#this is gonna be a bad / hard post and i��ll have to delete it. like it feels like in making it im invoking cosmic forces to show me karma or

[kraro-school-life]

✦ 2. 1. 25 ✦📓✦ Thursday ✦ 19 days to exams ✦

It´s not looking good. I should have known that the good feeling wouldn´t last long, but now I like actually feel anxious about my exams. And what do I do when I feel lost? I plan. And plan. And journal. - Because I really need to figure out what the right thing to do is here.

Below is a lenghty breakdown of everything for my exams:

Yeah I´m gonna just ramble and hope something good comes out of it. Why I gotta post this on the internet? Good question, idk (I don´t have my 'serious stuff' journal with me and I don´t like mixing my journals up)

No escaping this anymore you little prick (me):

I deleted Instagram and Youtube. I noticed that I (when I felt defeated) escaped to yt a lot, and that wasted me a lot of time. In the moment it feels nessecary, like I will literally break down if I don´t take a break, and it was an easy quick escape. I´ve come to the realisation that I literally don´t have time for that anymore. I will try to maybe do a round on the block outside for 10 minutes and come back. Sounds and is stupid, but it helped today. Worth trying.

Physics:

I did the first physics mock exam and bro tears came to my eyes at the end. It was really difficult but not in the normal way? There was only one question I really had no clue about but the rest were just little things that didn´t work out so I got stuck. I wasted half an hour trying to solve a question because I just forgot that the electric charge of a proton IS OF COURSE JUST A SIMPLE +e. I needed double the expected time to try and even find a point where I could start some of the questions… Anyway. Let´s try to identify my problems (there is a lot);

I don´t fully know the derivations by heart and I should (to not lose time trying to remember)

I have to know what they mean IN DETAIL

I lack knowledge about things; like I know how they function, but I have to think about why that is - but I have to be able to aptly explain things, fast

How do I think is the best way to study for that?

TRULY learn the formulas and derivations by heart - Anki flashcards EVERY DAY

Go through every topic AGAIN, and do additional research. Take notes while doing so. Basically make another summary, but with all the explanations you need.

Try doing 1-2 more practice exams

Note: It is hard. It´s really tempting to just skip things praying they won´t be on the exam but do I really want to risk it? No, I don´t. The problem lies in the details, so that is what I need to have down.

Math:

I procrastinate math the hardest. I hate it. Because I trick myself into thinking that I know how to do it. BUT THAT´S NOT THE POINT. I KNOW how to do it, the problem is I need to know it FAST. The teacher even said that there is no time to think about what you have to do. You need to read the question ONCE and know what to do. And the way to do that is practice. I haven´t been practicing. I feel so bad, like I totally thought I was gonna do it, but I let myself down and... I just feel terrible. I hate myself at the moment. Okay, off track; what I want to do:

Know what and how to do by heart (for things I know will be asked) - Anki flashcards (still need to make them), review every day

Do Aussagen über Ableitungsfunktionen durch Skizzen, because I got everything wrong last time.

Practice to prepare for unusual things. Every day. I desperately need to get some math practice. I am begging myself to practice. (I may do a list to help w/ that)

Note: I am losing my mind

Economics:

Maybe the easiest of them all? But takes the most time. I tried thinking about alternative study methods that may take less time, but it really is the best option.

Do that huge fucking summary but write it down by hand. And After you did a page memorise it. And write in full. I basically mimic what I´ll do on the exam. And that is yap as much as possible, but on topic ofc.

Have real life examples for stuff, it helps out a lot

Look on old exams if there are any questions you would struggle with and fill the gaps

Check if you really have everything...

And now to the subjects I don´t worry (that much) about:

German:

review the books again, memorise the authors and years, not much to add here

Polish:

REVIEW the books (all the books TT) again, like watch 5 different summaries and drill the details in your head because holy shit (no explention)

review the theory again and memorise- I´m NOT repeating last year

Art:

I am so grateful for art <3333 the only subject I actually enjoy doing and I know for a fact I´m gettig a good grade in :) Too bad it takes so much time away from my week before all the other exams (because we have to have the plan ready by then), only for the actual exam to be the last one 2 weeks later :/

Oh yeah maybe think about the mediums you should use

Timewise:

for the love of god I need to wake up earlier. I feel like I need so much more sleep than everyone else but I think opting for 8 instead of 11 would be good (especially on the weekends).

I unfortunately will have to study all big 3 (Phy, math, eco) simultaneously to be done in time, so no time to lose here (I mean I already deleted yt, so)

timeplan for weekdays

I feel better now:

I think this helped soothe my worries a bit. At the end of the day I know that I will somehow pull this off, even if I don´t get the perfect grade it´s not the end of the world. And I am lucky that I don´t have to worry about failing anything. I also want to still take time for one more thing: journalling and going outside. I have a feeling that I will need it more than ever during the next month.

Wow. It´s great that I have this outlet, really.

I hope that I will walk out of the exam hall and all 6 times be at least a little satisfied. I hope to make myself proud.

~ ♦️

[penissirius]

You getting Death threats from 'fans' - Hyung Line

Stray kids x male

ADDITIONAL INFORMATION: S/N- Ship name, it only pops up once but like its still important information- You're in a group with 4 other people under JYP. There is a face claim used in one or two of them, if you don't like it you can reimagine it. JYP allowed you to be public about your relationship because the Stray Kids dating ban was already lifted and you were dating before your group debuted.  

AUTHOR NOTE: So it kinda feel like this is more Hate then getting actual death threats from them. Theres like mentions of being told to k*ll yourself and like one actual death threat tho. I hope it's not too bad T_T I just want it to be gooood. I was also listening to my girl group playlist while writing this so I've been vibingggg. These are all a little longer because I have no life and I love to write endlessly. But

WARNINGS: Death threats, self harm, m/n being told to k*ll himself, cussing

FEMALE ALINGED PLEASE DNI <3

Bang Chan

He was sitting in his studio on vlive filming another episode of Chans Room. Jisung, M/ns best friend who had joined him earlier, looked up from his phone telling him that M/n was gonna be here in a few minutes. M/n also being a trainee under JYP made it easier to see his idol boyfriend. He had recently been put into a group that was very close to debuting but was receiving quite a bit of hate for always being seen around Stray Kids and being too close to Jisung and Chan. Neither his group, AXIZ, nor Stray Kids knew about the hate that M/n was receiving as he kept it to himself. None of the members had ever seen a rude comment or post about him seeing as he was always quick to delete them or their managers distracted them, that was until M/n walked into the studio. “M/n!”, Jisung said from his spot on the couch. “Hi guys”, said boy walked over giving Jisung a high five and Chan a kiss on the cheek before sitting down. A good 30 minutes went by of the 3 of them laughing and joking around with each other and Stay. M/n looked at his phone which had the vlive open so he could see comments and seemed to notice that the veiwer count was going up really fast suddenly making him a bit nervous. Chan noticed that some of the new people coming in were XYs and said hi to M/n’s groups' fandom. While scrolling through the comments M/n started finding more and more hate directed towards him and less nice comments and questions, he only hoped that the other 2 boys didn't notice. They had stopped messing around with tracks and decided to just answer questions and interact with both fandoms some minutes later.

M/nSuckz25: M/n you should kys

CHanLover97: M/n better leave chan alone or ill kill him myself instead

XYForLife: AXIS would be so much better without him lol

AXIS_FanAccount: OT4 honestly….

Chan had seen these comments stick out to him through all the thousands begging for his attention. “Wait. Hold on,” he said looking at the camera looking dead serious. Jisung and M/n looked up at him from where they were playing a game together. “I don’t know why all of a sudden there's so much hate in the comments but that's not okay and the fact that you guys call yourselves Stays and XYs but are telling M/n to kill himself is fucking not acceptable”, Chan was lowkey pissed at this point and M/n was panicking cause he never planned for anyone to find out. Jisung noticed and being the caring friend he is was also pissed at the fandoms. He took m/n out of the room to help calm him down while chan continued to go off of Stays and XYs. And boy was he doing that “M/n is the most amazing, kind, beautiful, and talented person I've ever met. He tries so hard and worked to earn the spot in AXIS that he has. I will always love and be with him so sorry to break any hopes you had of getting rid of him. Giving people death threats and telling them to kill themself is never acceptable. I'm very disappointed in all of you because no one even tried to defend him at all. I'm ending this here and I don't think ill be doing another one for a while.” Chan ended the live and then went to comfort his boyfriend. A couple days later JYP released a statement saying that the debut of AXIS was to be postponed until further notice seeing as other members and JYP himself were very upset with the fandoms and to give M/n some time.

Lee Know

Lee knows being the tsundere ish person he is probably found out by himself when you weren't around and wasn't too happy about it. Minho was scrolling through Instagram on his secret personal account liking some of M/ns photos and a few edits of AXIS that he had found. He got a notification that you're group account had just posted, he had nothing better to do went to go look at it. He saw a picture of the whole group laughing and sitting on the floor in one of the many practice rooms in the JYP building. He smiled as you looked so happy sitting and talking with your members, he definitely couldn't wait until they debuted and he could shower his boyfriend in more love and support than he already does. He was going to go comment something stupid and funny like he usually does on the group posts but stops when he looked at them taking a little minute to read some of them.

AXISOT4: 5 is an odd number for AXIS and honestly they should just get rid of M/n and make it better 

M/nHater: M/n is so horrible and doesn't deserve to be in AXIS honestly. Maybe he should cut a little deeper tonight lmao 

TeaPotGurl: The reason M/ns always wears long sleeves and pants is probably that he cuts. Not deep enough apparently XD

SKZFangirl: Hey M/n Wrist check?

IloveLeeMinho: M/n just kill yourself or someone will most definitely do it for you 

To say that Minho was pissed would be a huge understatement. He was fucking livid. He switched over to the group stray kids account making a post. 

