @forgottenelysium / @auccntraire / @smolbabysittingangel / @pushingthewinter / @omnecosmos / @neverforgiiven / @psuedogaiety / @likecottxncandy / @lachalaine / @nanpoghan / @bastardiised / @oshunokaminari / @dont-wake-sana / @enthrxlling / @faillte / @haperx / @we-all-burn / @togovernwithdecorum / @chvssbelle / @ffortunato / @minugahanax​ / @risiox / @solepaura

( MY SWEET PARAKEETS )

those whom i haven’t gotten a chance to really interact with yet ( due to busy schedules, lack of a good opportunity, being a new follower, or just me being too shy ) but admire greatly and would love a chance to write with! we may have had a handful of short interactions before, or maybe none at all, but in either case, i’d love to have more!

@stckhlmr / @godstarved / @condicionibus / @hippestbarista / @mulni / @weismanniisms / @contrasting-blood-brothers / @phlegmxtical / @charmingrebel / @cantiio / @fierydog / @perhiemate / @bathed-in-red / @parcelhoarder / @poppicede / @wondcrkid / @bloodyrogues / @cruthaich / @nightmcnsters / @bokctto / @destinsia / @elfen-archer / @pvrehearted / @corvialitis / @sakashiima / @starvd / @itaidoshin / @praeliix / @rosideae / @xnquisitor / @mahounx / @clemenstine / @siderion / @tenxcious / @drugrattes / @prideful-outcasts / @withoutviolence / @preciousyellowidiot / @atelouus / @flowersvein / @merakiis / @bcbybats / @ignirae / @popokki / @lingering-mind / @bitchidivine / @cxriseanglo / @torschlusspcnik / @chirisaku / @eraseourscars / @tillsoil / @bittersilvertruth / @hellhcunded / @hasetsui​

keep in mind none of the names are in any particular order! and ahh and i know i must have forgotten some people because there were just so many blogs to look through, but even if you aren’t on this list, you’re a great writer, very special, and have lots of potential! and i love you and think you’re great! and to those who are on this list, i know i must have sounded really roundabout and probably said the same things over and over again, but really, you guys make coming onto tumblr really fun, and you all are really special people to me. i really appreciate you all for sticking with me after all this time ( and even following me from blog to blog! ) and i just can’t say how much i appreciate your support <333 

also i sort of did have trouble determining if some people were canaries or parakeets but whichever one you are, feel free to hmu for interactions but i love new partners and new ideas and just meeting new people so please reach out if you’d like to! (〃＾▽＾〃)

ps do u guys like the little birbs i added to my promo bc i really do. 

[eglantinex]

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cannonofatlas said: ☀ What's your rp pet peeve?

This has gotten much longer than I thought it would be.

✧ Do you agree with reblog karma or is it forced interaction?

(As I mentioned in my rules, RP memes are essentially invitations to interact. When someone reblogs one of them and is practically begging you to send one, but you don’t do it, then reblog it and beg everyone else to send you one--how does that make sense? There’s a reason people call it karma--remember, do unto others?

People shouldn’t be so militant about it, sure, but there’s a reason people get sensitive about it. Even saying “b-b-but I don’t feel worthy!” doesn’t make sense after a point--we all say that. Being self-deprecating doesn’t magically make us special.

If they don’t answer, or don’t give the answer you wanted, don’t let that discourage you. You guys are following each other for a reason. Don’t be afraid to do some trial and error. If one person isn’t receptive then someone else will be, guaranteed.

☢ What fads/trends are you so over?

Using so much HTML that you can barely read the actual reply. I know why people use it and I don’t want to come off as universally disliking people who do it, and more often than not people do use it in a way that actually complements their writing and gives their replies a distinct flavor. Rather than trying to make it look all fancy and aesthetically pleasing, but when you actually read the reply, it’s...mediocre, at best. Focus on the quality of your writing first, then pretty your replies and your blog up all you like. Just for god’s sake, never the other way around.

(If I follow you and you format replies, this isn’t about you. If I disliked someone’s RP style so much then I would not be following them at all.)

♒ Thoughts on the fandom you're currently rping in?

Always. Complaining. Translate that to Latin and make it the FNDM’s official motto.

