#this is not gonna be an 'estrogen is slapping' post bc it feels v off topic for that

[cakesexuality]

Hey so

Talked to my social worker on Tuesday, she was off for a while so our last 2 appointments have been mostly catching her up to speed on what happened while she was gone as well as in between the appointments

Talked to my dietician yesterday and we did a Rule of Threes worksheet that was sent to me when I reached out to NEDIC a couple months ago, we also decided that I'm not gonna do any work on figuring out which foods make me sick for now bc that might be a slippery slope to restriction

Jesus fucking Christ, I had to reschedule it 3 times due to transport issues, but I finally have my assessment with the ED program tomorrow

The social worker from the hospital seemed to think I was intentionally avoiding the assessment but he was really nice about it lol, he was like "You don't have to do this right away, you can wait until you're emotionally ready" and like no I'm READY, I've been in recovery for 11 years already, I just couldn't physically get to the hospital

My dietician is an absolute cheerleader about everything and she was like "And make sure you pack your bag with lots of snacks when you go to the hospital on Friday!!!" which I always pack snacks when I go to in-person appointments but I appreciate her really wanting me to regularly have something to eat lol especially considering I'll be at the hospital for several hours

I did pack my bag, btw!! I've got a bunch of different snacks in a lunch bag with a few different things to drink

I also have my GP tomorrow before the hospital so I'll be talking to her about some stuff and giving her a booklet for primary care providers that NEDIC also sent me

I seem to have properly relapsed at this point 🙃 I'm disappointed but not blaming myself, I'm still trying my best, and I'm eating Goldfish and drinking Ribena as I write this

My ED recovery app has 2 questionnaires you're supposed to do every month and it won't let me do one of them until tomorrow but it let me do the other one today and my score this month is better than last month?? Wild

Still not worried about which level of care the hospital will offer me