#this isn't what i thought it would be. i think im just homesick for the moment but i just feel really bad

[batemanofficial]

can somebody please convince me that i haven't made a horrible mistake

[dear-mortality]

The shepherd prince

Chapter fifteen: realisation

Chapters

Walking around he heard voices of people whispering; his hearing is alot better in that form

He found it beyond annoying and his face was stuck frowning

While walking he heard the clanging of armour and assumed he would run into guards or aimanat

Only to find it was ferronid

"WHA- wait??? Aren't you the rulers guest??" Ferronid jumped a little having seen ether. In his defence seeing a shirtless half turned werewolf was definitely not something he expected to experience while just walking around.

Ether nodded looking dissatisfied and disappointed and tried to just walk by ferronid but ferronid blocked the way with his polearm

Ether shot him an irritated glance while growling quietly

Ferronid didn't seem phased by this.

"Where do you think you're going? You need to calm down before i have to calm you myself."

Ether turned around completely to meet eyes with ferronid before his thought bubble showed something

"The threat isn't helping."

Ferronid seemed actually convinced

"Guess that's true at least." He took his polearm out of ethers way "but you still need to calm down. Want help?"

Ether looked tired and answered with his bubble again

"Sure. I don't think i know how to calm down right now though."

So ferronid pat his back and smiled

"Come with me then."

And so ether complied

Ferronid walked him to an open field before taking off his armour little by little and putting it aside. His hair made into a bun and wearing light plain clothes under that shiny armour with something supporting him to stand upright and move around over his legs, ether was slightly surprised by the difference in how he seemed and how he is underneath all that copper and golden tones

He walked to a wheeled chair in the middle of the grassy field and sat on it after taking off his leg support

"Take a seat" ferronid said with an inviting tone. He seemed truly at peace.

So ether just laid in the grass. And it all came rushing to him. He was suddenly tearing up and sniffling as he felt all the rage and anger and sadness hit him at once.They must've stayed there for an hour or so.

Ferronid saw him but didn't comment. He just sat there and enjoyed the peace.

Ether missed the grass of the fields at his home so this really made him feel homesick. He doesn't regret leaving but he had just realized how long he'll be away since the trip didn't even really start. He just realized how rude he was to enfys and how he kept his distance from the first person who cared about him because he felt his care was overbearing for some reason. Having felt that he wronged enfys he decided to get going and went to shake ferronids hand.

Ferronid smiled and shaked his hand firmly and tried to avoid being stabbed by his claws.

Ether walked with a quick pace to his room where he found enfys just sitting there looking outside the window, he noticed ether entering but they didn't turn their head or acknowledge they were back.

Ether felt ashamed and embarrassed of how he treated enfys and didn't want to force enfys into forgiving him

So he just sat on his bed too looking at the window And managed to actually say words this time. But his voice sounded strange.

"Im sorry." Came out of his throat like a beast mimicking speech.

Enfys looked at him to see his ears lowered and his eyes swollen from how much he cried

And even though enfys was a little upset he definitely didn't think ether was that much in the wrong to ignore him when he's like this

"Its ok. You were just really hurt and i get that. I just wish we talked about why you kept your distance from me before this even...."

Ether went to hug enfys but stopped mid way

"Can we hug?" He said with his voice getting slightly better

"Yeah." Enfys answered after initiating a hug with ether, his chest fur tickled his nose a little but he managed to ignore it somehow.

Ether hugged back deeply and he decided he'll tell enfys about what he saw. And so he did.

Enfys sat there wondering who avalos was and what she wanted with ether.

Ether said he didn't want to look into her any further.

"Why is that?"

"Danger." He stated immediately with a serious tone

"Hmm i understand. We can let it go so long as you feel this is the safer option."

Ether nodded and just sighed a sigh of relief

Then ethers bubble showed a sentence. "How is the search for the arch mage?"

"Its not going as fast as we wanted it to but we have a thread we maybe able to follow." Enfys answered quickly "I'm sorry. I didn't mean to get you into all this without knowing when our trip will end." Enfys answered with a hint of annoyance. It seemed obvious that they don't like the current situation.

"Its ok. I like spending more time with you." Ether quickly answered with a smile, buns voice still not completely human

"Really? Because you've been avoiding me alot lately..."