Besides the people I interact with on this blog, I don’t consider myself involved in the RWBY fandom at all. I used to be the person who followed all the popular blogs and nodded along to everything they said, but eventually everything they said was a complaint, complaint, complaint. Even genuine constructive criticism is worded in ways that are exhausting to read. Now it’s popular to hate this character, hate this episode because of one flaw, act like you know exactly how to make the show perfect and the creators are stupid for not seeing your vision. Then there are the people who are like “ugh yeah stupid SJWs,” the people who throw a hissy fit when artists draw Blake with a darker skin tone. Then there are the people who think certain ships are good as gospel, somehow think they’re required to have canon proof or else, and passive-aggressively push the less “popular” ships into a corner.

And yes, I will say this--I also really want more diversity in RWBY, but the rabid way people absolutely demand it from the show is really. shitty. (Lest people think they can have a word with me for daring to have this opinion--no, I am not straight. No, I am not white.)

I’m not saying I’m not aware of the glaring flaws in RWBY’s writing and diversity, and I always like ideas on how to fix those problems, but the fandom’s attitude--the really loud, vocal ones, because most fandoms’ problems revolve back to them--is ultimately counterproductive.

☀ What's your rp pet peeve?

Several. Personal posts significantly outnumbering actual RP-related posts; people being snobby just because their blogs are fancied up; personal blogs mindlessly liking and reblogging stuff (I used to be one of those people, which intensifies that dislike); pity parties that always, always carry over to their characters; characters that try really hard not to look overpowered and fail every time.

♥ What's the WORST thing that has happened to you rp wise?

Absolutely losing my muse for about a year. I’m glad I finally managed to start over, but it was rough. Eventually I was trying to force myself to do replies because I was terrified of becoming irrelevant to my RP partners and I would get angry at them if that seemed to be the case, even if they didn’t really do anything and weren’t aware that I felt the way I did. Given that most of the people I’m doing threads with now are people who used to follow me from the old blog, my worries were completely unfounded.

✮ Have you managed to stay away from drama?

Thank god yes. I don’t get people who say they thrive on that sort of thing; it’s tiring and unproductive. I sort of get the entertainment value but even then it’s not worth it. Just avoid the loud people.

☯ Have you ever tried to bring peace to a situation?

On Tumblr? No. In my earlier days on the Internet in general, I had this idea of being that firm but fair mediator; I remember trying to stop people from responding to a YouTube comment troll when I was maybe 14. But on Tumblr fights get petty and personal real fast--people make it that way--and like I mentioned above, it’s not worth expending my energy anymore. I might message someone to try and calm them down, but otherwise I just ask them to tag their crap or unfollow.

☼ How long do you stay mad?

Depends. If it’s not a big deal to me I brush it off; maybe I’ll be bothered for a while but I try to let it pass. I’m used to bottling things in rather than expressing what upset me because I was used to people not bothering to know, so that makes me stay mad for longer. Even if I do forgive, I don’t forget. Not in the dramatic way people like saying it to make themselves sound so tough, but I know that they’ll probably do it again whether they mean to or not.

☁ Have you ever forgiven a partner when you shouldn't have?

I am too forgiving, so yes. I used to tolerate RP blogs who really played up the pity party out of, well, pity.

✦ Thoughts on duplicates following you?

I haven’t actually had duplicates follow me until today, funnily enough. I don’t mind them; each person portrays the character differently and that’s always interesting to see. But it’s natural to prefer one portrayal over another; I know I do. Just don’t be a jerk about it.

❥ Has someone ever ruined an FC or character for you?

Yes.

✖ How has Tumblr RP changed since you started?

Not a lot that I can tell. People who I RPed with almost three years ago are still operating the same way. Though that’s not to say their writing hasn’t evolved; it definitely has.

Since this is a salty meme I guess this is where I rant about the negative changes I see among RPers, but I don’t really see any right now. Maybe in a few months I’ll see through the cracks.

⚜ How many people do you not like?

RP-wise, only a couple I’ve had uncomfortable experiences with in the past. I think if I ever get a message saying “care to RP?” I may block the sender immediately, no question.

☣ Have you ever rp'd with someone you knew for a fact was abusive but tried to give them a chance/to make up your own opinion on the roleplayer? Did they change or did you understand what people were talking about?

No abusers as far as I know, thankfully--but there is someone who was very much bad news. I’ve mentioned pity parties a couple times above, and this is one of the people I refer to when I say that. They basically acted as if they were a great victim, and sought attention--I was similar to that before, so I know people like that when I see them. I gave them chance after chance because I did believe that their angst came from somewhere genuine, and I wanted to at least help them out of their tragically self-deprecating cycle, but in the end it was too much.

