#unless there's something important like idk a school work blog?? idk i use instagram for it too so...

[pasttorn]

      -- SHORP. mega quick update on what’s up with me & a mini announcement that i’d LOVE if y’all could spare a couple minutes to look through ( & maybe consider joining or sharing with a friend y’all feel would be interested ! ). 

        -- EVEN if y’all don’t care about me as a mun / blog, at least skim the announcement section bc it’s important to me & where i am rn ! 

     UPDATE ! !

       -- SINCE december, i’ve started college ! ! the saving up year of college at least, bc the college i’m in has this thing where if we don’t have enough money to pay for the tuition fee ( which rly is just, money for us to spend throughout our first year & our trips & other expenses like food or gasoline ) we can join the saving up year & they’ll give us a job to earn the money. & while i was a bit more free before, they finally found a job for me at the canteen, which means i’m off cooking with the head chef for literally the entire day for the whole campus-- which is largely the reason i haven’t written much or said anything here ! !

      -- I’M trying as hard as i can to manage my time better in order to not be so tired / drained at the end of the day, in order to try to write something here or spend time with closer rp friends, but between moving to a new place ( since i’m living in the campus now, which is in a whole different country to where i was ! ) & getting used to the job & getting to know my teammates / classmates that i’m gonna be working with the next four+ years, it’ll take me a lil’ bit longer to try to get this blog up & running again. 

       -- FOR those wondering, i’m NOT dropping this blog & i’m not dropping any of the threads / asks i have saved up unless my rp partners don’t wanna keep writing them anymore, because this blog is too important for me to just give it up, but i am gonna be quiet / on a mini hiatus a lil’ bit longer. if any ship partners ( be it platonic or romantic ) that have a close relation w/ my muse want to break things up & move on, then even though it’d sadden me to see it end, i’d understand, because i cannot guarantee i’ll be the most active in plotting or thinking about our muses relationships & it might take some more time before i can go back to ‘ normal ‘ here-- but if y’all are willing to wait a bit longer, then i’d love it if we could continue it. if you don’t, then please tell me so we can make changes at some point because the last thing i want is for y’all to feel i’m neglecting you or your muse, which is not my intention & i apologise if i ever made y’all feel that way.

     ANNOUNCEMENT ! !

       -- TIME to promote the college i’m currently studying at ! ! or am gonna be studying at in september, at least ishuegrdfmkcvx. the college is DNS Necessary Teacher’s Training Programme, & it’s a college dedicated to training teachers ! ! honestly i’ve only been in the campus for a month now, & from the chats i’ve had with people from other years & from graduates & from my teammates in general, i can already tell it’s gonna be a worth it sort of experience. in their own words, we’re all not looking to be the ‘ traditional ‘ type of teachers, & are learning by experiencing & travelling-- the first year we travel to africa, & in the second year we ( your school year team ) picks a country in europe to live in & work in ! ! 

       -- IF you don’t have enough money, that’s alright ! you can join the saving up year, & earn the money here yourself ( & in the chance you don’t make enough, the team is here to pay the difference if we can ). if you’re worried you’re too young or too old for the programme, let me just tell you that in the 2021 school team ( the year i’m in ) the ages range from 18 to 27. if you’re worried about previous experiences, just know that this my first time in a college or even getting a job, & we’re all ! ! willing to help with anything as a team. all you really need is the drive to be committed to the programme & to the team-- because you are going to be busy almost all day, & it might get tough to deal with sometimes, & you need to know what you’re comfortable with or are not comfortable with doing.

       -- I was very nervous before coming bc rly, i’m an introverted fool that still doesn’t know what i want out of life even though i’m 21 & should know at this point, & even had a breakdown the first night i got here bc i was in a new place on my own & didn’t know what the fuck i was getting into & was so afraid of disappointing everyone, but god everyone here is super welcoming & understanding about everything. since the month i’ve been here, i’ve made friends that also very much love anime, have found out that sexuality ( or the lack thereof ) is openly discussed & accepted, there’s a D&D group & there’s just, a bunch of creativity everywhere. & yeah, it can be overwhelming sometimes, but there’s always someone in the team who would be willing to spend time with you & to help you out with whatever you may need, because in the end we’re all dealing with the same things. i’ve even gotten along with people from other school years ( that started their studies in 2020 or 2018 ), & honestly you can’t even tell they’re in a different year at times bc everyone is always so kind & open about everything.