"I'm really sorry....i had alot of wrong thoughts in my head making it hard to think straight. I shouldn't have pushed you away like that because of them." Ether apologized with his ears flopped on his head and his eyes looking away.

"Its ok, ether. But please tell me what you really feel next time ok? I can't read minds."

"You can't? I thought there would be a spell for that" ether said mockingly, hinting at his thought bubble- but his voice didn't show it enough.

"Yeah- no. that's not my style to begin with and its nothing we witches can easily use. I mean there IS a few 'mind reading spells' and you already have one on you but its less like that and more like an illustration of thoughts?? Because i altered it heavily to not be too invasive."

Ether frowned at enfys waiting for them to notice

"Oh- OH YOU WERE TRYING TO LIGHTEN THE MOOD"

"Yeah."

Enfys giggled a little

"Well it worked now."

They smiled at eachother for a few before ethers look turned to that of confusion

"I just remembered; who are the silly looking people that healed me?"

Enfys snorted before laughing for a few seconds and then regaining his composure

"Im never going to see your blunt questions coming am i? Well, to answer that question: these are healers. Specifically, priests of the deity of silence. They don't have a name for themselves but people tend to call them depths priests"

"What does that have to do with looking this way"

"No clue. Genuinely. No one knows anything about that faction of the healers beyond who they worship and i believe anyone who ever wanted to, gave up trying."

"There are other factions?"

"yeah. The caretakers of the deity of affection, the heavy eyes of the deity of grief, the Doctors of the deity of knowledge, etc. of course healing isn't limited to these people its just they're the best at it."

Enfys noticed the face ether was making and was just glad everything was back to normal

"Enfys, thank you for being here. Thank you for not leaving me in the dark that night." Ether stated hoping enfys would get which night bun was talking about

"Thank you for not taking anything too personally from my side....i know i can be too much sometimes......they were definitely right about that part...."

Ether slanted his head with a concerned look

"Its nothing. Just remembering something someone said to me..... anyway! We have time to burn apparently so what do you want to do?"

Ethers face lit up suddenly and decided to take the lead, he reached the door frame and stood there with his back to enfys.

"Follow me" he said over his shoulder as if making up for what he told enfys from earlier

Enfys saw right through it

"Okay then, dork."

They walked out together laughing and talking about what they're going to do

As they left, the door was open just a crack before some pink smoke closed it shut

"Well well well." Said avalos walking around the room with subtle steps. "I also have things to burn" she laughed maniacally and was about to set fire to something before noticing a presence in the room with her

She turned around to find the frost serpent staring right at her and bending to face her

"You will not- under any circumstances- cause trouble here. I don't think the contract i have with your goddess will protect you from my wrath if you wronged anyone here."

Avalos jumped back

"What are YOU doing here!?"

"You come into my playground and ask me why IM here? Save yourself the ridicule and hide back in your shadows. My ruler will not be hassled by your schemes."

Avalos seemed annoyed and slightly scared as she vanished

"I may have to warn zaroth. Or not. I'll see what happens first."

[kylejsugarman]

according to fandom wiki tmw is jesse birthday… what would he and demi and baby do to celebrate?

I KNOW not to be like is excited for a fictional character's bday but like.....he is a special guy :') i think his birthday would always feel a little weird for him just because like he never ever expected to live this long, so every year that passes is just like "oh. im still here. this doesn't feel right but it's what i have to deal with", and he subsequently isn't going to make like a huge deal about it, but there has to be a little celebrating!! that's demi's sweetheart and baby's best friend!! if the weather's fair, they'll probably take the dogs on a long walk through the park to enjoy the outdoors, then grab some lunch. jesse knows his wife and daughter well enough to Know that they'll give in to Birthday Instincts, but he still tries to act surprised when baby finally cracks and says "i have to give u ur present Now". she's been trying to learn how to knit recently and gives him socks and (an admittedly short, she started running out of time) scarf that she's made to keep him warm. she and demi also made peanut butter + chocolate cupcakes and even though neither of them are stars in the kitchen, they turned out pretty good, if not a little fucked up looking ("this cupcake's been to war," he says solemnly). demi gets him some fun stuff (newest "burnout paradise" game, some shading pencils and a new sketchbook) as well as a succulent that she's been cultivating. she doesn't know A Ton, but she knows that jesse previously lived near the desert and thought maybe he'd like a flowering cactus. it gives him a weirdly nostalgic feeling, almost but not quite homesickness because as much as he tries to forget his first life, he does sometimes miss the little details of his old home. he doesn't know how to communicate to demi that it's a really special gift, but he can kiss her and something in her hug tells him that she has An Idea. the rest of the day is just chill, which is what he wants, and that night, he's able to survive the uneasy thoughts about surviving and guilt and danger because he knows that he must be doing Something right here

