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Could you do the (16/17 year old) step daughter of spencer who calls him really late one night to pick her up from a party because she's (very) drunk and she knows he's up bc of his insomnia. And she clearly sees him as her father bc her dad left before she was even born.
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Request: Could you do the (16/17 year old) step daughter of spencer who calls him really late one night to pick her up from a party because she's (very) drunk and she knows he's up bc of his insomnia. And she clearly sees him as her father bc her dad left before she was even born.
Third person pov...
Y/N was out at a friends house for a party, she was having fun, dancing and drinking all night long. She hadn't gone to a party in ages.
As the clock struck 1 am, Spencer was lying in bed, eyes wide open. Insomnia had been a constant companion for him, It was especially difficult on nights like this, when his stepdaughter Y/N was out at a party.
Y/N was a bright, independent teenager. But Spencer couldn't help but worry about her, especially since her biological father had left them before the H/C girl was even born. Spencer had taken on the role of a father to Y/N and they had formed a strong bond over the years.
Just as Spencer was about to drift off to sleep, his phone rang, jolting him awake, he immediately sat up, concern flooding through him, groggily he answered the call, expecting it to be Y/N checking in before heading home.
"Hey Y/N, everything okay?" Spencer answered with a touch of worry in his voice.
"Hi, uhm, can you come and pick me up from this party? I'm really drunk and I don't want to stay here anymore" The teenagers words were slurred and her voice was shaky.
"Of course, Y/N, I'll be there in fifteen minutes. Just stay put and I'll come get you" Spencer replied, already getting dressed and grabbing his car keys.
"Thanks, Spencer" Y/N said
She then gave him the address of the party and hung up. Spencer quickly got dressed and left his house in a hurry.
As he drove towards the address, he couldn't help but worry about Y/N, He had always been there for her, but he knew that her teenage years would be difficult but he would be there for her.
When he arrived at the party, Spencer could hear the music blaring from the house. He parked his car and walked towards the front door, bracing himself for what he would find inside.
As he neared the house he saw her sat outside. Y/N was sitting on the porch steps, her head hanging low, her H/C hair hanging infront of her face.
He could see the tears streaming down her face, and his heart broke. He got out of the car and walked towards her, sitting down next to her.
"Hey, are you okay?" Spencer asked, gently placing a hand on her back.
Y/N wiped her tears and nodded. "I'm sorry, I shouldn't have called you. I just wanted to go home"
Spencer hugged her tightly, rubbing her back as she cried. "It's okay, Y/N I'm here for you"
"I-I'm sorry" the teenager hiccuped, trying to stand up but failing miserably.
Spencer gently helped her up and led her to the car, Once she was buckled in, he drove her home in silence, both of them lost in their own thoughts.
They drove in silence for a few minutes before Y/N spoke, fidgeting with her painted nails "I'm sorry, Spencer" she said, her voice shaky with emotion.
"I know I shouldn't have called you. I just...I needed somebody and i couldnt call my mum" Spencer reached over and took her hand, giving it a reassuring squeeze.
"It's okay, N/N. I'm here for you. Always." They drove the rest of the way in comfortable silence. When they arrived home, Y/N stumbled out of the car, her legs unsteady from the alcohol.
Spencer helped her inside, and she collapsed onto the couch, shivering from the cold.
Spencer pulled a throw blanket over her, and she immediately snuggled into it, her body still shaking. He sat down beside her and pulled her into his arms, holding her close.
They sat like that for a while, Y/Ns head resting against Spencer's chest. She was still shivering, and he could feel the guilt and regret radiating from her.
"I'm sorry," she whispered, her voice breaking. "I shouldn't have done this. I know you must be disappointed in me."
Spencer gently lifted her chin so that he could look into her eyes. "I could never be disappointed in you, Y/N You're not perfect, and I don't expect you to be. But I do expect you to be safe. And to always come to me when you need help."
Tears filled the H/C teen eyes, and she buried her face in Spencer's chest. "Thank you" she mumbled.
"I love you, Spencer. You're the only dad I've ever known"
Spencer's heart swelled with emotion, and he held her tighter, tears prickling at the corners of his own eyes.
He had never thought of himself as a father figure, but in that moment, he knew he would do anything for the girl in his arms.
They stayed there, cuddled up on the couch, until the sun began to rise. Y/n had eventually fallen asleep, her breathing slow and steady.
Spencer smiled, grateful for the opportunity to be there for her in her time of need.
She may not be his biological daughter, but in that moment, none of that mattered. They were family, and that was all that truly mattered.
He shifted himself so he could put a pillow under her head, he then unbuckled her shoes and put them down by the couch.
Standing up he looked down at her. "How am I going to do this" he muttered to himself, the tall man then leant down he wrapped an arm around her shoudlers and put his other one jnder her legs so he could lift her up.
Once she was in his arms she automatically curled up in his arms again, a content sigh escaped her lips. Smiling Spencer begins walking to his bedroom.
He wasn't going to let her sleep on the sofa, when he opened the door he he set the teenager down on the bed and lent her body against his so he could pull back the covered for her.
He then tucked her in, brushing her hair away from her face, he then kissed her temple. "Good night Y/N" he whsipers before closing the door.
The end!
Hope you liked this oneshot, so sorry for the wait for this request! Sorry for any grammar and Spelling mistakes.
Requests are open!
Word count : 1120
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WE CANT BE FRIENDS | 16. BUT ID LIKE TO JUST PRETEND
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warning: im gonna pretend we're in korea for this chapter so jaehyun can drink LOLSIES, i also know barely anything about drinking so if its not accurate OOPS #20y/owhocantdrinkstrugglesbcshesscaredofthelaw
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ps: it doesnt get better from here until wayyy after ;-)
(a few minutes ago) EPISODE 5
"what are we even supposed to do?" jaehyun said as he took another shot. "i uh have to ask you questions" woonhak explained as he repositioned the camera up to face jaehyun. jaehyun hummed as he took another shot "are you okay? you took like 10 shots since we got here and i haven't even started recording yet" woonhak looked up from the camera concerned. "pfft what do you know about drinking" jaehyun laughed looking at woonhak, woonhak scoffed "not much, but i know this relates back to yn". the older one looked away "just record or something i don't know..."
"now we have myung jaehyun. i'll ask you questions and you can answer away from yn. i assure you she won't see this footage...well unless she watches this but that's beside the point." woonhak adjusted the camera a bit. "so i CAN answer the question? i have a choice?" jaehyun asked rather tipsy. "no sorry, you WILL answer these."
"what are your opinions on L/N Y/N?"
jaehyun took another shot before answering. "Yn? she's...I MISS HER" he suddenly erupted into tears taking back woonhak but content is content...
"i cant live without her i dont know how i haven't died yet during these 2 years. shes all i constantly think about, when i go to the store, i think about her, when i sleep, i think about her, when I'm even in my fucking office i think about her and that was the main thing that drove me away from her." he sobbed into his hands. woonhak giggled a bit at the sight and zoomed into jaehyun crying. "I'm gonna have to put a 'her' count in here..."
"I thought you ended things because of music, your job?"
"FUCK THE JOB! i'm done, i'll take it all back and work at fucking wendys if it means i can stay with her. my music career is a flop! YOU know" jaehyun pointed at woonhak to which he nods "THEY know" he pointed at the camera "SHE knows" he points at his heart "I just cant take not being around her anymore. we don't have to be friends we don't have to date again I just want her back in my life completely without messing everything up. i'd literally argue with her for the rest of my life even if it hurts me rather than never talk to her at all and it hurts because she makes it look so simple, not missing me, not talking to me. but it's fair enough isn't it? if i had just shut my mouth for that one day i would've realized that music doesn't compare to her, but why'd i have to realize so late?"
"do you still think about her?"
"of course i do" he cried even more, woonhak was pretty sure jaehyuns drink was more tears than alcohol now "you know..." jaehyun giggled for a second 'the roman empire? how its like a joke that all guys think of it often, she, y/n are you watching this?" jaehyun gets close to the camera, his nose touching the lens, too drunk to realize anything. "yn, you're my roman empire, there's not a second i don't think about you. i wake up , its you, i go to sleep, its you, i eat, its you, hell i could strip right now and dance-“ “that's enough" woonhak stops him. "i just wonder why you think so deeply about her, shes just a girl-" jaehyun cuts woonhaks words offended "DONT. shes not just some random girl, shes yn. the first person who understood me, the first person i felt comfortable with, the first person to support my music career, and i just, let her go. for the same music career i left her for. clearly, you've never been in love or never been in love and lost that same person due to your dumb actions..."
"then why were you acting so cold to her today?"
"fuck, woonhak. its all a persona, i'm trying to convince myself I'm over her, but clearly, it's not working, at all. even today i used all the force in me not to fold and when i complained about it on my twitter this random sea jae something account commented...but i remember she did comment under my comment saying "its not like me and her will get together" with a "haha" like what does that mean...is it a sign from the universe?" jaehyun looked over at woonhak with a sad smile trying to convince himself he's not that effected by you despite going on a 30 minute rant about you. woonhak laughed a bit. jaehyun looked down at his shot glass and stared.
"do you think she misses me...like ever?" he turned again to woonhak who stared at jaehyun in pity. "she-" woonhak paused and shook his head "directors shouldn't get involved" jaehyuns body shot over to face woonhak "YOUR NOT A DIRECTOR YOUR A 17 YEAR OLD BOY" "18 in Korea" woonhak added "I DONT CARE, YOUR A 17 OR 18 BOY WHO IS FAILING HIS FILM MAKING CLASS WITH A NEGATIVE NUMBER. WHAT DOES SHE SAY ABOUT ME."
