#this one is way more rambly than the other I'm so sorry guys ngdkgsgd

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And now for the really, really embarrassing one oh god

What makes it worse it's it's my favorite of the two, I think about it often enough and it's so, so self indulgent and makes so so little sense

So basically originally my Seeker Optimus AU was simple, reasonable; what if Orion had been a seeker and how would this affect his relationship with like Starscream pre and post war so on and so forth

But apparently my brain decided that was not Wacky and Strange enough and instead was like

Oh, what if instead Megatron managed to fell Optimus on the field and while the Autobots manage to get the matrix somehow Starscream gets a hold of Optimus' spark and places it in a Seeker shell with the idea that somehow he'll be able to like control him???? How, idk, god forbid I actually think these things through.

All the while Megatron is moping because killing Optimus did not make him happy, he's actually heavily depressed and fucked up about it while on the Autobot side Hot Rod becomes Rodimus.

Optimus wakes up in a body that isn't his own and rightfully freaks the fuck out, tries to get out of dodge and promptly fails because he doesn't know how to do jack all in this new body and from there is this whole thing where Starscream teaches Optimus how to at least fly properly because he knows that if Optimus shows back up to the Autobots they're going to attack on sight because all they'll see is a Decepticon which he's hoping will crack Optimus' spirit enough to give him a space to work his claws into and from there again is a half baked mess.

Optimus does end up coming back but thinks that maybe he can change the Deceptions from the inside and unintentionally finds himself making a new little family (especially with the Seeker trine who've been teaching him how to be a proper Seeker and have unintentionally adopted him into their little family unit in the process which derails Starscream's entire original plan) while also battling himself as he struggles with the guilt of feeling freed by no longer having to lead and battling with the concept of who he is as a person as he can't simply go back to being Orion with how irrevocably changed as he is but also feels that he is no longer Optimus either.

Despite the darker/more serious tones here and there it does get silly both with Optimus learning to function in this new body as well as some of his old habits and traits bleeding back in as well as other parts of him he has to temper to keep face as a beacon of hope and leadership for his men just kind of flow freely.

Megatron does find out that this new Seeker is actually Optimus and his feelings are Complicated and also Shockwave shenanigans because I have, I just htdktddkt

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