#victim doesn't really care who gets hurt so long as it's not themself though

[i3utterflyeffect]

I can sorta picture Vic in the human au 'knowing' a lot about humans (he does not) and maayybe being a bit calmer than Chosen because of this... (All their knowledge would basically be wild interpretations of reality lol)

Also I feel like Cho and Vic might kinda bond...? (It really depends if this is before or after the box) I kinda feel like they'd have somewhat similar ways of coping

I'm rotating this au in my micro-brain

it's probably before the box but i love hitting vic with hammers so much i need to kill them so bad. it's a pathological thing it has to happen. bonks them bonks them bonks them bo--

anyway i feel like victim logically would be focusing all of their study on the weaknesses of humans and how to get the upper hand in a fight which. the first part makes them extremely nervous about their new status as a human and the second part is now completely obsolete considering they are not a stick anymore!

victim also very much hates being human considering they consider being a human to be a moral sin at this point (subconsciously or otherwise) and they're VERY alarmed to discover that no humans, in fact, have survived complete decapitation, meaning they STILL DEFINITELY SHOULD NOT BE ALIVE

[alexandraisyes]

God, the "What if Eclipse had ASPD" post is still one of my most famous ones that everyone in this fandom seems to fucking know one way or another. I still get people going "WAIT YOU WROTE THAT?" When I join servers, and then they yap about how much they misunderstood ASPD and Eclipse and I sit there in my lil teehee pose like "yes I wrote that I know I'm amazing you can sing my praises more if you would like" (because I have no shame).

(In reality I go "yes I wrote that haha" and never remark on it again because I don't know how to accept a compliment)

I know I'm doing good and doing a good thing but it's such a cruel and lonely disorder, and sometimes I hate myself for having it even if I know, logically, there is nothing I could have to prevent it. A two-year-old doesn't have the kind of control they need to stop bad things from happening to them. And that's horrible. And I hate that the people I know in my outside life immediately turn against me when they find out I have it.

It doesn't feel like it's something I should be proud of.

It feels like something that makes me a monster.

And that's just the way it is, I suppose. I'm going to lose people over things I can't control and I need to fucking suck it up and get over it even though every time someone leaves me for it it's a stake in the heart because I put my trust in them to understand. To stay. To listen.

To know me and not the stereotypes of my disorder.

But I shouldn't care, right? Because that's all I do anyway, not care. Because that's all that is to the disorder, and none of the paranoia and depression and mania and obsession and boredom and self-loathing and isolation and numbness exist, stop trying to play the victim.

I'm not trying to play the victim.

I am the victim.

Are people allowed to be proud that they survived a car crash? Are they allowed to be proud of themselves for surviving? Does any rational person look at something horrible that happened to themself and think "I'm so proud I survived something I had no control over"? Or do we look at them funny because why would you say that, why would you say you're proud of yourself, it all happened so fast and you didn't even do anything but keep breathing and not die how can you be proud of that you're not saving other people from car crashes your not giving people lessons on how to avoid getting rear-ended you're just living your life what do you have to be proud of?

Do I have anything to be proud of?

I feel like I've caused just as much harm that has been caused to me, and now I'm pathetically trying to compensate for that so when I tell people about my past they look at me now and tell me "it's okay you're doing better now I'm proud of you".

Is it pathetic that's all I've ever wanted to hear?

Is it bad to want to be loved when you can't even properly love people in return? Is it bad that I can love anyone because the word has no meaning to me other than respecting someone else as a person? When did I stop being human, when did I forget emotion and connection and sanity, when did I become a machine who's only purpose is to be a sad display of the human condition? Diseased, imperfect, parasitic, incurable.

And why would anyone ever even want to treat someone who is so much less than a person when they clearly deserve it because look at the way they fail to be genuine and sincere and empathetic. Because look at their past where they didn't understand social conventions and broke the rules and hurt people trying to connect with them.

Clearly I should be put out of my misery.

And yet I refuse to do so myself and continue to make my continued existence a source of anxiety and suffering for those around me simply because I have so much hatred for living that to submit to death would be letting it win.

And wow this is getting really long and rambly so I'm going to put a readmore but also guys gonna be so real I'm on my period rn according to my emotions (they are existing currently and it is not happy fun times) and I had an energy drink so this was kinda fucking panicky and insane and you are allowed to judge me for going actually insane on main, and making a pathetic little display of myself. I'll just sit here going teefuckinghee and eating my 85% dark chocolate that my friend mailed me because I am loved by at least one person on this fucking hellscape of a planet, and that's enough for me.

It's so weird trying to be proud? Accepting? Of my own disorder that's literally formed from the worst kinda of trauma you can put a child through

Like whooo ASPD and because I'm a good(not really but we can pretend)person who wants to educate people I can make it useful by talking about what it's like

But also . . . it's ASPD.

