#trans scars are EPIC trans scars in art is EPIC

[thedawner]

Currently listening to Too Human’s dev diary and this spurred me into another long-winded ramble. BE YE READY. (Pictured: Various concept art)

The first (and last haha /cries) game ended on a massive cliff hanger! I want to know what happens next, no matter how awful the fate of the characters will be! This world is good enough that it deserves some closure! I live off the hope that there're bits and pieces of the script somewhere stashed in the storage of one of the former devs and that one day… it will resurface… maybe with even more old concept art too, if I dare dream that far.

Seriously, I would love to see a lot more unearthed artwork for this more than from any other game. In the first dev diary, they showcased a wall filled with prints showing off so much stuff. Some of it I’ve seen floating on the internet, others are concepts of characters that were not featured much such as Frey or Hermod.

What an underwhelming fate this game has! Stuck in a limbo where I can’t even say that it has a cult following, such as Black & White (another game very dear to me that is in a similar situation). Most of the perception of this IP is fairly insular from what I observed, and it saddens me.

There’s nothing similar to Too Human out there! While I can find general ideas and aesthetics in other works, this specific combo of world design, character designs and story is unique to it, at least in my eyes.

There are out there iterations similar to the game’s Loki, Heimdall and Thor. They represent a model that I really like. However, this model being placed within Too Human’s universe satisfies some monster in my brain that craves this exact idea.

The artists who worked on Too Human did a wonderful job at concretizing the bleak yet cautiously hopeful atmosphere that haunts this universe. Among that, they also blended some body horror aspects into it as well and I want to talk a bit about that.

The Aesir are a good example with their cybernetic augments where, even the subtlest prosthetics, still have their own unsettling feeling. That might also come with interesting psychological aspects, too.

Heimdall’s holo glasses come to mind where you can see the thin, golden frames attach to his temples and branch out underneath his skin into what looks like purple veins.

A design that was crafted to be elegant still comes across as off-putting. I imagine he would be used to normal people stealthily gawking at him in meeting settings. One of the least rude behaviours that he could receive so he doesn’t complain much about it. Other, less nice, examples would be people treating him like a computer and chalking up any personal achievement to a simple ‘wave’ of his augments. Maybe ODIN himself would over-load him with duties because his cybernetics, that are rapid-information-processing-based, allow him to bear that. His Aesir colleagues might also often forget that he is his own person and not just an extension of their leader, ODIN.

Even Baldur, canonically described as the least augmented of his colleagues, still looks odd to the fellow human soldiers that he commands. Picture being a rookie wolf trooper just starting out to work under this Aesir. You hear your superiors praise him that at he, out of all the other gods, looks like a normal human person.

Then Baldur goes past you, a towering frame of expensive armor with glowing blue scars criss-crossing his face and weird blue eyes. The rune sword mounted on his back growls at you as its owner went on his business. Yes. That is totally a normal person. You feel so represented.

This disparity of perceptions circles back to the trans-humanist theme prevalent in this game (huhu Too Human title pun huhu). It’s obvious that the writers wanted to do so much more with what they already had in the game, but had to omit a lot. I mostly blame the Epic lawsuit that later on killed both the company and any hopes of a trilogy.

This disparity of perceptions circles back to the trans-humanist theme prevalent in this game (huhu Too Human title pun huhu). It’s obvious that the writers wanted to do so much more with what they already had in the game, but had to omit a lot. I mostly blame the Epic lawsuit that later on killed both the company and any hopes of a trilogy.

God(s), I’m repeating myself like a broken record, but this is why I’m so in love with this game. I could make up headcanons all day based on the little information that there is out there and it still would fit with the official bit of the story. This could have had a chance for a huge collaborative project that could’ve gone on and on.

AND YET.

He's dead, Jim.

He's gone and died.

He's croaked off.

I'm (not) sure why.

So far I have a dream that one day Denis Dyack, the original creator of the story, will give this a re-bound… one day.

[mrcowboydeanwinchester]

Hi Ola!! I wanted to show you my Trans!Benny with heart shaped top surgery scars in honor of Trans Day Of Visibility :D (The second photo is where I got the inspiration from !!!!🍃❤️🏳️‍⚧️)

THIS IS SO CUTE I LOVE IT the pink scars pop so beautifully in your art <333 and happy trans day of visibility!!!!!!!!! an epic slay on all fronts !!!

[modgirlyreposts-revamped]

Bro why'd my art style lowkey suck back then jwhthejbfbf- anyway I redrew Sarah too! Why does the way I draw her like chubby w/ freckles & acne scars actually give my dysmorphic ass so much comfort I love her 😭

DGHDJJSDKJDH SARAH W/ FRECKLES MY BELOVED-

also trans and bi Sarah???? Epic :00000

[tylerwritez]

Sunday, September 19th, 2021, 10:31 p.m.

Hey guys

I'm here again,,, which, as y'all know, means I've got something to say.