[devotioncrater]

im not sure I have the property to say this since ive only been watching loki through twitter, but did you also get a little bit of a ted lasso finale vibe?

hmmm not really? with ted lasso's ending, none of what happened made any sense narratively or thematically. with loki's ending, it fit both narratively and thematically (to me at least).

but similar to my thoughts on ted lasso's ending, i do think loki's ending would have been elevated if those two old men had kissed.

i also will add that loki is Marvel. we know what to expect from A Marvel Show because at the end of the day, it is under Disney's Ironclad Fist. allowing their main character loki to be Explicitly Queer Onscreen (rather than just mentioned) was never ever going to happen. that would have alienated Disney's domestic viewers, sure, but to them more importantly countries such as China (who have historically barred queer media from being shown) would have pulled financial backing. and Disney Loves Money More Than Creative Storytelling, so...why would they risk upsetting their profit margins? also also Disney is rooted in evangelical christian support, and has strong affiliation with being conservatively Family Friendly. a gay kiss? not happening for one of their most famous and beloved MCU characters.

meanwhile, AppleTV isn't beholden to this puritanical expectation nor does it have decades of financial ties. ted lasso was one of their biggest shows. they marketed ted lasso's S3 as this amazing, industry-changing phenomena. Oh My God Ted Lasso Is Ending You Don't Want To Miss This Finale type vibe. we were led to believe ted's journey would end up one place....and then it didn't. this could be abt tedbecca or tedtrent, those two endgames are in the same boat in my opinion. as a character, ted himself is intensely queer-coded. it's undeniable. it would have fit the vibe of the entire show's premise about Found Family + Accepting Love In All Forms for ted to be canonically bisexual or queer. THAT would have been a strong weight thrown in the industry, imo. but no, ted goes back to his straight, lonely, dull life in kansas for no solid reason (despite rebecca laying out a perfectly good option for both henry and michelle to join ted in london).

loki stuck the shakespearean tragic hero landing. loki IS burdened with a glorious purpose. loki HAS to end up alone. him choosing loneliness is integral to his bigger purpose within the narrative itself. the entire story and his entire character arc builds up to him acting selflessly with integrity in order to protect his friends. here you have a trickster god who spent his entire life begging to be seen by someone, then gets seen by someone, and then has to let that someone go for their perceived betterment. loki, a notoriously selfish, lying motherfucker who blew up NYC, goes through this immense transformation to where he fundamentally changes who he is. loki at the start of season one is not who loki is at the end of season two. the way he deals with feelings of loss is night and day. his lonely ending is cathartic because it feels earned and comprehendible and it carries weight from how it highlights his character growth.

can we say the same about ted lasso himself? no. ted lasso in season one is not who he is in the end of season three, true. externally, he becomes divorced, he leaves richmond, he went to therapy. but intrinsically he as a character did not grow enough to where him choosing his lonely ending felt cathartic. throughout the show, ted takes on the role of Carer. he Has To Care For Others, yet he tends to reject people when they want to take care of him. we see him struggle with depression, alcohol dependence, emotional unavailability, panic attacks, homesickness, and guilt. when season three reaches midway, we see him find solace in his friends and community and learning to be alone. even with his mom, a triggering person for him, he vocalized his feelings in an honest and truthful way. ted's character arc is written to match the show's theme of found family, acceptance, and love.

and that, to me, is why him going back to kansas did not work. there wasn't any catharsis in ted lasso's ending. it negates the thematic intent, as well as defies the narrative itself. a comedy can genre-bend into dramatic tragedy, yes, but not in the literal last hour. tragedies only work when they feel earned and cathartic. tragic heroes need their arcs to carry weight which feels worthwhile. ted lasso held none of these genre values

[meteormoss]

hello!!! so your fic he curtains pulled out of the wall got me into the stick season album and my brain chemistry is forever changed

anyways do you have any like?? specific song associations for chapters or characters?