"fine, i'll show you." woonhak logs into his phone and text you to help him out. "oops, phone died" jaehyun groaned and face planted into the table.
(NOW)
you texted woonhak that you were outside and you saw him drag jaehyun out. "damn he's out." taesan said from your backseat. you hum in agreement. woonhak approaches the car and opens the back seat to throw jaehyun in until taesan stops him "put jaehyun in the passenger seat" "but you're back here-"
"woonhak. put. jaehyun. in. the. damn. front. seat."
woonhak placed jaehyun in the front seat and got in the back.
jaehyun turned his head to you as you were driving
"yn?" he asked softly "yeah?" "do you ever miss me?"
you dont reply, looking in your rear view mirror you see woonhak and taesan sleeping. sighing you turn back to jaehyun when you stop at a red light, he looked at you with soft doe eyes that could break any minute. but you couldn't help but admire his features shining in the red light, you hadn't got a good look at him until now and damn, he was still so...
BEEP
right. "back then yeah" you lied, or maybe not, who cares
"i still miss you, a lot. Every day i wake up and my heart aches for you, only to see an empty cold space in the spot next to me. i know, i know everyone tells me and i got the signal from you, i know I'm stupid for ending a relationship over music, SoundCloud especially but i don't want to move on. if i put on earth with one other girl and her only i wouldn't even speak to her, i'd make a stick doll and name it after you, talk to it every day, because yn, you're the only person I've ever needed and i hate that i lost the one person who kept me going, that i still dream of, that i can't move on from, i just wish i didn't let you go at all.
do you...still think we'd be together if i hadn't ruined us?"
you pause staring at the gearstick "maybe in another life" you replied lowly afraid your voice would crack. you blink back tears refusing to even look at him. you hear him catch his breath and realize he's crying "i just wish it could be this life. i want it to be this life, yn, I'll do anything for it to be this life please. let me back in your life."
"jaehyun no, you're drunk"
"drunk words are sober thoughts"
taesan said from the backseat still with his eyes closed. you realize both woonhak and taesan have been faking sleeping the entire time.
"get out" you said. taesan opened his eyes and realized yall were in front of his and jaehyuns house. OH RIGHT, thanks yn" you hum as you watch taesan help jaehyun out. "take care" you said to both of them, before jaehyun gets through the door he turns back at you and smiles softly
"ugh i shouldve recorded that"
oh.
you forgot he was there.
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Prompt number 13 for the dialogue prompts pls?
Thanks for the prompt! #13 “I dare you to kiss me.”
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It starts out, as most things recently do for Steve, with Dustin. He can't even remember what it was Dustin had even wanted him to do. Dustin had said 'I bet you won't do it' and Steve had replied 'you aren't old enough to gamble' and Dustin returned with 'then I dare you.'
And. Well.
He couldn't back down from a dare, could he?
It becomes a Thing. At first, it's just Dustin daring him to do small, easily achievable things (dare you to give me the bag of chips, dare you to pick me up from Hellfire, dare you to slap the top of the next door frame you walk through) but where Steve is, Robin isn't far behind. It doesn't take long for her to start in on it. (Dare you to take me to the diner for lunch, dare you to be on rewind duty today, dare you to have a sleepover with me at your place.)
It spreads beyond them eventually.
"I dare you to try and beat an actual state championship basketball player," Lucas says with a playful grin, ducking out of Steve's grasp even as Steve laughs out a, "I'll show you state championship!"
"I dare you to sit in on a Dungeons and Dragons session," Will says with a cheeky grin, flashing a wink at Dustin, who is fist pumping behind Steve's back because Steve says yes.
"I dare you to be less annoying," Mike says, swatting Steve's hands away from where he was ruffling Mike's hair, sat between Mike and Dustin at said session. Steve rolls his eyes but turns to bug Dustin instead.
It was a joy watching the Party teach El what dares were. Steve forgets, sometimes, that El is still new to most of the things he takes for granted everyday.
Nancy and Jonathan don't really join in on daring Steve to do things, but he's caught Jonathan daring the kids or Argyle to do silly things. Argyle, who had returned to California to finish school but returned to Hawkins almost as soon as the school year ended, loved to join in, though.
Eddie is the last one to join in the Dare Game. It doesn't take Steve long to realize it's because Eddie doesn't know if he's allowed to. Not in a I'm-not-sure-we're-friends way they'd already worked through, but in a I-thought-this-was-an-old-inside-joke way.
Steve assures him it's a recent development. A grab at being silly kids a little while longer now that the Upside Down can't come and ruin anymore childhoods.
"C'mon," Steve grins at him, "I dare you to touch your toes."
Eddie rolls his eyes in response but drops down into sitting cross-legged on the floor, one finger tip poking at the end of his socks. It's cheating but Steve will take a win where he can. Especially since Eddie says, "I dare you to sit down and relax for once in your fucking life."
It's so silly, this little game of I Dare You they've started but it's also wonderful to watch the kids be kids even though they're all onto 15 or 16 now, and only getting older.
The best part of the game is that it's playable anywhere. I dare you to beat my high score is heard often at the arcade. It's also hilarious to see what terrible movies end up at movie night because someone was dared to watch an awful one. The amount of times they've all had to watch Crimewave should be considered torture, honestly.
Steve's favorite part of the game, though, is when the kids dare Eddie to do things. No dare is too ridiculous, silly, or embarrassing for Eddie, it seems. No ones goal is to embarrass each other, Steve's sure, but he also knows that he wouldn't be willing to attempt a cartwheel in the middle of the parking lot in front of the grocery store. Especially since it turns out, Eddie can't do a cartwheel and just kind of flops onto the ground in a heap. Reflexively, Steve took a step forward to check on him but Eddie burst out in laughter quickly and when Eddie laughs it doesn't take long for everyone to join.
He's got an infectious laugh.
He watches Eddie fail at cartwheels, and succeed at climbing trees like a damn squirrel. Eddie's jumped out of swings and off of slides the few times they've gone to the park. Recited the monologue Romeo gives before he drinks the poison (from memory) before pretending to stab himself and fall backwards into Steve's pool (the dare had been to dramatically fall into the pool).
Watching Eddie makes him feel light in a way Steve doesn't think he's ever felt. He's always watching, even when Eddie catches him looking. Steve just meets his eye and gives him a fond smile. Eddie smiles back.
The summer goes on. The dares lessen, the novelty of the game never really fading, but certainly mellowing.
The pool dare, when Eddie'd monologued Shakespeare, had been Steve's favorite dare until the end of summer came.
Steve and Eddie had been dancing around each other, and Eddie, the braver of the two it seemed, puts and end to their misery. It's just Eddie and Steve laying in the grass of the Harrington's backyard, watching the stars come out.
It's as simple as Eddie rolling onto his side beside Steve, propping himself up on an elbow and whispering, "I dare you to kiss me."
And. Well.
He can't back down from a dare, can he?
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ᴄᴏʟʟᴇɢᴇ!ᴍɪʟᴇꜱ ᴍᴏʀᴀʟᴇꜱ ʜᴇᴀᴅᴄᴀɴᴏɴꜱ
Characters: College!Spider-Verse!Miles Morales
Type: headcanons
Synopsis: What would our lovely boy Miles be like as a grown up college student? Does he change or does he still keep his dorky, boyish demeanor?
A/N: HAPPY JUNETEENTH TO MY FELLOW NEGROS!!! In honor of Juneteenth and the release of ATSV, I'm dumping some headanons on yall, and I'm so proud of how these turned out. I was talking with my friend how we heavily believed that we would see a grown up Miles but when we found out only a year passed in Miles’ timeline for him, the topic of college!Miles came up. So these headcanons are pretty much a product of how we thought miles would be as a college student around our age.
Note: the first pic is of Shameik Moore, I just used a cartoon filter over it to try and make it look like the art style in the spiderverse franchise. The third one is not Shameik Moore but I use the same cartoon filter over it for the same effect
Warnings: Some cursing but that’s about it. KEEP IT CUTE PG-16 CUZ THIS IS NEPHEW WE TALKIN' BOUT HERE!!!
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College!Miles isn’t a complete one-eighty of his mid-teen self, but rather, he builds on the defining attributes of his youth and matures them. He’s still pretty self-effacing, modest and humble, but he’s more confident in himself and the man he wants to become. He’s selfless and courageous and loving to a fault, and anyone who’s anyone who has been in his presence can say that Miles is a great person all around.
College!Miles ends up going to study in New Jersey, majoring in Physics Engineering, but also minoring in African Psychology on the track for social work. He knows that he can only do so much good behind his Spiderman mask, and believes that he should also be putting in the work when he isn’t wearing it. It’s an obligation for him to put his best food forward for his community and his people.
College!Miles who mixes his style with 90’s black streetwear and modern day. He’s a sneakerhead, so his dorm room gradually accumulates with boxes upon boxes of shoes damn near reaching the ceiling. His room back home is much worse though (Rio can’t even clean his room anymore because everywhere she looks, it’s a box of shoes chucked somewhere. Mama has given up lmao). And similar to the first outfit we see him in in ATSV, he loves the sports-jersey-over-solid-color-shirt combo, but has a decent amount of hoodies and tee’s both graphic and plain, that he likes to throw on with a pair of jeans and shoes. He knows how to dress, and he knows that he looks good in what he wears too.