     -- I’M not gonna lie, i’ve only been here a month for the saving up, & so far all of this feels like a real life acnh adventure, where everyone in the team is the mayor. wild comparison but everyone is so welcoming & we all live in the campus & see each other every day, that it really feels like interacting with other villagers & the money we make goes to maintaining the college / the community / our team, so it very much feels like i’m the mayor / mc in anch trying to decorate the island / make it better idK

          LINKS to check out ! ! 

Quick 3 min video ! ! ! pls watch ! ! !

WEBSITE

FACEBOOK PAGE

INSTAGRAM

NEWSLETTER

       -- IF you have any questions about the programme or what it’s like to study here, pls don’t be afraid to hit me up in DM’s either on here or on disc//ord ( SHORP#8549 ) ! ! i’d be more than happy to answer any questions or share images / videos bc god, it’d be so cool if one of y’all or someone y’all know would be interested in the programme ! 

[darklarru]

all of them. just fckin.. all of them. every single question. 1-100. good luck comrade.

fuck u, here it is:

1.      Is a kiss considered cheating?

-if theykiss a boy idm.

2.      Have you ever faked orgasm?

-yeahlmao

3.      If you could have one superpower, what would it be?

-shapeshifting

4.      Do you think you are going to be rich in 7-8-9 years?

-I fuckinhope so

5.      Tell us some funny drunk story.

-oh man,ive only been smashed once, and it was a night full of regrets and a lot ofcheating and gay stuff happened.

6.      Why are you no longer together with your ex?

-u knowwhat. fuck my ex, he was a manipulative cheating cunt and he broke up with meover snapchat.

7.      If you had to choose one way to die, what would it be? 

-bathtuband sleeping pills, im out painlessly.

8.      What are your current goals?

-be asuccessful bitch and build myself up.

9.      Do you like someone?

-wheneverI think of feelings I take a shot so idk..

10.   Who was the last person to disappoint you?

-my ex.

11.   Do you like your body?

-eh imgetting there

12.   Can you keep a diet?

-no lmao

13.   If the whole world listened to you right now, what would you say?

-don’t discriminateagainst sex workers and treat them like actual people.

14.   Do you work?

-yep, gota retail job and everything.

15.   If you could choose only one food to eat to the rest of your life, whatwould it be?

-ayesalad, bc anything you cut up and put in a bowl is salad, so pizza salad, fruitsalad, ice cream salad, anything.

16.   Would you get a tattoo?

-hellyeah, im actually thinking about getting this floral one on my thigh, gottalike, tell my mum tho.

17.   Something you don’t mind spending all your money on?

-theperson I love,,

18.   Can you drive?

Ive onlyhad like, one driving test ever.

19.   When was the last time someone told you you were beautiful?

-at therink on Friday? Someone said I was beautiful and that my ex didn’t deserve me:)

20.   What was the last thing you cried for?

-when I drinkI don’t cry, so ive been drinking a lot.

21.   Do you keep a journal?

-yep,serves as my receipts.

22.   Is life fun?

-ehhhhitll get there.

23.   Is farting in front of people irrelevant?

-I don’t reallycare, just warn me so I have time to get out of there.

24.   What’s your dream car?

-somethingI don’t have to use petrol for.

25.   Are grades in school important?

-justnail ur finals and ur good.

26.   Describe your crush.

-its tooearly homie

27.   What was the last book/movie that really impressed you?

-WONDERWOMAN HOLY SHIT A+

28.   What was your last lie?

-im fine

29.   Dumbest lie you ever told? 

-idk, I normallytell the truth, its such an effort to lie.

30.   Is crying in front of people embarrassing?

-no I doit all the time lmao

31.   Something you did and you are proud of?

-Teamedup with my Best Friend and Absolutely Called the shit out of my Ex out andfuckin roasted him.

32.   What’s your favourite cocktail?

-I haven’tdelved into cocktails too much yet, ive been drinking straight.

33.   Something you are good at?

-iceskating?? idk

34.   Do you like small kids?

-I hatekids so much

35.   How are you feeling right now?

-There

36.   What would you name your daughter/son?

-daughter:Lavender? Idk I just watched matilda and I was like what a pretty name, andboys: Christian?  

37.   What do you need to be happy?

-abillion dollars

38.   Is there some you want to punch in the face right now?

-my ex

39.   What was the last gift you received?

-does mycoworker buying everyone hot chocolates and frozen cokes during their shiftcount as a gift

40.   What was the last gift you gave?

-a fidgetcube?

41.   What was the last concert you went to?

-panic atthe disco in January :D

42.   Favourite place to shop at?

-ittotally was this gothic shop in Newtown, but then it moved and I don’t knowwhere it is anymore :/

43.   Who inspires you?

-myselfbitch

44.   How old were you when you first got drunk?

-18

45.   How old were you when you first got high?

-never

46.   When was your first kiss?

-when I was15? 16?

47.   Something you want to do until the end of this year?

-be amermaid, like fr, go follow mermaid_shelly on Instagram no joke.

48.   Is there something in the past you wish you hadn’t done?

-dated myex

49.   Post a selfie.

-heres alink instead: http://darklarru.tumblr.com/post/161374174865/cat-cafe-aesthetic

50.   Who are you most comfortable around?

-my BestFriend

51.   Name one thing that terrifies you.

-to loseeverything I worked for

52.   What kind of books do you read?

-haventread a book in so long, but I like the fantasy genre

53.   What would you tell your 12 year old self?

-girl,girl, u gay as fuck

54.   What is your favourite flower?

-roses!!

55.   Any bad habits you have?

-speakingquietly

56.   What kind of people are you attracted to?

-peoplewho think the same as me

57.   What was the last thing you cried for?

-my ex :/

58.   Is there something you don’t eat? Some food that truly disgust you?

-pickles,what r they doin, get outta here

59.   Are you in love?

-yeah imalways in love

60.   Something you find romantic?

-tealightcandles

61.   How long was your longest relationship? 

-like 3or 4 months

62.   What are 3 things that irritate you about the same sex?

-wereso,, bitchy.

63.   What are 3 things that irritate you about the opposite sex? 

-they don’tknow what the fuck is up, they don’t listen, they always horny, theyre kindaviolent, theyre more hardcore and aggressive physically.

64.   What are you saving money for?

-anothermermaid tail,,, but also a house I guess

65.   How would you describe your bad side?

-emotional,angry, violent, temperamental, not thinking,, idk

66.   Are you actually a good person? Why?

-sometimesI guess, I try not to be shitty, but some people fuckin deserve it.

67.   What are you living for?

-a future

68.   Have you ever done anything illegal?

-probably

69.   Do you like your body?

-yeahsometimes

70.   Have you ever made someone feel bad about themselves intentionally?

-notunless we were fighting

71.   Ever sent nudes?

-whohasnt

72.   Have you ever cheated on someone?

-I cheatedon a guy with girl and I was very drunk, but then we said same sex cheating wasokay

73.   Favourite candy?

-redfrogs, gummy bears

74.   Is there a blog you visit every day, or almost every day? Tag it!

-imbarely on this hell site

75.   Do you play any computer games? What is your favourite game?

-adarkroomwas one of my Faves

76.   Favourite TV series?

-w.i.t.c.h.what a Classic

77.   Are you religious? Does God exist?

-yeah, imchill w god.

78.   What was the last book you read? Did it impress you and why?

-I haven’tread a book in so long yall.

79.   What do you think about vegetarianism/veganism?

-kudos tothem who r doin it but I really love chicken.

80.   How long have you been on Tumblr?

-sinceyear 9, so like, 2013

81.   Do you like Chineese food?

-I am Chinese

82.   McDonalds or Subway?

-subwayyyy

83.   Vodka or whiskey?

-fuuuuuuck,,,fucking love vodka but it makes my face screw up in a bad expression, and I lovefireball whiskey, but like, vodka gets me fucked up faster.

84.   Alcohol or drugs?

-alcohol,don’t do drugs kids

85.   Ever been out of your province/state/country?

-ya

86.   Meaning behind your blog name?

-I lovetypos

87.   What gets you up in the morning?

-spite.

88.   What are you scared of?

-a lot ofthings

89.   Last time you were insulted?

-wednesday

90.   Most traumatic experience ?

-my bf atthe time, was fuckin, chewin his toenails in his mouth, and I forgot bc he wasbein sweet n he stuck his tongue out to touch mine, n I stuck mine out too n I fuckni,,.,,,. touched the toenail w my mouth I nearly threw up, I felt my soul ejectfrom my body for a second.

91.   Perfect date idea?

-picnicdaate, and watching the stars and cuddling

92.   Favourite app on your phone?

-instagram?I check it the most.

93.   What colour are the walls in your room?

-white

94.   Do you watch Youtube? Who is your favourite youtuber?

-daviddobrik tbh

95.   Share your favourite quote.

-ifsomeone tells you that they hurt you, you don’t get to decide that you didn’t.

96.   What is the meaning of life?

-when thestreets are empty and the moon is shining and nobody is awake and its chilly,but your alone and maybe the wind is blowing through the grass, or whatever.

97.   Do you like horror movies?

-fuck nah

98.   Have you ever made your mum cry? What happened?

-I signedup for Netflix and didn’t tell her.