I don't know if I'm allowed to be proud of it, even during disability pride month.

[angrelysimpping]

Lost my password to original account so here we go. First, namesake ask: How do you think the characters would react to an Ace!PC? I personally feel like Kylar might loose it at high hysteria(?) not accepting that they're *not* sexually attracted to him back, even though they aren't towards anyone. Also, how do you think the reactions would differ for a sex!negative/repulsed Ace!PC? I feel like there's the more likely to accept (Pure Sydney, Robin) and those who don't care (Whitney, Eden), but how about others, like Corrupt!Sydney (assuming corruption came from someone/somewhere else)?

(Acephobia + longer post = under a cut it goes. Other content warnings: noncon, gaslighting, and victim blaming; none of it that explicit)

Alex honestly probably doesn't know about asexuality, you'll have to explain it to them. Might take it personally that you don't find them sexually attractive, you really have to hammer it home that you don't find anyone sexually attractive. After a while, they let it go. Still, if you ever want to have sex, for whatever reason, Alex is game. If you're sexually repulsed/negative you really have to hammer it home that it's not them, you just don't like sex. End of. No other reason. Otherwise, they respect your boundaries fairly well.

Avery doesn't particularly care, as long as you give them what they want and when they want it. Whether what they want is for you to look good on their arm or lay under them, Avery just wants you to submit. At low rage, they respect your boundaries if you're sex-repulsed. Sure, they're a bit chagrined when you turn them down, but once you explain yourself, they feel better. It soothes their ego that you don't like having sex at all, rather than you could have sex with them but you're choosing not to. At high rage, they don't care. In fact, they use it against you. You should have continued as Avery's arm candy, but no, you had to be a brat. In Avery's eyes, your sex repulsion just makes pinning you down in the back of their car and having their way with you the most logical punishment.

Good, Bailey doesn't want to have any feelings for them, let alone sexual ones. Sex-repulsed? Not their problem.

Eden is one of the worse. They conflate sex with acceptance, to some degree. You might be better off never telling Eden that you don't experience sexual attraction. As for sex repulsion, you can try explaining it to them, but it cannot be guaranteed that Eden will understand or care. I like to think high love Eden is a bit better about respecting your boundaries. Still tries to initiate things and will eventually snap and force you if you deny them too often. Then, gaslights and victim blames. They're stroking your hair, saying they just can't help themself. You're so beautiful/handsome. They need you. You don't feel sexual attraction, you don't understand how much it hurts them. All you have to do is grit your teeth and let Eden do what they want. Is that so hard? (It is in your best interest to either agree with them or to not answer at all. They will take your silence as agreement, though.)

Great Hawk does not understand sexual attraction, really, just mate spouse. If you try to explain it to them, they get sad, thinking they haven't proved themself a good mate. Tries harder, preening more and bringing you more gifts. If you're sex-repulsed, they're just more confused. They still try to start things, but always stop when you ask them to.

You're right about hysterical Kylar. They can accept you being asexual, to a degree. You still love them, right? So it's all fine! And you don't have to be sexually attracted to someone to have sex so it must mean really love Kylar, right? Because you'll have sex with them because they want to, right? (It doesn't really matter how you respond here, Kylar 100% believes that you would have sex with them if they asked you to. Even if they've literally asked you to have sex before and you keep turning them down. That just means the timing was off or you were busy or something.) The more jealous Kylar gets, the more likely they are to insist that you don't know what you're talking about. If you just let Kylar show you, then maybe you would understand. Same with sex repulsion. Low jealousy Kylar doesn't want to do anything to hurt you. As their jealousy rises, the pushier they become

Leighton doesn't care about your sexuality, they just see you as a toy anyway. Mocks you, says they'll "teach you the pleasures of sex" or something along those lines if they ever fuck you. Really focuses on making you cum if they buy your time at the brothel, saying you're just "confused." Doesn't care if you're sex-repulsed at all.

Remy doesn't care, they'll do what they want regardless of your sexuality. Mostly, this means milking you.

Robin is probably the best about respecting you, takes it in stride fairly well. Will check and ask if you're alright with them even kissing you. Gets worried at low confidence if you try to start anything, worried that you're doing it not because you want to, but because of some misconceived notion that you have to. They'll only voice such concerns with high confidence. Either way, they let you do what you want.

It's 50/50 on if Sydney already knows what asexuality is, thanks to Sirris, or if they're completely in the dark. 100% going to research it, regardless. Is fine with you being asexual. Gets a bit confused if you initiate any sexual activities with them, but if that's what you want to do, they'll try it. The more corrupt they become, the less they question it. If you're sex-repulsed and somehow end up in the prayer room with corrupt Sydney? They can't stop, even if they wanted to.