This ask is harder than you think to answer. My actual answer I'm going to keep just to Stick Season songs (+1 other noah kahan song because its too perfect) but the playlists feature some other songs. I'm going to link them at the end, feel free to give them a listen or look. Dirt roads earned all these empty scars playlist is still a WIP tho

The very last chapter of the curtains pulled out of the wall (and im thinking the 2nd chapter of dirt roads earned all these empth scars) is heavily inspired by The View Between Villages. Specifically the transition of feelings, but i referenced it as well with how he sits in his car. This song specifically makes me oh so ill, and i think it means a lot to the entire story.

New perspective is more of a characterization of the town and cleo and the relarionship (mostly with cleo tho) through bdubs' eyes, but it's not quite on the nose with it.

Stick season is straight up a bdubs song. Like literally everything in it heavily helped me characterize him. That is a bdubs song. Even if a lot of the characterization isn't directly discussed. (Oh, btw, for those of you who are curious, the season of the sticks is winter, cuz thats all you see, i didnt get it at first either)

Homesick just generally makes me think of the story abd enviorment, the very beginning lyrics are of course a reference to cleo. "I got dreams but i cant make myself believe them, spend the rest of my life with what couldve been, and i will die in the house i grew up in, im home sick" is both bdubs and etho.

Come Over is a bit of the first chapter, a bit of enviorment, a bit of bdubs, a bit of desperation to not get left irrefutably alone. "Someday im gonna be somebody people want" should stick in your mind

All My Love is a lot of the very first chapters, especially from the pov of the curtains pulled out of the wall, very much less so for dirt roads earned all these empty scars and thats because of the differences of perspective. I cant even pull out a lyric to emphasive this because that whole chapter is so much this song. "Now i know your name but not who you are" is a really important line for both fics, and both povs, and all the characters. Its just one to remember.

Still is a lot of the thought going into writing the final chapter and thr funeral chapter. It didnt really go into the actual writings as intensely but i would confidently say it bled in. But for me personally those chapters and this song are intrisically tied.

Strawberry Wine is nostalgia for bdubs, its the reason he's not moved on as well. This is such a bdubs song. "We buried your bones in plywood" is such a complicated line theres a reason it's the series title. It's simultaneously a reference to the state of cleo and etho in this. Cleo is nothing but old pictures shoved in a wooden box in the attic, something buried in dust and anger. Inaccessible. Etho's literally got his bobes buried in a wooden box. He's dead, also entierly inaccessible.

Northern Attitude is the cleo song off of Stick Season. That's literally her. She built everything there and uprooted it too. She's realized she's callused and notably mean because of her original enviorment and it stands out where she is now. She reflects sometimes, but mostly she pushes it all off.

And then we come to the song that i need to mention because of how it explains Cleo. Paul Revere by Noah Kahan. This ones going to heavily inspire chapter 2 of her side of this, dirt roads earned all these empty scars. Chapter 2 is gonna be very similar to chapter 2 of the curtains pulled out of the wall, but the timings will be a bit off from each other, it'll be the heading to bdubs' that this song really represents. But it's also the cleo song ever. It characterizes the time before she left, when she left, and when she's been gone. It discusses how she hasnt moved on or let go, she just doesnt cling as bdubs does. Shes hurt and angry but she understands she doesnt need or want it and it's such a fight between forces inside her and it tears her up. "If I could leave I wouldve already left" is such an essential line to her character, shes physically removed, but pieces of her are still out there in the cold.

Sorry some of these are a little more broad than you asked, i just think they're just as essential. You have to understand the enviorment on a level to understand the characters.

[allylikethecat]

Ally!!! tuesday update is phenomenal as always! i liked thw “im here every tuesday” part it was very meta of you lol (even if it wasn’t intentional) This story is incredibly angsty atm and i have no complaints. To be honest the vibe is kind of reminding me of Queer in the sense that Matty is watching a mysterious man at a bar and getting wasting at the same time i also assume he’ll keep going back to that bar to try to see this mysterious man again. all i have to say is that you’ve got my attention and i’ll be listening to noah khan so i can get the full experience (any suggestions in where to start???)

🥤

Ahh Smoothie Anon!! It's a joy as always to see you in my inbox!!

