#though we'll never know for sure if spotify keeps hating me

[mcgnagallsarmy]

why is spotify wrapped not available for me (yet)? how will I know which taylor swift song I listened to the most this year??

[midshipmank]

unsolicited lore dump

thank you @amanita-jack for tagging me! i am honored

Do you make your bed? surprisingly, yes. it's pretty much the only chore i do every day. i made the decision to always make my bed back in high school, and now it's kind of necessary for me to mentally get started with the day. otherwise i WILL spend all day in bed

Favorite number? i've been really enjoying prime numbers recently. also 18 of course

What's your job? i am a teacher! at least for one more day. i hope to keep being a teacher though, i just need to get out of my current school

If you could go back to school would you? YES. i would love to get a master's degree in history (and/or english or education), but i'm really indecisive about whether or not i should truly do it. also there's nothing i hate more than applications

Can you parallel park? no 😭

Do you think aliens are real? probably! dunno if we'll ever meet them though. kinda makes me sad to think we might never know

Can you drive a manual car? no 😭

What's your guilty pleasure? uhhhhhh i'm not sure what i'm supposed to feel guilty about on tumblr.com. probably cozy british murder mystery shows? we do hate cop propaganda here. also loving brooklyn 99, while we're on the topic

Tattoos? no :( i'm too indecisive, alas, but i do love tattoos on other people. maybe one day

Favorite color? purple

Favorite types of music? spotify tells me that noah kahan is folk pop or something, & i've been really into him recently

Do you like puzzles? yes

Any phobias? heights? especially driving through the mountains

Favorite childhood sport? i wasn't really a sports person. i did ballet. the first time i enjoyed PE was when we learned yoga & tai chi in 7th grade

Do you talk to yourself? yes, sometimes without realizing it, but usually only when i'm alone. its actually gotten worse since i became a teacher (side effect of rehearsing some lessons)

What movies do you adore? how to train your dragon. the aos star trek films. the prince of egypt. howl's moving castle. the lord of the rings. the saqqara tomb documentary on netflix

Coffee or tea? coffee in the morning, tea in the afternoon

First thing you wanted to be growing up? a teacher! i was really just saying it to say something when asked (i was in kindergarten), but the funny thing is that i really did become a teacher

tagging @fantasiavii @zoanzon @glitterygolem @mizeliza @i-amtheweirdo

[crypticanexe]

🛒, 💖, and ✅ for the writer ask meme!

🛒 What are some common things you incorporate in your fics? Themes, feels, scenes, imagery, etc. Angst and ambiguity, although it goes a little deeper than that. I love to weigh in on the emotional turmoil of characters, though it typically goes into a realm of self-deprecation and the effects thereof. I love to really hone in on the internal conflict of characters in certain situations, even if it's just a "situation" of self-doubt leading them down a rabbit hole. On the ambiguous side of things, I just enjoy keeping readers - and myself - guessing. I've always loved a bit of mystery, and I'm not sure if that's where it came from. I think it originally started as a way for me to counter my lack of planning (I rarely know where a plot is going), but it grew on me as a trope because it's fun. What happens next? We'll both never know. 💖 What made you start writing? I started writing when I was about 14 as a way to vent, really. I was going through a lot at the time that left my emotions all over the place, and I didn't really have a way to cope with it. I recall my first ever fictional piece that wasn't schoolwork being a handwritten LOTR self-insert. Looking back, I'm sure it's not great, but it helped me cope with what was going on at the time. Once I realized that writing was a way I could feel better, whether my stories were related to my current state of mind or not, I never looked back. ✅ What's something that appears in your fics over and over and over again, even if you don't mean to? Song lyrics and references. I have a love-hate relationship here. I think just about every piece of fanfiction I've written in the past two years has some song reference in it. If not in the story itself, it ends up as the title - or both! Sometimes they aren't even relevant songs, just whatever is on loop in Spotify because it got stuck in my head. A line of the song will end up somewhere in the story, just for that reason alone. Most of the time it does end up tweaked grammatically (i.e "can't" to "couldn't") but they're there, and I know they are. Fun fact: 4 of my last 5 published fics have titles pulled from songs. Oops?

[evr0ck17]

The pitfall of comparison (34th street. 8am)

I'd be homeless on 34th street at rush hour, and I'd see all these functional citizens on their way to work at Google or some hedge fund...wherever they go. They purposefully walked with their vente lattes, their airpods and their iPhones. 

I just hated these people, with their NPR tote bags, their places to be and their good reasons to be there. I was just jealous, I had none of those things I wanted Instagram, Spotify, coffee, a job,and somewhere to be. I didn't have anything. I hadn't been sleeping or eating and I was just angry with these people, how dare they?

I've always fallen into the pitfall of comparison, even though I know everyone is fucked up in some way, no one's life is perfect.

It's all In how we'll they keep it under wraps. The wealthy family I envied as a kid turned out to be ripe with quiet alcoholism, adultery and insanity. They were more fucked up than my family, even though they had a pool.

I scroll social media and see people with their children, cars, togetherness and 8 dollar acai bowls... I just get down on myself because I don't have any of those things.

It always felt like I couldn't get to the starting line of the big race of life. I try to think that tne only race we are in is with ourselves, and who we used to be. I could stand to go a little easier on myself.

Most times I feel like I'm in love with everyone, smitten with humanity at large. It's the love I could give myself that I struggle with.

I think that I am comprised of love, and I can barely contain it. Sure, I hate the GOP, the Eagles, billionaires and Kevin hart, but I'm mostly a puddle of love.

People love me back, and it's easy for me to forget.

A couple years ago One of my closest friends reminded me that most everyone loves me, and it made me cry. I was emotionally overwhelmed, I never seem to feel worthy of all those warm gooey feelings, that's why it made my eyes leak. It was so powerful.

I love to make other people feel good about themselves and make them laugh. I congratulate people for living.

Living can be really hard, so if you got out of bed today, I'm proud of you, and i love you.

Oh, hey I could use help now and then