#this is so fucking hard honestly i've never felt less secure about capturing a character voice

[focusfixated]

i'm not saying you can only write what you know, but i spent the majority of my teen years writing my chemical romance RPF, from the point of view of a vampire-obsessed, genderbent, ex-catholic, dungeons and dragons nerd, living in a dim and fuggy basement in the early 2000s, whose inner turmoil and particular branch of white suburban depression was near autobiographic for me in my late teen phase of nihilistic remonstration against mainstream cheeriness. not even the cultural challenge of trying to write like a grotty kid from new jersey as an english teen from the home counties could create a rift big enough to separate me from the instinctive, intrinsic understanding of gerard way's millenial disillusionment and weird-kid, outsider status.

what i'm saying is, the point of difference between me and band guy gerard way was like. spiritually and emotionally fractional.

now johN LENNON on the other hand--

i've been circling the drain of this fucking guy's brain for about two months now and all i have is 800 words and a mounting graveyard of deleted passages to show for it because apparently the inner life of a white man from liverpool in the 1960s is a cultural removal too far for me to comprehend.