TheRealStrayKids

Hey, Stay. This right here is the most beautiful and amazing person I've ever met and I'm asking Stays to go give him some love. The amount of hate that has been in the comments of his and AXIS's official posts is horrible. Telling someone to kill themself or giving them death threats is never okay and I'm disappointed in the XYs and Stays that have been giving him hate. Stop it. - Lee Minho 

M/ns#1Fan: #StopM/nHate

Your comment was liked by TheRealStrayKids

LinoxM/n: :( he doesn't deserve any of this hate 

StayXY: I don't understand why people would hate on him I mean look at his beautiful smile

After posting that he quickly got dressed in sweatpants and his shoes before exiting his dorm in a hurry quickly telling his members that he’d be back later. He speeds to the AXIS dorm where he knows M/n will be. Minho knocks on the door and it is immediately opened by Juno the leader of AXIS. “Oh Minho I'm glad you’re here, M/n won't leave his room, and he's been crying since earlier this morning when the group photos were posted.” Minho nodded hurriedly, “Yeah I saw the comments and came immediately”. “Well come in, he's in his room and I'm sure he'll be more than happy for you to here with him through this.” Although it took Minho a little while to convince M/n to open the door and let him in when he finally did, Lee know made sure to give M/n his hoodie and spend the rest of the night cuddling him and trying to make him feel better while the rest of AXIS (especially the Hyung line) addressed the hate towards their youngest. 

Changbin Seo

The whole group of Stray Kids was sitting in one of the practices rooms messing around on vlive. Some of them were dancing, others were joking and talking to the Stays, and a few were sitting on their phones. Changbin and Seungmin were sitting on one of the couches watching everyone mess around and scrolling. The lovely pig bunny boy was smiling looking through the pictures of M/n saved on his phone when he got a notification from the AXIS VLive account. 

[AXIS] starting live - Axis: Maknae line live! <3

He quickly connected his headphones clicking on the notification. He smiled wider when he saw the big smiles of M/n and Xiao as they said hello to all the XYs and people in the live. The stays noticed that his smile got bigger and a lot of people commented and cooed at him. “ ‘Changbin looks so happy and it's adorable’ ”, Felix looked back at him after reading that and smiled looking back at the camera, “yeah M/n probably texted him, they're so cute together”. Changbin was watching the live with Seungmin looking over his shoulder every once in a while. M/n and Xiao were playing around showing each other the tricks they can do and the different levels of flexibility they have. They were inside of one of the practice rooms not too far from the one skz is in. Eventually, they got tired and sat down to joke around and talk with their fandom. Changbin was smiling watching how happy M/n looked playing and talking with his fellow Manake. “I honestly don't know what I would've done if me and M/n didn't makeup back then.”, Xiao said smiling with his arm around M/n and messing up his hair. After he said that there were a lot of comments of confusion on what he meant by that so they decided to explain what happened. M/n swatted his Hyung by a few months' hand away before speaking, “When we were tiny little trainees like 2 years ago, me and Xiao used to butt heads a lot. We didn't get along and we used to make side comments to try to piss each other off whenever we had classes together.” They both laughed before Xiao started speaking, “The little brat used to piss me off a lot, he has a weird way of showing admiration and he jokes around a lot.” M/n swats his arm, “The big conflict we had was really over something stupid-” Xiao looked at him, “The last cookie was not stupid! I wanted it!” “I hadn't gotten one yet! And I bought you a better cookie afterward to apologize!”, M/n pouts looking at him. Changbin and Seungmin laughed at the adorable interaction between the two, Changbin had given him one of his headphones a little while after he noticed he was watching it in silence. After they had told the story the comments of the live blew up in reactions, some good but most bad. As they were reading the comments, Suengmin realized that most of the bad ones were directed at M/n. Eventually the two maknaes started to read the comments again. 

XiaoFangirl: Xiao and M/n got into an argument? It was probably M/n's fault cause Xiao is perfect.

AXIS4: Wow M/n was getting into arguments with the group before debut.

M/nsucks: That just proves he doesn't deserve to be in the group

AuthorIsOutOfNameIdeas: honesty he should just go back to cutting like he did when we were in middle school

CreativityZero: He should skip the cutting and just kill himself all together lol

M/n read these and got really quiet looking to the side. Xiao realized this and got really upset, turning the comments off. “If you guys can't say anything nice about M/n then you won't be able to comment at all. First of all we are human and we are gonna argue over little things sometimes. The argument was equally both of our faults and that was 2 years ago, the way we as a group interact has changed! M/n is and always will be the thing that holds this group together without him there would be no AXIS.”, Xiao was pissed and wanted to end the live but their manager wanted them to be on until a certain time. “Come on M/n, we can practice'', Xiao grabs M/n's arm and pulls him up and to the middle of the room. In the Skz practice room there is a visibly angry changbin and upset suengmin. The rest of the live they danced around and practiced but everyone could see that M/n wasn't all there. After it was over the amount of time that their manager wanted them to be live for Xiao was quick to come over to the camera out of breath and signing off. “Sorry but this will be the end of the live, i don't know when the next Makane live will be but it will probably not be in 2 days as scheduled.” Xiao was honestly annoyed and sorta pissed off at the fans but tried his best to keep a smile on his face. Xiao waved M/n, who was previously standing in front of the mirror still marking choreo, over to say goodbye even though he didn't want to. M/n quickly said goodbye with a fake bright smile and a wave before going back to the mirrors to continue working on the choreography. The live then ended with Xiao waving and M/n dancing in the background. Changbin got off the vlive app and texted M/n that he wants to see him when the SKZ live ends. For the rest of the live Changbin was seen angry as hell sloached with his arms crossed. Some stays made a comment on how hot he looked and the others kinda laughed it off and changed the topic when they saw how mad he was and the look Suengmin was giving them. 

*time skip because Changbins part is too long*

When the Stray kids' live finally ended Changbin was quick to grab his stuff and run to the practice room 3ish doors down from the one he was in, leaving Seungmin to explain to their leader and other members what had happened. When he bursted into the room he saw a very tired and very sweaty M/n who had gotten very spooked when Changbin came in suddenly while he was practicing. Changbin took one look at M/n and didn't say anything, just opening his arms for him. M/n didn't hesitate to run straight into his boyfriend's strong comforting arms. M/n started to cry and breakdown after over an hour of holding it all in and overworking himself. Changbin just held him and let him cry before picking him up and taking him over to the couches where he gave him all the comfort, love and reassurance M/n could ever need. Changbin spent the rest of the day and night in the AXIS dorm with M/n. The next day there were many posts and articles about the situation and JYP was quick to do something about it, giving AXIS a break to help M/n and say multiple things about the ongoing hate.

Hwang Hyunjin

Similar to Lee Know, M/n wasn’t present when the lovely Drama Llama found out about the hatred towards him. The hate has come from both XYs and Stays, and has been happening for the past few months. M/n never told anyone about all the hate not wanting to worry his members or upset the members of Stray Kids plus his boyfriend. He had planned to keep it a secret from them all as long as he could. Well that was until Hyunjin had found out about it by himself during one of his personal lives. Hyunjin was reading comments and answering, having fun as he usually does when someone asks about M/n. “ ‘How's you and M/n going?’ Oh! We’re doing good! He treats me so well and I love him so much!”, he smiles at the camera and a lot of stays cooed at how big his smile was and the amount of love you could see in his eyes. Hyunjin was going on telling some random story about M/n that he found cute and some of the wholesome stays were awwing along with him. He had finished his little story with a smile on his face reading the comments. He was answering more questions when a certain one stuck out to him.

S/NEndgame: How do you feel about all the hate M/n has been getting? 

Hyunjin looked at the camera very confused. “M/nnie is getting hate? Why didn't I know? Noone has told me and I haven't seen it!”, he got more and more upset the more he spoke. One stay had sent a link to a short video that someone made talking about the hate towards M/n. In said video there was a clip from one of M/n’s personal lives, where someone had asked why neither of groups had said anything about the hate or hinted towards knowing, they also added a side comment and said it probably because they hate M/n as well anyways. M/n’s response to that was, “They haven't said anything about it because they don't know. I delete all comments before the members can see them, don't ever bring it up, and the only people that know are my manager and Stray Kids’ Manager and they work together with me to make sure they don't find out so it's all good!”, M/n managed to say all that with a smile on his face and that was even more sad. It then skipped to another clip where a worried fan had asked why he didn't tell any of them especially Hyunjin, he responded with another smile “I don't want to worry all of my members when we’re so close to debut and that’ll just push us farther back, and Stray Kids has so many other things to worry about, I also don't wanna stress out Hyunjin I love him too much to do that to him! Not even JYP himself knows. I don't want to be a bother, I can deal with it”. By the end of the 3 minute video Hyunjin was slightly crying and very upset. He asked the Stays if they had known about this and the answer to him was alarming. A small percent of  Stays said that they didn't  know, another small percent did know but promised M/n never to tell but the other half of the Stays they had a different opinion. Comments upon comments fled into the small space of the phone screen, he could only catch and read so many of them but he knew the majority of them were hate towards M/n. 

FuckM/n: honestly he deserves the hate, it's not like he's actually talented.

