#this probably means i can't share this ship with the ovw community unless they like aus

[self-ships-ahoy]

TW suicide mention (not me I promise)

Putting it under a cut but there are some important developments to how I'm going to approach my ship with Ramattra.

I really really tried to go along with the canon. But there is a limit to what I'm going to tolerate. And when in-game commentary has lead tumblr users to speculate that Ramattra may be suicidal because he can't grasp the meaning of his own life, and that that ideation is then passed onto the drone bots he's creating to fight, I have to step in.

Attack humanity, sure they deserve it. Brainwash omnics, we can have a talk about that. But do all of that because you're having a mental crisis and are self destructing, I have to stop things right there. I was going to let canon progress as normal, but if anything, the presence and influence of my s/i would definitely help his psyche, naturally, just because someone is there for him.

Again, I'm not going ' i can fix him', but if he had just someone who could help him through this, so he wouldn't be lashing out, so he wouldn't feel cornered enough to be brainwashing omnics, we would all be better off especially him bc he does not deserve this he didn't even ask to be made.

I am also in no way going "uwu gf love solves everything", and that is NOT what my s/i is here to do- to like, heal him with the power of love or something. But........he needs me. He needs to see a living example of human kindness and compassion that's still alive in the species, a proof that's irrefutable as she's standing right there in front of him. An exception to the rule, perhaps, but an exception that does exist. He needs someone who knows him, all his machinations and secrets, deeply and intimately, to catch him in his triggers and can help bring him to reason so he can feel what he needs to feel without acting on it. He needs an anchor to the love in his heart so he doesn't go on adrift in the hate. He needs me and it's breaking my heart to watch a world go by where I don't exist and he's left to fall apart.

And really...is it too unrealistic to say love isn't powerful enough to change the world? It already has before.

I love him so much it hurts. Every time I start to think it'd be too complicated for me to work out, every time I want to give up because rewriting the story to account for my presence seems impossible for me to do, my love draws me back to him. To be a part of his world, a part of his heart - to share a love that changes the world, that's too strong a notion in my mind to ignore.