College!Miles who never steps out the house without a chain on. He’s got two specific ones that he wears primarily - a silver cuban link his parents got him for his eighteenth birthday that he wears daily, and a gold snake chain that he bought for himself with his first check from his first big boy job. There are other necklaces that he has that he’ll throw on it he wants to switch things up. He’s not a big fan of things on his wrist (he’s gotten too used to the web shooters that everything else just feels funny or wrong), but he has a watch that he only wears to be fancy and a couple of rings that go on his middle or forefingers. He also has a few pairs of studded earrings he switches between every now and then to keep up a fresh look.
College!Miles who starts to take special care in his appearance as he reaches his late teen years. He can only go to his mom when he’s on breaks or vacation when he travels back to Brooklyn, but he’s learned enough from Rio to do his own line-ups and touch ups to make him look decent. It took him a minute to get used to doing it on his own, but he was adamant on learning because he was firm on not letting anyone else into his head besides his mother. He’d recently gotten into cutting slits into his eyebrows too, as they make him feel super cool
College!Miles who knows he’s got girls & guys coming left and right waiting for the opportunity to get with him, but as much as he’s a loverboy, he’s also very intentional with how he moves and is very perceptive of people (his Spidey senses enhance it a lot more than what he wishes sometimes) that he peeps that a lot of them are only attracted to his looks. He doesn’t date for the first few semesters of college, and when his parents ask if he’s gonna bring someone home soon, he tells them that he’s too busy making gateways to dimensions to open the gateways to dating
College!Miles whose love for hip hop never dies over the years. Instead it seems to grow. He adds a few new artists to her playlist - JID, Young M.A., Tobe Nwigwe, & Kendrick Lamar from the hip hop and rap scenes (Miles uses many of Tobe’s songs as hype music to gas himself up). Though he’s also found an appreciation for other genres, like R&B and Neo-Soul. Some of these artists include but are not limited to: H.E.R., UMI, Ari Lennox, and Bryson Tiller.
College!Miles who still holds on to his art as a hobby and destresser from his many classes and double-identity. His street art follows him wherever he goes, tagging new places that have people wondering who the hell made it all the way up there to tag that. There’s a secret pride that swells in him when he sees passersby admiring the artwork.
College!Miles who, when the world gets too much and he feels like everythings going wrong, he climbs the tallest building he can find and just watches the sunrise or sunset. He lets the breathtaking view ease his mind and the warm sun soothe his worries away. Being so high up and away from people allows him to actually think about the troubles that plague him, so when he comes back down, he can address them accordingly
College!Miles who’s still very much a momma’s boy. He calls Rio almost every day, either to just talk or to rant about something silly. She’ll put him on speaker for Jefferson to hear and just looks at her husband like “Listen to your son” when he’s being silly. But it’s so sweet that Miles always has his parents on his mind when he’s away at school. He also calls his dad to have ‘guy talk’, which ain’t nothing but Miles and Jefferson either talking about sports, his academics (which Jeff is really supportive of, even if he doesn’t understand the physics part, he loves to hear his sons ideas on the psychology minor he’s taken on) or random funny shit the guys that they hang around do every day.
College!Miles who grows more confident in his Spanish and uses it more and more in his day-to-day life. He’ll speak it when he’s talking to himself, when he’s angry or if he’s hurt himself (which happens the same amount of times as it did when he was a teen), or he’ll try and surprise his mom with a conversation in complete Spanish (which he does succeed in sometimes).
College!Miles who’s barely changed from the loveable boy who we all know and love as a teen. He just grew some more and became cooler, but he still radiates the same dorky, intelligent, and loving energy he’s always had.
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A Ghost. Forever.
I've been thinking recently about that strange disconnect to my past I have earned as a trans person. When I was 16 years old I graduated from my old school (as per the Swedish education system), leaving behind over a decade together with classmates I had known for practically my entire life at that point. I bumped into one or two in public during the following year or so, but it's been 15 years since I heard anything from any of them. Contact networks change, people go their separate ways, time moves on, etc. That's a regular part of life.
Still, those connections are formative ones. These were people I used to call friends, although in hindsight I think of them more as mutuals – acquaintances. We didn't share more than broad interests, every now and then we got into fights, some hurt me quite a lot, but in an awkward sense I know a part of my soul is connected to these people through a substantially shared past.
Sometimes I remember them with fondness, other times with anger. And then I realize all I have left of them are frozen snapshots that have remained unchanged since June 2008. I moved on, went out into the world, visited new places, met new people, I never ever returned. Some part of me imagines that I could walk back to our old school, step into one of the classrooms and see their ghosts waiting for me.
"You are late." "Where have you been all this time?" "Now, where were we?"
But I understand that's not true, they too have lived full rich lives ever since our last shared moment. I remember a lot of names, I can search them online and find the traces. Privated Facebook accounts, superficial Linked In pages, the odd Instagram profile. Everyone looks frighteningly adult, like they somehow lived at least ten more years than me. They got old, but I believe they're doing well.
I'm sure one or two of them have shared this curiosity and occasionally peeked at the glimpses of each others lives. Except mine.
All ties to the past have been severed. Many years ago I came out as trans, changed all of my personal info and got a new ID. My old name, my old identity, has been wiped off the face of the Earth. If someone where to look for that person they would find less than nothing. A ghastly absence. Of course, everyone of any importance to me knows about this change. I never disappeared, I am still here. But to the outsiders with nothing more than a faded memory and an outdated name, I must simply have vanished into thin air.
In the beginning, I took relief in this. "Now, no one will ever find me again. I won't have to deal with some awkward school reunion. They can't touch me anymore." But now I'm not so sure. I've changed so much, and discovered so much about myself. The idea that two dozen people are still walking around out there with vividly detailed conceptions of me based on nothing but a long forgotten and rejected past feels wrong. It feels perverted. But that's the price you pay. In exchange for becoming my real self, I allowed those strangers to keep me as a frozen snapshot.
June 2008. 16 years old. Forever.
But does it have to be that way? Can I not mend this? Suddenly I want nothing more in the world. I want to show these people what became of me. How much I grew. Maybe I want to prove myself? I had the grandest adventure, I learned the most about myself, I completed my metamorphosis, no change was as drastic as mine, I won. They become involuntary ambassadors for everything I resent about my old self. I reduce these regular people to demons of all my buried insecurities and bottled up doubt. Little perpetual 16 year old brats. As dehumanized by our separation as I fear myself to be. How I hate them. How I hate that I hate them.
Of course I could solve this. It's laughably simple. I can reach out, try to reestablish contact. I certainly have the means.
"Hello, you might not remember me. We went to school together. I changed my name since then, though. Yes, I'm trans. Yes, I was in the closet even back then. I just wanted someone, anyone, to know. How have you been?"
I seriously thought about this. It's a scary move, I know nothing about how these people are now. Maybe they remember me with contempt as a collage of only their absolute worst memories? Maybe they've grown to be bigots eager to harass the unwitting victim landing in their lap? Maybe they don't remember me at all? Maybe they don't care?
Maybe I don't want to talk to any of these people?
In my mind I quickly narrowed it down to one person who I would feel the most safe and willing to reach out to. The last feasible bridge to my past. The one person I could still imagine being my friend after all these years. I'd known her since preschool. She was always really smart, we were always on good terms, but never really hung out together. We were merely in the same friend group. She was one of the few people I'd stumbled into past graduation. We had sporadically discussed music over MSN. When I was 17 years old she relayed an invitation for me to go to a punk show with her. She had said I was so kind. I neglected the offer. I deeply regret this. Not because I'd expect anything for showing up; anything but, I was already taken. It just felt rude of me. Maybe who I was back then wanted to sever my last connection to the past? Maybe who I am now wants to apologize more than anything? I realize of all the people from my old life, she would have the most unique last impression. As this distant, faceless loner holed up in a dark bedroom. Hopelessly unwilling to do anything at all. To be anything at all.
17 years old. Forever.
I decide it's no good. I don't actually feel strongly about this and I can't imagine she would either. It's been 15 years, any semblance of remorse is long gone. That version of me doesn't exist anymore, that version of her doesn't exist anymore. There is nothing to salvage, nothing to mend. I left all of that behind half my life ago. The past is gone.
I have nothing to say to whoever this person is now.
So I will remain as I was for all of those people. A skewed shadow of the truth. They will never know the real me. It is not my responsibility to reconnect and inform them about what I've been up to. I don't owe them anything. I can't get hung up on my imagination of what imagined specters would imagine me to be. This reflects more about me than anyone else. I am mourning my unfulfilled potential. Projecting it upon the memories that will never go away.
I just fear that one day my old classmates will arrange a school reunion. They'll all find each other with ease, but be stumped by my absence. They'll believe I'm dead. Died young as nothing but their incomplete picture of who I was. Perhaps at least one of them would have the detective knowhow to contact my parents and ask about me, so they could find me, discover my miraculous change and invite me to show who I finally became. I could complete the fragmented part of my childhood and finally illuminate my shadow. I could stop this looming feeling from growing ever larger with each year. But I'm not holding out hope. For all I know this reunion has already taken place. They held a silent moment for my unknown demise and promptly forgot all about me. Without ever knowing who I could've been, who I became.
A ghost. Forever.
/Kiki
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Royal Pain Part 16
Hello, darlings! I wanted to get this to you before I got too busy and forgot. My birthday is on Monday and I'm having a party on Saturday that I'm preparing for today, tomorrow, and most the day Saturday. I hope to get something out during that time, but I might not be able to get it up until Sunday.
