#this is just me describing my symptoms of being very sleep deprived every fucken day

[whump-queen]

…sleep deprivation

tw sleep deprivation, self harm, general misery, death mention

give me a whumpee so sleep deprived that their entire body hurts— they feel the ache in their bones, every muscle weeping for a break.

whumpee pinching their skin to keep themselves awake, twisting until it burns, digging their fingernails in until they feel warm blood seep out, dragging and ripping until it’s caked under their fingernails.

they can’t let themselves sit down—they know they’d just collapse. but they’re swaying on their feet, staggering a little. they feel their legs shaking in protest with every excruciating step.

give me the brain fog, the confusion, the slurred words and jumbled sentences— the inability to keep more than a single thought in their head at once.

let the dull pain of thinking too hard wear them down.

let them run on empty fumes until they’re forgetting things as soon as they occur.

until all they can think is how tired they are— the exhaustion pressing in around their brain like a thick syrup, sticky and sinking in around them until theyre suffocating, breathing in poison.

so exhausted that they blink and realize they’re crying.

feeling like a dead man, for all intents and purposes, were it not for the way they’re still barely standing, muscles quivering with each labored step.

they know they’re bad for thinking it but—

at least the dead get to rest.