#to this day i do not understand why the lyrics don't sound like what ur saying

[macabrevampire]

here's the TOOL album ranking as promised!!

this took a lot of listening cause none of them are like exceptionally bad or anything so it's hard to choose lol

1. Lateralus

okay i know u ranked this 5th and that's valid but it's easily my favorite lmfao i love everything about it

2. Undertow

groovy n raw. i instantly liked this one

3. 10,000 Days

the lyrical themes and overall sound are great. some of the songs are unnecessarily long for me but it's whatever

4. Ænima

i should like this more but something holds it back for me it's weird. maybe i just need to listen to it more

5. Fear Inoculum

just doesn't captivate me like the other albums and the pace is way too slow for me i'm sorry haha

this was fun!! i never comprehensively listened to their catalogue like this and i know some of these will stay in rotation for a long time :3

HAIIIII sorry for being so late 2 answer this my brain hasn't been cooperating >_< seriously though it makes me so happy that u went n listened through their albums to rank them too :3

and oh my GOD I KNOW RIGHT??!??! it isn't easy to rank TOOL albums because they're all fucking phenomenal, like even though i ranked it how i did, each album was just as amazing as the last. i'd just as easily switch their placements around, depending on my mood. they're kind of all in competition for first tbh...

Honestly though i really did enjoy Lateralus, i can completely see how it'd be ur #1 :3 most every song on there was nothing short of perfection. (which sounds insane to say given where i ranked it but again, each album is so sensational that even with me putting it last, i still believe it to be outstanding) what was ur fave song on it!!!!!!

YESSS UNDERTOW IS FUCKING IMMACULATE i can see how it'd be ur 2nd fave :D seriously it's everything 2 me i could probably talk someone's ear off about how much i adore it but. i will abstain.....

the songs are super long so being put off by that is completely understandable, i get u ^_^ <3 tbh though that's something i tend to enjoy, it means there's more of a song that i love c:

honestly it isn't for everyone, you don't gotta force yourself to like Ænima if it just doesn't click!!! it has a more like, abstract sound? experimental? idk how to describe it but either way, it's def fair to not like it as much as the others. i grew up listening to it bc my dad would put that album on in the car when i was a kid which is prob why i like it GHJKDSFLG

again, definitely can get why this one was last :3 it has a different sound from the other albums (though, they all do differ from one another) it's more,,, i hate to repeat myself but experimental? i'm so bad with music terms despite loving it ugh -_- it's got a different vibe from other tool albums which im struggling to elaborate on but. anyways i get why it'd be last on ur list!!!

listening to everything tool's made has been my favorite thing i've done recently n im glad u could enjoy it as well ^_^!!!!! <3 right?? doing it all at once is a very enriching activity :3 i'd also love to hear which songs were your favorite!!!! no pressure tho ofc

[milfweirdal]

I have zero clue what you see in weird al (not judging just completely lost)

Hi anon! I hope you are having a good day. I fully respect that - I'm aware that many may see it as a very strange crush to have, and I take no offense at all. However, by sending this ask, you've just unlocked a down-bad infodump of epic proportions /lighthearted

So I can't speak for anyone else necessarily tho others may relate but for me personally he's an absolute dreamboat for the following non-exhaustive list of reasons:

His musical skills, including lyrical composition, musical composition, his knack for harmonies, his impressively wide vocal range, the way he captures the essence of a song or a musician's sound, his tremendous stamina during live performances, his skill on the accordion, etc etc

His sense of humour.

His face and profile are so interesting, owing to his large nose and chin. Idk about anyone else, but I'm way more attracted to visually interesting unique faces than faces considered conventionally attractive.

His gender expression is so light-hearted, silly, brightly-coloured, fun and comfortable.

The way he performs is so ... How do I explain this? It's very sensual (don't laugh) and fully embodied. He won't show a trace of being afraid of looking silly or strange, in fact he embraces it, and he throws himself and his entire physical being into his performances, all movements followed through expressively and confidently, even if they're objectively ludicrous (like his foot-behind-his-head dance, his wide flamboyant body language in interviews or on shows, his dancing in the Eat It video, or his suggestive hip-thrusting when performing Wanna B Ur Lovr live, just to give a few examples). To me, that is a highly attractive trait in a person. I will say there is an element of self-consciousness to his performing as well, but it's subtle, visible only as gentle self-mocking in a way that reinforces the performance rather than being off-puttingly self-deprecating.

