#too scared to tag this one with the characters' names loool

[eyesontheskyline]

In regards to Morgan, he’s always been the sceptic/trust issues/Devil’s advocate guy of the team. I just finished ‘The Crossing’ and he spends the whole case questioning why they are taking the case. He says Hotch would never take the case despite the fact that Hotch has in fact taken on cases before because JJ believes in them. Then I was reminded by how he was when Penelope was going to see the guy on death row in a later season. Yeah, I adore Derek Morgan, but sometimes he’s a tool.

Yeah so honestly I think the writers lean on this as a plot device / easy tension a little bit too hard sometimes, and in The Crossing they push it a little bit past where it's plausible imo. Like, he hangs onto the idea that these are unrelated events for waayyy too long for any reasonable person, to the point where it's past character flaw and into the realm of writing flaw. (Also, they do equivocal death investigations, so even if there's a good chance they were suicides, it's still a perfectly reasonable case for the team. It's just weird.)

And I do love him, as a character.

But I'm first and foremost an Emily Prentiss loyal, and I honestly find "she slept with a terrorist for a profile" totally in character given what comes before and after, and pretty unforgivable. It's misogynistic. It's 'I can't imagine doing that' from someone who would never be in that position. It's 'using your body for your job is fine unless the part you're using is your vagina'. It's just... gross. In my opinion.

And there's a big difference for me between taking a lot to come around to someone new or to take an unusual case or whatever, and immediately going "right now I can't say I ever even knew her" on one of your closest friends.

The fact that he thinks that thought about her and says it out loud makes it feel extremely gross to me that she then spends so much energy in S7 ignoring her own trauma to try and win back his trust.

[its-love-u-asshole]

about me as a writer

I was tagged by @oiivkawa <3 Thanks so much, this was super fun!

Tagging: @emeraldwaves @ivyfics @calmgeyama @ohoholyshit @yatatsukki and?? anyone else who wants to I guess lol, I feel like most ppl I know how been tagged ^^ 

I’m putting my responses under the cut as well bc I know myself lmao, my responses can be long af ^^’’

1. How did you come up with your username and what does it mean? bleh I have two usernames, and both stories are embarrassing LOL I’ll go with my actual ao3 name though I guess?? When I was in middle (?) school I used to watch the anime HOTD, which is like...awful first off. It’s borderline hentai, shitty fanservice, the whole thing (don’t ask me why I watched it, bc who knows, the music was A+) but my favorite character’s name was Saya, and her servants would call her ladysaya, so that’s the explanation for that ha. I put the x in front because I used to be obsessed with x men and all the marvel/dc animated series, so it felt appropriate pft. Man, even talking about this brings back so many cringe worthy memories lmao forgive me. 

2. Which fanfic of yours has the most feedback? (Bookmarks/ Subscriptions/ Hits/ Kudos) for Haikyuu!! it’s definitely Slipping Underneath, and for K Project it’s There You Are <3 

3. What is your AO3 profile icon and why did you choose it? It’s Semi! The reasoning for this is because I have 3 fav Haikyuu!! characters: Tsukishima, Oikawa, and Semi. So I just try to distribute my love evenly tbh lol. I have a Tsukki icon on here and discord, Semi for AO3, and Oikawa is on my phone case ^^ 

4. Do you have any regular/favourite commenters? ahhh I have several but I’m not aware if many of them have tumblr?? A lot of people who comment on every chapter of my multichapters are very special to me, I love them all! Ofc on here there’s @emeraldwaves @ivyfics @momomirasaki124 @uselessvalshit @starjem and then I have my other fav supporters @serviceace @caelestisxyz and @urikawa-miyuki  <3 

5. Is there a fanfic you keep going back to read again and again? Ah damn there are so many lmfao, I have a lot of fav fics and I don’t want to make this post super long. Please check out the rec posts I’ve done here and here ! Or also message me for specific types of fics <3 I will say though, one fic I always go back to read even though it’s been YEARS is a kyoukao fic by potionwine! 

6. How many stories are you subscribed to? How many do you have bookmarked? I consider myself pretty picky, but I do read a LOT of fic, so I have a decent amount of both ^^ About 187 bookmarks, and 16 fic/author subscriptions! 

