#tho i think 'guys' includes a wider scope of like androgynous range in my mind? brain is weird | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

cheesey-rice · 8 months

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Ok low key Ive just watched a letsplay of slay the princess and I'm like a little obssessed. I think I need to like hold buying the game and playing it hostage from myself until I do at the very least the first half of my practice test today even though like theoretically I shouldn't play anything new at all until after I've taken my test.

#the problem is that it is like somehow so appealing to me #like the i contain myltitudes aspect of it actually takes away the anxiety of usual visual novels to me?#oh god sigh im like a boy's boy 99% of the time but its true that like women in media who are complicated and distrusting and mean #snatch me right the fuck up sigh. and the protagonist is a bird you get to be a little creature guy i am so charmed by that i am #personal #thats so funny of me the like social attraction i have to women is like what if you were a big animal with sharp teeth and i brushed them #for you in case you ever got tooth decay from all the biting and killing you have to do :( . and then if sometimes you were sad we could si #together and talk about the way the world changes sometimes...#whereas with guys its like hey i could drive you to the mall right now dude np txt me when you wanna hang out. I want to fix your lawnmower #for you and maybe your relationship problems also #tho i think 'guys' includes a wider scope of like androgynous range in my mind? brain is weird #maybe this is me journaling now but i also think i don't tend to get? kind of socially hurt by others as much as I used to?#Like nowadays most of my social hurt feelings are actually like. anxiety of having to wonder how another person perceives me #in case i feel like they are perceiving me like 'wrong' somehow? but I'm always kind of more concerned with like. whether or not other #people are afraid of me? so social settings where my actions can affect the way others feel towards me are soothing #because those impressions don't feel as 'over' or imutable as when im alone

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