First off, thank you SO MUCH for giving my Noah / Matty fic a chance - I know that there isn't really an audience for it but WOW am I having SO MUCH FUN working on it! I was kind of going through a rut with my writing and working on this fic has fully pulled me out of it. I'm glad that you liked the "I'm here every Tuesday" line lol Fictional!Noah performed at the bar every Thursday and Sunday in the original draft, then I was reading it over and I was like WTF Ally he should OBVIOUSLY be there every TUESDAY because TUESDAY is your day lol

I'm going to be honest... I haven't actually read Queer (I am silly spicy romance / romantasy trash) so the fact that they have a similar vibe is completely accidental but I will happily take it! Let's just say that Fictional!Matty will be meeting that mysterious bar stranger sooner rather than later 👀

AH Welcome to the emotional turmoil OMG I would say Noah's most recent album Stick Season is a great place to start if you're just getting into his music. The most popular songs off that album are Stick Season, and Dial Drunk. Homesick is another popular one and my personal favorite. Other favorites would be Forever, Orange Juice, and Growing Sideways. Call Your Mom is a tear jerker and No Complains is extremely Matty coded. From Busy Head my favorites are: Young Blood, False Confidence and Mess. From I Was / I Am my favorites are Bad Luck, Godlight, Hallow and Howling. From Cape Elizabeth it would be Maine and Anyway. Live from Fenway also features the previously unreleased song Pain Is Cold Water and I am absolutely obsessed with that live album - I was at Fenway Night One and it was a religious experience. But AH Noah Kahan!! I am so obsessed with him it's not even funny. I will admit though, the song featured in the middle of the chapter is actually Something in the Orange by Zach Bryan (it came on shuffle while I was working on the chapter and it just felt right? Noah and Zach Bryan also collaborated together for Sarah's Place which is another great one!) I've been very in my folk/country era working on this fic!

Sorry for all of the rambling omg I just LOVE talking about this fic and Noah and just AH thank you so much for reading and sending me this ask and being so wonderful and supportive. I look forward to hearing your thoughts on the next few chapters and also what you think about Noah's music!!

Thank you SO MUCH again!! I hope you are having a wonderful day and a fantastic rest of your week!

❤️Ally

[raven-at-the-writing-desk]

(reader RP)

"And to think I thought you were JUST an awful tease" you snort, feeling tightness in your chest as you press your hand down onto raven's head in some semblance of a pat.

...it was softer than you thought, and with a hard swallow you press down harder in an intentional ruffling of hair to take pleasure in his startle squawk before your irritation and buried distress can wane.

different yet the same. the man in front of you is raven, but not your raven that you miss, even if some parts of them feel the same and bring you some sense of comfort.

homesickness leaks from the quiet panic you feel as you slump gingerly against a wall, legs aching as you ignore raven's complains. exactly how much time has past? would you have to beg him for a favour to use his bed?

"Hey," you ask weakly, trying to hide the wobble in your throat. "im feeling peckish. do you have anything to eat here that isn't something spicy?"

[Referencing this post!]

***Art is by tinyfantasminha!***

“I’ll have you know that I am an awful tease—and more. In fact, I’m the absolute worst,” Raven smirked, shaking off your hand.

He expected his witty jab to land harder, but his smugness couldn’t seem to penetrate the dense fog of uneasiness that lingered about you. It was a quiet sort of panic, the kind that no one noticed until it was too late and had you by the throat. Choking, choking... stealing your breath away as you leaned your back against the wall.

A poor attempt to steady yourself, both your physical body and your trembling voice.

Raven noticed.

“... Hey. If you’re scared, then let yourself be scared. No good comes from concealing your true feelings.

“Hmmm, to start with... It would be a good idea to put some hot food in you to ease your anxieties. Since it seems you do not care for spicy dishes, please inform me what you would like to have instead. I will so graciously prepare it for you, so you’d best be thankful.”