Also I found out I was accidentally tagging @chaoticlovingdreamer twice! I don't think it did anything, but it was funny it took me this long to catch on!
Speaking of tagging, it used to be easy to tag from a copied list, just click on name, select drop down, move on to the next. But for some stupid reason I can't anymore and have to delete the last character in their username to get it to pop up. Is anyone else having this problem or is it just my life deciding to make it more difficult again?
Today for your enjoyment: communication, drunk Robin, and soulmate bonding!
Part 1 Part 2 Part 3 Part 4 Part 5 Part 6 Part 7 Part 8 Part 9 Part 10 Part 11 Part 12 Part 13 Part 14 Part 15
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Eddie crowed inside when Steve blushed at his comment. “And for record, sweetheart, I could see us tangled in your sheets. Not just the hot sex but everything before and after. All I’m asking is to take it slow.”
Steve gulped. “I’ll go at whatever speed you need, Eds. Honest. You set the pace.” He gave Eddie’s hand a squeeze. “And if you change your mind tomorrow, I’m down for that, too. If you decide we’re better as friends, I’ll be your best friend, okay?”
Eddie smiled. “I think Jeff and Robin might take offense to that.”
Steve laughed. “Nah, nah, Robin is my platonic soulmate, that’s separate from best friend.”
Eddie grinned. “I guess Jeff is more like family then a best friend. All the guys are.”
“There you have it,” Steve said smiling at him, merriment sparkling in his eyes.
They walked hand in hand all the way the way to the Rainbow High Club. They were forced to let go to flash their IDs, but they stayed close to each other, blushing and smiling at each other every time they caught the other’s eyes.
Chrissy’s eyes lit up. “How have I never heard of this place?” she asked, trying to take in as much of the sights as she could all at once. “It’s amazing.”
“Who’re the DDs tonight?” Robin asked, gleefully rubbing her hands together.
Steve, Gareth and Mandy all raise their hands. Eddie pouted.
“Stevie, you’re not drinking tonight?” he whined.
Steve laughed. “I’m working on your tattoo tomorrow, sunshine. I am not working on you hung over.”
Eddie cocked his head to the side. “Yeah, that’s fair.”
*
Now that Eddie and Steve knew where they stood with each other, that last barrier of tension vanished between them. They were laughing more freely. Touching more readily. Just having a blast knowing the potential for more was there waiting for them when they were willing to take that step.
Steve knew where the line in the sand was now and cranked up the charm to eleven. Just being a gentleman.
Eddie ate up the attention like a sunflower in summer following the sun. He felt that last bit of worry just clatter to floor like a chain coming off of a worn gate after so many years being locked away.
Jeff and Mandy ate it up on the dance floor, pulling Gareth with them as they got the shyer man to come out of his shell a little bit.
Brian even managed to get the DJ to play a little metal. Steve sipped on a Coke and laughed as he watched his friends get silly on the dance. He had barely finished his drink when Robin grabbed his hand and led him to the dance floor.
He cussed her out but she just kissed his cheek and told him to move his hips for fuck’s sake.
His dancing was terrible, but he let himself join the crowd and sway to the beat.
Eddie said in his ear, “You know in ‘Pride and Prejudice’ being a bad dancer meant you were bad at sex.”
Steve snorted. “Seriously?”
Eddie nodded. “So you know I’ve got to ask...”
“No, trust me when I say I tango better in bed than out of it,” Steve said with a giggle.
“You got receipts for that, big boy?” Eddie asked, dropping his voice low, startling a gasp out of Steve.
His giggle turned into a full on laugh. “You want a list of my very satisfied exes?”
“And their phone number,” Eddie teased back. “If you’re going to win me over Casanova, I’m gonna need references.”
“I think I can handle that,” Steve said in total seriousness.
Eddie pushed him away, a laugh stuttering out of him. “Get off, you menace. Jeez!”
Steve backed up, giving him the space. “You started it.”
“Sorry I forgot you were Mr Charm Everyone’s Panties Off in high school,” Eddie said rolling his eyes.
Steve chuckled. “I’ve still got it, I just don’t date much because I have to run a shop.”
Eddie leaned back in. “And honey, I’ve got nothing but time.”
Steve grinned.
*
At the bar a blond man with legs for days and a cocky grin leaned against the edge of the bartop with his elbows. Ink peaked out of the black tank top he was wearing and he had piercings in both ears and a snakebite piercing on his lower lip. He lowered his sunglasses as he watched Eddie and Steve on the dance floor. His bright blue eyes glittered with malice, the grin never leaving his face.
*
Steve got a giggling Robin up the stairs to their apartment and into her bed. He pulled off her jacket and shoes and rolled her under the covers. She made grabby hands at him when he stood back up.
“I’m going to get ready for bed and I’ll be right back,” he told her.
She pouted, but let him go.
Steve made a mad dash to his room, where he threw on his pajama pants and a faded band tee and rushed back to Robin’s room.
“Where you go?” she asked with a frown.
He shook his head and climbed into bed with her. She immediately latched to him like some kind of possessive sea creature. Like a an octopus or a barnacle.
“Why did you surround me with pretty girls?” she wailed. “All the pretty girls all at once.”
Steve snorted. Mandy and Chrissy were not ‘all’ by anyone’s stretch of the imagination.
“Mandy has a boyfriend,” he gently reminded her.
“Did you know she did ballet?” Robin whisper-yelled. “That’s why she has such long legs and great tits.”
“Yes, I was there when she told us,” Steve soothed.
“And Chrissy was athletic, too!” Robin continued. “Cheerleading is scary hot.”
Steve huffed out a small laugh. “What does that even mean?”
“The...” she made a weird motion with her hands, “and the woo...” she threw her arms in the air, “and the ‘yay!’ That’s scary.”
He rolled his eyes. “The tumbling?”
Robin hit his arm over and over. “That, that! Yes. And the hot is the uniform. Have you seen the uniform?” she growled.
Steve laughed. “I was in basketball, yes. You know one of the two sports that has cheerleaders?”
“The skirt is itty-bitty,” she slurred, putting her hands together as close as they would go without touching. “And no sleeves! Bare midriffs too. And and the cute little socks!”
“Can’t forget the cute little socks,” he agreed.
She slapped his arm again, this time harder. “And don’t you dare try to change the subject. I see you.” She pointed at her eyes and then at him, nearly poking his eye out.
“I didn’t change anything,” he muttered, “you started talking and haven’t stopped.”
“I saw you run the bathroom after the concert, gig, thingy...” she frowned. “What is it called the every day one not the tour-y one?”
“Gig,” Steve said gently.
Robin slapped his arm again. “Don’t change the subject!” she hissed. “You got hella horny watching your boy sing!” She threw out her arms and did hit him in the face that time.
“Yes,” he agreed. “I will be better prepared next time we go.”
“You have the hots for Eddie,” she said leaning in close.
But before Steve could answer, Robin was out cold. Her low tolerance for alcohol knocking her out at last. He carefully untangled himself from her embrace knowing that her drunken snoring would be like a buzzsaw in his ear if he slept in her room.
He pulled his shirt off and slipped into his own covers a smile on his face.
*
The next morning he had coffee and the greasiest breakfast sandwich he could find ready for his platonic soulmate when she staggered out of bed and into the kitchen. He handed her a small glass of water and painkillers, which she took under his watchful eye.
“I feel like I should hate for this,” she muttered into her steaming styrofoam cup.
Steve grinned, knowing full well that if laughed, she would straight on murder him and he really didn’t want to go yet.
“Also, don’t think you dodged the talk about you rushing to the bathroom after the show,” she grumped. “Because that was a bit pervy even for you.”
Steve rolled his eyes as he chowed down on his own less greasy sandwich. “I was totally unprepared for how hot he was that close up,” he snarked.
Robin raised an eyebrow. “He did seem particularly out to get you with that little number he was wearing last night.”
“Seriously,” he agreed. “But I’ll know better next time, plan ahead, sit behind the table.”
She giggled.
He propped his head on his hands, elbows planted on their counter. “But enough about that. I want to talk about two lovely blondes making goo-goo eyes at each other all night.”
She pushed his arm causing him to almost smack his face into the counter as he lost the support.
“Shut up,” Robin hissed. “She did not make goo-goo eyes at me all night. I would have noticed.”
Steve laughed. “I noticed you didn’t deny making goo-goo eyes at her.”
She blushed, and took a sip of her coffee to hide her embarrassment. “She’s so pretty and smart and how I am suppose to win her over when she so far out of my league.”
Steve came over and grabbed both of her cheeks in his hands. “Robin Eloise Buckley you are just as beautiful and smart and talented as she is. Just in a different way. I know right now you’re feeling morose because you have a hangover. So trust me in this moment, you are every bit as awesome as she is and if she doesn’t see that then we say?”
“Fuck that?” she whispered.
“I don’t think I heard you,” he said cocking the side of his head so he could tilt his right ear her direction.
“Fuck that,” Robin said with more conviction.
“There you go,” he said and gave her a fierce kiss on the forehead. “Now what I want you to do while I’m gone is watch the ‘Pride & Prejudice’ mini-series with that tub of Ben & Jerry’s I know you’ve been saving and when I’m done I’ll grab Chinese from that favorite shop on the corner, okay?”
She set the coffee down and gave him a fierce hug. “You’re the best soulmate a girl could ask for.”
Steve squeezed her back. “Hard same.”
She laughed. “You are such a dork.”
“Yes, but I’m your dork.”
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heyhey B!