IveTruelyRunOutOfNames: its said that M/n has started cutting again

ButtLicker23: hopefully he cuts deep enough to bleed out and die

Hater45: he should just leave the group and go die somewhere, no one would even care

Hyunjin started crying more by the time he read those comments and the hundreds of ones just like it. His first thought was to immediately check on his boyfriend and ask him thousands of questions. He knew though that the first thing he’d have to do was deal with this situation first. He looked at the camera with tears streaming down his face. “Why would you guys say that about M/n! He is amazing and talented and so handsome! I love him more than anything in the world! He is the reason I perform so well for you guys, the reason I learned to love myself so much, and the reason I am as happy as I am every single day! The fact that you would say that about any person is absolutely horrible! But you have the nerve to talk bad and wish death on the love of my life and talk about the anxiety and struggle he has been facing for the past few years! I truly don't understand how you could say that about anyone. But you have the nerve to hate on him and wish him more self-harm and then turn around and say I'm your bias?!” Hyunjin shook his head, willing himself to stop crying. “That's horrible, I dislike that very much. Either you guys apologize to him or stop calling yourself a stay. I can guarantee that the rest of Stray Kids and AXIS feel this way as well. I'm signing off now, don't expect another live or any bubble messages any time soon.” Hyunjin turned the live off and then ran out of his room down the hall into AXIS’ dorm straight into M/n's room. The other members thought nothing of it with this being sorta normal. M/n turned to the door when he saw him and smiled “hi baby!”. Hyunjin walked straight over to him and pulled his hoodie sleeve up looking at the various cuts sadly and starting to cry again. “Why didn't you tell me about this and the hate!” M/n looked away ashamed and shocked that he found out, “I didn't want to be a bother or a burden on you” Hyunjin immediately looked up at him kissing all over his face and down his neck and arms to accentuate every word he said, “Doll You Will Never Be A Burden Nor A Bother To me Ever” After placing one final kiss to his arms, the rest of the day was spent with the tall blonde patching up his boyfriends arms properly and clinging to him with the promise that they'd tell their CEO and both respective groups first thing in the morning about the issue on hand. 

AUTHORS NOTE: By the length of some of these you can clearly tell who my bias is and when my writer's block had finally left me T~T but This took me way longer to write than I'd like to admit. But it's finally done and I can post for the first time in awhile, i'm sorry this took so long but with school, thousands of doctor appointments and the drama I ended up getting caught in the middle of I had like no free time to write T_T and then my personal computer broke so now I’m stuck writing on my school computer all the time but I promise as soon as I come back from spring break I will find a good posting schedule.

[multifandomwhore-003]

Famous²

Pairing: JJ Maybank x female! OC

Summary: On a rather weird day that the Pogues pick up Kiara from school, they meet one of her friends who just happens to be an influencer from the island that kindly invites them to a party.

Genre(s): Fluff.

Warnings: None!

Gif credits to whom it belongs

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"Fuck you, Heyward," Carolina showed him her middle finger knowing it was his plan since she made the mistake of mentioning JJ was cute earlier that day. Without hesitation, the girl pulled JJ by his shirt and placed her lips on his. The blonde boy was surprised at first and felt a little nervous to be kissing his celebrity crush, but after a few seconds he wrapped her waist with his hands and everyone gasped. It felt natural, passionate, and also a bit hungry at the same time: she placed one of her hands around his neck which made the rest even more shocked. When they separated Carolina smiled.

"You're a good kisser, Blondie," she bit her bottom lip.

"You're not so bad yourself," JJ said with a cocky smile.

˙˚˙༓࿇༓˙˚˙

The phone rang for the fifth time that morning, Carolina groaned loudly and grabbed it from her counter.

"Hello?" she rubbed her eyes.

"Who is the boy?" Linda, her manager, almost yelled at her.

"What boy- What are you talking about?" Carolina got up.

"Are you gonna play dumb now? The blonde boy from last night," Linda sassed.

"Blonde blo-" JJ, " Wha- What about him?" the girl murmured fuck under her breath.

"You should be the one answering that question since you were the one who kissed him last night, didn't you?"

"How- How do you know about that?"

"Honey, the whole internet knows about that,"

Carolina fumed as she got downstairs.

"You should thank that to the truth and dare video that Manolo recorded, and the video Vanessa posted with that other boy were you can clearly see the two of you kissing on the back, we also got Becky's post with you in the background again from later on, and it turns out there's a video that you posted where he kissed your cheek, and then you deleted it minutes after posting it,"

"I- I don't really remember the last video," the girl tried to process all the information she that Linda gave her, "And wha- what do you suggest I should do?" she took a sip from her glass of water.

"You need to come clean, tell the world what happened and mention the whole story and also his name because they already figured out who he is,"

"No, I can't just put his name out there on the internet without his permission, I mean, until last night he had a pretty normal life, I can't- I can't do that to him,"

"But you have to," Linda persisted.

Carolina rubbed her forehead with now a dilemma if she didn't do it her followers would lose her trust and they would probably spam her about it, on the other hand, she would have to say goodbye to JJ because he was going to be probably the most hated guy on the internet only because they kissed. She had to make a choice.

"I- 'll talk to him, ok? Give me twenty minutes to talk to him,"

"Ok," Linda hung up.

The girl took a deep breath before she opened Instagram, the first thing on her feed was a couple of posts from her fan accounts on the news from last night, there was one particular account who posted a small and elaborated edit of her and JJ with the song Worth it by Fifth harmony and the caption said: Hottest (possible) couple of the internet, the video featured photos from her posts and also from JJ's. She smiled and liked the post and commented: The talent in this, I-. She then looked at the rest of the comments:

YASSSSS, they are that hot couple 🥵🥵🥵

They didn't have to snap that hard 🤯🥴

Endgame? ❤️

Who else is ready for them to be official?

She smiled and then blocked her phone, she grabbed her car keys and began to figure out what to say to the boy. When she got inside the car she stopped herself from turning the engine on.

"JJ, hey I wanted to talk to you about last night, you see-" she grimaced at her words, "Hey JJ, guess what? You're famous now!" she felt pathetic.

She pulled the phone out of her pocket and decided to call Kie.

"Hey Carolina, what's up?"

"Hi, Kie, hey um, do you happen to know where JJ lives?"

°•°•°•°

She knocked on the door with her sweaty hand.

"Who is it?" the blonde boy shouted.

"It's me, Carolina, "

He opened the door amazed by the girl's presence.

"Hey, um wha- what's up?"

"Can I come in, we- we need to talk, "

JJ stepped aside as the girl entered the Chateau.

"Is there something wrong?" JJ leaned against the closest wall.

"I- I don't know how to say this, or probably you already know this, have you seen your phone today?" she played with her hands.

"No, it's dead and we have no power, "

"Oh, okay, " she felt relieved for a second, she saw the boy feeling almost miserable because she knew exactly what would happen next, but at the end of the day, these were the type of sacrifices that you have to make the minute you become a public figure, " Look last night, a couple of videos and a photo got leaked of the two of us kissing, and well, we now seem to be internet's new sensation, "

"Holy, shit, " JJ played with his hair.

"My manager wants me to come clean and clear the situation even if that means saying who you are, " and also losing you, she thought, "But of course I can't do that against your will, and that's what I'm here for, if you want me to only just say what happened and never mention you is fine, or I could just tell everyone everything,"

JJ stared at her harshly, Carolina's senses finally slowed down in resignation. The room stayed in silence, JJ started to walk in a few circles still meditating his decision.

"Look, JJ I understand if-" Carolina just wanted for him to rip the band-aid off.

"How fast do you need me to answer?" JJ halted from his current movement.

Carolina looked at the ground, "As fast as possible," she brushed her hair with her fingers in a useless attempt to feel better.

"Do it," JJ spat as he walked towards her.

"What?" Carolina was caught off guard.

"Do it, say who I am,"

"JJ, I don't think you understand the consequences of this, I- I mean you have no clue of how- or who- I just- I mean, are you sure?" she frowned trying for him to say no.

"I'm sure," the boy crossed his arms.

"Ok, but I just need you to like really think of like-" she couldn't find the right words to convince him.

"Carolina, it's okay," JJ gave her a warm smirk.

"No, It's not okay because you don't comprehend the impact this is gonna have in your life,"

"That's true, but those kisses went both ways, right? Besides, I'm not stupid and I knew what I was getting involved the minute it happened, we all did, and now it's time for me to face the consequences of those actions. So yeah, I understand, and I'm allowing you to do so, I regret nothing from last night," JJ placed his hands on her shoulders.

"Okay," Carolina nodded," I should probably just go,"

"Yeah," JJ removed his hands.

Carolina walked out of the little house against every wish she had of staying. Almost immediately after she closed the door, Pope and John B walked out of their rooms finding JJ gazing at the door.

"Seriously dude?" Pope grimaced.

"What?" the blonde boy noticed his friend.

"You are the dumbest person I know," John B hit him.

"What was that for?" JJ hissed in pain.

"Dude, she took the time to ask for your permission on something she probably could've done without because she cares about you! She tried to convince you to not agreeing because she clearly wanted to protect you! Not every girl does that!" Pope screamed in annoyance.

"And you just stood there like an idiot watching her go when she obviously waited for you to say or do something!" John continued.

"Come on, man, that's Carolina Alexard I would never have a chance with her," JJ scratched his neck.

"Says the guy who spent hours of last night making out with her and who she just visited," Pope added with irony.

"So what? I should just run after her?" JJ questioned with sarcasm.

"Yeah!" John and Pope yelled simultaneously.

Someone knocked on the door. JJ pushed the boys out of the way to open the door, he opened his eyes widely.

"Ca- Carolina wha- what made you come back?" he stuttered.

"I think I left my phone," she removed the sunglasses from her eyes.

"Oh, it's right here," Pope spotted it at the top of the pullout and he gave it to her.

"Thanks, Pope, bye boys!" she waved at them before leaving.

"Bye!" the three waved back as JJ closed the door.

John B and Pope waited for JJ to realize.

"No, it's not gonna happen," JJ placed his hand inside of his pockets.

"If you don't get out of this house right now and go after your celebrity crush since you were twelve I swear to god I'll kill you before your dad does," John threaten him.

"It's not worth the shot!"

"But it is, just go or else you will never see her again!" Pope pushed him.

JJ looked at the door, and then moaned, he opened it rapidly and commenced to run towards the girl's car.