7. Which AU do you find yourself writing the most? Probably college?? even though I know that’s super broad, and all kinds of different AUs can be based in college but that’s how it is lol. I think that’s because I honestly don’t like redoing AUs?? I like experimenting and making up really weird shit and original scenarios as much as possible. Though, I’m sure you can find apparent trends across all my fics ^^ 

8. How many people are subscribed and bookmarked to you in total? haha...I have 76 user subscriptions, 436 general fic subscriptions, and 792 bookmarks. I don’t even know how that’s real lmao I feel so blessed that so many people enjoy my writing <3 

9. Is there something you’d like to write about but are afraid of people judging you for it? (Feeling brave? If so, share it!) not really honestly, if I have an embarrassing or indulgent idea at this point, I just write it lmao idc but there are lots of types of fics I am scared to write just bc I don’t know if I could do them justice heh....

10. Is there anything you’d like to be better at? Writing certain scenes or genres, replying to comments, updating better, etc. yes lmao updating better would be something I’d LOVE to improve on ; ; Also writing action scenes too fff fuck action scenes

11. Do you write rarepairs or popular ships more often? Uhhh I’ve dabbled in both but yeah, more often than not I stick to more popular pairs just because I need content to motivate me pftt

12. How many stories have you posted on AO3 to this day? 50! 

13. How many stories do you have saved in/ with your writing program? Like WIPs? ffff WIPs...maybe like 4 or 5 at this point, including multichapters, and wow that’s actually not a lot, usually I have a ton and I’m drowning in them loool

14. Do you write down story ideas or just keep them in your head? Both...I usually just keep things in my head, but if a fic starts giving me issues, I like to plot it out

15. Have you ever co- authored a story? Nope, but I’d really love to at some point with a friend! 

16. How did you discover AO3? Uh I honestly don’t remember loool I think one day I sorta just saw that no one was using ff anymore and I was like ‘aight’ 

17. Do you consider yourself to be a popular or famous author in your fandom(s) on AO3? Not really lmao, I mean...my siren au does pretty well, but otherwise my fics get kinda slept on -shrug- it is what it is 

18. Do you have a nickname or fandom name for your readers? lol i do not

19. Was there an author who inspired or encouraged you to write? Well I’ve always loved to write so no, but @brynne-lagaao is a big reason I started writing sarumi fics back when I was in K fandom! And nowadays in the hq fandom, a lot of amazing authors really push me to keep writing ^^ 

20. What writing advice would you give to a beginning author? don’t be afraid to write and write whatever you want basically lmao I know it can be daunting if you think your writing skills aren’t matching up with other authors, but the best thing you can do is practice, practice, and eventually you will see results! Also read a lot, reading other ppl’s stories really helps, and above all, just have fun with it! 

21. Do you plot out your stories or do you just figure it out as you go? I try to have a basic plot (beginning, middle, end) because I used to just DIVE IN to stories and it was awful lmao I need some sort of guideline, even if it’s small

22. Have you ever gotten a bad comment on a story? If so, what did you do? yes ofc, but I honestly try not to dwell on them because they’re not worth it. I either ignore or delete in most cases

23. Is there a certain type of scene that you have a hard time writing? (Action, smut, etc) action and smut are never easy for me lol

24. What story(s) are you working on now? well right now I’m working on two secret santa fics for iwaoi, as well as my two kurotsuki multichapters! I am also trying to write kacchako as a x-mas present for a friend lol

25. Do you plan your new projects before you finish your current ongoing story(s)? ha yeah, it’s a bad habit but I have no self-control

26. Do you have a daily writing goal set for yourself? I do not! I just try to write at least a little bit each day if I can, but there’s never a word minimum I try to reach ^^ 

27. Do you think you’ve improved as a writer since you first started? oh 100% lmao comparing some of my old fics from even a year ago to my fics now is eye opening 

28. What is your favourite story that you have written? Shaking in My Skull for sarumi, it’s also the longest fic I’ve ever written and it holds a special place in my heart ; ; For kurotsuki it’s gotta be Let My Love 

29. What is your least favourite story that you have written? fuck me, Pencils and Paper LOL it was an earlier sarumi fic of mine and I just...hate it. I’m not even gonna link it LOL 

30. Where do you see yourself (as a writer) in 5 years? Still writing fanfic most likely, maybe some original stuff (I hope!)

