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[thehumanexperience8b]

September 29th, 2024: Donation Day

Today is the last few hours of the 29th. Since February 29th (my lovely deceased betta fishes’ birthday) of 2024, I donated money to causes I found important every month. I worked hard to make sure I could keep up with it; last month I lost my bank card.. And I was so heartbroken because I didn’t have enough time to find it and make my donation in time. It felt so bad because I felt like everyone in the world was disappointed in me.. That no one could rely on me to be committed and I would never make any difference. I also felt so awful because it was like my fish, Tsumi, was looking down on me in disappointment because I had forsaken her name. I cried so much I woke my brother up and he told me that I can just wait until tomorrow and do the donation, and that it doesn’t matter what day I do it because they’ll still get the money and be grateful for it. I started to realize that maybe the donations were more personal that I realized. I felt more that it was about how I felt about myself, my character, proving to myself and others that I am caring and I do matter; because “look everyone, I am so virtuous, I give my hard earned money to people in need every month.” And “everyone” included myself, too. I think my consciousness understood this before I did, but I couldn’t process it, I felt like it was just an excuse to give up. But I think actually, my donations might be more valuable if I just wait a little while.

This month alone I spent more than $600 for two concerts I plan on going to, and they’re really important to me. I’m going to see The Orion Experience this week on Thursday, my favorite band which I love so much and had the opportunity to work for. Then in 2025, Weird Al is coming to Foxwoods resort, an hour or so away from me. I couldn’t believe it, I am so in love with him. I bought tickets an hour after I found out… and they were QUITE expensive. So I’m kinda in the pit, I’m also unemployed so all of this was coming out of my savings. I’m ranting again! My point is… I realized I will have more money to give if I wait so I can earn some money, and see how much money I have left over after my NYC trip. So I have officially decided to resign the 29th Donation Day and instead keep it as a reminder to be thankful and give when someone is in need. I still try and do donations once every month, but sometimes life doesn’t turn out that convenient. Also just wanted to mention a sweet thing, I donated to Upstream a few months ago and they sent me a thank you letter with stickers inside! How cute. So this is what this post is about.. It doesn’t even really matter to you because you didn’t know about Donation Day at all to begin with, but I just wanted to share my revelation about self reflection and awareness. Have a great day!!!!

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1. Nicknames: Mey, Tsumeily, Tsumy  2. Gender: Female  3. Star sign: Scorpio 4. Height:  5' 3" 5. Time: 5:52 p.m. (Post at 6:40 pm)  6. Birthday: November 10th, 1997 7. Favorite bands: Block B, BtoB, f(x), Mamamoo, Paramore, One Ok Rock 8. Favorite solo artists: -  9. Song stuck in my head: That Girl - Peniel (BtoB)  10. Last movie watched: Kubo and the two strings  11. Last show watched: My father is strange (Drama)  12. When did i create my blog: October, 2016 13. What do i post: At this blog... Block B stuff and I started to post about other groups that I like ~  14. Last thing googled: Father is strange  15. do you have other blogs: Yes, I do! My main blog and a blog (tsumeily) where I should post drawings but I have been so lazy  16. Do you get asks: No :c Feel free to ask ♥ 17. Why did u choose your url: Because of Block B and my nickname 18. Following: Idk  19. Followers: 461, Thanks for follow me ♥ 20. Favorite colors: sky blue, turquoise  21. Average hours of sleep: Lately, 11 pm - 12 am 22. Lucky number: I really don’t have one but If I had to choose would be “3″  23. Instruments: Acoustic guitar (Basic knowledge) 24. What am I wearing: Yellow T-Shirt, Black pants  25. How many blankets I sleep with: - 26. Dream job: I'd love to work with something related to music and dance, like a K-Pop Idol (That´s why I love K-Pop) or a concept artist - Illustrator.  27. Dream trip: Any place where there is food and comfort  28. Favorite food: Currently, teriyaki!  29. Nationality: Mexican 30. Favorite song now: I’ll choose... Artist by Zico ♥

I saw this at @taeilsboobies a long time ago and I wanted to do it ♥ 

@the-box-cow, Idk if you already did it but, do it if you want ♥♥♥