"Carolina, wait!"

The girl spun around.

When he reached her he knew he made a mistake, he had no clue what to say to her, "I- I um, I was just- wha- what are you, I- I don't know what are you doing tonight?" he tried to recover his breath.

The girl giggled, " Nothin' much, why?"

"I was wonderin' if you wanted to like, go out or something,"

"Yeah," she screamed on the inside, " I'll pick you up at seven,"

JJ pouted confused, "Why can't I pick you up?"

"Because you'll get lost again," Carolina opened her car door.

"I won't I promise," he swore with his right hand.

"Fine, see you at seven, Blondie," the girl gave him a little peck before entering the vehicle.

[mindwideopen]

I am, a born again giver. I’ve taken for waaaayyy too long. Hoarding, keeping, covetous behavior. Believe me, I’ve done it. But I’ve decided, I have been needy, and a taker. I have kept things, in my house, that I don’t use, that is energy that others could be using, for a long time. I’ve also withheld my love, to people in my relationships. I’m being honest, because it feels better to do it, and because, I’ve decided that it’s time for a change, for the whole of me.

The fact is, I’ve hidden, and withheld, my love from people I love, that I feel I’ve been hurt by. The hurt, is what caused, and causes my behavior in those cases. Ask anyone who knows me. I’m, a jerk. Well, that’s how I feel they feel. And I see that a lot, in my daily life. Jerk... asshole... fuckers... all of them. Well, the fact is, none of them, are that. I saw, what I felt. And that’s how it works. Fear vs. love, is a real thing. All emotions break down to either fear or love, and love, ain’t that.

Deciding to love, is not a job for the weak. Love gets a bad rap sometimes. “I love you”. Pussy... love is for chicks with dicks. You can’t possibly love. You’re a man. You have to be strong, and powerful, and show dominance over all others. Well, I have, and quite frankly, I hate having that kind of a penis.

Love is not a pussy action. It takes balls upon balls, to love. Or, as Betty white says, balls are weak, why not love like a pussy, cause it takes a good pounding. I’m paraphrasing, but that was the gist. Love, isn’t the dick move, it’s the best move you can make, and here’s why; love envelopes you, in power. The power of love, moves people to be, who they are. It allows the contrast to fade, and the love out shines all hate, and fear. Fear, is what holds us back from achieving the life we all desire. The lives all look different, cause what floats one of us may not do it for another, but ultimately the very same effect occurs. Happiness.

Happiness is relative, but the result of your feeling good, affects the whole of us all. The people who are happy, are more likely to love others, and treat people with respect and kindness. Seems pretty obvious, but we don’t tend to concentrate on creating that in our lives deliberately sometimes. The deliberate attention to loving ourselves, starts the chain of how the collective consciousness feels and acts, and how we feel and behave towards others, is the result. The fact is, only love, can save us all.

But love, is a lofty goal. It is. Love! Pft! So general. So stupid. Ok, I’ll love. Yeah, right. That will “save the world”. Whatever. Yep. That’s where it starts. With our perception toward love. So let’s try to define it. What is love to you? Maybe love is fast cars and hot women. Maybe love is a badass motorcycle on an empty highway going 88 mph. Or maybe love is a kitten, who cares? The point is, love, is a personal thing. But whatever does it for you, do that more often. Cause it will aid, in how we all treat one another, and feel about ourselves in the process. The 2 go hand in hand, really. The love, we feel, we give, and the love we see, we acknowledge to ourselves, as our own self worth.

Well, now I’m in the soup. Cause my son was trying to talk to me, and I got mad cause I was trying to type this post, and he wanted to talk. A lot. So, the loving thing to do? Whatever you feel, is good. So, are you feeling guilty like I am? If you are, go back and acknowledge your misstep. If not, continue your anger, the rest of the day pointed at him. Or, decide to let it all go, and act normally next time. All of these options, vaiid, but what feels the best? Well, I’m peeing right now as I type, but eventually, I’ll go back and apologize, and be cool with my boy, cause he’s pretty neat, and I dig having an open, and good relationship with him. Please hold, as I wipe, and do that. I’ll let you know how it turns out. Ok, the wiping went as expected, and my son and I, are cool. I apologized. Cause he comes first to me. That’s the way I choose to love, not for anyone else, but myself. Because loving my son, is my top priority, sometimes. And sometimes, all the time, I’m human. And I get aggravated that I’m not where I want to be in my life, and I’m not the best mom, but we try to stay vigilant as humans that are trying their best to be good parents and people to everyone in our lives. It’s a process, and we have our lives, to practice.

Life isn’t always the easiest to navigate. But, that’s a belief I have to overcome. It can be easy, if I think it is. My beliefs, dictate how I feel about things like that, myself, and others. The actions I decide to take are ruled by me. My moods, my emotions, who cut me off on the road, who screwed me over years ago, who talked shit about me and I found out about it. A lot of things in life affect the moods of us all. And when we interact, all is accounted for. “Oh yeah? Well I’m not taking your shit ever again! Fuck off!” “Fine! Oh, and I’ll take back my Pink Floyd album with David gilmour on there, and he’s hot, even though he’s in his mid 70s... whatever!” “Yeah, and give me back my copy of Aerosmith’s pump, cause you and I both know that steven Tyler had sex in an elevator, a lot, the whole band probably has!” “Oh yeah? Well I want my copy of peter Gabriel’s “I love to be loved” back, cause I do, and I don’t love you!” “Great, and ll take back my Nazareth’s love hurts, cause it fuckin does!” “Well, the indigo girls write about that love shit all the time, so it’s all mine now!” “Whatever, rem says “I am the everything” so I am, and “everybody hurts” so you can suck it, cause you hurt me! Asshole...” “Uh huh, right! I’m over this shit! So I’m gonna take back all of “the cure” on out of here, by deleting your ass, that is big, like sir mix a lots big butt song! I’m out!” (Other person sticks tongue out) scene.

Why am I an asshole, to myself? Why do I choose my “right tight assness” over loving someone and getting over my own shit? Cause of hurt. Cause of pain, cause of not being heard or appreciated for being myself. Well, all that is also valid, but who is in charge of how I feel? No one, but me. So how do I stop myself from being insulted by everyone’s ass behavior? By changing my perception of it. Well, I can’t. Cause it hurt, and really pissed me off. So wait a minute... I’m in charge of that shit! Right, so now what? Well, I decide to focus on something else for a bit, until I feel a little better. Yeah, but I still am thinking about that ass move! What a douche! Right, I’m right back to where I started. Thinking about the ass. So, now what? Well, be accepting in the moment. “Fuck them! Yeah! Jerks...” how is that energy working for you? Not at all. Right. Focus, is everything.

Is it easy at first? Fuck no! It’s terrible! It hurts and I’m mad and I hate and it’s everyone’s fault and they are all against me, and they’re happy and I’m not and the world isn’t fair and the gas prices are high and the taxes are too and I’m gonna get high or drink to numb and make myself balance out a bit. THAT’S how it starts. And that’s not where it ends. It ends, with everyone, losing their g. d. minds with misery and upset.

We are all interconnected. There is not one person, that isn’t in some way connected to another. Even the hermit in the forest by themselves, is connected to nature, which is connected to themselves, and everyone else. Our shared humanity, is what brings us together, whether we like it, or not. So why not become one? Because fear, rocks that boat, and HARD!

I’m not like them! They have NO F’N CLUE what I’ve been through, or the experiences I’ve had, or the love I’ve been denied! They’re this, or that, or not into what I’m into, or a different race, or gender, or socioeconomic class, or whatever, just NOT like me, so they can’t say SHIT! Yes, well, do you like pumpkin spice lattes? Wtf?! Pumpkin spice lattes? I’m talking to you about your uneducated ass talking to me about me, ok? And now you’re talking about pumpkin spice lattes. You’re stupid! Yes, I am, but do you like them? I don’t know... the hell with this conversation... ok. Well, if you do, here’s a Starbucks gift card for one. Maybe we can discuss how you feel over one. Um, no, cause you’ll never get me. I’m too different from you. Got it. Then which latte do you like, cause there’s a lot to choose from..

There’s a commonality between people that were missing in society today. Similarities run rampant around the world, but we seem to blow right past it sometimes, without a bat of an eyelash. The similarity, is love. We all need it. We all crave it; understanding, care, compassion, empathy. But do we give it freely? And do we give it, to ourselves?

Here’s how I give love to myself the best I can, and mind you, I’m no expert. Just sharing some observations here. I mean, I’m not educated. I’m still technically in my junior year of college. I only have an associates degree in liberal arts, not psychology. I’m not a very good example of what you would call, “a success” or even employed. So what do I know? THAT, is what I used to say to myself, in my head, a lot. Now, my internal monologue, all be it not perfect, is different. It’s, “hey Kari. Let’s do our best to love today. Oh shit, all I see that I’m getting from people is more hate. Ok, recognized and reconsidered. I don’t have to stay in this place in my mind, seeing all that hate. What can I do to jar myself out of it, and perceive more positively? Think the next best thought I can believe, fully. Ok, what’s that? How about, I’m a good person who does her best? I mean, it’s true. I try. Yes, cool. What can you do to take care of you today? Deodorant! Yes! How about a shower? Better! Ok.” and so on and so forth.

Love, is not always a grand gesture. And it’s a word we throw away often. Love is the small things we do, to get to the bigger things. That’s how energy works. Incrementally. We can’t go and sustain a surge of energy. I’m better! I’m healed! From feeling like shit? Really? Yes! All better! I’ll never feel that way again, Thank fuck, cause that way was ass! I mean, I was feeling like ass, but now, I’m better, cause those people are douches, and I’m not, so I feel better cause they’re out, and I’m alone without they’re energy... um, yeah. Well, I was feeling good until I triggered myself back with the thoughts of how they were douches, and mad... yes, im back in ass gulch again in my head. And I’ve been stuck in this line with the mask on at the Trader Joe’s now, (a store I usually love with a shit ton of friendly good people both working and shopping there but I can’t see that perception today, cause I’m mad, and I feel like shit) for way too long! We see, what we want to see. We experience, what we expect and believe. That’s the truth. Whether it’s true or not is irrelevant. The choices we make on how to feel about things, are. The choice to think the thoughts we think, about everything, every day is life.