And Whitney should care why? A little offended that you don't find them sexually attractive, a little thrilled over the fact that your lack of sexual attraction probably means that the only time you'll have sex is because Whitney wants you to. Because, honestly, your lack of sexual attraction isn't going to stop Whitney from fucking you or trying to sell you. Sex-repulsed? Your problem, not Whitney's.

Wren just rolls with it. A little surprised, especially if you've played blackjack with them, but not bothered by it in the least. Keeps blackjack games the same because a bet is a bet, isn't it? If you don't want to, you can always back out. Oh, you're sex-repulsed? Huh. Okay. Maybe they'll think of some different bets then. Something so Wren can still have fun and it won't chase you off.

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The INFJ'S Guidebook to People: Spotting Isfps

So you've tried typing by the letters and by the cognitive functions. Now you're looking to verify your typing makes sense. What are some key attritubes you should be looking for...?

A real isfp is...

Easily hurt.

Usually an excellent judge of character. Isfps don't often have mean friends, but if they do it doesn't last long.

Often used. Isfps are kind people who can be a bad judge of character every now and again.

Inclined to think of themself as a victim. To be fair to isfps, they often complain about perfectly legitimate things. But their Fi can cause them to stay stuck in the past to an unhealthy point, and their Ni may be used to incorrectly perceive further attempts to hurt them. For this reason, isfps may take offense at seemingly random things.

Short tempered.

Sweet. They can be so sweet when they want to be.

Good at sympathy. Unless they're in a bad mood.

A happy, cheery person.

Also a kind of sad, hurting person.

Moody. Unless they're well developed, Fi can control isfps.

Thoughtful. When used well, Fi makes isfps sweet, kind, and caring.

Friendly. Likely to be the person at the party who breaks the ice and makes everyone friends.

Lonely. Likely to be the person who ends up standing more or less alone at a party because everyone made friends and then they felt left out.

Not always good at telling who's actually there for them.

Very insecure. Tell your isfp you love them, and hug them even when they're grumpy. They need it 😉

Able to be manipulative liars. Not likely to be though, since they hate such people and don't want to be that person.

Usually aware of their flaws deep down.

Sometimes living in their own fantasy world. Isfps in a Fi-Ni loop can develop a totally unrealistic perception of reality, in which everyone hates them and they are all alone. Use of Se is recommended to escape this hole.

Probably not a fan of mbti if they've learned they're an isfp. Isfps seem to be willing to accept the I, f, and p letters in their type, but almost never the s. They often seem to enjoy mbti until they're told they're an s, at which point they become angry about putting people in boxes. 🤣 I would like to clarify for them that isfps are actually very intuitive, and since they have Ni are actually more intuitive than those with Ne (where intuition = pure vibes).

Intuitive. They may be a sensor, but isfps are still intuitive people who like to go with their gut. Sadly, if in a Fi-Ni loop, their gut can feed their paranoia.

Really Funny, in a silly way.

Fun. Just the right amount of Se for a non sensor 😂

Talkative.

A bit of a tortured soul. Think of a poet who writes depressed poems about love being dead.

Often too romantic to recognise when they're in love or deeply attached to someone. Just because someone makes you angry or upset doesn't mean you don't love them.

Very book-smart. Not always good at applying what they learn though.

Not always good at remembering details. Likely to relay facts incorrectly. For example, my isfp grandpa was convinced world war one started because of a soccer match. Not sure where he heard that, but it took him about an hour on google to accept he was wrong.

Fast learners when they apply themselves.

Creatively inclined. Not all isfps use their natural creative talents often, but it's a good way to use Se for the more intraverted isfps.

Likely to mistaken for a T. Often mistaken for a T. This is because they value making a change in the world around them, and aren't afraid to develop their inferior Function - Te.

Likely to be mistaken for an Extravert.

Likely to mistype as their parent of the same sex. So an isfp male with an enfp father will almost always mistype as an enfp. This is because isfps aren't really self aware.

No stranger to the occasional temper tantrum.

Pretty particular. They like things a certain way, even if they're not always clean and organised.

Likely to remember how something felt rather than how it actually happened. Not good when they get in a Fi-Ni loop.

Things a real isfp might say...

'This is completely wrong' about this post, or any other post about isfps.

'we need to prepare ourselves for the frog revolution' or similar amusing statement.

Something about fantasy. Isfps love fantastical worlds. Often stated so matter of factly that at first you think they're telling you history.

'I don't believe in love' or equivalent emo statement.

Something that deeply hurts you, cos they know exactly what to say.

Something that deeply moves you, cos they know exactly what to say.

A memory that is completely messed up.

An idea they want to discuss.

An example of a happy but hurting isfp - David Suchet