He represents a philosophy that rejects having to grow up and be serious and dignified in order to be a mature, functioning adult, which deeply deeply appeals to my goofy queer audhd mentally ill ass. Can't imagine why /j

Other reasons that some may consider shallow, but I couldn't possibly comment. Like his arms and hands and his long curly hair and his big expressive warm brown eyes and his shoulders and his body hair and his voice and okay that's quite enough of that 👍

I hope that has helped you understand where I'm coming from anon. And if you're still like "I don't get it" then that's fine too. I love u.

TL;DR: weird goofy genderqueer bisexual thinks weird goofy accordion man is awesome, pretty, and a personal inspiration.

[rrxnjun]

ohh nooo that sounds like a heartbreak for my minecraft obsessed self!! yeahhh i heard a lot of not so good news about the sidemen or more so about ksi but some of the clips i saw from them on tiktok were very funny!! yes i meant that podcast!!! i literally listened to so much podcasts in quarantine that i can't listen to any now tbh💀 and i might check out the memelous videos later when i have time cuz that sounds funny af

aespa is just so good so i'm glad u stan them!! but that is kind of life changing to hear they are the girl version of nct i'm just :o never would have thought of that :o

DONT WORRY LISTEN TO WHENEVER U WANT TO LIKE I SAID THE SONGS WILL WAIT FOR U and also it's just better to listen to when u are in the mood iguess so actually just take ur time💕💕

oh my totally same tbh!!! and like teen beach movie is still one of my fav movies and i feel like that says a lot about me xd every time it played on disney chanel i was just seated and also the songs still slap so much!!! tbh i was kind of a big r5 girlie but im happy that ross and his brother are doing the driver era cuz they just fit my music taste so much better now!!! ahhh i really liked the lyrics for wish me luck!!! THAT IS SUCH A CUTE NICKNAME WHATTHEHECKKK but that is actually ur song then like properly UR SONG :oo (that sounds like a fun dream and just such a better solution!!)

i was partially scared from that and also just getting ur music taste wrong and u absolutely hating them xd but i'm very glad u enjoyed them🥳🥹 as u should shit posting in ur own language is just so fun sometimes!! well the only thing that matters is that u like them tbh!! and i listened to them and my fav was definitely my by yael i even added it to my liked songs!!! i really liked that one!! and i also liked the other ones as well!! my second fav would probably be the valeriya one!!! and like the punk rock songs just felt so nostalgic even though i heard them for the first time ever i really liked them as well!!!!! I will be visiting Bratislava!! u know u might have heard of it before /j

i deff understand!! i think my brain just stopped working when i saw those pics!! THAT IS SUCH A FUNNY TITLE!! and i'm very excited about reading more simp stories😌(liebestraum anon💕)

and yes i'm sorry to anybody's dash these get on!! and for the person who said the convos are cute thank u that u don't mind!!💘💖💓

i honestly dont know whats going on w ksi recently but i used to like some of his music too so my music taste is honestly kind of questionable.... me and podcasts arent friends i just. i dont get the appeal😭😭😭 and let me know if u do!! his vids where they watch the ancient aliens are my comfort videos i always laugh so much at them

i listened to the songs on my way to uni yesterday!!!! i rrally really liked them and added them to my playlist hihi my fav was definitely you're here that's the thing 🤭

NO BECAUSE YOU GET IT!!! i wantrd to watch the chilling adventures of sabrina bc i wanted to consume as much ross content as i could but...i heard its bad and the first ep didnt really vibe w me so i didnt continue on w it 😭😭 i did watch my friend dahmer bc of him tho lmao. omg recommend some r5 songs i need to get into them more bc i still to this day have loud, smile, want you bad and pass me by in my playlist (pass me by changed me as a human being when i saw the mv as a 10 year old)

AAH i get u i get u!! but i definitely enjoyed the songs and ive been listening to them a lot lately! My by yael is such a good song especially when it plays in the club 😩😩 HAHA im glad u didnt hate them!! i definitely have a weird love/hate relationship w slovak songs because i tend to dislike the lyrics and also there arent many artists which genre would fit my vibe i think (or at least i dont know of any). the punk rock songs u said sound nostalgic 😭😭😭😭are actally kinda old😭😭😭so maybe thats why😭

omg bratislava wOAH /j 😭😭 hope u like the city!! i really like the historical centre, altho ive been there only like 3 times 😋

