#very earnest thoughts here considering the hazard juanki's so worried about in the fic is carlos catching feelings. lol.

[alacants]

so i was reading your gorgeous juankiferru fic again and i saw the comment you left about juanki waiting for the other shoe to drop for carlos, except that it hasn't happened, & "i don't know how you could coach a prodigy and not remember being a prodigy and what happened next" and now i'm about to throw up thanks 😭 juanki wants better for him i want better for him...

awwww gosh first of all thank you!!! <3

what is so interesting is that like... carlos has already accomplished much more than juanki. (and of course he also had different advantages, but that's a separate question.) four times the slams! at age twenty-one! it would be pretty normal to feel optimistic about what's next. but if anyone knows the hazards of things that are entirely and completely outside of your control it's juanki. and (i speculate) it's not about what carlos has done, it's about what he could do—who he could be.

that's what i was trying to get at in the fic—not just will you win titles, but will you be able to do all the things you're capable of doing. will you be able to be the best version of yourself, the best tennis player you could ever be. or in the end will it be something you could feel but never reach.

and if so—is that something that hurts? or is it something with which you're at peace?