31. What’s the easiest part about writing? lmao nothing, writing is super hard work, sometimes even just thinking up ideas can be difficult, then there’s actually writing and making the ideas come to life, and don’t get me started on editing lmaooo writers are my heroes 

32. What is the hardest part about writing? Finding the motivation, at least for me. I struggle sometimes with it because I’ll have the time and inspiration but depression just kicks my ass every time fff

33. Why do you write? For me it’s super therapeutic, I love the satisfaction of putting hard work into an idea you love and finishing it, and the high that comes with that. Plus sharing the story with others and getting positive feedback is a feeling that can’t be beat. I’ve always loved writing, I love how the possibilities are endless, and I hope I never stop <3 

[cactbi]

1. What is you middle name?

Don’t have one lol

2. How old are you?

15!

3. When is your birthday?

Tomorrow!! 31st of July

4. What is your zodiac sign?

Leoooo

5. What is your favorite color?

Don’t have one but green is p nice c:

6. What’s your lucky number?

Don’t have one omg

7. Do you have any pets?

Yes a Bedlington Whippet called Nelly, but she’s more whippet than beddy!

8. Where are you from?

Englanddd

9. How tall are you?

Can’t remember tbh

10. What shoe size are you?

UK Size 2 which is a US size 4.5 apparently. I has tiny feet

11. How many pairs of shoes do you own?

Dunno but I consistently wear 2-3 pairs

12. What was your last dream about?

Can’t fully remember since it was a few hours ago now but I know gold digger was playing and someone got me two newspapers because of the headlines loool

13. What talents do you have?

Don’t really have any! I can draw I guess c:

14. Are you psychic in any way?

Nope, who is?

15. Favorite song?

Don’t have one again! I like Finished Symphony by Hybrid because of the nostalgia

16. Favorite movie?

Don’t have one but I do like X-men Apocalypse and Deadpool (mutant theme going on there) 17. Who would be your ideal partner?

Idk 18. Do you want children?

It’s not a top priority of mine but maybe one day I’ll want em. For now, no 19. Do you want a church wedding?

Maybe?? The dresses are nice I guess 20. Are you religious?

Hell naw (lol) 21. Have you ever been to the hospital?

Yep for a broken arm and a possible kidney infection that turned out to be NOTHING (well it was something but not hospital worthy) 22. Have you ever got in trouble with the law?

Nopeee 23. Have you ever met any celebrities?

Not that I can remember

24. Baths or showers?

Showers tyvm

25. What color socks are you wearing?

I am sockless.

26. Have you ever been famous?

Nope

27. Would you like to be a big celebrity?

Nah, I would like to be a small one. I’d have money but not that much fame y’know

28. What type of music do you like?

Basically most forms of electronic. I also like classical stuff lollll love me some strings with a beat

29. Have you ever been skinny dipping?

Newp

30. How many pillows do you sleep with?

Three - the two regular ones and a neck cushion because that can prop my head up a bit

31. What position do you usually sleep in?

Lying down. Idk, I don’t really pay attention. I guess maybe my side?????

32. How big is your house?

Not very, but it’s enough

33. What do you typically have for breakfast?

Mini weetabix with chocolate chip

34. Have you ever fired a gun?

Nah

35. Have you ever tried archery?

Yep, I’m not very good but I managed to hit the target twice once I changed my eye.

36. Favorite clean word?

Soap

37. Favorite swear word?

I don’t really swear often oooops

38. What’s the longest you’ve ever gone without sleep?

Well I pulled an all nighter once or twice but I haven’t gone any longer than that because I like dreeeeaming!

39. Do you have any scars?

Nah, I had one on my thigh once when I fell on ice but that went after a few years because I was only about 9 so it was young skin!!