I love ur writing more than I love air ykwim but I want to ask if you can write Y/n finding out their show has been canceled and the TH boys back her up when she starts arguing with the managers (they're like 16-17 ish in this)
also congrats on the job !!!
thanks sugar ❤︎
Okay yes- I love writing for angry characters 🤭
Don't F*ck with her
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warnings- swearing, roughhousing?
words- 1.1k
(I used my friend Erik for the managers name btw she said he would be a bald fat guy?)
"you're joking?" Y/n rose from her make-up chair were she had already finished her look and was ready for the stage "no- Lynsey your fucking with me right? we're meant to be on in literally twenty minuets and you come in here and tell me it's canceled!" the girl was seething
"Y/n I'm sorry- you need to speak with the manager I can't do anything" her assistant directed with a sorry face "I was just told, the audience will find out soon" Y/n shot past Lynsey who quickly followed her to the boys changing room, the sound of laughing and jokes broke as she yanked the door open
"he fucking canceled the show" Y/n spat
"what?" the boys faces dropped "what do you mean canceled?"
"fucking canceled it! I swear to god I'm going to go ape-shit on Chris right fucking now, who's coming?" with a face like thunder Tom got up followed by his brother and the others "Lyn where are they?"
"follow me" Lyn had worked with the band for years she was one of their best friends and knew that they'd had enough with this new manager Chris constantly messing things up, the red-haired girl directed them to the 'office room' where Chris was sat watching tv "sir- the band are here to see you" he sighed
"yes?" Y/n shoved past the door and eyed the man up "Y/n?"
"canceled?!" Bill asked but was more of a 'are you taking the piss?' sort of voice "were meant to be on soon!"
"I realise that- but" Tom looked toward the girl who was chewing her lip to the point blood would probably start dripping "look"
"No you look right fucking here- we have a whole audience out there still oblivious to the fact were not going on and what reason are we meant to give? our managers a stupid dickwad who is messing around the 5 people who make him the money that feeds his fucking family hm?" Chris stood up from his seat and walked toward the girl, the boys took a step back but she stayed in her place, Gustav reached toward the girl but she didn't budge. Chris was now an inch away from her face, their eyes locked "you don't scare me- not anymore I'm not gonna let you do anything more to our band-"
"who says you have a choice- I own you all, I could snatch every reputation you ever have away from you in a second" his hand went around the girl jaw before letting go quickly "so go back to you room- take off that slutish make up and shut your mouths- understand me?" Bill had enough of seeing Y/n toyed with, he stepped forward shoving the man off her space, a laugh beloved from the man as he turned to the boys, eyes mostly set upon Bill
"don't fucking touch my brother-" Tom spoke pulling Bill back to him "you are fucking ruining our careers and like Y/n said- you pull this show, not one of us get any money- so grow a fucking pair you bald prick and let us play"
"you're a fucking stupid cunt- your making our lives a fucking nightmare" Gustav yelled getting nods from the other 4
"think I'm going to listen to 5 little kids? you're all pathetic" Georg scoffed
"mate your what 55 and make your living of us- your last band fired you so you came to us, who said we ever wanted a money stealing, pervy, pissface owning us?"
"good point- actually tell you what Chris get your shit together- your fired and were going onto that god-damn-fucking stage and telling that whole ass stadium, guys get your stuff were going" Bill walked out and straight to stage, the Tokio Hotel intro hadn't even played but the 5 walked on and the audience roared as they entered "HELLO GEORGIA" the band yelled
"so were sorry about the hold up but we wanna say something- so you all know Chris Satpled? yeah well we just fucking fired the lunatic as he was cancelling our shows and was trying to cancel tonights" Y/n screamed to them all and a huge boo ran through the people making the band clap them, the 5 ran to their instruments, Tom, Georg and Y/n went to get their guitars, Bill and Georg went to their places and waited for the three
"were gonna preform for you all tonight and we'll have a special song for Chris later-" Bill laughed as the band began playing
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"Thank you for a wonderful show everyone and as we said we have a very special song for Chris- so it goes like this- FUCK CHRIS SATPLED FUCK CHRIS SATPLED FUCK CHRIS SATPLED FUCK CHRIS SATPLED" Bill started a chant through the whole stadium of people, the guitarist kept strumming a beat they created along with Gustav and the crowd, Y/n took a step forward to the mic and coughed
"Oh these were bought by Chris' company so-" she took a step back, unhooking the guitar strap from her and slamming it to the floor and a cheer shot from everyone, next Tom and Georg started smashing their guitars and the sound of symbols crashing to the floor as Gustav kicked them down and stabbed the skins of his drums and shoved them along with the kit
The band all met at the front and took one last bow before going off and jumping at each other laughing, they had backstage runners asking what they were doing but the band ignored them all.
Time past and they knew that a crowd would be outside and they also knew Chris would have to walk through them all, they waited at the exit doors and Chris was their speaking with the bands security, their ex-manager took one last look at the all and rolled his eyes "punks"
"get fucked you absolute wank stain- I hope you get fucked over again and again" Y/n grinned waving to the man who pull his coat taught
"I'll find a better band who respects a man like me" Tom shook his head walking to the man and patting his shoulder
"good luck finding a better band than us you knob- now get the fuck out" the people outside cheer's turned to boo's as the stumpy man walked out, water was thrown at him and the chant started again making the band burst out laughing and soon followed his last footsteps, Tom walked close to the girl as they calmed down grabbing things to sign from fans "you know what- we found you all pretty hot when angry" Y/n laughed shoving him away "hey don't just attack me we all did"
"shut it Kaulitz- I swear to god I'll kill you all" she walked away from the 4 boys and started speaking with fans and taking pictures
"don't fuck with her huh?" Georg laughed
"agreed" the other joined following Y/n "hot though?" Gustav looked to the boys who quickly nodded and all started giggling away
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Sex with Jack Harlow all night (ONESHOT)
Minors DNI! Smut. 18+ unprotected sex. Always use protection.
A/N: 7/16/23: omg- y’all thank you for 100 NOTESSSSS I LOVE YALL for all the support!
Jack ends up fucking you roughly and deeply.
You're so fucking good that he barely registers you've come until you groan loudly when he releases his cum inside of you. Jack takes off his own shirt in between pants and looks down at your chest where you're still shuddering from the orgasm. "Shit. I didn't mean to fuck you so much." He pulls out a small towel and wipes at his chest while he waits for you to get your breath back. It only took a couple seconds but you are still catching it as you try to process what just happened. Jack doesn't want you to think this was an accident.
You smile and shrug,
"It wasn't so bad." And then
you give him another kiss. This one has some tongue. You have to pull away after you're finished because both of you can't handle kissing too long or having too intense sex. You need your brain for something more than just lust. You're not a slut like that. But Jack knows you'll go right back if he makes you feel wanted again. That's okay with him, though. He needs to know how to make you feel wanted. So, you don't stop. Not even when he starts to move. His hand is on your hip, holding you to him while he thrusts into you over and over. Your hands slip under his boxers and you touch him through the fabric. It feels good. A lot of things do. Jack lets out an approving noise and holds you tighter against him. The two of you are sweaty now, both breathing heavy. Jack can tell you were enjoying yourself too. The way your legs are wrapped around his hips, the moan you made.
His cock is still hard, leaking precome. Jack tries to pull away but you hold him closer, wanting more of his weight. 'Come here. You whisper.Jack doesn't have to be told twice. He lowers himself and you suck on him gently. Jack's hands travel lower to rest on your ass, pulling you close. One hand goes into your hair, the other rubs gently over your clit until you start moaning again.
Jack's thrusts grow faster, harder. Soon, he can't control himself anymore. He comes hard and fast inside of you and he knows it won't take long before you finish coming too. He kisses you hard as he rides out his orgasm and then he collapses beside you in a heap. When you catch your breath and calm down, you snuggle close to Jack, resting your head on his shoulder. He puts his arm around your waist, rubbing circles into your
back.
The two of you lie there together for several minutes, just basking in the moment. When Jack finally gets up, he kisses you, you kiss at moan at him. He smiles at you fondly when you ask for another kiss. "We need to clean up," you say eventually.
Jack nods, smiling fondly. He helps you to stand and then leads you toward the bathroom, which isn't all that far. Jack turns on the shower once you're both inside. He grabs a washcloth and wet it quickly before running back to you. He cleans your face and neck. While doing this, he tells you about his day and how much fun he had with his friends at school. When he's done cleaning you up and getting rid of the leftover semen in your underwear, he kisses you again. It tastes different this time and you're a little surprised to find Jack isn't kissing you the way he did before. You tilt your head up and meet his eyes before asking him about it. "Is something wrong?"
Jack shakes his head, "No, nothing. Then he pulls you into a hug. He's still holding the washcloth, wiping the sweat from your forehead.
Your skin is sticky. Jack presses a soft kiss to your lips before putting his hand under your thigh and pushing you onto the toilet seat. You gasp in surprise. "What the fuck?" you say. "I thought I was supposed to be washing you?"
Jack laughs, *I'm taking care of you. Now shut up and let me clean you." Before you can argue further, Jack climbs on top of you and starts scrubbing the soap suds away from your body.
It's slow at first but when you realize he's going to keep at it, you reach for his dick. You wrap your hand around it, caressing it gently until Jack pushes you aside gently and continues rinsing your body with the wash cloth. Once he's finished washing your body (he also lathers you up with a nice cream, using his fingers), he pulls you up to stand by your feet. You're naked save for your panties and the wash cloth.
