#to explain a bit. my journey of survival hasn't been exactly standard

[re-discover-communication]

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Funny how she thinks I'd confide deep things with her right now. "If your pain is higher than mine or like mine, I'm here." Sure. I'm running in your arms right now. I want to in cry your shoulder so bad. Is she oblivious? Or thinks that my "insistence" is from a need to confide with her? No, absolutely not. It is from a need, but of confrontation. Of hearing in person the same things she said in that audio two months ago. Of seeing if there really is some common ground left for us to build a new friendship. And if there is then I'll do my part to work on it, but it doesn't mean I'll forget or forgive anything she has done to me in the past. I hold my grudges tight to myself. Because I respect myself. I don't have pains to confide to her if not the ones she herself gave me.