#tho it's ok cause funnily enough i do enjoy being a mommy. for grown men (sweet baby boys) so i get my uhm maternal kicks there | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

futurewife · 2 years ago

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when i have pms it tricks me into getting upset other people are having babies and that i am undesirable for this purpose. im childfree by choice. hormones are evil. And i have to remind myself i just want to be the centre of attention from a partner for being pregnant and get fussed over and not to raise kids selflessly. it would drive me insane.

#my worst nightmare is being forgotten about because all attention is going to a baby even if it's MY baby.#so yeah. i just know it would be a mistake to test it out in case i 'change my mind' like bro BY HAVING A WHOLE HUMAN???#as i say id rather vaguely ponder what could have been than have a baby and regret it and resent it like that would be my fault #i have hella mommy issues. they say not 2 hold grudges but well feeling emotionally unsafe as a kid = no grandchildren 4 u #tw pregnancy #tw babies #when u have no positive modelling of motherhood + your mom made being a mom seem like the most soul crushing depressing task on earth lol #tho it's ok cause funnily enough i do enjoy being a mommy. for grown men (sweet baby boys) so i get my uhm maternal kicks there

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