#tldr one of my irl friends (who is autistic )consistently treats me like shit when she's 'low energy ' as she calls it | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

frankensteinmutual · 8 months ago

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I'm so used to being surrounded by kind and thoughtful neurodivergent people at this point that I've forgotten that sometimes neurodivergency can make us assholes in very specific ways and even though yes there's nothing wrong with us for being "different" and we shouldn't feel ashamed of who we are etc etc it's still kind of also our job to try and not actively hurt other people and then just excuse it with "well I'm autistic/have bpd/xyz so you can't be mad" or "if you don't like me treating you bad you're making me feel like I can't be my true self around you" or something like. I feel like it's very obvious to me because I have The Disorder That Makes Everyone Think You're Shitty so I'm always very aware of trying not to be, but others. not so much I think

#tldr one of my irl friends (who is autistic )consistently treats me like shit when she's 'low energy ' as she calls it #and those are situations where i offer her to leave her alone and make it very clear that we do not need to spend time together right now #ans then when i tell her that she's being really hurtful towards me she tells me that makes me feel like she can't unmask around me #and I'm like. ok #i literally have bpd I'm so angry it physically hurts all the time #am i supposed to just expect the people in my life to let me take my anger out on them and blame them for being ableist when they don't #like it or...?#idk man.#weird worldview

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