Life is not all easy n shit. My belief. It’s hard to get money. Another belief. My cat pissed on my face this morning, so my life is over, not a belief I hold, as I don’t have a cat, cause allergic. But I do know, that I can piss on myself with my thoughts, and have the same effect. Affect, effect? The same in this case. What affects us, is the effects of us all.

Being human, just is. What we make of our collective human experience and how we treat others? Our choice completely. Decisions are based on our beliefs, and our beliefs are based on either love or fear. I have to go now, as my son is hungry. But I’ll leave you with this; I love you. I stand with you in love. Choose hate, which is fear, and I won’t. My son is listening to the song, “stand by me”. My promise to you is that I will stand by you, in love, if I decide to. Love is an emotion that I’m still working on too. I fall in and out of it. But the choice, is always to hop back on the love train, cause it’s taking me places I want to go. To happyville. ❤️

[episodechooseyourpregnant]

THE EPISODE STRIKE DISCOURSE

Sorry about the wait guys I’ve been so tired since I got off work, but here it is the entire sins of Episode laid out in front of you. There’s a lot of stuff to unpack, but you can read the basics at the end. 

- Sunny

Fair Warning

So, this is a long ass post with lot’s of detail regarding Episode Interactive guidelines and the current reason of the strike currently taking place on instagram. 

AKA: People hate episode and here’s why. 

If that doesn’t intrest you then skip this post. \/(0.0)\/

So what’s exactly happening?

Currently, the strike is taking place do to unfair treatment of the content guidelines set on Episode (Well, there’s a bit more detail than that, but that’s the basics of it). 

The guidelines in question are:

Crossovers between two different authors are no longer allowed.  For example: Bad Boy in Town and Zezzy Montero crossover episode would no longer be allowed. Another example: The Teenage Viligante and Matched would no longer fit the guidelines.

You are only allowed 5 punches per story. (No action genre here!)

Using Episode Assets to create custom content is no longer allowed.

There has also been some internal issues with enforcing these guidelines.

Featured Stories have been known to get away with stuff

Allegedly- INK authors have been recieving harsher enforment of the general episode community guidelines while Limelight authors who produce the same content are given the go. 

Popular Authors have also been known to get away with way more while smaller authors get dinged hard.

Episode Official Stories have broken the rules as well. (literally just wait...)

Pretty much all these issues came to a front when this post  (the original forum post is now deleted) was made in the forums on April 19th, 2019 by Mod Melani:

In short: this is basically saying crossovers are no longer permitted on episode because it infringes on copyright.

People were up in arms do to this being a massive change in the rules, and it could potentically effect a large population of already published stories. As people started to feel quite pissed with episode, this was posted by a popular Episode artist, @schittwriter on her story.

It basically goes like this:

Her first cover for her story Bad and Badder get’s approved:

but her second cover for her INK story gets rejected.

Here’s the kicker:

Schittepisode uploaded two OF THE SAME cover to be reviewed for the exact same story (The same story was made for LL and for INK). The Limelight cover  was approved and the rejected one was in INK. The email she recieved for the rejection of the INK cover stated that:

“Please adjust bra strap so it isn’t falling down her arm. Disrobing underwear in a sexual situation  breaks the Episode guidelines”

I asked her basically what happened and she replied by DM:

She’s absolutely right that it’s unfair. 

I haven’t seen the covers because she hasn’t released them, but from the way the DM sounds her the cover had two fully clothed people, but the girl was wearing a tank top with a loose bra strap.

It gets pretty laughable because we’ve seen what the romance section looks like. It’s also quite funny (hypocritical) that one of the most read stories on the platform, Chain Reaction by Miss MJ, has a cover that looks like this:

So, after these two massive bombshells of ‘injustice’ by the episode creators it lead instragram user @bukki.episode  (writer of ‘My Psycho’) to post the infamous ‘strike’ photo.

Sidenote: Is INK treated differently than LL?

Short Answer: Nah. 

Long answer: This is really an issue of the rules not being clear. Episode has stated before that INK is just old and outdated software that is hard to use. They switched to LL to produce content faster. They are obviously going to promote LL because that’s what they’ve been working on for ages. (not a style that they are never going to update again)

But, that doesn’t mean I can’t still hate LL and all it stands for

Read this for more on INK: https://forums.episodeinteractive.com/t/petition-more-ink/2325/122

More on the Guidelines

Basically, after I read about Schittwriters’ situation, I was actually wondering where in the guidelines state half of these things: Particuarly:

Does it say we can’t have disrobing in the Official Community Guidelines?

What are it’s rules on sexual situations?

Is the 5 punches per story rule real?

Is the crossover rule real?

Is using episode assets to create new backgrounds against the rules?

So, after some digging I realized that alot of these ‘new rules’ just flat out don’t exsist or have been miscontrude a bit. Not only that, but there is some SERIOUS miscommunication in the Episode review staff.

So, there’s two sets of guides we can look at: The one on the creator portal (the rules that are (should) be set in stone by Episode), and the guidelines that have been stated by the mods (Rules that have been stated by the mods in the forums, but not in the offical content guidelines). It’s hard to communicate with a large bunch of people who are running your site. It’s natural that rules will be kinda like a game of telephone, and that certain things will become subjective. So, I’m just gonna preface that because just because one mod makes a comment doesn’t make it automatically FACT. 

But here’s what the offical content guidelines in the portal on sexual situations:

“

If stories contain objectionable or offensive content, we may not be able to feature or host them on Episode. Stories must always be appropriate for readers ages 13 or older, which means content would be objectionable if it, among other things:

(...)

+ portrays adult themes, including pornographic content, nudity, or prostitution;

+  includes excessive use of profanity or sexually explicit phrases;

Censor Bar Use, Nudity, and Sexual Content:

Depiction of sex (or anything suggesting that sex is occurring at that moment) in any form, including but not limited to, gyrating bodies, oral sex, or moaning/groaning is not allowed.

 Explicit details of what is happening or has happened off-screen is also not allowed. 

Any nudity on cover art is strictly not allowed. 

Frontal nudity is allowed in a story if it is not excessive, only used in non-sexual situations, and always accompanied with censor bars or scenery to censor. 

Posterior nudity in a story is only allowed in a tasteful and non-sexual context. 

“

Reading these rules posted, there’s no rule stating that a bra strap or any sort of underwear can not be shown on a cover. I’m just a bit confused and where the line is because we have certain Episode employees approving some questionable covers like Chain Reaction’s, and covers like Schittwriters’s that are not being approved.

Is The Five Punch Per Story Rule Real?

No it’s not real. There’s no evidence or screenshots stating that this has ever been a rule.

The only source of evidence is a rumour that there was a screenshot of an episode employee telling a creator this rule on their instagram story. I can pretty much tell you that five punch rule is just wild rumour. 

But after further investigation, I found that the actual rule is FIVE PUNCHES PER SCENE. Five punches per scene is a lot different than five punches per story. You could end up with ten action scenes and five punches per scene, so in theory you could have fifty punches in one chapter to stay within guidelines.

Here’s that screenshot of an episode employee (I redacted for privacy) messaging @bukki.episode on her story:

Using Episode Assets to make Backgrounds / Overlays

This ‘new guideline’ basically states that you can no longer use Episode Official backgrounds or overlays to make new or original backgrounds.

Once again, this is also a rumor that’s not true. In the episode guidelines they say that Episode assets are for non-commercial use only. Now, if an episode user had used episode assets to make backgrounds and sell them- that’s against the rules. This rule is stated in the update on the forums.

“Our Terms of Service indicate that Episode characters, materials and platforms (forum, portal and app) are a free service, and the use of these characters and materials provided are solely for personal and non-commercial use. Selling art or images with Episode assets counts as commercial use. This includes edits of Episode characters, altered renders, and composites. Any art sold must be entirely original artwork and cannot use Episode’s art at all.”

Again, I’ve heard rumours that this rule has been enforced, but I didn’t find a screenshot or any source of this being true.

The Crossover Discourse

Now, this new rule has caused quite a bit of stink do to valid reasons brought up in the forums (I’ll get to that). Now, I’m not gonna post the comments but you can read the thread here if you wish.

The crossover rule basically says that do to copyright laws Episode can no longer allow crossovers because there is no way to prove both parties are consenting to crossovers. Episode makes it very clear that if you publish a story with Episode - you own it. 

“ Who owns my story? In a nutshell, you do! We can't sell the rights to your story to a movie or TV studio, make it into a book, or hire some new writer to write your story for you without your permission. You should review the Terms of Service, however, as we are licensed to promote your story and use it in advertising, among other things. We also own all the animations and art provided by the Episode platform, so you won't be able to take those with you. For more information, please read the Episode Terms of Service. “ 

source - (x)

Since people own the rights to their stories there adds the element copyright to anything people publish. Basically the Episode team is trying to think like this:

How can you prove on Episode that you aren’t stealing someone else’s work?

How can you prove that both parties are consenting to the crossover?

Mod Melani put this concern in her update on the original post:

“What if my friend gives me permission?

Even if your friend gives you permission, Episode has no way of tracking or enforcing this. Because of this, crossovers are not allowed on our platform. This is to ensure that your stories and characters don’t end up being misused! “

source (x)

I’ve heard rumours that there has been issues with stealing ideas, stories, characters from other authors, so this most likely to prevent stuff like that from happening. But, it seems a bit overkill to remove stories because of something that isn’t done with malicious intent. In fact, Episode should only respond to authors that want crossovers taken down, or authors that feel there is possible infringes in their copyright directly. Don’t throw out the whole carton just because there is a couple of bad eggs.

