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rudolphsboyfriend · 1 year ago

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God I feel like I'm growing old (turning 20) but not as in I'm getting ugly and losing my worth, not as in i actually think 20 is old, not as in i think my 'biological clock' is running out. I'm growing old as in everything is changing so fast and I'm the same age my heroes were when they felt so big to me, but I don't feel big. Somehow i still feel like a kid, and yet the kid i was also feels so strange to me, and now I don't know if I'm an adult or a child because i feel like neither. Do you understand someone please tell me you understand.

#seeing a lot of (correct!) posts expressing anger at how #people basically say once u hit your mid twenties your time is almost up #about how middle aged is still SO YOUNG and we need to stop looking at aging as a monster #and i wholeheartedly agree!!#yet at the same time I'm terrified of aging #not cuz i think I'll lose my wortg #but cuz I'm scared I won't find myself #does this make sense #this js a completely new world I'm entering and i have NO CLUE what I'm supposed to be doing #and yet i feel like i SHOULD have it together cuz I'm almlst twenty now

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