[jooyeone]

thing i want to know: your favorite lyric ever (i know you're gonna overthink it, but tell me the first one that comes to mind); why i follow you: there's literally not a thing i don't like about your blog; what’s on my mind: that damn "it'll be okay" shawn mendes song. rent free. all the time; a compliment: you're so lovely that the smallest appearance from you is able to turn somebody's whole day around. scientifically tested and proven by yours truly; choose between: rainy day + wine + a great movie OR blue sky autumn day + car trip with the windows down + your favorite driving songs; advice: not really an advice, but i need at least 5 new songs to add to my shower playlist. gimme bops; tell you a secret: hm. i thought about this one for way too long tbh. i don't think there's any secret i want to share with all of your followers 😂; things i associate you with: playlists, sunsets, fluffy sweaters, pretty hands, snow, jimin, comfort & peace🤍

you did ALL OF THEM? 😭 just when i thought i couldn't possibly love you more omg

thing you want to know: you.. do not want to know.. how long i've sat here thinking about this. you of all people will know this is nearly impossible to answer lmao but okay, i'll go for the very first thing that came to mind, which is.. there's this whole section in taxi cab by twenty one pilots, it's the bulk of the song, that is essentially about being saved from a suicide attempt but the imagery tyler invokes to describe it and the lyrics he wrote for it are just. so visceral. the two lines that have stuck with me the most are "we had to steal him from his fate so he could see another day" and "we're driving towards the morning sun where all your blood is washed away and all you did will be undone" but really it's the whole picture he paints during that bridge that make these some of my favorite lyrics.

why you follow me: 🥺!

what's on your mind: oh my god now it's on mine as well. god. very good song to occupy your head 24/7.

a compliment: 🥺 x 100 !!!

choose between: rainy day, wine and great movie is all i look for in a day fdshf no but these are three things i genuinely love a lot, whereas with the other option, as wonderful as it sounds, i know that realistically i'd be carsick for the whole ride 💔

advice: SHOWER BOPS OKAY. 1. VSF by jão (i have zero understanding of how popular this guy is in brazil, but this is one of my fav happy songs so dshfhs <3); 2. makumba by noemi (recently found this one and i can't promise it's gonna be ur cup of tea but i'm obsessed with it, like smiling-until-my-face-hurts happy 😭); 3. you problem by monsta x (i swear this is a jonas brothers song that didn't make it to the happiness begins album I SWEAR IT--); 4. OOO by gaho (on that note, >please< listen to right now, it's my fave song from him. it's not exactly shower bop-ish, but i PROMISE you're going to be blown away by it.; 5. lonely vampire by weathers (give it up for the old school bops, they deserve more love 💪)

tell me a secret: dms it is <3 SHDFHSD

things you associate with me: is it possible to cry at every single one of these oh my god every little thing you mentioned is just 🥺 PLAYLISTS being the first one you mentioned too 🥺💘

[alto-angel]

in this post, i would like to present my thesis on why the song metaphor by the crane wives belongs to goro akechi.

"i've gotten good at leaning on metaphors": goro's speech as the detective prince is very flowery, exaggerated, and calculated, in order to please the crowds of people with their eyes trained on him at all times. public appearances, television shows, and interviews are all very important for his image, and as such he's forced to adapt his speech and choose his wording carefully to appease those watching. robbie daymond especially does a very good job of vocally pushing the line of politeness into a tone that sounds just a bit too sugary to be genuine, but not something u would notice unless u were listening closely.

"i've gotten good at living on someone else's page": much like the first line, this one can also refer to goro's public image. because he's put an immense amount of work into his life as the detective prince, he aims to please. or at least, he needs to act as though he does. in order to keep up appearances, he needs to be able to get a read of those around him and keep himself on the same wavelength as them. this also applies to shido—not only does goro need to please his fans, but shido as well, in order to stay one step ahead of him. goro is purposefully putting himself on eggshells every day of his life, and in order to keep that up as well as keep himself safe, this is what he has to practice.

"i cut my teeth on secondhand sentiments": goro is often forced to follow a script, or at least an embellished, public-friendly version of his own thoughts. the things that he says when acting as the detective prince are rarely ever his own thoughts as they would be presented in normal conversation. goro has to hide his true opinion of the phantom thieves behind crowd pleasing buzzwords, keep up appearances by catering his opinions, and even quotes philosophers and other literature ("to paraphrase hegel"). the things that he says as detective prince goro akechi are rarely ever entirely his own, and he's gotten very good at tailoring his speech.

"you can't trust a single thing i say": this one, i think, is fairly self-explanatory. the "you" doesn't just apply to the phantom thieves, but to those goro works with as well. what is it he says to sae; "to trick your enemies, you must first trick your allies"? he uses deception to get what he wants, but his primary motivation for it is to move his plan forward, and to protect himself. obviously, if he were honest with shido, he would've been killed on the spot. goro's proficiency with lies isn't just a tool he uses, but a defense mechanism as well. bc of his fear of and difficulty grasping the concept of opening up to someone, through that skill, he is able to keep himself closed off and in control (that is, until he meets akira).

