#want to acknowledge is mild depression that's only referenced in angsty threads anyw!! haha

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i already brought this up on twitter but i hate that, as an autistic writer, i feel bad about the idea of writing more than one of my ocs as autistic bc i’m afraid ppl will just think i’m self-inserting/self-projecting /: media is so lacking in good, complex and well-written autistic characters who aren’t stereotypes (and i’m talking explicitly autistic too; there are countless autistic-coded characters but it’s not like autistic ppl get to enjoy that w/o ppl shitting all over our hcs) & the only people willing to write interesting autistic characters are autistic ppl!! and let’s not even get into the fact that, even amongst autistic-coded characters, the rep we do have is almost always male.autistic women whomst? even when ppl do write autistic muses, unless ur an allistic person writing ur autistic characters as tho they’re basically a little kid, ppl aren’t that interested! they’re probably even a lil uncomfy! and forget abt ships bc ppl love to desexualise us! neato! 

i’m sick of stories with autistic leads always being about their autism as though that is the extent of our whole existences! nvm that half the stories about autism are largely about how we’re viewed by other people and our interactions with those people as though we aren’t people in our own rights and are just reflections of other people’s reactions to us. we’re just those weird things that are almost like people and baffle everyone else by not being people quite right! why can’t we be heroes in stories that don’t revolve around our being autistic? i’m tired /: