#uhealthy sense of devotion. fell (figuratively and literally). refused to die when they should've.

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Fun fact! Teo used to be my DnD character for a campaign that ended up not working out! She was a fallen aasimar, cleric to the sun god that made her fall in the first place <3

more ramblings about her backstory under the cut vvv (cw suicide mention)

So in my DM's world, aasimar are usually children gifted directly from the gods themselves. There are other ways to become aasimar later in life, but they rely heavily on being in a god's favor. Teo's mother was a very accomplished paladin of the sun god, so when she settled down with her wife the sun god blessed them with a child: Teo! She grew up aspiring to become a great paladin just like her mother, knowing the sun god was already smiling down on her.

Side note. It is nearly impossible to piss off the sun god. The only thing she truly cares about are dragons. Don't fuck with her dragons.

Anyways in her 20-30's she adventures a lot, makes a lot of friends and connections across the land, spreads the good word as is her duty. Even falls in love with a party member along the way. And then her party gets trapped in a fight they can't possibly win. And then Teo makes the split second decision to try to save the rest of the party rather than her wounded lover. And then they die defeating the creature anyways. So Teo is left alone, sole survivor, and her lover is lying there. She goes to heal her, and her magic isn't working. Her lover turned out to be a dragon who took humanoid form, and by letting her die, Teo had betrayed the trust of her god.

Her wings burned off her back until all that remained was smoldering bone, fragile feathers, and pain. Lots of it. A burn that will never truly heal.

A truth about this world is fallen aasimar don't live that long after falling. There's the societal stigma: an unspoken agreement that if you've done something horrible enough to be marked by your god as disgraceful, you will have to work hard to earn any kind of trust. Most fallen aren't given work, are exiled, are sent into the woods to disappear. In all recorded instances of fallen aasimar, most fallen aasimar kill themselves within the first three months.

It's been six years since she fell, and Teo's not dead yet. She's been travelling solo during most of that time, never staying too long in one town in case she gets discovered as fallen. She couldn't go home, because the idea of telling her mothers she failed them was worse than her wings burning. Along her way she managed to pick up a horse she named Penney, who quickly became her only friend. At first she was resentful of falling, hated her creator and herself and the world. Then she was just angry at herself. But she didn't want to die. She just kept moving forward. And after six years, she continued to move.

One night, in a moment of weakness and being drunk as shiittt, Teo tried to pray to her god again knowing damn well she wouldn't get a response. Two days later, the sun god reaches out to her instead, pretty much saying "Hey hi what?? Why are you still alive???". They talk, and Teo asks if there's anything she could do to earn the god's favor again. The god, in an act of pity, allows Teo to become her low level cleric. If she does more good than the harm she's already committed, she will earn her wings back.

Sooooooooooo yeah. Thats where she started in the campaign. My depressed as fuck cleric to a god of sunlight and happiness and dragons. And she's best friends with a horse. Thanks for reading this far lmao.