Another issue brought up with the crossover rule is the protection of stories that already have crossovers built into them. Many people brought up the fact that their favourite stories could be taken down because of this rule.

Mod Mel basically posted this:

“There is no deadline to remove stories that feature Episode-centric crossovers.

If authors would prefer to edit or archive these stories on their own schedule, rather than waiting for the possibility that we might ask them to do so in the future, they can do it whenever they want. The only thing that might happen to an author who has written a crossover story is IF we come across it, we may ask you to change or remove it.

We don’t want to “punish” authors who have previously written crossovers.

Authors should be concerned with not writing crossovers moving forward.

I hope this clears things up!”

source (x)

So...

Authors could in theory have their story removed if they did not know about the rule, or Episode could crack down on it before they had a chance to change it. One commenter brought up a good point that creators spend weeks coding crossovers or planning one- only to have it taken down.

Not only that, but these rules are a bit confusing...

We don’t want to punish authors, but we still might take down your story! :)

Episode has been known to take down stories without notice, so this could be a whole new can of worms to unpack.

Using Celebrity or Episode Author likenesses:

Melani3: 

This is a really good question. Based on our content guidelines (below), you also should avoid featuring other authors in your story, as they’re real people. The same guidelines I mentioned above for changes apply if you already have a story that features another author, but please keep this in mind going forward!

“In addition, by publishing your story, you agree that it does not include any content that infringes the intellectual property rights or rights of publicity or privacy of any third party. This may include using any of the following without permission:

any works of authorship of other parties, including excerpts or passages taken from literary works, television or film; any trademarks or references to corporate or business names; or any references to real persons or places.”

source (x)

Episode has also started to enforce no longer using celebrity or episode authors likenesses on the platform. 

I think this issue also stems from the issue of concsent. I think the Episode Team is worried about being liable for slander or online bullying, so that’s why author likenesses will be prohibited.

As for the celebrity likenesses, it’s the same issue of slander and consent. Episode can use the Dolon Twins, Demi Lavato, PPL, because they bought the rights and arranged contracts.

However, that basically means stories like Pregnant with James Charles’ Baby will be removed... (oh god, oh god, oh gOd, it’s already been removed....)

Episode gives Special Treatment (what else is new?)

*Without a doubt, Episode does not enforce their guidelines properly.*

I’m usually a pretty fair person, but Episode totally cherry-pick their rules. They have no concrete set rules, and most of the rules that are enforced are subjective. They need to state exactly what is and what isn’t allowed. I’ve seen and heard of small authors getting their stories removed without notice for swearing, but large authors with massive fallowings have never had to change due to the rules. I’ve also seen featured stories and episode official stories stay break they damn rules as well.

For example: 

Sore Loser stayed up for a longer than it needed to (+All of Noob Loop’s story)

Pregnant by My Student is still top 10 of most viewed stories

(If I remember correctly) Toriah had her story removed / repremanded for excessive swearing???

No rules seem to apply to Gang Leader stories

As much as I love her, Kayla Sloan’s ‘War Dogs’ could promote excessive violence & ‘Adrenaline’ by Evil Ebonni & ‘I Despise You’ by Costa could as well, so why aren’t they removed??.. oh yeah they’re popular :/

Sex scenes are legit all over episode and they are the reason this company is still in business

In My Bed?! was an Episode Official story.

The Bad Boy Stole My Bra has so much sexual nonsense I mean c’mon

POSTIVELY PRINCESS HAS A CROSSOVER IN IT! ROYAL BABY MAKES A CAMEO AND HAS A PLOTLINE

Faking Death has sexual nonsense in it

FORBIDDEN LOVE (AKA THE NAZI STORY) IS STILL UP

Body Tangle 

Off Limits (may I say more...)

Also this:

^ Literally a direct rule violation!

Episode’s Response

So that’s basically all there is to it. Hopefully things will become more clear in the next couple of months, but I highly doubt it...

TLDR; Episode published new guidelines stated that crossover episodes are no longer allowed, a rule with only 5 punches per chapter, and background and assets are no longer allowed. People were super up in arms because Episode has been know to remove stories without warning, so crossovers could possible discontinue a whole bunch of stories. Not only that, but a Episode Creator posted screenshots of her cover for her Limelight Story being accepted, but her INK cover being rejected due to a ‘bra strap’. It madeit seem that INK was being unfairly treated agaisnt LL. People started going strike for those reasons. However, the backround issue and 5 punches per chapter issues were just false rumors. Episode responded, but it’s clear that most of their guidelines are bullshit and there is special treatment going on. We’ll see how the guidelines are written these next couple of days.

[caroline18mars]

A Man On Fire - Chapter 44

“Don't ever do this to me again, because I don't know if I would survive” was the last thing she heard him whisper before sleep finally overpowered her, he just heard her sigh the cutest sigh in reply and then seconds later her deep, soft breathing, hopefully that hangover wasn't gonna be too painful in the morning. His eyes became heavy too, finally he could give in to this motherfucker of a jetlag that had been stalking him all evening, his adrenalin constantly pumping through his veins for hours had worn him out completely, she was safe, so was he, he had more than he could've asked for with her head resting on his chest and her body firmly glued to his, his eyes obeyed his mind and fell shut, let go, give in..the moon threw its' mysterious veil over their exhausted bodies at the closing of this weird, dramatic day. Come on, woman, pick up, where the hell are you? Surely that prick must have left hours ago, knowing you, he's probably being carried onto a plane, crippled or kicked black and blue because you're the wildest cat I know. “..'llo?”, what? it was fuckin' 7AM and that nitwit answered her phone with a sleepy voice? Fuckfuckfuck! “Jared?..hey! uhm, I was just checking up on Harper, is she ok? I was so worried about  her when you carried her out of the club..” his voice like honeygold syrup while he kicked the wall in frustration. “Sean..just a second” Jared reluctantly pulled his arm from under her but stopped when she started to stir, nonono don't move, only when she was completely still again, he whispered in the phone “Sean, I can't talk right now..she's ok..really..she's sleeping now and I don't want to wake her, I 'll call you later, ok?”. Sean heard the dry click in his ears, what the actual fuck? Oh she's sleeping, blablabla, she's probably exhausted from the hard fucking you gave her, bweeghh, his stomach squeezed uncomfortably together, she was his and he would get her..eventually..one lost battle wouldn't make him lose the war. “Who..phone..what time is it?..owww” Coco put her hands on top of her head and closed her eyes in pain “owww, my head..”, Jared groaned a little, she was awake, that stupid fucker had woken her, “it was Sean..checking up on you..here..” he turned to the nightstand and picked up the glass of water and a tablet. “I thought you might feel like you do this morning, so here, take that and go back to sleep” he handed her some paracetamol and the glass. She pushed the medicine between her lips and quickly swallowed it before she put her head back down on the pillow, “better already” she smiled carefully up at Jared, “good, I'm glad” he slowly twirled a strand of hair between his fingers and let his lips caress her aching forehead. “Will you just..?” her hand reached for his head and pushed it back down on the pillow as well, stop that Leto “thanks, I was getting a bit dizzy”, he shuffled his pillow a little closer until it bumped against hers, “you're..breathtaking” there was such an honesty in his eyes that she almost believed him. “Calm down, Leto, flattery is not gonna get you anywhere..that's not what it's gonna take, that is not what I need” she whispered “I don't need to hear all that beauty bullshit..that would be selling me short, like all I am is a pretty face to you, nothing more..I mean, think about it, just because you're very easy on the eye, doesn't make you any less of a bastard”.

Ok, time to face the music “true..” he squinted his eyes a little, indicating to her that her words made impact “I just can't take back what I said, can I? It was stupid and totally uncalled for, I wish you would believe me..when you put that knife into that painting yesterday, I felt it physically..I know that sounds ridiculous but I think you're the most talented person I've ever met”. Yeah sure, whatever, she rolled her eyes “the most talented person with absolutely no career.. pathetic? Was that the word you used to describe me?” she huffed but he stopped her from rolling over on her back again. “Don't, Harper..come on, you seem to forget that your paintings was what drew me to you, I didn't even know what you looked like and I couldn't care less, I was just so blown away by your work that I just needed to get in touch with you and buy something, which I never received by the way..” he smiled. She shot up and jumped from the bed, rummaging through some paintings and then returned to the bed “here, all yours” she pushed the painting in his hands “nobody else wants them”. He took the painting and shook his head “they just haven't seen it yet, hang on” he put the painting on the nightstand and took a picture, fidgeting around on his phone immediately after, “what are you doing?” she frowned, “I'm showing it to the world” he grinned as he pushed down on the screen “there! On instagram, facebook, and Twitter” he showed the picture to her, “what? But..I don't want..” she stammered, “too late, I'm not deleting it, it's high time the world sees what a talented painter you are..oh look, the first likes are flooding in..soon you'll be the most famous one of us two”. Harper snatched the phone out of his hands, oh god, he was right, that heart thingy popped up every 2 seconds “what the..?” she breathed as he pulled her between his legs, her back resting against his chest “your career is about to skyrocket, that's what” he kissed the side of her head. “How do I know they're doing it for my work and not because you put something on social media?” she didn't understand much of how social media worked, so far she had managed to stay far away from it after all the horror stories about stalking and screenzombies she had heard, artificial friendships, artificial lifestyles, filters, and all that crap. “Well, you can never be a 100% sure I guess, but it's all about the tags right? #artist #painter #art #HarperCocoRobianoDarby “loveofmylife #talentedasfuck #artsavestheworld #girlfriend #love #lover #mywoman” he rattled with a huge smile “look at all those comments! 'wow Jared, she's so talented', 'it's breathtaking, can we see some more work?', 'is it for sale?', 'I have a galery and want to exhibit her work, where can I contact her?”. Dumbfounded she stared at all the messages on the screen as he slowly scrolled through them “I guess you have your answer right there, it's all about you, not about me, you kept your work hidden for far too long” he pushed a kiss in her hair, “huh? You posted it only a couple of minutes ago..so this is social media..it's scary” she stammered while her eyes whizzed over the screen. “No, it's not, it can be fantastic, like right now..in just a few clicks you're famous, people keep asking to see more of your work, look..you keep saying that I'm only trying to flatter you, but this is proof that it's not flattery but the truth, if others are seeing and saying it too”. He felt her go to jelly in his arms while she just stared and stared, “you were right..and your parents are wrong, they always were..wrong not to see and support all that amazing talent their daughter has, wrong because they are too blind and jealous of their own child”.

Harper finally took her eyes off the screen and turned to look at him over her shoulder “and you? What about you?” she whispered, “Me? I was wrong to say all I said about your career, I still don't know why I said it, it must be to do with jealousy as well..jealous because you're gonna have a bigger and better career than I have or could ever have and you did it all with your own talent, which is something I can't always say about myself” his hand caressed her cheek, pushing a kiss on the tip of her nose. What he said about her parents made her pulse race “I want to believe you..I really do, but jealous? My parents? Of me? Why would they be? They're rich diplomats, and their kids need to follow in their footsteps and be all perfect and conservative, not throw some paint around and..”, he immediately stopped her “exactly..but they have no power or control over you, they've probably never had..and that's something they can't stand..I know, because I talked to them after you had left..I called your Dad and..well, I gave them my honest opinion on whose fault it was that there's such bad blood between the two of you”. Harper's eyes grew wide as saucers, had he really done that or was he just saying that to get back into her good books? It wasn't exactly like she could call or contact them and check! “oh..and what did he say?” she raised her eyebrows, “well..ok so I should probably say that I lost my patience and basically called him a cold, heartless idiot if he denies his amazing, talented, wonderful, creative, perfect child just because she follows her dreams and her heart” he scrunched up his nose “I may or may not have said bastard instead of idiot though..hmm, guess that won't score me any points and I can kiss my invitation to the next family barbecue most definitely goodbye, but fuck that! Someone needed to tell him what was up”. He watched her nostrils flare a little while she stared at him with those big, amazing chocolate eyes of hers, oh god no..she wasn't gonna cry, was she? Coco just couldn't hold back any longer and she let her muffled snigger burst out into a hiccuping laughter. She rolled over the mattress clutching her chest “you didn't, you so didn't” she snickered and flapped her eyelashes at him, oh god woman, drive me completely crazy, why don't you? “I did..I'm sorry” there was a sudden shift in energy when her eyes drilled into his looking up at him. “No apologies needed, none whatsoever..” she whispered, he leaned in, he had to, he just was drawn to her like gravity, before she could do or say anything, his lips crashed down on hers.

Demanding, hot, apologetic, reassuring, this kiss was all of the above but most of all it was..needed, it was time to bury the hatchet, she needed to be with this weirdo, this was THE ONE, she didn't even know what that actually was supposed to feel like, but she just felt it in every fibre of her being. Jared felt her deepen the kiss, thank god, please let this war between her and me be over, I don't want to fight anymore, what she did next, had his skin on fire in a split second. Her hand reached for his face, her warm hand caressing his cheek, only to venture southbound over his chest, their lips still glued together when he felt her hands sneaking into his underwear, cupping the perfect round globes of his butt. Reluctantly he disconnected the kiss and closed his eyes, his face still hovering over hers, “what? What is it?” she tapped the tip of his nose to get his attention, what? He didn't want this? “nothing..it's just..” he didn't even open his eyes, he leaned his head back, “it's just what? Jared” she asked anxiously, goddammit..men! Always so unpredictable. When he felt her shift uncomfortably underneath him, he finally looked at her “I don't want you to do anything you're not ready for yet..I just know that if we keep going like this, I'm not gonna be able to stop..” he breathed. Sweet, stupid, considerate, at times unbearably romantic Jared..”who said anything about stopping? I just want this pent-up frustration and anger fucked out of me, and since I can't do that on my own, you'll need to get to work, Leto, and fast before I change my mind” Harper's hands urgently traced down his shoulders, his chest, his abs, her fingers hooking behind the front of his underwear whilst she bit her lip, and looked up at him with those not so innocent bambi eyes. “God, you're not exactly a hopeless romantic, are you? But that's ok, because I prefer my sex-crazed kitten” he grinned, his mouth got to work and bit her shoulder, pulling the strap of her bra down with his teeth, seconds later his warm, hot tongue circled around her hard nipple, touchdown! God yes! She sighed in bliss while her hands ran through his long hair.

[sarohara]

You: hey

Stranger: Yo

You: yoo

Stranger: Did you vige biden

Stranger: Vote* lol

You: actually

You: i'm not even from US ahahah i just put biden...like randomly

You: but did u?

Stranger: OH damn

Stranger: Yes i did!

Stranger: I hope

Stranger: He wins

You: Oh love u then

Stranger: Lmao love you too

You: AHAHAH i hope so as well

Stranger: Aye

Stranger: Where you from

You: Brazil

You: wbu?

Stranger: Usa

You: OH YEA

Stranger: Lol

You: AAHAHAH i forgot about that

You: alzheimer u know

Stranger: xD

Stranger: Huh?

You: Nah i'm jk, sry

Stranger: Oh

You: so, whats ur name? if u don't mind, sure

Stranger: Dave, hbu

You: Dave, nice name

You: I'm Sarah

Stranger: Oh thats a nice name as well

You: thankss :)

Stranger: Np!

You: well, wyd here Dave?

Stranger: Just asking random ppl if they have voted biden or nah

Stranger: Hbu

You: Ohhh i see

You: Well, i'm just bored..

Stranger: Ohh!

You: so..killing time talking to weirdos

Stranger: Haha

You: freackin weirdos, for real

Stranger: So how is the life in Brazil

Stranger: Is covid going away there?

You: Like, in general? Well, it's good, i love it :) but covid..idk much about the situation now, i hope stable

Stranger: Awesome

You: But not going away yet, sadly

You: Wbu us?

Stranger: Ikr

Stranger: Its getting worse here

Stranger: Sadly

You: Really? That sucks

Stranger: Just waiting for the vaccine

You: Yeaaaa, everybody, trust me lol

Stranger: XD

Stranger: I hope we get soon!

You: Yea dude, it's have been pretty hard to deal, so yea, absolutely

Stranger: Well, for some reason I’m angry on China, they didnt warn us about the covid

You: Wdym warn?

Stranger: Nvm lol

You: like, in the beginning?

Stranger: They didnt warn other countries about the pandemic

Stranger: Ye kinda

You: Yeaaaa, but what can we do, right?

Stranger: Maybe it was their bio weapon haha

Stranger: I’m just guessing.

You: AHAHAHAH funny

You: But

You: i don't think so

You: it's a backfire

Stranger: There has been several videos about it on YouTube, they saying it is

You: Yea?

You: Damn then

Stranger: Ye I remember seeing one video, in which they said the virus was leaked from a lab in Wuhan

You: Yeaaa, ik that, it would make sense tho... but nah, idk...

Stranger: Lol

You: rumors

Stranger: Haha

You: I hope..

You: ahahah

Stranger: Well, why didnt it spread in other parts of china? Why only Wuhan??

Stranger: Whereas, in other countries it has spread almost everywhere lol

Stranger: I guess, it was all planned by chinese ppl lol

You: Do u spend time thinking about it? Seems sick ahahahah

Stranger: XD

You: i'm just messing with u, sure lol

Stranger: I was just doing research why would it spread only in wuhan city in china and why not other parts XD

Stranger: And wave 2 also they didnt get much cases in Wuhan

Stranger: Thats little bit weird

Stranger: They are hiding something from us! XD

You: Little bit? That's completely weird and crazy dude

You: AHAHHAHA sure they're

Stranger: Ik lol

You: lets figure out huh

Stranger: Sure XD

You: ahahhahah yea

Stranger: So sup

You: Nm, just chillin...and listening to music

Stranger: Nice!

You: Boring, i would say lol

You: wbu?

Stranger: I’m bored and hungry xD

You: Let's hang out and eat something then lol

You: I feel u

Stranger: I wish we could

You: It would be funny lol

You: jk jk

Stranger: Why lmao

You: Why what?

You: don't say "nvm"

Stranger: Why would it be funny?

Stranger: Lol

Stranger: I didnt

You: Oh don't u think would be funny?

Stranger: We can go somewhere virtually XD

You: We're now

You: Omegle

Stranger: Oh yeah

Stranger: Thats right!

You: Yea, ikr lol

Stranger: Lol

You: were u typing something?

Stranger: i was but i deleted lol i didnt know what to type

You: Oh gotcha u

You: it's ok

You: well

You: wyd now besides nothing?

Stranger: Chilling on the couch

Stranger: Hbu

You: Comfy?

Stranger: Very!

You: That's good dude...

You: Well, i'm eating now

Stranger: Haha

Stranger: What you eating?

You: Pasta :)

Stranger: Yum

Stranger: I’m hungry now

You: Poor u :(

You: lol

Stranger: How old are you?

You: Ohhh do u wanna guess?

Stranger: 19?

You: Nope

Stranger: 18?

You: Down...

Stranger: 16?

You: Yea!!

You: wbu?

You: lemme guesss

Stranger: Alright lol i was gonna type and then i saw you saying lemme guess

You: I'm glad you didn't say ahahahah

Stranger: Haha

You: Umm, 19?