There are other people who became really uncomfortable with them too and made posts calling them out and such, and rather than address those concerns they would call it yet more evidence that the world was so against them and no one loved them. And the thing about people like that is you never know how to tell them that their attitude is not going to reward them at all. You don’t even know if it’s all an act or if they actually think that way.

❀ What has made you completely lose your chill?

The aforementioned gripes with the fandom. That’s why I rarely have RWBY on my personal now, and I struggle with finding blogs that have all the good stuff (fanart, headcanons, speculation, gifs and edits) without all the really annoying ones (militant shipping--god I wish that was referring to actual boats--passive-aggressive comments towards the crew, assuming White Rose and Bumbleby are/should be the canon ships, claiming that the crew are warping the original vision while acting like they magically know better).

[wantedu]

The original creator of that edit wasn't "fantasizing" about Ian and Max being the Columbine shooters. It's insensitive but it's also a fucking meme that's been in the fandom for years. If you did research, you'd know that Ian made this edit first. Someone just extended it and put different music to it. I get your point but that video isn't what you think it is. Plus, our fandom wouldn't be so insensitive about it. It was Ian himself.

I am completely aware that Ian made the original edit. However, I think context is important here, because he was using the school shooter meme + the video edits as the joke there. His edit was ten seconds!!!! It wasn’t glorifying the shooters, it was Ian making a statement about how dumb these video edits are and using a shitty controversial meme about himself.....

Kind of hypocritical to tell me to do research... As for the meme being in the fanbase for “years,” the picture of Max that’s been commonly compared to pictures of Dylan Klebold wearing the backwards baseball cap is a screenshot from the video “I AM POKEMON,” which is also the source of the clips used in the video edit. The video is only eight months old. The meme can only be eight months old maximum. 

I find it quite ironic that someone extended the edit when the idubbbz video that the original edit came from was specifically about fan edits like this. I suppose that gave everyone the idea, because if you look up “idubbbz columbine” you can find a ton of edits including one that’s almost THREE FUCKING MINUTES.... you can’t tell me the person who made that isn’t a fan of school shooters. Anyway, the thing is, the source for the video, the person that I reblogged it from, wasn’t even the person who made the edit. The source was a true crime blog. Which means yes, people are fantasizing about Max and Ian being the shooters, because that person most likely stole it from the blog or twitter of someone in this fanbase (and didn’t credit them either lmao)

It wasn’t even tagged with “maxmoefoe” or “idubbbz.” It was tagged with columbine specific tags.

People were reblogging this from other columbine/true crime blogs. The post didn’t even have any interaction with our fandom until someone asked who Max and Ian were. 

That first person who reblogged it and said “lmfao max as dylan killed me” knew who max was, but regardless, they’re a true crime blog. A filthy frank/cancer crew blog that I follow reblogged it from the source, so I assume they follow them, and to keep that person out of this, I reblogged it from the blog that posted it. Before the person I follow reblogged it, the only people that had interacted with it were true crime blogs. So tell me “that video isn’t what you think it is,” because it wasn’t even floating around OUR FANBASE.

So yeah, it’s all the same to me. I don’t really give a shit whether they’re fantasizing about the boys being the shooters or not, it’s still gross as fuck and has no place in this fanbase. And it’s a complete overgeneralization to say “our fandom wouldn’t be so insensitive about it,” our fandom has tons of transphobes and antisemitics and racists and I know for a FACT that there are people in this fandom that blog about true crime but more specifically, the columbine shooters. People talk about how hot they think Dylan Klebold and Eric Harris are, so I don’t doubt for one second that with all the school shooter jokes about Ian and everything else taken into consideration, there are people that fantasize about Max and Ian being school shooters.  

I’m just .....this whole thing is disgusting and these teenage girls glorifying and romanticizing two people who killed so many innocent kids...do they understand that they all thought it was a normal day? parents sent their sons and daughters off to school that morning, some not even getting to give them a hug or a kiss goodbye before they left, and then a few hours later had to get the news that their son or daughter was dead? and they have to live with the fact that they didn’t say goodbye to their kid that morning, because it was supposed to be just like any other morning, but it wasn’t? and even the parents of the kids that were safe, hearing what was going on at the school and praying for their child’s safety, you don’t think that that effects them, years later??? and the kids who survived, how emotionally damaging that must have been ???? do any of these teenage girls who fawn over how cute dylan and eric are ever stop to consider the pain that these families went through, and as a result of those killers actions, will likely suffer with for the rest of their lives ??? ?

Just like the fact that YOU tried to come at me and tell me that I didn’t do my research when the post came from a columbine blog and was tagged with only columbine tags......I’m honestly laughing