#those emotions don't apply to this situation alone but it certainly hasn't fucking helped

[mieczyhale]

i can like the content someone has made without thinking they're a great person (especially when it's not content i'm paying for) and, shit aside, there has been a lot of good commentary across a lot of videos

that said-

there has never been a moment where i claimed alex was truly a great person because i don't know him. and i've only been watching his channels for maybe a month so i definitely don't know a lot

i posted that gifset because i do truly love that video, but ultimately have deleted it because it's simply not worth the fight. they're just gifs. and tbh after some thought i wasn't super comfortable keeping them up

i was aware to a degree when the set was originally posted, but i've seen a little more - just vague things (and i'm keeping it that way, at least for now, bc my mental health rn cannot handle a lot) but it's enough

i'm probably still going to watch his videos, at least the ones i've already seen and liked and maybe new ones if they look worthwhile, because his content is enjoyable a lot of the time, it's what i initially followed him for, and imo doing bad doesn't automatically erase all of the good. there are several videos, both solo and done with friends, that have become comfort content

but... yeah. i'm kinda sad and kinda disappointed and kinda exasperated and kinda surprised and kinda annoyed and a lot tired