After drying off, Jack grabs your hips and asks if you want to ride him, you agree and start to ride him aganist the well while he fucks you deeply.
It's really fucking amazing. He loves watching your pussy tighten around his cock as he hits your sweet spot. Jack wants to hear you cry out loud with each thrust of his cock. You look so beautiful right now that you could put the stars to shame.
It's like you're glowing with the sun itself. Jack loves it when you come, especially when he
loves it when you come, especially when he watches your face. He likes seeing your eyes close tightly and the look on your face when you lose control. The way you shake your shoulders and grip the counter behind you. When he sees the look of pure ecstasy on your face, he decides to give you a big smacking. His mouth on yours is like nothing else in the world. It doesn't matter that he's being rough or demanding or that your body is writhing underneath him. All that matters is Jack's hands and lips on you, his hands cupping your breasts, his mouth sucking on you.
And all that matters is how much you love it.
Once you're both spent and Jack is done washing you, he carries you to bed. There are no words spoken, but you know this is what they're doing.
You don't care. As long as you're in bed together, nothing else matters. Jack kisses your cheek before climbing onto the bed with you. You roll over and curl up next to him, spooning him. He's warm and smells like his soap. Your hands wander down his bare torso until they land on his belly.
He reaches down and covers your hands with his own. The feeling sends sparks flying through your veins. You sigh happily, leaning your cheek against the side of his ribs. Jack runs a hand up your arm and tugs on a strand of your hair before falling asleep.
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i'm obsessed with aki, like it's not even funny. I JUST NEED MORE OF HIM IN MY LIFE LAWD HAVE MERCY. would you happen to have a bit more information on the loml...? if not it's aight big love <33
YOU CAN ALWAYS ASK ME ABOUT HIM i'm so sorry it took so long to reply i have been so everywhere but i have been meaning to find like sketches and stuff i have around of him :)
collated a bunch of old sketches of his family!! aki was originally going to be a part of a big like. chinese-zodiac inspired thing and his family in particular were the snakes (he's got the character in his last name lol) and him and his siblings all got snake characteristics . there is however nothing new under the sun and even though i thought this was cool my friend was like "oh like fruits basket" and i shelved the idea LOL
in the end he just existed in a vaccum, i had nothing to do with him, before i dragged him out of there with the intention to drop him into a simpler slice-of-life story with a bunch of terrible postgrad students. that story mainly revolves around like.. biomed researchers basically?? aki would have been an ex-STEM student who dropped out because he didn't want to do medicine anymore, but kept in touch with his friends from the course (the other cast might eventually also be forced into IFs LOL)
more under the cut!
i eventually completely veered off the zodiac-course and kept his base design and turned those scales into tattoos! he's got more in infamous, but in this universe it's just those snakes winding around his arms!!!! infamous tattoos are kind of not set in stone cause i plan to add more (inspired by the bandmates) and the tattoos are supposed to be based off them!! there was no way he'd stop at just seven's initials, he has a little thing for all of them!!!! bc we're only really two chapters into infamous tho i just want more time to "know" the bandmates and then give more him more tats (i have been reading asks about them and trying to assign stuff LMFMFMFAOOO)
what he has and i consistently draw him w are seven's initials, the snakes (leftover design from the kind of concept he was based off of), lotuses/flowers (could change!! i'm thinking rn that he gets everyone's favorite flower/plant tattooed), wave designs (i'm praying someone's a water sign), and he's also got the opening notes of their first song that they played as a band :)
the original version of him is also based vaguely off a friend i made in uni who did hair/makeup and which i still think is so cool and gave him that !!!! more specifically he sort of dropped out of a good-asian-kid stem course to do this, which freaked his parents out when they realised he was just Leaving to go cut people's hair. aki's pretty great at it, and is lucky enough to work at a good stylist agency <3
kills it at karaoke with his friends in this universe too :) his genuine passion for working as a stylist and love for his job translates into music for infamous, which despite how "i'm-so-cool-and-chill-about-everything" he tries to seem, is his biggest worry. he really really wants to succeed and stick it to his parents, and can't imagine what else he'd ever do. music is all he has and really gets lost in songwriting/singing :)
his stage name akiya is also a reference to the word for abandoned/empty houses in rural areas in japan. they're cheap to buy, but cost a lot to repair and flip. this is a stealth dig at his parents lol but aki passes it off as a portmanteau of his first/last name: he is secretly emo like this </3
also their band name, snakebites, in general is like 1) "what's cool when we are 16 and making this band when we are in high school" and 2) the band's shared birth year being the year of the snake (2001/i'm projecting) (they're still like 25/26 which makes infamous oddly take place in the future for me, 2027ish???) and luckily i don't believe the year it takes place matters to anyone so i'm just going with it <3 don't think about it too hard this is deep lore that only makes sense to me
their fandom name also call themselves snakes, and they lean into this for their promo materials (each member gets a government assigned snake breed) LMFAO !! aki lightly thinks its cringe but it's not hurting anyone, so he just told maya that he thought the name was great LOLLLLL !!! they have a vaguely edgy image because of this (and because ya know. lots of drama surrounding seven leaving) even though they're much more an indie rock band (sounding more like hippo campus, yona yona weekenders, young the giant) with a reputation for being wholesome
there's also a fun game their fans like to play called "using aki's hair, what era of snakebites is this" LOL <3
i hope this was kind of understandable <3 thank you for letting me cry about my boy <3
#this is like. so much random facts and stuff BUT I HOPE ITS OK!!!!#i plan to develop him more WITH infamous lol#lots of preexisting bland ocs get thrown into the IF rodeo to get cooler so again some of this might be subject to change LOOLLLL#thank u for the ask again :) <3#akihiro yasumi#my art
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The Escape - Part 18
Part 1 - Part 2 - Part 3 - Part 4 - Part 5 - Part 6 - Part 7 - Part 8 - Part 9 - Part 10 - Part 11 - Part 12 - Part 13 - Part 14 - Part 15 - Part 16 - Part 17
Warning: Minors do not interact, Buggy x fem reader / Smut - Buggy is inexperienced and this is not romantic at all but almost like every first time with someone new - sloppy, a bit unsatisfying. But there will be character development and of course more fluff later. <3
You lay in your chamber, the sword leaning against your little closet, the dress hanging always ready and not worn yet on a hook at the door. You decided to take a nap, knowing the Buggy pirates would probably later celebrate their victory and you wanted to join them. As you are about to close your eyes you can hear Buggy entering your room, no knocking, no announcement of his intrusion.
“How are you?”, he asks, his voice layered with worry.
“I'm all good!”, you try to forgive his lack of manners by trying to appreciate his concern.
“Good, good. We only lost two men, but it was worth it - the marines even had a transponder snail which is in our hands now.”
A gentle smile graces your lips as you witness the happiness radiating from him.
“Y/n, why did this Lieutenant know your name? Why was she trying to take you with her?”
The heavy tiredness from earlier is now lifting from you in an instant as your Captain asks this question.
“I have no idea…!”, you utter, not sure if this answer would satisfy Buggy.
He stays silent, his watery green eyes fixed upon you, their intensity seemingly piercing through your very being. It's as if he searches for something, a glimmer of truth hidden within you, perhaps nestled within your heart or buried deep within your core.
You feel uncomfortable and start to sit up.
“There are so many reasons why the marines would be after me. I am a pirate, I am friends with Luffy, now I am part of your crew..”, you gesture aimlessly in the air, trying to make a point. Buggy suddenly steps towards you, interrupting you before you can start a new sentence. Suddenly, in an intimate gesture he grabs your chin, forces you gently to look at him, his face in close proximity to yours.
“I don't care about your past, Y/n. But if there is anything I should know as your captain and friend, I simply ask you to share this with me…”
A nervous gulp escapes your throat as you can't help but acknowledge his undeniable handsomeness. The way he has been treating you with increased kindness in recent days stirs a whirlwind of emotions within you. Yet, his reluctance to openly express his affection when you're together only adds to your growing frustration. You remember when he took you away from Loguetown, when he said, full of confidence: “I think she likes me, she just doesn't know yet..” And at this point you wonder if he might actually be the one who doesn't know yet that he liked you as well. You look at his beautiful cheekbones, the smeared clown makeup around his eyes and his lips. He doesn't need to know much about you to feel close to you. He probably senses your desire, you feel like his touch is now almost burning your skin. “Please, Buggy…” you cannot say anymore than this because he finally starts kissing you. His kiss is sloppy, his lips pressing half-hearted on yours, he breaths in your mouth, his red nose pressing against your skin. You close your eyes, so he cannot see how happy you are about him taking initiative. He pushes you back, his kiss getting a bit more intense now, until you reach your little shelf where you keep your few belongings - a hair brush, a glass for drinking, your bag when you go on land. He detaches his arms from his body, shoving them under your legs to lift you up and with a swift motion he pushes you on that shelf, you can hear the glass falling down and most likely crashing into pieces. He still kisses you, more passionate than before, he is panting, gently forcing your thighs apart. He stands now in between your legs and you sit just before him, arms locked around his neck. Buggy moans into your mouth, you feel dizzy from your own desire and you feel that there is a hard bulge in his pants pressing against the part vulnerably open between your legs. He interrupts the kiss to look at you, his green eyes seem to shine in adoration, you can see how he has lost control over his own desires. He opens his pants and takes off his coat, with a swift motion he also throws his hat on your hammock. You use the moment to get rid of your pants, you both did not talk about this, there was no spoken consent from your side, but you also feel like any word would stop this intimacy now. Buggy would hesitate if you would just say one word. He goes wild as he realizes that you made yourself ready for him. Another intense kiss, this time he also wanders down your neck, his hands fondling your breasts, you breathe sharply in as you can feel his throbbing cock pushing against your folds. You had no time to get wet and ready for him, so it slightly hurts as he pushes himself into you. Your painful moan makes him go crazy, his hands are now all over your body, he seems to try to hold on to you, he groans, feels helpless being so overwhelmed by his own desire. His hips start to push into you relentlessly, you open yourself a bit more to him, despite the pain you enjoy this, you enjoy him finally taking what belongs to him. His orgasm comes quickly and noisily. He starts pushing down on your belly, thrusting his cock deeper inside you. You kept your eyes open the whole time, seeing his lustful expression just totally making you weak, you want to remember it, want to think of it later, how he looked while he enjoyed your body.