[punkscowardschampions]

Ali & Carly

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Carly: why Ali: because I think you do Carly: it doesn't matter what you think Carly: he thinks she's girlfriend material & im a slag Carly: hes not wrong either Ali: If you like him, then you should say Ali: regardless, shouldn't let him be a cunt to you, and Ro in the process Ali: who the fuck is he Carly: ha Carly: i dont like anyone baby Carly: I'm just bored Carly: berlins a whole new party Ali: well, good Ali: one less worry Ali: I wish you the perfect holiday fling Carly: aw Carly: youre still the sweetest Carly: sure you dont want a drink while theres some left? Ali: need it now so fuck it Ali: chuck it over Carly: come over Carly: you kno youre the sporty one Carly: i cant be throwing things round the coach Ali: alright, you calling baby spice, I assume? Carly: or scary Carly: depends whos asking Carly: cant be posh tho Ali: yeah you can Ali: she weren't even and you can rock that pout just as well Carly: aw Carly: you should be baby tho youre the cutest Ali: little school all over again, we can't all be baby, lads! 😂 Ali: i'll be ginger, if you wore that iconic dress on your site, you'd get lynched Carly: yea Carly: & if anyone would cause drama by going solo its you Carly: Marlene been knew Ali: Ouch 💔 Ali: but fair Ali: Already thinking about her due to namesake birthplace but you really went there Ali: please tell me I haven't tanked as hard, not got Drew's fragile ego like but 😥 Carly: you kno im just mad youre not thinking about me Carly: dont listen to a word i say Carly: goldies got a fragile heart now too, so sad you broke up w me & stole his bf on top Carly: someone think of the golden god Ali: baby Ali: yeah, that's TOTALLY what the weird vibe is all about Ali: moody twat, soz a threesome is outta the question now Carly: he likes you too Carly: thats a thing Carly: playing like im the one hung up but he is Ali: Nah Ali: that boy don't know what he wants Ali: not down for him using my bestie and sister to find out though, fuck off and soul search like the rest Carly: he wants you Carly: but you got your boy & he shouldnt be trying to mess w Carly: meant to be his boy too Ali: so he reckons but give him 5 minutes before he weren't arsed Ali: don't trust him as far as I can throw him so ain't taking his word on that either like Ali: exactly Ali: 🐍 Carly: id leave him alone if he was happy being w her but i kno he isnt Carly: not letting him lie to me Ali: it doesn't have to be your problem Ali: or your job to make him happy Ali: knew it though Carly: ha Carly: it isn't my problem Carly: & i cant keep a job you kno Carly: couldnt do that one if i was paid like Ali: no one can babe Ali: not to be that hippie cliche about it Ali: but forreal, gotta do that shit himself Carly: its Carly: how he makes me feel sometimes Carly: not happy im not living that lie but Carly: its not nothing & sometimes its good you kno Ali: yeah Ali: i know Ali: but you can have more, if you want Ali: that is possible Ali: you don't have to settle for sometimes good Carly: youre sweet but youre a dreamer babe Carly: ive got nothing going on not in my head & not around me Carly: theres no more than settling down on the site or settling for being off whenever i can Ali: s'not true Carly: yea it is Carly: you dont want it to be but that dont mean its not Carly: me and that boy have more in common than not being subtle like Ali: it ain't Ali: doesn't have to be Ali: nothing is set in stone unless you pour the fucking cement yourself, like Carly: it doesnt have to be doing it but it can still get poured Carly: forget it tho Carly: im drinking on empty & feeling sorry for myself Carly: no fun in that Ali: ain't that fast drying Ali: dust yourself off and run Carly: where to babe Carly: nowhere to go but the coach bathroom Carly: been there done that Ali: well hang on a bit and we'll be in a whole new country, babe Ali: promise is a promise and we can start in Berlin Carly: but 3s a crowd when its not a party Carly: im not trying to mess you & your boy up Carly: cant tell drew off if i do Ali: nah Ali: it ain't like that Ali: not got the blinkers on and knowing each other's passwords and schedules Ali: got trust Carly: yea? Carly: got food too or Carly: cuz im gonna vom if you say no Ali: Yes Ali: Lemme food parcel Carly: if you havent lost the knack Carly: been awhile Ali: 😔 Ali: i'm soz Carly: dont be Carly: you kno i love you Carly: no drama Ali: i love you too Ali: and you would tell