99.   Do you feel lucky or special in a way?

-I amspecial

100. Can you keep a secret?

-ya justmake sure u tell me its important.

[myinspirationlog]

Been a while since I did one of these and I'm bored, so here we go.

(1) Do You Sleep With Your Closet Doors Open Or Closed? - Closed.

(2) Do You Have Freckles? - Yes, more so as I’ve aged. Mostly on my shoulders, sometimes on my face.

(3) Can You Whistle? - Rarely.

(4) Last Song You Listened To. - Cardi B - Bodak Yellow

(5) What Is Your Favourite Colour? - After spending a good 10 minutes trying to find that one Ex Machina quote that puts it so eloquently, I give up. I do not have one.

(6) Relationship Status. - Forever Alone™

(7) What Is The Temperature Right Now? - Outside 12 degrees. Indoors, maybe 20-25?

(8) Did You Wake Up Cranky? - Lol I didn’t sleep.

(9) How Many Followers? - Are they truly followers because they clicked a button? Nah. I have no real following yet.

(10) Zodiac Sign. - Aries, babe.

(11) What Is Your Eye Colour? - Grey with a few brown freckles.

(12) Take A Vitamin Daily? - Usually B12 or multi.

(13) Do You Sing In The Shower? - No.

(14) What Books Are You Reading? - No one right now.

(15) Grab The Book Nearest To You, Turn To Page 64, Give Me Line 14. - “She smiled.”

(16) Favourite Anime? - Not a big anime consumer. Prefer manga. (Sailor Moon forever though.)

(17) Last Person You Cried In Front Of? - On the phone with my mom.

(18) Do You Collect Anything? - Sadness and despair.

(19) What Did You Have For Lunch? - Ha. Some kind of butter-less McGyver sandwich out of random stuff I have at the house. Trying not to buy too much new food since I’m moving soon.

(20) Do You Dance In The Car? - I DO NOT OWN A CAR.

(21) Favourite Animal? - Used to be cats, but honestly... I just love them all.

(22) Do You Watch The Olympics? - No.

(23) What Time Do You Usually Go To Bed? - Never o’clock.

(24) Are You Wearing Makeup Right Now? - Nope.

(25) Do You Prefer To Swim In A Pool Or The Ocean? - Ocean. 100%. Nothing beats the waves.

(26) Favourite Tumblr Blog? - None right now, if I’m honest.

(27) Bottled Water Or Tap Water? - Tap. I’m not made out of money, bruh.

(28) What Makes You Happy? - Art. Growth. Adventure. Travel.

(29) Post A Gif Of What You’re Currently Feeling Right Now.

(30) Do You Study Better With Or Without Music? - Without, usually.

(31) Dogs Or Cats? - BOTH.

(32) If You Were A Crayon What Colour Would You Be? - Black. Simple, not showy, full of potential and beauty when handled right.

(33) PlayStation Or Xbox. - Dude... either one is fine.

(34) Would You Swim In The Lake Or Ocean? - Both.

(35) Do You Believe In Magic? - Neh.

(36) What Colour Shirt Are You Wearing? - Not wearing a shirt ooooooooh......

(37) Can You Curl Your Tongue? - Yes.

(38) Do You Save Money Or Spend It? - Hahahahahahhahahahahhahahahahahhahahahahhahahahahahahhahahahahahahhahahahahhahahahahhahahahahahhahahahahhahah ahaha....... I normally save it but am currently on a binge since I’ve spent 4000usd on a driver’s license I haven’t even passed yet so I’m going crazy :)))))))))))))

(39) Is There Anything Pink Within 10 Feet Of You? - Perfume bottles.

(40) Do You Have Any Obsessions Right Now? - Alice Isn’t Dead.

(41) Have You Ever Caught A Butterfly? - As a child, yes. Never would now.

(42) Are You Easily Influenced By Other People? - More so now than I used to be. Trying to get back my old independence and self-confidence.

(43) Do You Have Strange Dreams? - I don’t really dream anymore.

(44) Do You Like Going On Airplanes? - It is only one of my favorite things in the world.

(45) Name One Movie That Made You Cry. - Katie Says Goodbye.

(46) Peanuts Or Sunflower Seeds? - Sunflower seeds.

(47) If I Handed You A Concert Ticket Right Now, Who Would You Want The Performer To Be? - Made In Heights.

(48) Are You A Picky Eater? - Not at all.

(49) Are You A Heavy Sleeper? - Not at all.

(50) Do You Fear Thunder / Lightning? - Not if I’m in a safe place, no. I find it very calming actually. Reminds you that our planet is alive. It’s like nature’s period. (That was a weird analogy but it works.)

