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Spa Date with Lan Zhan Continued Part 2

Sorry… sorry I had to collect myself for a minute. Just… a lot of feelings right now. I shook it out and screamed into a pillow but now I’m back. 

We’re good. We’re fine. 

I just… i need to be careful. 

I can’t read too far into this. He took care of me for one day because he’s an amazing person and the kindest friend I’ve ever had. That’s all. It doesn’t mean anything… anything more than that. 

It doesn’t mean he…

Because if I let myself think…

and if I’m wrong….

No. I can’t do that. 

Okay

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REBOOT

Where was I?

Oh yes he dished up all that food and I sat there salivating over it like the goblin I am. I was just thinking that there was only one thing that could make it better when he pulls out a bottle of fucking WINE! Like a fucking MIND READER. Except he’d have had to mind read into the FUCKING FUTURE because I know he didn’t have it on hand.

and and and and!! It was Emperor’s Smile! 

I know I mentioned that once before but it’s SO expensive I figured I’d never actually get to try some. I think I must have just completely freaked out for a second but Lan Zhan was ever patient with me. I said we should drink it together because I felt bad he’d spent SO much money on me, but of course he doesn’t drink. I knew that but still.

Well there was nothing for it. It’s not like he could take it back now that it’d been opened and it would have been a shame to waste it so I just figured. Fuck it. We’re already in. 

I decided that I’d drink it slow though. I wanted to savor it. Who knows when I’d ever get a chance to drink it again? So we started to eat and I got my first taste of that wine. 

Oh I don’t know if y’all’ve ever heard of it. They say it’s the smoothest wine you’ll ever drink. Nice and mellow. And oh my GOD they aren’t lying. It’s DELICIOUS! Just ooohhhhh. Nothing like it!

I sat close to him again. I couldn’t stand being any further away than I needed to. Our ankles were brushing against each other we were so close. I think I felt him nudge my feet every now and then and I thought he was trying to push me away but he wasn’t. I think he must have just been shifting to get more comfortable. 

Or maybe he was and I’m just dense. 

But I’d already been so selfish all day I decided to take a little more and keep the contact going. 

I really hope he didn’t mind….. 

When I finally ate so much food that I found I was glad to not be wearing pants any more lest I have to unbutton them to make space (Robe. Thank you for your heavenly duty of hiding my expanding gut), I started investigating what else Lan Zhan had set up. 

And I saw this little basket with sheet masks. I half layed on the floor so I could reach it without having to stop touching Lan Zhan and dragged it over. 

Which was very difficult because of the aforementioned GIGANTIC TUMMY FULL OF DELICIOUS FOOD! 

And I found this one that said it was made of gold! Told Lan Zhan I should use it to pay my rent or something stupid like that. I wish I could remember what I actually said because he laughed at it!

Laughed!

Lan Zhan!

Laughed at my stupid nonsense! Just

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah

I know I said that the guqin was the most beautiful sound I’d ever heard but Lan Zhan’s laugh, short as it was, could give it a run for its money. 

It was really hardly more than a sharp exhale. A huff of air. 

But just

Oh.

If I could hear that noise all the time. 

I need to find more ways to make him laugh. Does he have a thing for stupid jokes? Mmm… but then he’d laugh at me all the time. I’m the worlds’ stupidest joke after all.

Aaahha hah…. I digress

Well anyway I kept digging and found one for fatigue and called dibs RIGHT away.

Held it to my chest ready to FIGHT! Not that I’d need to but STILL.

…. On to part 3! (how is there still so much to say??)