#trying to sense the blood mites. lqg it's always by his side. sometimes its comforting. other times it's infuriating. | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

dick-the3rd · 5 months ago

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(I forgot about the damn tag limit and now I'm too lazy to write all of that here. fuck. another day I'll edit this into something more coherent)

[there's a door in front of him. He stands there, trying to sense shizun. He wonders if he should maybe knock. Or is the door open? Could he just enter? Just before his knuckles hit the wood the door opens and a smaller man runs into him.

It's his husband. It's the most beautiful man he ever saw.

Later, they'll discover it took a giganimous amount of power for SY emotions to be broadcast across universes. And the only reason lbh was able to find him it's because sy giving up on lbh was the most painful and heartwretching thing he ever did.

Trusting and hoping came easily to him, but giving up? it felt like it would kill him. ]

You know when in svsss fics, Shen Yuan wakes up from a coma after returning back to the modern world? What if he was in a coma long enough for his hair to grow pretty long, like past his ears. What if he lets it grow longer. What if he grows out his hair so that he can have something to remind himself it was real. What if time passes, and his hair is to his shoulders, his family suggests he cut it, but he refuses. He's growing it out so it won't be strange for Binghe when he comes to get him. Because he will. He always does. Time goes on, his hair is down to the end of his rib cage. Binghe is still not there. His hair has grown past his hips now, so long he needs to move it when he sits down. He's starting to lose hope, frowning at the few grey hairs he starts growing as he approached his 30s. His family is worried for him, thinking he's falling into depression. They ask him to see a therapist, but the therapist can't do anything to "fix" him either. So he waits. And waits. He waits for a sign it wasn't all a dream, that his imagination didn't just come up with someone as wonderful as his husband. He reads articles on how people dreamt of having whole other lives while in a coma, only to wake up and grieve the people that never were. He braided his hair, surely, that wasn't it. He doesn't think he believes himself anymore. He decides, one day, he's going to cut his hair. He schedules an appointment, gets ready to head out. He opens his door and—

—and he runs into someone's chest.

#ooh this.#this is the shit #imagine this from binghes pov #one day binghe wakes up and his husband is not in their bed. and at first he thinks it's a bit strange #not because sy it's not there but bc when he gets up binghe always notices. but its okay. there's a first time for everything #but then lbh tries to find him using the blood mites and there's nothing on the other side. its not even an empty space #its like sy never even had a space to begin with #lbh goes crazy. it's their house. his fans and his brushes and his clothes #theres hair on his pillow and a half written entry on some monster or another in his bestiary #but. hes. not. there.#his mind goes to Bingge. the other him that was a little too interest on his shizun. he crosses the realms and leaves no stone unturned #he tortures bingge. he didn't know he had it in him. violence and revenge and despair sings in his blood #he didn't expect his blood mites to work on himself but it does #and it destroys him when binghe realize bingge truly has nothing to do with sy disappearance #and when he comes back all the peaks are pure chaos. lqg dares to acuse him of doing something to make shizun disappear #but this is good. its proof sy existed. that he was real. lbh will take anything rn if it means he'll a slight chance of finding sy #lqg doesn't leave his side. maybe because he doesn't believe lbh to be totally innocent #or maybe bc lbh is the only other person who seems to realize this is more than just a simple disappearance #until shang qinghua appears #lbh barely understands. another world. novel. pidw. coma. death. went back.#nothing of this really matters. he understands all he needs to: his husband is in another world. all he has to do is to go find him #it's not that easy. infinite universes. infinite shizuns. infinite binghes. infinite endings. like finding a needle in a haystack #it doesn't matter for lbh. he will find a way #sometimes lbh will smash through dimesions blindingly. looking into every possibility. and sometimes he'll spend weeks meditating #trying to sense the blood mites. lqg it's always by his side. sometimes its comforting. other times it's infuriating.#lbh respects him a lot more these days #and then. one day he senses something. a bright flame of despair and sadness and fear. it shines brighter than anything he ever felt.#brighter than even his love for his shizun #and what follows is a deep sea of resignation and regret #just like that lbh knows exactly where to go. he doesn't even blink at the new world. this one very different than all the others he visited

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