“Fuck…” Buggy groans and you can feel his twitching cock filling you up with hot cum. He is panting, letting his head fall in the corner of your neck and shoulder, trying to slow down his breath by clinging on to you.
“Buggy”, you whisper, “I think I love..”
He does not let you say this, he detaches his hands which were just holding on to your hips and presses one on your mouth, letting you choke on your confession. While he re-attaches his hand to his arm, he gives you a final sloppy kiss, probably as a half-assed apology for shutting you up. The silence around you is just interrupted by the wet sound of his penis, being pulled out of you. You sigh, despite him cuming inside of you, you suddenly feel empty. He zips up his pants, grabbing his coat and his hat. Obviously he does not know how to do aftercare, neither for you nor for himself. “Buggy, I…” you try again, but he is scared of what you might say, so he interrupts you again.
“Apologies for breaking the glass, I will make sure to bring another one later.” There is sweat glistering his forehead, he wipes it off with a motion of his gloved hands. “I will let you rest now, make sure to join us later for the celebration!”, he puts his hat back on, probably wanting to show you his authority. You just nod still feeling the sensation of how he was inside you a few seconds ago. Buggy leaves the room without saying anything else and you sigh as you lay down. You are glad he did not insist on hearing about your past.
#one piece#buggytheclown#one piece buggy#buggy the clown x reader#buggy x reader#buggy x you#long fanfic#nanowrimo 2023#buggy smut#buggy fanfiction#buggy headcanons
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FULL STORY HAS BEEN POSTED.
*Dr. Feel Good (Full Piece)
Here's a snippet from the Sanemi Therapist wip I promised 16 years ago. I'm gonna tag a couple of ya because you said you were interested. If you don't want to be tagged for notifications, let me know, and I'll stawwwpp it.
@desi-the-blue-eyed-kakushi @gingerspicelattemix and @peachdues I read you're feeling down. I hope my weird take on Dr. Shinazugawa cheers you up a bit ♡.
I'll be doing the final touches on the rest of this smut story today!
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Dr. Feel Good
"Hi, Dr. S. I uh, well, I'm not going to be able to make my appointment tomorrow. I'm sorry this is technically less than 24 hours. Bill me for any time you may have lost. Whatev– thanks. Oh, this is y/n, by the way, and it's about 4 o'clock. Bye. You don't have to call me back. Bye."
You pressed the red button on your cell phone and hung up the call with Dr. Shinazugawa's voice-mail and climbed back into your bed. The rain beat against the windows in rhythm with the tears falling to your face.
It was November 1st. Fall was in full swing. And once again, you were not. Your 24th birthday was coming up soon. And you'd fallen into the same routine as last year. Going through the motions: work, family, the few friends you had. But you're fairly certain they were sick of you. So it was just a matter of time before they stopped calling. It's not like you're blowing up their phones to remind them you're still around.
The phone rang. You didn't even bother to see who was calling before you turned it over to silence the assault on your quiet cocoon. [Beep beep]. One more message you won't respond to. "I don't wanna talk. Go away." It started ringing again.
"Fuck, what, hello?" You sniffed and pulled the down comforter off of your face. You didn't want to sound like you were in bed as you squirmed around to get comfortable.
"Hello! Y/n? I just got your message." Silence on your end. "Are, are you there?" You cleared your throat. What's the point of talking anymore. "Ah, there you are." Dr Shinazugawa said a little too cheerfully.
You're surprised by the inflection of his voice. You often thought he was like you; dark. But he was your therapist. You were not his. So you didn't worry about him like you assumed he worried about you. Like you hoped he did. More wasted energy.
"Y/n, c'mon. Will you say something to me?" Sitting up in bed, "Why." You said flatly. You could hear his breath slow a little, and you sort of wondered why his breathing would ease up when you were on the other end of the line. Probably irritating him, no doubt.
"Because I wa–" He stopped for a moment. "I need to know you're alright." There was a pregnant and overdue pause from him. "Y/n? Are you? Ok?" You sniffed again. Could he hear you crying? "Will you please come in tomorrow and talk with me?" He could hear the hurt in your words.
"I'll see you next week, Dr. S. Have a nice weekend. Bye." You took the phone away from your ear before you'd even started to say you'll see him at your next appointment. You didn't want to give him that crucial second before disconnection to try and change your mind. He was just your therapist. Not Jesus. Though you could easily find yourself at his feet asking for miracles. No matter, you weren't terribly religious anyway.
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THANKS FOR
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#sanemi x y/n#sanemi x reader#therapist#therapist!sanemi#kny sanemi#demon slayer#kny sanemi shinazugawa#shinazugawa sanemi#sanemi kny#sanemi shinazugawa#sanemi Shinazugawa kny#sanemi therapy#forbidden love#love?#lust
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HP: Forbidden - Chapter Ten
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Parings: George Weasley x Female OC (Slytherin)
Description:
Rosalie Riddle lives in the shadow of her father, going to Hogwarts made her feel safe and happy and when she meets George Weasley she feels a whole new emotion. Follow her story from the beginning of her Hogwarts Journey.
Rating: General Audiences
Warnings: Can fluff be a warning? Little bit of angst. Fred still dies, sorry.
P.s. So this is a rewrite from a fanfiction I originally wrote when I was roughly 16. It was awful, truly awful, but I adored the story so I decided to rewrite it ten years later. Enjoy.
The name calling was tonight, we had finished our dinners and shuffled around the Great Hall, not sitting in our house just sitting wherever. I opted to sit with the twins. Their younger brother didn't seem happy I was there but I didn't care.
Soon Dumbledore was speaking and ready to call the names out. Firstly he called out a name from Beauxbatons; Fleur Delacour.
Secondly Viktor Krum, the boy I met the other day.
And then for Hogwarts, I was hoping it wouldn't be Cedric. He was my only friend in the higher years so what are the oods.
"Cedric Diggory!" Yelled Dumbledore.
My heart sunk watching Cedric walking up towards and past Dumbledore. I was doubting Cedric's power but I've read that these challenges can be very dangerous.
"He'll be alright" George whispered his arm going around my shoulder.
The goblet started to flicker again, and the lights in the room went funny. And then another piece of parchment flew out of the goblet, Dumbledore caught it.
He muttered a name, but I didn't caught it, luckily he yelled it out, and he yelled Harry Potter. I looked over to Harry and laughed.
"You're always getting in trouble Harry" However, no one laughed with me. Instead a few people were yelling harsh things at him. Never thought I'd see the day people were mean to Harry Potter.
Harry left and walked towards Dumbledore, he left the great hall and the professors left with him.
"Maybe we should head out?" George spoke, I nodded and took his hand in mind. And we left the hall together.
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Today was the day of the first task, Daphne and I were walking towards the arena together, I secretly bought a book with me. Through the grapevine, George had found out that the first task had dragons. I had never seen a dragon so I was very excited for that.
"I'm so nervous for Cedric" I say
"I know, he'll be okay" Daphne smiled.
We climbed up onto the seats, a few minutes after we sat the twins sat behind us, George hugged me from behind, as he did his lips were ever so slightly touching my cheek, and honestly it made me dizzy.
Once the cannon fired the take begun, Cedric was first, I watched him narrowly dodge the fire from his dragon. He wasn't doing so good at first, but luckily he got the hang of it after a while. He turned a rock into a dog to distract the dragon, and by tricking the dragon he was able to grab the egg and finish win his turn.
Next up was Fleur, she took a lot longer than Cedric, and the dragon caught her skirt with it's fire, but eventually she got the egg. Viktor was quicker than Fleur and Cedric, but he hurt his dragon so he lost points, which made me not like him anymore. He seemed nice enough, but I couldn't forgive someone hurting these dragons. I felt so bad for them.
And then came Harry, I was actually so nervous for him, I couldn't imagine going against a dragon with my magically knowledge and Harry's knowledge was roughly the same as mine.
Harry's dragon was different to the other three, it was angier, more scary looking too. It felt like forever watching him, finally Harry got his broom, and thats when the dragon got free and the two flew around the castle grounds.
Eventually Harry came back and claimed his dragon, he didn't have points deducted for killing his dragon, I noticed.
"Poor dragon" I frown.
"You sound just like Charlie" George chuckles.
"Charlie's the one older than Percy, right?" I asked, trying to remember the ages of his siblings was something I was really trying to learn. George nodded to let me know I was correct.
Soon the scores were in, and Viktor and Harry were joint first. Cedric was second and Fleur last.
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Christmas was only around the corner and something unexpected was here, Professor Snape had us Slytherins gathered together. And he was explained the Yule Ball to us.
"I personally don't care if you can dance or not, but Professor Dumbledore had decided everyone must have a dance lesson" Snape explained.
