#this is just me pondering and fucking around quite complicated topic that doesn't seem to affect me while still making my head ache. sigh

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being agender is so weird sometimes. I just don't quite fit in any gender norms and that's okay, I don't mind! but I still think that people perceive me different from how I perceive myself (duh).

irl I'm very feminine presenting while still using he/him most of the time, but I also don't have any issues with switching to she/her for school and such. when I talk about myself/my self-inserts I prefer they/them, even though this is my least liked pronoun. I also like it/its but not in a 'thing' way and more in a third secret option. I don't use neos just because I'm not sure if I like how they sound, but I won't even get offended (and probably will be even glad) if anyone used them for me. ofc pronouns don't showcase how anyone perceives their own being, but this is more to the topic of this just not mattering much to me.

and while all this IS present in my day to day life, I still manage to feel outside of any gender at all. I didn't even have dysphoria (or rarely. I don't really like these periods of time) and never doubted it much. ofc, everything may change in the future, but I kinda just knew that I'm not a boy nor am I nby and never struggled with figuring it out. strange!