40. Have you ever had a secret admirer?

If I had then they did a good job since idk

41. Are you a good liar?

I probably would be but I don’t lieee, except the white lie about who ate the ice creams every now and again

42. Are you a good judge of character?

Yep! I’m drawn to people naturally who I will end up being friends with quite easily

43. Can you do any other accents other than your own?

I can try anything, doesn’t mean I’m good at em

44. Do you have a strong accent?

Idk? Probably, it’s quite the famous posh british accent

45. What is your favorite accent?

Love me a good Irish accent

46. What is your personality type?

INTP

47. What is your most expensive piece of clothing?

¯\_(ツ)_/¯ idk

48. Can you curl your tongue?

Ya

49. Are you an innie or an outie?

Innie

50. Left or right handed?

Right

51. Are you scared of spiders?

As much as the next person really, I’d rather not hold them but I don’t scream at them

52. Favorite food?

I like burritos with chilli in them

53. Favorite foreign food?

Do burritos count

54. Are you a clean or messy person?

Bitta both, my room is pretty untidy but it doesn’t have dirt in or anything

55. Most used phrased?

lol

56. Most used word?

lol

57. How long does it take for you to get ready?

Depends on how much time I have to spare, usually a quick brush of the hair is fine but sometimes I put on eyeliner and that can take a bit longer cos I don’t wanna mess it up

58. Do you have much of an ego?

I can put on a very good show of being egotistical but idk if it’s a mask or not!!

59. Do you suck or bite lollipops?

Both

60. Do you talk to yourself?

Eh, not really

61. Do you sing to yourself?

I sing but not to myself!

62. Are you a good singer?

Nah

63. Biggest Fear?

Microwaves. Tbh although they spook me I don’t know if there’s anything that makes me truly scared like spiders does for some people

64. Are you a gossip?

Nah

65. Best dramatic movie you’ve seen?

Idk

66. Do you like long or short hair?

Both can look really good c:

67. Can you name all 50 states of America?

Nope

68. Favorite school subject?

I love computing sometimes, geography can be fun too

69. Extrovert or Introvert?

I would say introvert but I think I’m more leaning to ambivert nowadays. I like my alone time but talking is still fun!

70. Have you ever been scuba diving?

No but I’d like to!

71. What makes you nervous?

Uh exam results day

72. Are you scared of the dark?

Once upon a time I was, not anymore!

73. Do you correct people when they make mistakes?

Sometimes? Other times I don’t want to be patronising so nah. Depends on the mistake I guess

74. Are you ticklish?

Yeah but I’m good at hiding it

75. Have you ever started a rumor?

Nah, I dunno what rumour I would even start!

76. Have you ever been in a position of authority?

Kind of?? I was head girl in primary school c::::

77. Have you ever drank underage?

Yeah but I don’t think I’ve ever gotten close to being drunk

78. Have you ever done drugs?

One time, I had calpol

79. Who was your first real crush?

Dunnoooo

80. How many piercings do you have?

None! Lol!

81. Can you roll your Rs?

Nah ripp

82. How fast can you type?

Fairly if I know what I’m about to write but I’ll do one of those typing tests and see. I got 50 wpm which is apparently fluent. I actually di 56 words but misspelled 6 words!

83. How fast can you run?

Average

84. What color is your hair?

Le blonde

85. What color are your eyes?

Bluey grey! Probably should just stick to blue tho

86. What are you allergic to?

Nought

87. Do you keep a journal?

Nah but I’m thinking of keeping a dream journal soon cos I wanna lucid dream again and haven’t for a while.

88. What do your parents do?

Mum works in a nursery and my Dad is an engineer for planes

89. Do you like your age?

I guess? Getting a lil scary now but it’s nbd yet

90. What makes you angry?

Boiiii idk

91. Do you like your own name?

Sure!

92. Have you already thought of baby names, and if so what are they?

Not seriously, but when I was on gas and air I went all giggly and said I was gonna have twins who were ginger and their names would be Ruby and Scarlet loooool

93. Do you want a boy a girl for a child?

Don’t mind, girl would be nice I s’pose

94. What are you strengths?

boi computers

95. What are your weaknesses?

I’m invincible

96. How did you get your name?

My parents liked it

97. Were your ancestors royalty?

Don’t know but probably not!!

98. Do you have any scars?

question 39

99. Color of your bedspread?

rn it’s white and purple

100. Color of your room?

2 white walls, 2 red walls

Other people do this, it’s now a tag game!!