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lesbianphan · 11 months ago

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if I may be honest for a minute, this christmas is gonna be entirely weird to me (I already cried once) cause I basically have no family left (the ones I do don't spend time with me lol) and for the first time I can remember in life, I'm not making a christmas meal for my family and lots of desserts and doing my best to keep everyone entertained and even though it was super stressful, I already miss it. I'll be strong cause it's all that's left for me.

#gonna spend it with my second family which is my best friends family #he's throwing his first christmas party at his place so I won't be alone #he always makes sure I have somewhere to go #but I miss grandma #at this point she'd have a lot of stuff prepared and we'd be spending all day together working on recipes and making sure everything was go #good lmao #she couldn't help me last year cause she was already sick and it was so hard but I still made our christmas meal #didn't know it would be the last one #so yeah hard day for me cause my dad who was the family I had left decided that his priority is his new wife and left me he barely visits #or talks to me #so it's like he exists but also he doesn't cause he's being the happiest he's ever been #no regard for the daughter he forgot he cared about lol typical #anyway my life is tragic but I'll do my best to keep going even if it's out of spite #personal #usually I'd post shit like this on the main blog instead but meh gonna change it up this once #been using this one more #thank you dan and phil for giving me something to look forward to today

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