"Malfoy, Riddle up here now!"
Draco and I walk over to him. I had a feeling I knew what was about to happen. Snape proceeded to explain the art of dancing to use, and the steps we had to follow. He then played the music.
Draco awkwardly placed both his hands on my waist, and I placed mine on his shoulders, and we very awkwardly followed the steps. We fumbled a few times, but ultimately we danced rather well. I had never attended the dances the Carrows would throw, but I always imagined going and dances, and the fact I was going to a ball was so exciting. Daphne and I would have to go dress shopping.
Once our dancing class had ended, it was lunch, before I even reached the room George stopped me, his face redder than usual.
"Rose" He took my hand and pulled me to the side.
"I wanted to officially ask you to the ball, as my date" He asked.
I smiled and nodded.
"Of course, shall we get lunch now?" I asked.
"No, wait" He stopped me from walking.
"Yes George?"
"Actually, I'd like if, well if you wanted, maybe you wanted to go as my girlfriend?" He asked.
"Really?" I ask, maybe too excitedly.
"Yes really!"
"George, yes!" I giggle, his smile was so wide right now, we leant forward and hugged one another, tight.
"Finally ay?" He asks, laughing.
"I know right, but I don't mind us going slow" I admit.
"Me neither Rose" He adds.
"Now lunch?" I ask again.
"You love your food, don't you" He grins, taking my hand.
"You've tasted the food here haven't you?" I hadn't told him about the lack of food I get at home yet, nor have I told him about the abuse. One day maybe, but not today. I wanted to enjoy this without dark drama for a little while longer.
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Artfight
I really loved artfight... I still love it...
And I suddenly been banned after 3 years, because one person can't just read descriptions and stop at one word.
Because I indicated my story as an "omegaverse" and they immediately assumed my story was NSFW, while it's not. And since most characters are 16 (well in a world with 16 months of 30 or 35 days each, it would correspond to 21 actually...) they have accused me of sexualizing minors... while there is NOTHING sexual in my story. Litterally nothing. Yeah I made the error to explain details about the world building (yeah sorry to be a writer and like to share when I create a whole world!) and to mention the first heat are at 16. Yeah, well, if anything, heats in this world is more similar to our periods. They just feel sick and weak. Nothing more. But no, for the person who reported me, that was sexual.
The context is an omegaverse, because it happens in a world where women disappeared and evolution took over and "alpha" and "omega" genders appeared. That's all...
Also, like I said I was there for 3 years... and with the same characters and the same story. And never had any problem. Got a lot of attacks, got a lot of peoples who actually read my descriptions and loved the story. And then there is this person who got me banned the actual year when she register into artfight...
Now... It's been two years I send appeals every. single. month, even tried with different mails sicne I started to wonder if they blocked me. Did I got an answer? Nope. Nothing. Not a single answer. Never.
One of my friends tried to ask directly on the discord servor. Either have been ignored or her messages have been completely deleted. Oh yeah, let's not expose the bad side, right?
She got one answer from a mod last year. The mod understood, comfirmed, with my story lore and explanation, that the bann was unfair, and said she will pass the message but since I made appeals and a deletion request (because I wanted to start over), I could make another account, no problem.
After two week I have been banned for ban evasion... while a MOD said it was ok? And guess what? No answer again, OF COURSE.
In the same time, the person who reported me made a huge scandal on the site (my friends still in artfight keep me in touch) because of a disgusting mass attack that offended peoples, and she just noted a "I'm sorry, I deleted my attack, forgive me" on her profil and is actually still in...
Oh not to mention the other person who litterally suicide baiting me on my profil, have been reported multiple time by me and my friends, but is actually still in, not banned, without even participating.
While I still don't have any answer, ever.
Another thing, this is not anymore but it really pissed me. I made a monthly donation with my first account. And when I got banned, the next month they still took money from me. I had to block them from paypal. Like "We bann you but give us your money" LOL
I just want to have fun again. That was a great way to improve my drawing, force my self to draw things I never usually draw... and I met a lot of cool peoples there too actually.
#artfight#furious#no answers#banned#yes I needed to rant because artfight is soon and I feel depressed#art fight 2024#artfight prep#artfight2024
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My non-existent love
Once again, I realize that I’ve confused things. I’m not sad or disappointed; in fact, I didn’t like him, but rather the feeling of someone being interested in me. No one has ever shown romantic interest in me, which makes me question: am I really that uninteresting or ugly? He liked my friend, or rather, "loves" her.
Recently, I was disillusioned by another boy, a relative of a friend, whom I’ve only seen twice. For no apparent reason, I developed an interest in him. He plays guitar, and after following him, I realized that it was never mutual. Yesterday, my friend told me: "I have bad news for you, Isa. Ryan is seeing another girl." At that moment, I was somewhat impacted, as I thought he might be interested in me, even though we had never spoken.
Crazy? Yes, but read the rest; I have my final conclusion at the end.
As I write all this, I realize that I have "liked" several boys who have never spoken to me. I remember a boy from a school championship, whose friend passed me his profile and said he wasn’t dating anyone. He accepted my request, and for the first time in my life, I tried to flirt. The conversation took ages, and in the end, he blocked me. I felt inadequate even to try flirting; all I said was "hi.
This year, a very handsome new boy joined our School thought it would be a good idea to try to get close to him, but it turned out to be a terrible choice. A friend of mine became friends with him because they both took the same van. I talked to her about it, and she encouraged me to try. In the end, he liked her, and now they are dating. Meanwhile, I had anxiety attacks when the worst girl in school found out and went to tell him—when he didn’t even know about my feelings.
Years ago, I was interested in a boy from my church who lived in another state. I only saw him once a week, online. And you might wonder how I fell in love with someone I barely saw and talked to. I don’t know… it just happened.
I realize as I write all this that I have never truly fallen in love; I was just interested and created things in my head to make sense of my feelings for the person, and it never worked out—I only end up getting hurt. I feel like I will never find someone. I have never been kissed, touched, or been the girl that any boy has fallen for. I’m only 16, but honestly, I can't stand not having even a minimal romantic experience that would make me feel good. I can't bear being the only friend who doesn't have a romantic story to tell. I love my friends, but sometimes I feel like I'm living in their shadows, and I can't handle this need to have someone anymore.
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Hi! I make a lot of traditional art, I love to draw and build in mc, I'll be posting here a lot since I am just so very front stuck.
Feel free to send asks!! I do builds based on pictures mostly because I'm still warming up to building in mc, but I'll happily build something if you give me refs and a few days lol. Here's one of my large-scale projects from a few weeks ago!! Took me 2 days to complete;
Ahh, this will be very very long 0.o so I'm just going to...
*snip snip snip...*
Much better!!!!
Okay, let's continue
Might get in trouble for posting this because this is on a soon to be super active lore server... ewps!! Whatever. If anyone recognizes this in the near future; no, you don't. But oouugguhsh whoops whoooooooo careeeessssss!!!!!
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} {☼˖˚Name:
Planet , Apollo
} {☼˖˚Age:
17-18
16 bodily, don't be weird!!
} {☼˖˚Pronouns:
He/it
} {☼˖˚Gender:
Male :( (transmale :) )
} {☼˖˚Orientation:
Men :(
} {☼˖˚Species:
Uhhh!! Guess. Not human
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} {☼˖˚Source:
Lifesteal!!
} {☼˖˚Role:
School fronter/Frequent fronter , babysitter/part time caretaker
} {☼˖˚Subsystem?:
Nah
} {☼˖˚Verbality:
Meh, I'm bad at talking sometimes, but I engage in conversation
} {☼˖˚Source Talk?:
Yah!
} {☼˖˚Doubles?:
Yah!
} {☼˖˚Sourcemates?:
Yaahhh!!!!!!!! :3
} {☼˖˚What info do I need to know?:
We are a DID system!
Don't immediately ask for discord, we are anxious.
We're a therian!!
Content creator in our spare time.
I want to make this very clear that we are so very 16 years old, 19+ you can interact, just don't be weird.
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SPLATOON!!
AUTOMOTIVE!!!!
MECHANIC WORK!!!
Building in mc!!
Grinding in mc (I've played for 57 hours in a single world that has been open since the 31st of December. This was posted on 1/8/24. I have full enchanted netherite and that huge spaceship up there.)
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} {☼˖˚Flirting?:
As a joke, yeah!!
If serious, keep in mind we're 16 bodily, have a partner system, dating another guy, and I'm mlm
} {☼˖˚Touch?:
Platonic, yeah!!! Hugs, kiss on the cheek/forehead, whatevr, as long as yr not weird abt it :3
} {☼˖˚DMs?:
Yeah!!! I'll give you our discord after a few conversations
} {☼˖˚Pings?:
Yah!!
} {☼˖˚Friend Requests?:
Yah!!!!!!
} {☼˖˚Faceclaims:
Teehee :3c
Tags I use!!
#breakfast my beloved
-Baconnwaffles0 art I adore/my own posts about him (I rarely use this anymore,,)
#plnetl text
- text posts!
#friends tag
- people who I talk to daily / cool people
#plnetl art / #plnetl doodles
- my art! / doodles from asks
#plnetl media
- irl pictures :3c
#gorgeous / #oh gorgeous
- things I think are pretty or I just say "oh wow!!"
#lifesteal#lifestealsmp#lifesteal smp#canine theriotype#osddid#wolf therian#actually did#did osdd#did system#intro post#introduction#blog intro#introvert#looking for friends#looking for moots#looking for mutuals
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