"i keep my closet free of skeletons": this one strikes me as irony, personally. goro's closet is so full of skeletons that it's practically bursting at the seams. but as the detective prince, something like that just isn't allowed. he needs to play the part, otherwise he pays the price. as himself, as goro akechi, he's got so many skeletons in his closet that he probably can't open the door anymore. but as the detective prince, he has to uphold an air of perfection that seems unattainable to others. goro as the detective prince is the epitome of the culture behind the idolization of celebrities, and the way others place and expect them on pedestals of something near godhood, far above the rest of the world.

"cause i'm much better at digging graves": well, goro akechi is certainly no stranger to the art of killing someone without a trace. we have no idea how many shutdowns or breakdowns he induced over the course of his professional relationship with shido. but i also think this lyric in tandem with the one right before it could relate to goro's tendencies towards repression; the idea that he cannot and should not have any "demons" or "skeletons"—such as past traumas, meaningful relationships, or feelings that he's jammed down and shut the closet doors on, if u will—bc since vengeance is his only objective, then digging graves is his primary task, or the only thing he's good for, in his mind. the word skeletons doesn't have to represent mistakes specifically, but could also refer to how goro views his own heart and how he deals with his emotions. something like, he feels he shouldn't deal with all that turbulence, bc he's far better at warping it into anger—something that he's used to dealing with, and can easily rationalize. the more complicated emotions, not so much.

"but i always dig up bones in your sympathy": this is where i start connecting things to goro and akira specifically. another definition of sympathy entails two people who share an understanding of each other. doesn't that sound like goro and akira to u? so, if u take these lyrics to be from goro to akira, it feels to me like this one could represent his regrets/desire to leave his situation. according to rank seven of his confidant in royal, we know that goro is practically screaming for help before the events of sae's palace. unfortunately, as the player, we are not able to save him. but i think this lyric could represent his desire to connect with akira despite his better judgement—"dig up bones," as in; i'll still arrive at the decision to bury them in the first place, but bc we have an understanding, i'll show u as well as i can that i do not want to be doing this. and that's exactly how rank seven with goro plays out, through the metaphor of a billiards game.

"i can't trust a single thing you say": this could refer to the fact that both goro and akira are withholding truths from each other throughout their relationship, and since they are of equal standing, the same deception that applies to goro would apply to akira as well, albiet in a far different way. however, i can also see it as an unwillingness on goro's part; he feels as though he cannot trust akira not bc akira is truly lying to him, but bc there's no other way for him to rationalize the fact that akira cares for him and wants to spend time with him. as goro akechi, not the detective prince. goro can't trust the kindness akira extends to him not only bc he's used to conditional love (shido, foster parents, etc.), but also bc he doesn't feel as though he deserves it. goro does not have a very high image of himself, as we see later on, and it's easy to see throughout his confidant that he cannot quite understand why someone would want to spend time with him, and not the perfectly crafted version of him that he presents to everyone else.

"don't look too hard, cause you won't like the scars he left in me": the "he" here refers to shido. shido is the sole reason for all of goro's trauma and hardships. he has scarred goro more than anyone else in his life. and goro's sharing of these traumas is very limited: he opens up seemingly out of nowhere, before immediately retreating under the guise of things like "oh, that isn't like me," or "oh, am i bothering u?" such as the scenes that take place in leblanc and the bathhouse. goro cannot fathom the fact that someone (akira) would wish to get to know him, as he is, so he assumes that a normal interaction between friends is somehow too much transparency, and keeps himself at a distance. he mistakes his feelings for akira as hatred, right? obviously, that's entirely the wrong word to describe them. but if goro himself believes that he hates akira, he would likely believe akira to hate him as well; as evidenced by the fact that the dialogue options which give u the most points are the ones where u mention ur "rivalry"—bc again, goro cannot rationalize his emotions as anything other than negative; anger, hatred, etc. it's far easier for goro to blurt out the words "i hate u" rather than "i love u," or "i care for u," isn't it? and this is how he keeps himself at enough of a distance, although simultaneously feels himself drawing closer. emotional closeness is not something goro is well versed in, and bc goro has built his image on being talented and skilled, he refuses to reveal his shortcomings.

"i've gotten good at making up metaphors": the words here are only slightly different than the ones at the beginning, which i think works for goro's further descent into his deal with shido, and subsequent difficulty. instead of "leaning" on metaphors, he's completely making them up. it's more drastic, which could represent a sort of desperation. almost as if he's losing his touch—which we do see after the events of sae's palace, during the tv interview where he monologues internally about his backstory, and we start to really see how damaged he is. goro is frazzled and distraught, enough for it to visibly show, something he prided himself on being able to avoid.

"i've gotten good at stretching the truth out of shape": again, the same situation as before. similar to the beginning, with slightly harsher wording. the lies that goro is immersing himself in are getting more intense, and almost impossible to separate from. his "murder" of akira is a turning point, in a way; akira is the first and only character we see goro kill in what he believes to be outside of the metaverse. he's not only stretching the truth out of shape, but he himself is bent out of shape as well—this stuck out to me on my ng+ run; his sprites in the scene just after akira is reported to be dead from him to shido are very unsettling and absent, as if he's almost completely zoning out. it's a very jarring scene to watch, and i think at least part of that has to be due to the severity of his actions.

"and all these words are sweet and meaningless": this feels to me, if we're going by the timeline i've been suggesting throughout all this, like it's directed at shido. now that akira is dead and the phantom thieves are no longer a threat to goro's plan for revenge, he can focus his energy back on his original objective. goro lays it on incredibly thick in his scenes with shido, so much so that it sometime surprises me that he didn't realize shido was onto him. again with the more intense wording here, which fits with the events i'm corresponding it with.

"you can't trust a single thing i say": now this wording is exactly the same as the first time, but given the progression of everything i've talked about, i take this as a sort of last word to both shido and akira. goro intends to follow through with his vengeance no matter the cost, and this could read as a final nail in that coffin. the song repeats this lyric four times, as well. if i wanted to keep it up all the way up to the engine room scene, and go completely off the rails in the process, i could say that the first iteration of this line is an affirmation to both shido and akira that his revenge takes precedence, therefore it would be stupid to trust him. the second is an affirmation to himself that he is in fact doing the right thing, and everything will pay off in the end, that this is just the way things are supposed to be, as always. the third is a kind of plea, born from confusion, after he's defeated by the theives and they offer to bring him with them to take down shido, an offer he cannot fathom the reason for extending. a sort of "why would u trust me" in the form of "u shouldn't trust me." and the fourth would refer directly to goro speaking to his cognitive self; as he decieves the deciever, making it seem as though he is running back to shido only to close the bulkhead door and resign himself to his "noble" sacrifice.

i hope at least some of this makes any semblance of sense. put this song on ur goro playlists, goroboys.

[taetaespeaches]

got my albuuuuuuummmm, it took longer than what i thought bc i ordered to my uncles office in the us and he had to go get it lol, its very heavy and very pretty,

these are my first random cards, bc i only have the deluxe BE album and there weren't any random pick, i want to buy the other ones slowly but surely someday lol

aaaaaand i got suga postcard and jimin photocard

its like they know they've been making me weak these days

srsly jimin is wrecking my soul lately, i was listening to filter and i just wish i was there when map of the soul came out just so i could die with all of you listening to filter for the first time

and i didn't say this last time but i loved yoongi's attitude at festa

i love how he's just so sure of this decision, the boy is chilling, thriving and it shows and i love it

taking millions of classes 'cause he's a nerd i love himmmmmmmmmmm

i say nerd in the sweetest way possible, im so proud of him, i love a multitasking yoongi

after all tbh ive been feeling a bit down

maybe a lot down lol

im normally a sleepy person, people say "she's always tired" which yeah i am

but i don't think they understand why, sometimes i don't understand why

but i hate this bc last week i was actually feeling good, i was ok and i had at least some faith ... idk what but i felt nice

and since sunday i just don't feel like that at all anymore

im trying but im just so sick of everything

i feel sad and desperate but i just want to sleep

this time i think i know why i feel like this but tbh i don't know what to do

i think im starting that period of the year when im just craving vacation or just some alone time, i miss myself

also i think my body wants to catch a cold and im like nooooo bitch but im in between lmao

anyways, my cousin arrived yesterday when i went to get my package and my other cousin said "ask him the names of bts members".. so i did lol, and he was really good,

he said "jungkook, jin, jimin, suga..." and my uncle went in and said "V!" , "yeah lol V!, jhope.. he's my favourite, and of course the leader RM"

VERY IMPRESSED , and then he said "i've studied before i came here........ my girlfriend likes them now" looool "ive listened to butter A LOT i think i know all the lyrics "

he's sweet, he was my best friend when i was in high school bc i was new in this city (i hate this city btw) and he's the only cousin of my age so we were inseparable, now he lives far away and im sad again damn it

right now im alone at work bc everyone went out to... idk where... tbh i don't care, this is what i wanted lmao

anyway just wanted to talk about my album and my sad part came out im sorry it was longer than what I thought

but youuu, Liv you have a nice day, ur cool ♥ 😎

Aww yay!! I'm glad you got it! The random pulls are so exciting, like it's such a small joy of life lol. I'm still waiting for the big complete version of the album :/ Yoongi and Jimin!!!! Great pull, I love that for you <3

I think we all wish we found bts earlier than when we did so that's very relatable. I can tell you that I remember everyone losing their minds over filter and my time like those were the two that everyone went nuts over, and rightfully so! And I agree, Yoongi's attitude during festa was very cool, he's just so comforting

I'm sorry you're feeling down :( I can relate to the feeling of being just tired and drained and it sucks. I definitely get wanting to have some time to yourself or wanting to get away for a bit. I hope you can get in touch with yourself and start feeling a bit better. But like be gentle and patient with yourself! It's ok to feel down, I just hope it doesn't last much longer. Also, your cousin sounds cute :( but yeah, it's ok to be sad! I hope you're feeling better today. Enjoy your album!! <3 I love you!

[1989xtaylorsversion]

nessa barrett's ep may surprise you (my album review)

so, nessa barrett released her debut ep... a while ago, but better late than never.

i really didn't know what to expect with this ep because tiktokers and music don't tend to mix. some influencers have done such a solid job of turning the music industry into a joke, so everyone was justifiably apprehensive.

also, when nessa was in a storm of controversy i vaguely remember her posting about how everyone would know her side of the story when she released her music. (see pic below)

well, we got the ep, but i'm not sure what "truth" she was trying to unleash. i learned nothing new about her. of course, we got a glimpse into her mental health, and that's important, but i thought she was gonna expose her little tiktok enemies or whatever. her and jaden were in a huge scandal with josh and mads, and i thought the ep would at least give a little mention of that. she vaguely and indirectly points a finger at the people who have wronged her, but i, as the listener, have learned nothing new. she should really take notes from taylor swift, the queen of lyrical shading. regardless, i put aside my feelings for nessa and her scandals and gave it a listen. spoiler alert - i didn't hate it. i actually enjoyed some of the songs. lemme explain...

1. pretty poison

sooo, the title track...

it's alright. it's definitely not my favorite and in my opinion, it's a grower. i had to listen to it a few times to tolerate it, and i've never voluntarily gone back and listened to it. honestly, i don't even remember what it sounds like, so i had to hear it again for the purpose of this post. it didn't make for the strongest start to the ep for these reasons, so i was scared to keep going. luckily, the rest weren't like this.

2. keep me afraid

i actually like this song... now.

once again, i didn't really love it at first, but i've grown to like it. it's catchy and i like the beat and its message.

3. i hope ur miserable until ur dead

remember when this song went viral on tiktok? more specifically, when the second verse went viral?

that's where i first heard it. i love this song lol. it's so petty, vengeful, and fun. it picks up after the second verse and it just keeps going. i'd love to know who it's about though, especially the second verse. tell us, nessa...

i love the last chorus because it's so catchy. good job, nessa. you made a bop.

4. grave

i first heard this song on tiktok too, and i really like it. it's sweet, and i think i read that this is her first love song. you can definitely apply it to anyone significant in your life, not just a boyfriend/girlfriend. it's my top 3 for sure.

5. scare myself

i had to listen to this a few times to like it, and i do now. i don't regularly listen to it, but i definitely changed my opinion from the first time i heard it. it's a relatable song, so she gets point for that.

6. i wanna die

i've listened to this song a few times and i literally can't remember how it goes. i had to hear it again in order to write the review, and i understand why it's so forgettable. in my opinion, it's not the most special song on the ep, so it kind of goes to the back of my brain. the chorus is kind of catchy, but it's still not enough to save it. maybe one day i'll like it, but for now it's a skip.

7. sincerely

this is a cute song. it's a nice way to end the ep, and i'm glad she's in a good place. regardless of how you feel about her, you shouldn't wish bad things on someone, so if she managed to find peace and solace, then good for her. i like the references to her previous songs in the first three lines. i love when artists do that; i think it's so clever. also, the voicemail from her mom at the end was a nice touch. i love when artists put voicemails or other personal touches to their songs because it just makes it more special. ariana grande does that a lot.

overall thoughts:

i think nessa's voice is actually really beautiful. i like her soft and peaceful voice. she isn't a bad singer by any means, and i think she can go far. just avoid scandals and bad decision making lol.

although the ep has some low points, i was pleasantly surprised with the end result. i think she made a solid effort, and it payed off well for her. since this is her first attempt, she has plenty of time to improve, and i'm sure she will. i don't know how other people feel about the ep, but i liked it. it's a win for tiktokers, i guess.

my rating: 7/10

the weakest songs: pretty poison, i wanna die, sincerely (it's cute, but it's like one minute. i can see why she chose this as the last track, but i never listen to it. good for her, though)

the strongest songs: keep me afraid, ihymuyd, grave, scare myself... so basically every other song.

[woozi]

henlo non anonymous 🌸.anon jdjdjd. also before i forget, you can call me cherie if you wanna. (it's my nickname dhdjdj i realised i never told you my name 💀)

naur djdjjekeke that ooh part always gets me 😭😭 he's so jdjdjdkk. now that you mentioned it i feel like mentioning how the first thing which comes to my mind after thinking about rocket line is the moment during interview they thought they were gonna get hit w bricks 😭😭😭 they're so djdjsk

THE HIGHLIGHT MEDLEY WAS SO GOOOD THE MV TEASERS WERE ABSOLUTELY BANGER im so impressed honestly! after bambam's svt's medley comes at 2nd, as my most favorite medley this year fr! </3 SONGS TOO 😭 my ranking for now is crush, rock w you and pang/i can't run away are tied djjdjd I can't not choose pang it sounds so cute??? i hope dino is in there tho, i don't understand why he was not included. AND I CAN'T RUN AWAY?? WE'RE GETTING SINGER CHEOL??$+(#( IM SO EXCITED FOR IT 😭 what about you?

the way i had to search for good 4 u because i didn't know which song you were talking about i have 0 knowledge abt olivia rodrigo's songs djjddkdk also not hannah montana 😭😭😭

vocal unit's lyrics tho </3 these are some very sentimental mermans. i saw some tweets of the music show schedules idk how accurate it is but only title track is listed for now :< im really hoping they perform one bside at least. also speaking about performance, svt really gonna rock the big stages with this choreo. the bits only look so so good already ahhh

poor little woof woof hdjejejddk nooo. it's 1 a.m here rn djdj cannot wait to wake up to new era. usually it comes around at noon next day but tomorrow, it's probably gonna be out before i wake up hdjddjkd.

HELLOO??#?# the way i never ever connected these dots. like hao liking tea is not a new info but i didn't think about mbti at all djdjkkd thank you for this enlightening me <3 what would i do without you? mbtis(real) djdjdkdk

HAPPY CB DAY! (missing junhao so much <///3) hope you have the sexiest day tomorrow🔥🎸, yza :3 - 🪂

from now on i'm gonna end these with 🌸 anon KJFDJKFDKJDFKJFD

it's always the first thing i think of when i get reminded of rocket 😭 ALSO WHAT IS THAT AND WHY HAVE I NEVER HEARD OF IT?????????????????

OH MY GOD YOU DONT KNOW HOW I FEEL ABT U BRINGING UP BAM'S MEDLEY BC OH MY GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD. that was the first time i've seen a kpop act do THAT MUCH for a medley and im so sad people slept on it 😭 i love it SO so much it was so well produced and the tracks were also so good </3 OK BUT ONTO THE SVTEENIES!!!!!!!!!!1 they literally cannot flop huh <3 AND UR CHOICES <3 <3 <3 ur literally so sexy wtf <3 i actually can't rank the songs i love them all sm 😭 ok but i thought i would like icra more and although ITS V GOOD dont get me wrong, it didnt quite live up to my expectations </3 PANG OH MY GODDDDD ON THE FUCKING OTHER HAND!!!!!!!!!!!1 is unexpectedly the track i've been listening to the most. i didn't think it'd slap as hard as it does. the FUCKING PRICKLY RAIN LINE TOOK ME OUT!!!!!!!!!! and since then i couldnt stop listening to it. AND IT'S A WIN FOR US DINO'S V E R Y THERE OH MY GODDDDDDDDDD. i feel like he's grown so much with this album </3 im SO SO SO psyched about him in pang though i hope they perform it </3 ur RIGHT ITS THE PUSSY PART!!! cant wait to see some balloon boys

the way u know absolutely NOTHING about olivia is so sexie to me <3 remain that way <3 JFDJKDFKJDJK (not that she's a bad artist, i just love how u don't feel the need to keep up w media <3)

THE SENTIMENTAL MERMEN 😭😭😭 that made me laugh irl and it's already 1 am my parents are gonna scold me again fdjkdfjkfdj AND U ARE ONCE AGAIN SOOO RIGHT. rmb when boo and mg danced to it before it was released and people were like.... its so easy anyone can do it... IM SO GLAD COUPS CLAPPED BACK BC LOOK AT THIS SHIT??????????/ i'm just watching and i already feel TIRED as fuck how are they even singing. AND YEAH OMG that's one thing i'm anticipating too!! i hope they perform the other songs as well not just in the cb show :((

HOW ARE U ENJOYING THIS ERA <3 <3 <3 <3 WHAT HAPPENED TO U WHEN IT DROPPED GJKFjkfdjkdf

i just like making shit up and sometimes they make sense ngl <3 KJDFKJFDKJFDJK AND THE MBTI (REAL) SCREAMMMMMMMMMMM why are u lich rally so funny i love u sm 😭

HAPPY CB WEEK LOVE <3 <3 <3 sorry i got to this so late i felt like dying with uni work and i still am (only up til this fri tho bc after that i wont have classes for a week straight) <3 maybe that's why they're trying to kill us now JFDJKDFJK thank u for always wishing me well <3 i lov u, i want us both to eat well (idk why im quoting shit now but these tender lines remind me of u and ur vibe and also i just lov u <3)

- 🌸 anon

[mariska]

i wanna talk about music!! and trauma. and how beautiful i think it is that it can be such an accessible form of therapy (not a replacement for it obviously, but one form of it, definitely!) for both the person/people making it and the people listening!! because music is a special interest of mine and i just wanna make a big ol' rant post about it!

my music teacher used to be a professionally practicing music therapist, and she shares stories w/ me every once in a while about how she used to help people work through their trauma by learning how to play instruments and perform songs. and it really is healing, especially when you're learning from someone with a mindset like that. writing songs is, in my opinion, very similar to releasing emotions and thoughts by writing a poem. it's such a positive way to get your thoughts out because even if you never share it with someone, you've put those thoughts down on paper (or, like, virtual paper, if u write songs/poems in ur phone notes like me lol) and taken a step towards accepting it and letting even a little bit of it leave your brain for a while.

as someone who has been dealing with ptsd for a large portion of my young life, and who will continue to deal with parts of it for the rest of my life, i know how important it is to accept your trauma as real and accept that it happened to you, but also to accept that its okay to try and heal from it. you don't have to internalize it and rage and fall apart every day because that's the only way you know how to deal with those intense feelings surrounding your trauma. and a huge symptom of ptsd is that it unfortunately does shape you and your experiences/reactions to life experiences, especially if you experienced your trauma during your formative years as a child/teen, and so it's very scary to try and face the concept of healing, because that means that you're changing a part of yourself that you've grown very used to and that has, in your mind, helped you survive. but there does have to be a point where you 1.) accept that your trauma happened and that it happened to you 2.) realize that it wasn't your fault, regardless of whatever other people may have tried to convince you 3.) heal. and that part is so, so difficult.

and that brings me back to music, and music therapy, and how healing from trauma can come in so many different positive forms and ways of coping. i was 16 when i started seeing my music teacher for lessons, originally for guitar but eventually also singing and piano (i am 23 now). my trauma was still very fresh, because a lot of it (not all of it, but a lot of it) stemmed from my middle school + very brief high school years from 11-14. and my medical trauma was still on-going, as i started experiencing severe physical health problems when i was 15. music has always been an extremely positive and healing force in my life but that was the time where it really started being especially meaningful for me and my own personal healing process. i started discovering what my personal music taste was like, and consuming as much of it as i could, and made a new hobby out of collecting cheap, old, used records and sitting on my bed listening to them all day. and when u listen to a lot of music all day every day u start really paying attention to lyrics and the meanings of the songs u are consuming.

i started writing songs (seriously, at least; i used to write silly songs as a kid with friends lol) around that time, and it was genuinely surprising to me how healing and helpful it felt to write down my thoughts, no matter how abstract they may have ended up sounding, in the form of a song that i could add some guitar strums to and sing about. the beauty of writing songs and making music is that the only person that it has to make any kind of sense to is yourself, and even then, you can just write whatever comes to mind and figure out a way to put a tune to it. songs can be angry, they can be loud, and ugly, and resentful and unforgiving. and they can be soft, and tender, and loving, and full of nothing but understanding and forgiveness. you can write a song thats incredibly personal and very obviously told from you and your perspective, or you can make a story out of an album's worth of material and tell that story through characters that have nothing to do with you and your personal experiences.

anyways, there's not really a point to this post, except that maybe more people should give writing songs and/or poems a try some time. but i was just thinking about working through trauma in the form of a song because of a song by one of my favorite musical artists-- 'youth' by glass animals. i listened to the song a lot over the past few months but only just watched the music video for it a couple of days ago and it was really touching to me and i wasn't really sure why at first. i think a big part of it spoke to the nostalgic parts of my heart that miss seeing the world through a lens of childlike wonder. but then i learned about what the song was inspired by and it really changed the way i listen to it and watch the video; it was (apparently, feel free to correct me if im wrong) inspired by the song writer having a conversation with a woman about her son, and how 'something terrible had happened to/with him', and that drawing on her experiences with him was both sad for her, but also beautiful in that she could look back at the time they had spent together as being so happy and great, and that celebrating those happier times was like, part of that mourning process for her. and i just think that's a really beautiful and intense concept to create a song about.