My life has been sorta stupid lately. I dont quite remember when I posted here last, but,,, a LOT has happened since then. I got into a lot of new music and tweaked my image a bit, my parents found out all about my self harm... and now they are being REALLY strict. No closing doors, I gotta do my art downstairs instead of in my room, my messages got searched, my room and bags are regularly searched, its like I have 0 privacy which ie ridiculous because I'm not going to fucking kill myself if left alone for... omg... a few moments :0

Whatever. They're trying. I love my dad. My mom... I love her too yeah, but idk, I have a weird reaction inside me to her touch, I'm like GETOFFME which is so weird???? But it makes me panicky. Idk why. There are so many things I dont know about myself. I proabably have BPD. IM PISSED at my parents for being so strict but I understand why. It's because they're scared I'll hurt myself real bad one of these days and the damage will be hospital/death level.

I haven't self harmed since I cut up my left leg... so that's how long... lemme check

Since September 11th

It's been only 8 days? WHAT THE FUCKKKK??? it feels like so much longer. I guess that's what it's like when you're addicted... time passes slowly. For example, it feels like FOREVER since I last smoked a cig, but it was really on the 17th.

I made a new friend which is cool. I'm going to call them Velo, which is in their disc user but not their actual name. Velo is pretty cool... they're a chill person, and I'm afraid I maybe came off as annoying, but I'm doing my best at social interaction,,, its been a long time.

Velo has been helping my tattoo my arm, I did a heart and they designed a face to go inside the heart. So far it's looking super epic! I also have a smiley face on my knee, a sad face on the other knee, and I'm going to do a sun so i can match my BFF, whos getting a moon.

Wow I'm so #rebellious

ANYWAYS I'm not here to talk about my shitshow life. I'm here cos I'm sad and I wanna talk about that and HONESTLY doing my best right now Not to hurt myself because I WANT TO HURT MYSELF!!!! so badly. But it makes me feel guilty,... my parents were so upset. Crying and shit. It made me feel so bad, but like, they shouldnt be doing all that crying shit in front of me... I swear sometimes they forget that I have feelings too...

Right now, I'm mostly upset about my slight weight gain... I'M FUCKING FAT and ugly as fuck, my acne meds dont seem to be working and I... my fucking face... is shaped WEIRD.... i look at my body and I dont even see anything remotely human it all looks disgusting and fat and gross and repulsive and like some kinda of monster and my skin is disgusting and full of acne like some kinda monstrous thing and I have got scars and scabs and... it hurts. It hurts knowing how fucking ugly I am. Seeing that other kids my age havent got dots all over their fucking faces, it's just me. Since I was 10 years old. And IM FAT holy shit I'm so fat I'm so ugly I dont even look human my lips are gross and my nose is fucked up and I dont even look like a boy becos my thighs and hips are fuckinf massive I hate seeing little blond children knowing theyll grow up without my fuckinf problems, I HATE IT, I HATE CHILDREN I WANT TO FUCKING KILL THOSE PERFECT FUCKING KIDS FUCK FUCK FUCKKK I hate seeing them knowing their family loves them and they never have to question that, knowing theyll grow up without the struggles of being trans, knowing theyll grow up without the struggles of being mentally ILL and of having everyone deny your sickness and assume you're a bad person and ruin your ability to trust adult authority figures and ruin your relationship with your parents and ruin your ability to walk into offices without crying or tensing up FUCK if I was a bit more off the rails than I am right now id take one of those little blond kids and beat the shit outta them because fUCK, FUCK, FUCK YOU, ,, WHY YOU ??? WHY YOU AND NOT ME? WHY??? WHAT COULD I HAVE DONE AS A CHILD TO DOOM ME TO THIS??? and the answer is nothing. It's not that kids fault, or my fault, or some fake gods fault, or my parents fault, or the teachers fault..... its nobodies fault. This is just how things ended up. A combination of faults from everyone. We are all to blame, but in little, complex pieces that make me think that nobody is to blame.

Its sadder having no one to blame. You cant rile up your anger and point a finger saying YOU did this to me, its YOUR fault... you just gotta put your head down on your desk and cry because there was nothing anyone couldve done to make it better for you.

I'm sad.

Yknow tonight when i went to bed, I couldnt find my nice pillow... it's one of those fuckinf memory foam cool whatever pillows with a batman pillowcase. I looked all over for it but then I realized that the pillow in question is the one I use at my DADS house.... and i broke down crying. I was confused, my brain was confused, between my two houses, because it was thinking of it's old life.... in one house... I'm not even upset about the divorce, I swear to god I'm not. It's just sometimes, my brain is confused about where i am... and I just find that so SAD. It's like oh, right, my parents dont love each other no more, I forgot about that for a moment.

Yikes. ANYWAYS. talking about this didn't help much cos I'm still bawling my eyes out. I'd love to smoke some to calm me down but I only have 2 and I'm saving em for lunch tommorow with my friend... goddamn. I give in. If I'm not too exhausted, I'm going to burn myself and then ill cry some more cos I look like freddy fuckin kreuger then I'll burn myself some more.