You: 18

You: 20?

Stranger: Wow you were right on your first guess

Stranger: How did you guess?

You: Ohhh i'm good at thisss!!!

Stranger: Lol

Stranger: I’m bad at guessing

You: Nah...yea maybe, kinda

You: lol

Stranger: Lol

You: So..idk

Stranger: So

Stranger: What if

Stranger: Trump wins?

You: Idk dude...fuck trump!!!

Stranger: Ikr xD

Stranger: Fuck him

Stranger: He is like a clown to me

You: well, u know what, it would be great for my country, bc Bolsonarois his "friend"

Stranger: Oh

You: Bolsonaro is*

You: AHAHHA but fuck Bolsonaro as well

Stranger: Is he president of your country?

You: Yeaa, i'm sry, i forgot to say that

Stranger: Ahh

Stranger: Dont be sorry

Stranger: Np!!

Stranger: You are the first person who I chatted for a pretty long time here lmao

Stranger: Others would just leave

Stranger: 😂

You: Ohh that's rlly cool 😂 i guess

Stranger: Ikr

You: Well, but why would the others just leave?

You: Like ur rly cool

Stranger: Idk lol

Stranger: Haha you are cool too

You: Sometimes 😂

Stranger: Same!

You: Nah shut up😂

Stranger: I’m serious

Stranger: Tho

Stranger: !

You: Really? well, i mean

Stranger: Yesss!!!

You: It doesn't seem like huh

Stranger: I feel like

Stranger: Eatin

Stranger: Pizza

Stranger: Make me

Stranger: Some

You: Nooooo

Stranger: Yessss!

Stranger: You are

Stranger: My super chef

You: Okay, there we go

Stranger: Ik you make pizzas in 2 mins

Stranger: Jk

You: I'm soooo chef 😂 u don't even know

Stranger: You are ik that

Stranger: You make so yummy dishes

Stranger: Yum yum 😋

You: Yea for sure!! 😂

Stranger: Not even kidding!

You: Yeaaa, you bet 😂

Stranger: Yessss!

You: Yaaaasss

Stranger: Yassssss

You: Damn, we're so unoccupied 😂

Stranger: Ikr lol

You: hey, hold on

Stranger: Oh wait

Stranger: I read that wrong!!!

You: i'll show u a song

You: wait what

You: HAHAHAHAH

Stranger: Lmao

Stranger: Okay!! Go ahead and show

Stranger: Oh wait you mean tell?

Stranger: You cant show here

Stranger: Sadly

You: yeaaa, how did u read?

You: No, i can, just hold on

Stranger: Oh well i read by my eyes

Stranger: How?

You: oh no kidding!! by your eyes? damn, really!! wow

You: lmao

Stranger: 😂😂😂

You: Oke brb

Stranger: Sure

Stranger: Tyt

You: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mTTB90p23qo

Stranger: Oh yeah

Stranger: You can

Stranger: Paste the link

Stranger: I totally forgot!

You: Yea i can 😂

Stranger: Yeahhhhh!

Stranger: I’m a noob

You: Yea, ur so noob 😂

You: Poor u

Stranger: Lmao

You: lucky u have me

You: 😂

You: jk

Stranger: Soooooo lucky

Stranger: So damn licky

Stranger: Lucky*

Stranger: Ik

Stranger: That

You: YEA, IKR

Stranger: Yassss!

You: So...?

Stranger: So what else

Stranger: Lol

You: the song...

Stranger: I’m gonna listen to it later

You: Oh yea, sure

Stranger: I’ve saved dw

You: oh alright

Stranger: Anyways

Stranger: Wyd now

You: Guess

You: the same as before

Stranger: Listening to music???

You: Yea, genius

Stranger: Eating?????

Stranger: Bored?????

You: Bothhhh

Stranger: Ohhh

Stranger: Fun

Stranger: How did you discover omegle lol

You: Youtube videos 😂

You: How did u?

Stranger: Lmao

Stranger: Well

Stranger: I saw

Stranger: My friend

Stranger: Posting weird ss in some group

Stranger: XD

You: Jeeez 😂

You: hey give me a second

Stranger: Ikr 😂

Stranger: Aight

You: (I went to get a glass of water)

Stranger: Oh nice

You: You were curious and came here huh funny 😂

Stranger: Lol

You: Just messing w/ u

Stranger: Ik

You: Good

You: well, what time is it?

Stranger: 3:43pm

You: Oh really? damn I thought it would be a bit later

Stranger: What time is it there?

You: 6:45

You: pm, sure

Stranger: Ohhhh

Stranger: Almost dinner time!

You: Yea, I wouldn't wake up that early 😂

Stranger: XD

You: Almost? Already dinner

Stranger: Lol i have at 7:30

Stranger: 7:30ish

Stranger: Depends

Stranger: Sometimes little early!

You: I have any time 😂

Stranger: Lmao

Stranger: That’s bad

You: it depends

You: but yea

Stranger: Yeahhh!

You: don't judgeee

Stranger: What grade are you in

Stranger: Sure for what

Stranger: XD

Stranger: I never judge anyone!!!

You: Oh grade, um to be specific, i'll finish last year so..

Stranger: 12th?

You: Yea, exactly

Stranger: Oh nice!!

You: actually idk, the system is different here...but yea i think so

Stranger: Ahh

You: Yeaa

Stranger: I’m

Stranger: Bored

You: No kidding!!

Stranger: Yessss!

You: how does it feel? lol

Stranger: Feels

Stranger: Really

You: Bored

Stranger: Bad lmao

You: AHAHAHHA

You: Yea ikr

Stranger: And bored lol

Stranger: 🙌🏻

You: Do u use netflix? randomly

Stranger: Nah

Stranger: No time for it

Stranger: Hbu

You: No time for it? I thought u were bored

You: What do u do? Busy guy

Stranger: Tbh

Stranger: I dont watch nay tv show lol

You: (and yes, I use it a lot lol)

Stranger: Oh what do you watch?

You: Movies...Series...

Stranger: Well, i spend my time on YouTube most of the time

Stranger: When I’m bored

Stranger: Or i just play games lol

You: well, u know tv shows burns neurons, it’s good that you don’t even watch lol

Stranger: XD

You: Games? What games? just asking bc i don't play at all lol

Stranger: Call of duty most of the time

Stranger: Cs:go

Stranger: Sometimes

You: Oh that's good, i guess

You: I'll pretend I know what it is

Stranger: Lmao

Stranger: Anyways i gtg nice talking to ya

[lil-creatorwritings]

Mind if I ask the "Fic Writer Ask Game" for questions number 5, 9, 28 and 35? 💕✨ Hope you are doing well!

Hi! Yeah sure, I’d love to answer questions! I’m doing okay and I hope you are too~ (whispers) You can ask more if you want to, haha!

5. What are your fanfic pet peeves? Do they have a huge effect on whether or not you decide to read something? Hm. I think my highest pet peeves are the Y/N thing and weird formatting. I suppose the latter is very subjective, but I’ve seen fics before where it was just a block of text? Like there’s no spacing between paragraphs and dialogues. I’m not sure if it was an error in posting (like when your formatting doesn’t translate when you post) or something intentional, but it makes it difficult for me to read. I guess they do have a huge impact since I actively stay away from Y/N fics. This is just a personal preference of mine and has no bearing on fic writers who use Y/N. I respect them in using whatever perspective they prefer to express their ideas, but simply put, it just isn’t for me. So there’s no reason for me to go about reading them when I know I don’t like it. It isn’t fair to me, the writer and their fic.

9. Tag 3 fic writers you think are underrated/unknown in the fandom/fanfiction community. Oh gosh. Do I have to? I don’t want to start some sort of war in the replies! I’m gonna have to pass on this! *bow*

28. How do you deal with writing pressure (ie: pressure to update, negative comments, deadlines, etc)? Honestly? Poorly, haha! I never got to finish my Kinktober 2019 and currently, I’m still working on the Summer of Smut Challenge and am way behind on these Napoleon Birthday Prompts. I’m really bad with deadlines, I really am. I think it’s also because I don’t have a series that I’m working on. If you’ll notice, all of my fics are one-shots. Even those with sequels, each of them can technically be read as one-shot. Also I don’t do commission work (I don’t think anyone would apply) so I don’t have any hard deadlines to reach!

For the negative comments, I’ve received one (it’s not in the realm of “your fic is trash and awful” sort) and honestly, I just shrugged it off. I’ll admit that it did hurt when I first saw it (to the point that it made me hate what I wrote and considered deleting it, but for reasons, I couldn’t). But in the end, I’m the only one who’s losing if I let the comment live rent free in my head even if other people tell me that it was a great piece. I also do not look at that fic anymore so that I don’t remember. Besides, I could use the time fretting over that one thing and use it for something else, like making more fics!

35. How much has writing fic changed your life? Well it hasn’t done a 360 on my life, but it’s definitely had a degree of impact, specifically due to otome fics. I technically started writing at the tender age of 12 (oh, I was foolish but sincere, knowing so little yet wanting to express my ideas) but it was mostly one sided in that I would post but not have a community for it. I fell out of writing eventually because it didn’t make me happy like I initially thought it would and I soon lost interest. But when I started writing for otome, it led me to a community that I could get involved with. I got into a writing group, I joined servers to meet other people on the internet who shared my love for otome, I made friends who I can share fic ideas with or spazz about our favorite 2d man (or better yet, discuss kinks with them hahahaha) and not be judged for it because we’re all in the same boat. It rekindled my love for writing and coming up with new and creative ideas to tell a story or express my thoughts. It gave me the confidence to actually start writing AND posting them into the internet void! Who would have thought, right?! Surely not the 15 year old me who gave up on writing for years. So yeah, while writing fics hasn’t made me a billionaire, it’s definitely enriched my life.

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