#this was supposed to be about S but I got lost in Moonjo's mindset I'm sorry

[braceletofteeth]

Honestly I would have loved to see someone live in Eden, who is so kind and gullible that they could not make them go insane.

Seokyoon was pretty outgoing, but he was not gullible.

I mean there are people who are so "altruistic" or better have a saviour complex that they would literally endanger themselves to do good deeds.

The twins: poor mentally disabled guys

Ms. Eom: lonely old lady

The pervert: poor guy who has a lot of trauma, sex addiction

Moonjo: gay panic, parental issues, longsleeves with scars underneath -> selfharm/abuse

Ki Hyuk: gay awakening, daddy issues, identity crisis

All "poor souls" in need of someone who takes care of them.....

On the other hand someone with a saviour complex could be interesting replacement for a while. Even if they do good deeds it's still for egoistic reasons, which theoretically means they follow their desires.

Just in this case this desire probably fuels some sort of mental illness....

But Monnjo would probably find it intriguing for maybe a month and then get bored and ask that person to help him with his cute teeth collection...😅🦷

Hi, anon~

I need to tell you, I really like this character you came up with. Wish they had a name. I think it's more appropriate for you to give them that, so for now I'll just call them S (from 'saviour').

From what I could gather, I believe S is kind of Jongwoo's opposite. Whereas Jongwoo is focused on how he feels about others, S is focused on how others feel about S. They show interest in other people and their motivations. S is also a patient person—if they weren't, it'd be all too easy to give up on the people they were trying to help. People like S gotta be resilient, because it takes time to gain others' trust.

Interacting with Deukjeong, for example, to get close to him, they could smile at the things Deukjeong says, even if they don't quite understand his humor. They are happy because Deukjeong is happy, and a happy person is easier to deal with than an angry one. It doesn't matter if S is the joke—they can laugh at themselves too. They would soon realize that the fastest way to Deukjeong's 'heart' is by playing games, like Jenga in the kitchen in hot afternoons, with him, his brother and the landlady; and other cruel, dangerous games, in which one of them could get hurt. S accepts them because they don't have much self-preservation to stop themselves, but they draw the line at Deukjeong being in danger, so S comes up with their own challenging (but reasonably safe) games, to keep Deukjeong entertained and interested in them, despite his usually short attention span.

Some of the residents are harder to approach. Think of Nambok, now. How can one spend some quality time with him? It's not like they can watch porn together (or at least that's what I learned watching Supernatural). And the guy is always observing S (in the room's corridor, in the kitchen, in the corners of the washroom...). Sometimes with a knife in hand, making veiled threats. But you know what? S is not scared of him. Nambok is a skittish animal, threatened by a new presence in his territory. He's just scared of S, that's all. It's paranoia. S just needs to show him that he's safe around them. And how does one do that? By demystifying oneself. Some people are afraid of the unknown, so you need to allow yourself to be known. S just needs to fish for an opportunity. Nambok goes inside their room when S is not there... So what if S hid outside of the room to catch him in the act, but instead of reproaching his attitude, invited him in, and showed him their stuff? Asked if there was anything he'd like to borrow? Maybe a t-shirt? Nambok only has one top, after all. S could spare an old one.

Talking about shirts... S laughs at Kihyuk's astonished face after they spit on his back, one day after Kihyuk did the same thing to them. S doesn't apologize, but offers to wash his shirt for him. 'I didn't mean to make you upset. I'm sure you didn't mean it either, yesterday. Let's start again.' That's S. They are always offering second chances, forgiving before they are even asked for forgiveness.

There is no suppressed rage for Moonjo to dig his nails in, so he wouldn't approach S the same way he did with Jongwoo. If he asked S 'Don't you want to kill them?', S would think Moonjo is the one stressed out, in need of some relief and a friend's shoulder, and would promptly invite Moonjo for more meetings at the rooftop after work hours. They would want to know all about Moonjo's so-called 'art', his life, how he got to a place like Eden, and every problem or worry he might have.

But Moonjo wouldn't tell them anything, of course. There would be no point in telling the truth. He could tell S about his whole life, and still S wouldn't see him. They would want to understand, they really would, but it wouldn't change the fact that they don't.

They would think Moonjo needs them. They always think everybody needs them. They need to, it's what keeps them going. That's how people like S survive. S would look at Moonjo with neither horror nor awe, but pity. For them, he's just a lonesome creature, in need of company—and S's worst fear is to end up like him, so they can't help but think that Moonjo is broken, and they need to fix him.

What S fails to see is that, yes, Moonjo is all alone, nobody in his life means anything to him... but this doesn't make him vulnerable. He's not alone because he's afraid to let people in; he's not afraid to get hurt. His mind is not a secret, abandoned garden, waiting to be explored by someone with the guts to appreciate some weird, deformed little flowers. It's not that simple. His mind is a whole other world. It has a different atmosphere. You can't go in there without being invited, and you can't breathe there if your lungs aren't made for it—if you don't share the same flesh that he does, the same mind, you won't last. You'll wither.

S's pity comes from the thoughts 'he doesn't know he can be loved', 'he's horrified at himself'. But that's not Moonjo. He can be loved, oh, he knows he can. And he doesn't hate his persona. In fact, he may love his foundations just a little too much—and that's what makes him picky. He won't share his world with just anybody.

So how dares S—poor little S, needy and blind about everyone, including themselves—think, for a second, that Moonjo would ever choose to show himself, to share himself, with them? He would never look at S and see an equal. He would never be able to find a friend in them.

S doesn't deserve the eyes that they have. They wander the world only seeing what they want to see. They'd be wrong about the people at Eden, especially about Moonjo, and it'd be his pleasure to show them firsthand just how far they missed the mark.