Goodnight guys... not that theres anyone out there whose even listening, who even CARES. Jesus.

[genderhawk]

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[paler-than-thou]

Oh sorry! The invasive gays thing!

OH. XD Fair enough and holy shit anon, you want even more oversharing huh ^^

OKAY SO

(putting this under a Read More for people, and this is for this post!)

1. What’s your gender?

Male, though I kinda say ‘transmale’ automatically these days.

2. what are your pronouns?

He/him

3. is your family accepting?

Hhhh on the whole, yes, though I do wonder sometimes.

4. what do you wish you could tell your past self?

The depression won’t magically fix itself, and the things you’re doing now are just going to make it worse. But...it does get better, it gets brighter and one day you’ll smile and realise it isn’t perfect, but it’s good.

5. what is your sexuality?

Asexual! And fucking proud of it.

6. favorite color?

Depends on mood, ranges from darkish-red (trying not to say blood red but that’s the actual shade) to green. If we’re talking combos? Black/white/red.

7. sun gay or moon gay?

I’d say moon, I get a lot of my light and shit from my friends 8D

8. when did you find out your sexuality?

Fairly recently, after a lot (and I mean a lot) of personal growth. From gay to bi to maybe?straight?no? to bi to demi to ace.

9. how was your day?

Quiet, thank you for asking ^^

10. do you have any gay friends?

I honestly don’t think I have any straight ones.

11. what’s your favorite hobby?

Modding, arting, being an ass

12. who’s the best gay icon in your opinion?

The ones who made it, the ones who are making it, the ones who still fight, the ones who stay silent, the ones who make noise. All of you.

13. which pride flags do you like the most design/color wise?

Design and colour-wise? Bi, pan, trans, and really REALLY like that Ace/Aro/Agen flags too. Good thing I’m trans, ace and aro then really huh XD

14. are you openly out?

Yup, and very much FIGHT ME about it.

15. are you comfortable with yourself?

I’d be lying if I said yes. Not 100%, but I’m at the ‘Do no harm, take no shit’ stage in life, and doing a lot better than I was.

16. bottom or top?

Depends on mood. Mostly top.

17. femme or butch?

Again, depends on mood. I’m a great hairy monstrosity, but I also like skirts and makeup.

18. do you bind?

Used to! Don’t have anything to bind any more though.

19. do you shave?

Not enough 8D I used to shave my legs, but after starting T and getting hair just everywhere, I gave up. I’m beardy, though and need to shave twice a day if I want to be clean-shaven the day through. Needless to say, I haven’t found anything worth shaving that often for.

20. if you could date anyone you wanted, who would it be?

Kinda already doing so with the people I want to ^^

21. do you have a partner (s)?

Yup! Two of them in fact.

22. describe your partner (s)?

How do you describe perfection? I can describe colour better than I can those two. Oh, wait, hold on. Lemme try.

One’s an Elder God from the unknowable reaches, their eyes the colour of exploding stars and their multitude of arms clad in the skin of forgotten nebulas that will never see the birth of a star, their mind the unending scream of creation that beguiles and bemuses the artist they bless with their knowledge.

The other? A dragon of death and thunder. Their body a cacophony of storms and rivers, clad in the scales of cold certainty and metal, bright with the sheen of the oceans and scars showing the wars they’ve won. Their eyes old and the colour of warmth, hypnotising and inspiring in turns. Their roar is one that uplifts their loves and scatters their enemies. 

That’s close, right, guys?

23. have you ever dated anyone of the same sex?

Ayup.

24. anyone of another sex?

Ayup.

25. pastel gay or goth gay?

Oh, goth, 100%. I can’t pastel to save my life.

26. favorite dad in dream daddies?

I have to choose?!

27. tell me a random fact about yourself?

I like pineapple on pizza, and have it every time I can :3

28. do you own any pride flags/merch?

Not enough. I hoard trans stuff, and get inordinately excited if I find something that makes up the flag.

29. have you ever been to a pride parade?

Once or twice. Unfortunately marching is not something I’m good at.

30. any advice to someone who isn’t out or who is exploring themselves?

Firstly: you do not have to ‘come out’. It’s entirely fine to spend your life pretty cool with who you are and not be interested in telling anyone. Us that are out aren’t somehow ‘better’ than you. Secondly, take your time. If you never quite manage to find where you sit, that’s okay! If you do, then that’s okay too. If it takes you years, that’s fine, if it takes hours then that’s cool too. If you find one label and it sticks for years, awesome! If you change it like clothes and have a new one each week, epic! There is literally no right way to be. Be what you want that’s true to yourself, and do not drag people for their choices.

Unless they choose to be assholes. Do no harm, but take no shit.

[natusabout]

about me!!

hi im natu!! :•D

past urls: islandofdodos, corazonc0re, amorc0re

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🌈basic dni stuff (racist, lgbt phobe, ableist, etc etc duh)+ t/erfs +rad/fems + trans/meds + m/aps + no/maps } if u excuse any of these things

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