#to town-hop; that the hypervigilance to GO does win him over at this point in time | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

vastiitas · 1 year ago

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it was, like, this middle aged couple who were having a dispute while driving bc they been having some brewing Marital Problems over the course of a few months. They basically never get the whole story about the banditos; never knew they were in potential danger. they get out of there w cole and drive to the nearest town cos it'd be faster than trying to get an ambulance or a helicopter over (though, procedurally speaking, it'd be safer to wait, especially w the threat of a broken neck; but human error and human panic, etc etc). cole gets a weird glimpse of domestic life bc they try to take responsibility over it, but he leaves thru the window after he's recovered, after dinner, after he thanks them sincerely for everything that they've done for him. leaves a note on the bed that reiterates these sentiments, but says that he can't save their marriage for them, etc etc.

#hc: head up in the clouds;;#hc: youth #v;heathen thing borne from dirt and desolation #the way he runs away from it is the way that he sees the living room and it's not littered and overpopulated by orphans and he sees a #glimpse of an old life before Jesse and he's not ready for that yet; refuses to exhume cole and isn't ready to replace either last names #the fact that his description is known at this point as a suspect for several murders and crimes and that it would be dug up if they #tried to actually go through official channels with papers - it rings warning bells in his head so he leaves #not out of guilt mind u but self-preservation #it's the Suburbia that makes his skin crawl and feel itchy and it feels like a cage bc honestly the kid's got ptsd #and wouldn't know how to rehabilitate into this lifestyle of STEADY at this point in time of his life #his body is vibrating w a perpetual energy #it's like this compounded effect; where he stays on the move to occupy his mind on one hand bc stagnation leads to ruminatoin #in a way its like if ur a sniper - once ppl know ur position u ought to change to another position at some point #and on another it's that this is the grain of habit; bc he's so used to shit always going wrong - and it WILL go wrong - forcing him #to town-hop; that the hypervigilance to GO does win him over at this point in time #BW was so integral to putting ORDER into his life; maintaining it and maneuvering around it while having those adrenal intensities #it was actually rehabilitative to a profound degree bc it complimented what was already there #He doesn't. Really attach to these folk either;#He's cordial w them as he is w a lotta strangers but he doesnt LIKE #The attempt at parentalhood in the same way a kid feels weird abt a step parent #He just also SEES that theres rough rocks and theyre using him as this weird bartering chip #Between each other; that he's supposed to be this calling for them to overcome their own challenges and #He's not about that #He's also not about being a pet project to be saved by somebody else either and the notion of it pisses him off fhdnak

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