me if you needed something wouldn't you Ali: 'cos that ain't changed, i'm still here Ali: unlucky bitch Carly: unlucky for you Carly: shouldnt be on site unless theres something in it for you babe Carly: all i need is to remember breakfast before i get on a sess Carly: & to dilute my spirits sometimes too Ali: there is, you nutter Ali: there you go, who said school trips weren't educational? only on the bus and you're whacking out the wisdom already Carly: not as thick as i look Carly: ms woodfield was thinking it too i reckon Carly: she might kno but im still gonna blame the shit driver if i vom Carly: try and stop me bitch Ali: you look nothing but amazing hush Ali: she's down with the kids, she'll hold your hair back Carly: you hush Carly: trying to make me emotional in front of the front of the coach Ali: it's alright, join Millie Rooney and say you're homesick 😉 Carly: idk whats sadder everyone thinking im crying over an empty caravan or that prick thinking its about him Ali: 😬 i know what i reckon Ali: better dry those tears, babygirl Carly: get his phone for me tho yea Carly: i am mad he gets me & i get nothing back Carly: use the magic Ali: use my mad hacking skillz gotcha Ali: but should I use them for good and accidentally forward some incriminating shit to Ro? 🤔 Ali: this is why we're not meant to play God Carly: do what you must Carly: i trust you Ali: don't worry, sure you're not the only girl he's been chatting too Ali: no offense meant obvs but you know Ali: don't have to drop you in it, as if its your fault but idk, Ro isn't always willing to be entirely rational when it comes to him Carly: idc she never liked me much anyways Carly: better that than dropping some naive random in it Carly: everyones seen me naked if it blows up Carly: old news Carly: & the vid was good too i look hot Ali: hmm, good point on the random Ali: and I don't doubt that you did Ali: I'll have to think on this a bit harder Carly: k Carly: if everyone gets in my inbox ill kno Ali: god Ali: people are gross Carly: can be fun sometimes Carly: cant all be angels like you babe Ali: 🖕 Ali: you know i ain't Carly: i kno you are Carly: too sweet Ali: pot kettle baby Ali: but your secret's safe with me 😘 Carly: ha Carly: its no secret im only sweet to you so youre the only one who needs to kno Ali: 'cos people suck Ali: that's no secret Ali: not gonna waste your time, are you, like Carly: not as good at picking out the deserving ones as you Carly: no secret i fuck up more than i dont Carly: how many bad decisions can i make before berlin tho Ali: nah, you're just too nice for your own good Ali: you know he don't deserve it but people have made the same (wrong) judgment on you so you can't do it back Ali: to anyone Ali: even genuinely shitty people, or people who'd be better off for the nudge of nah Carly: now whos dropping the wisdom Carly: ill just screenshot those few sentences for my ma when she's on at me Carly: im a nice person bitch Ali: 💅☕ though Ali: i'll translate it into spanish for her if she's not getting the memo in plain english Carly: ha Carly: she got well excited cuz she thought berlin had a red light district Carly: thought she was gonna get in my bags Carly: one way to stop me fucking drew in the front row but Ali: pretending i didn't hear that last bit ew Ali: moving on Ali: she wanna get in the windows or like? Carly: she did get the sack so probs Carly: or she thinks itll be like magic mike the german dub idk Ali: oh honey Ali: every nights a hen night Ali: 🙄 Carly: imagine if theyd let mas and das on this trip Carly: i couldnt have come Ali: me either Ali: no one needs that Carly: your ma is so scary Carly: but shed put goldie in his place Carly: probs shouldve brought her Carly: keep me behaving Ali: she literally wants to murder him Ali: need a restraining order and more than mr murray and mr latimer to keep her back Carly: ha Carly: love it Carly: cant she break up the happy couple Carly: my da did me & this beautiful traveller lad that took my v Ali: 💔 Ali: is he married now Ali: if we're doing matchmaking Ali: but in answer, she learnt that forbidding something makes it 1000x more likely to happen and in more secretive, intense ways so Ali: I'm soz Ro, really fucked you over on that one Carly: idk my da literally moved them on Carly: threat of getting the law Carly: k but he still wouldnt be into it Carly: i feel bad for her Ali: ugh Ali: so romeo and juliet, baby you must've been so about it 'til he fucked it up that hard Ali: yeah, i know Ali: i'll figure out something Carly: i was only 12 so i did have the mindset Carly: worth it tho Carly: prettiest boy ive ever seen Ali: swizzle on that, goldilocks Carly: everyone wanted to fuck him Carly: the whole site was feeling the love Carly: fun times Ali: like a beatle was living in your back garden Ali: love that Carly: i peaked Carly: all there is now is a golden god who behaves like a idiot boy Ali: i mean, won't take offense 😒 sat right here and all but no 😉 Ali: there's a whole world of dick out there i promise you Ali: some attached to boys who don't behave like one Carly: ha Carly: you know you're my fave Carly: but youre sat next to him so I cant tell it Ali: 💚 Ali: won't even tell you who i lost my v to Ali: too shaming Carly: now you have to Ali: 😬😫 Ali: okay but then i'm going for a piss so i don't have to feel the pity Carly: baby id never feel sorry for you Carly: w my life come on Ali: you might sympathize though 'cos it was ronan Ali: why he got all weird, probs Ali: eurgh repressed memories flooding back in with the shame 😂 Carly: shit Carly: i told drew all first times are bad but wouldnt wish him on you like that Carly: oh ronan Carly: he better not have treated you like he did me Carly: ill fucking kill him like Ali: aw babe Ali: my hero 💪 Ali: you know what he's like but that shit is long in the past with us so meh Carly: im gonna cry Carly: babe thats sad Carly: & now ms woodfield is staring at me k Ali: don't cry silly Ali: is what it is Carly: im crying and planning murder Ali: you went there too, and other various dickheads, so where's my invite to this party? Carly: but youre perfect Carly: and it was your first time Carly: actual tears in the front row Ali: oh babe Ali: i'm coming over Ali: bog roll in hand Carly: youre too good Carly: im so sad Ali: 😇 that's you Carly: all you tho Ali: nu-uh Ali: you you you Carly: i cant argue cuz im blinded by my tears Ali: not the greatest victory I've ever then Ali: but I'll take it if you smile again Carly: waiting for ms woodfield to tell me i need jesus Carly: ill laugh then Ali: okay, i'll try and lead the convo and her like Ali: we got this, woody Carly: nah if you try and lead her anywhere itll only go one way Carly: teachers pet Ali: 😂 Ali: do you reckon she loves that everyone lowkey drools over her 'cos she's the right side of 40 Ali: or is she desperately job hunting like these fucking kids Carly: i can see in her eyes she loves it Carly: she hates me cuz i dont Carly: facts Ali: not 'cos you never do your work, nah 😏 Carly: & im drunk as fuck rn on her watch Ali: i mean Ali: if YOU were doing your job properly darling Ali: mad you beat her to it, they always get plastered on trips Carly: yea Carly: bet shed take nudes in the bathroom if she had someone to send them to Ali: ooh what teacher could she homewreck Ali: school trip always a perfect place to start an affair Carly: Mr O'Brien could get it if you were old Ali: good shout Ali: getting out my bow as we speak Carly: Mr Cork is alright too but he looks like he'd shower after holding hands Carly: weird Ali: I mean Ali: cleanliness is next to godliness Ali: dirty hoe Carly: ha Carly: you kno it Ali: might be a serial killer Ali: but you wouldn't catch nowt off him Carly: dont have to go home if he murders me Carly: scatter me in berlin lad Ali: 😨😭 noooooo Ali: even if i could go neeson and avenge you Carly: dont go neeson off set tho Carly: your boy wouldnt love the racism Ali: don't wanna be that bitch Ali: problematique Carly: enough bitches on this coach Carly: for once not looking at you ms woodfield Carly: we ever getting there? i thought getting wasted would make me less bored not more Ali: and lowkey racists Ali: all comes out the woodworks when you outed, that gay bashing all afresh like Ali: seriously, why couldn't we go on a plane Carly: & overt racists Carly: that cash tho Carly: how would the teachers afford to get wrecked if they blew the budget Carly: gotta blow each other first Ali: ☕ Ali: dickheads Carly: when goldilocks isnt the biggest twat on the coach tho Carly: idk what to do w that Carly: universe trying to make me like him Ali: give him time Ali: sure he'll reclaim his title 💪 Carly: he'd love a crown Carly: or a medal Carly: get crafting Ali: only if I can get biblical Ali: crown of thorns, you mean barbed wire, okay Carly: ha Carly: im tired come & nap w me Ali: okay boo Ali: as far as pillows go 😏 Carly: serious Carly: i dont wanna sleep on my own Carly: hate it Ali: i remember Ali: coming Ali: promise