(51) Do You Like To Read / Write?  - Yes, but I never do it anymore. Trying to find myself again.

(52) Do You Like Your Music Loud? - Loud enough.

(53) Would You Rather Carve Pumpkins Or Wrap Presents? - Pumpkins.

(54) Put Your Music On Shuffle, What Is The First Song That Came Up? - Made In Heights - All The Places (Instrumental)

(55) What Season Are You In Right Now? (Weather) - Fall AKA the dreary gray.

(56) What Are You Craving Right Now? - Affection and human intimacy. And my intelligence back.

(57) Post A Screenshot Of Your Tumblr Feed.

(58) What Is Your Gender? - Female! :D

(59) Coffee Or Tea? - Both.

(60) Do You Have Any Homework Right Now? If So, What Is It About? - I wish. I miss school so much.

(61) What Is Your Sexuality? - Girls by Beatrice Eli is my sexuality.

(62) Do You Make Your Bed In The Morning? - No.

(63) Favourite Pokemon? - Mew was always my fave.

(64) Favourite Social Media? - I hate all of them. I suppose Vimeo is nice though.

(65) What’s Your Opinion On Instagram Stories? - Why is everyone trying to be snapchat???? 

(66) Do You Get Homesick? - Only for places I haven’t lived in.

(67) Are You A Virgin? - Nope.

(68) What Shampoo And Conditioner Are You Using Right Now? - Generic store brand.

(69) If You Were Far From Home And Needed To Sleep For The Night, Would You Choose To Rent A Crappy Motel Room For $60 Or Sleep In Your Car For Free? - Depends on how much money I had and how sketchy the motel was.

(70) Are Both Of Your Blood Parents Still In Your Life? - Nope. Don’t want them to be.

(71)  What’s The Next Movie You Want To See In Theaters? - Hmm... Maybe The Beguiled.

(72) Do You Miss Your Ex? - Yes. I do. I miss our friendship. I often come across things I know she’d appreciate with me, and in those moments I mourn that we no longer speak.

(73) What Is Your Favourite Quote Right Now? - I can’t think of one.

(74) What Eye Colour Do You Find Sexiest? - It ain’t about the color of the eyes, it’s about the look in them.

(75) Did You Like Swinging As A Child? Do You Still Get Excited When You See A Swing Set? - I was gonna make a sex joke but eh. Yes, I love swinging. Still do.

(76) What Was The Last Thing You Ate? - I already answered this.

(77) What Games Do You Have On Your Phone? - “Really Bad Chess”. That’s it.

(78) Would You Give A Homeless Person CPR If They Were Dying? Why Or Why Not? - Depends on how they were dying. Like if someone just shot them in the head I doubt CPR would help. But yes, I would. I couldn’t bear the idea of watching another person die and do nothing.

(79) Been On The Computer For 5 Hours Straight? - Not currently but yes.

(80) Stalked Someone On A Social Network? - Ha... yes.

(81) Do You Like Meeting New People? - YES I DO. SHOW ME THE NEW PEOPLE. WHERE ARE THEY??

(82) Do You Wear Rings? If You Do, Take A Picture Of Them. - Not usually.

(83) Do You Sleep With Your Bedroom Door Open Or Closed? - Closed. Unless I’m hanging clothes to dry on it.

(84) What Are Three Things You Did Today? - Got a massage, purchased bananas, sat on a bench.

(85) What Do You Wear To Bed? - Usually just underwear.

(86) List All Of Your Different Beauty Products You Have Right Now. - This list would be too extensive. Skincare is important yo.

(87) Are You A Day Or Night Person? - Both, actually.

(88) List All Of Your Video Games On Your Phone, Console Etc. - Have none. Just Really Bad Chess.

(89) Tell Me About A Dream That You Had And When It Happened. - I just found an old journal where I wrote down a dream where apparently I was the boss at some job and I had a bed in my office that I was trying to coax my employees to have a fourway with me in.... idk wtf that was about. I don’t think we hade the fourway.

(90) Favourite Soda Drink? - I don’t drink soda.

(91) What Sounds Are Your Favourite? - Wind. Rain. Water rushing. Birds. A nice 80′s synth.

(92) Do You Wear Jeans Or Sweats More? - Please. Neither. I am a lady. (No but in all honesty I’ve been wearing sweats like every day at work for the past year.)

(93) How Do You Look Right Now? - Indifferent.

(94) Name Something That Relaxes You. - Clean sheets and no obligations.

(95) What Tattoo Do You Want? - The mathematical symbol for “equal or greater than”.

(96) Favourite YouTuber? - Natalie Tran hands down. Hate youtube currently though.