#this is definitely going to become a one/twoshot. i think the second part will be from lwj's pov but i probably won't write it for a while

[gentil-minou]

Xiantober Day 10 - Fanartist!Xian

WlW Wangxian Week Day 2 - Queen for a Day @wlwangxianweek

NSFW (masturbation, body worship, thirsting over your own art)

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The email sat in her inbox untouched for days, heavy and daunting, the sender's address highlighted and glaring at her. It arrested her breath every time her cursor hovered over the unopened message.

Wei Ying has been creating fanart for years, and recently her clay sculptures have achieved widespread recognition for their level of detail and stunning paintwork. It's not uncommon for her to get emails asking to commission her.

But not all of those emails are sent from famed cosplayer Hanguang-jun's official email address, titled "Commission Request" in bold unassuming font that might as well be plastered on a neon sign for the way Wei Ying can't look away at all.

Hanguang-jun wants to commission Wei Ying for a tabletop sculpture to scale of her latest elven cosplay. She's willing to pay generously for Wei Ying's time and labor, well above her usual rates. She has a small list of specifications and offers to meet one on one for measurements.

How can Wei Ying explaing to HGJ, the queen of cosplay herself, that she doesn't actually need her measurements because she's spent the last few years memorizing her body by sight in all the the thousands of elegant cosplay photos HGJ posts on a weekly basis.

What would HGJ think if she knew the entire reason Wei Ying is lauded as one of the premier up and coming sculptors of her generation is because she's spent years honing her craft for the express purpose of being able to perfectly capture the essence of HGJ in inanimate form?

How did HGJ find her anyway?

Okay, actually, that's a dumb question. When Wei Ying started sculpting a year ago one of her first videos was a time lapse on tiktok with a clay model of a HGJ cosplay of a xianxia character.

And admittedly, Wei Ying did spend the entire video thirsting over HGJ while in her small studio surrounded by her fanart of HGJ and okay yeah so that video has several million views and quite a few cheeky comments tagging the queen herself…

So okay, it makes sense how HGJ found her, but it still doesn't explain WHY she chose to commission Wei Ying directly.

Like, here's the thing. Wei Ying knows she's good. She's super good. She didn't get to quit her boring day job for no reason, and she's spent practically all her life getting this good, she's not gonna pretend to be humble.

But HGJ never commissions people. She doesn't even reshare fanart or even respond to fan's comments. Her photos and videos are cinematic and expertly shot, but she doesn't do lives or anything like that where she talks to fans. Wei Ying has never been to a convention to see her personally, but with her expert internet sleuthing skills she knows that when HGJ does meet and greets, only ever for charity or some good cause, she doesn't do more than nod politely before posing with them.

So why would she all of a sudden reach out to Wei Ying and go against all of that?

But it doesn't matter why…because Wei Ying just responded to her email and took up the offer to meet Hanguang-jun to talk about her commission.

She's going to meet HGJ…in the flesh…outside of costume.

Wei Ying looks arond at her walls, plastered in artwork and photos of HGJ in all her glory. She stares at the smattering of sculptures she has displayed in a place of honor. At the life-sized cardboard cutout she got of HGJ cosplaying as Shego a couple years back, glaring menacingly in a way that makes her spine tingle...

Wei Ying is going to have to clean up her studio before she meets with HGJ…

What is she getting herself into?

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Wei Ying likes to make prototypes before she meets with any client. It's not really a courtesy so much as a necessary requirement. A sculpture is way more taxing on her resources after all. She needs to make sure her client likes it before she gets started on the real deal.

She might be…spending more time on the prototype for Hanguang-jun than she has for anyone else…especially considering she's sculpted her enough she knows its good but, well…

She almost can't help it. Whenever she makes art of HGJ, it's like she's under a spell and can't resist. It's mesmerizing, watching the block of clay taking form and shape, transforming into a temptress that leaves Wei Ying glued to her desk until she finishing the final touches and sits back to admire her work.

Wei Ying used to exclusively make fanart of fictional characters. She mostly liked donghua and manhua, and rarely ever caared for things that were live-action or realistic. It took away the fun, she'd always thought. She lives in the real world so why would she care about something like that in her work?

Then, she saw Hanguang-jun cosplay her favorite character from her favorite novel. It was all over from there.

It wasn't even one of HGJ's more scandalous cosplays that showed off her ample cleavage or milky white thighs. She was completely covered up, wearing an intricate set of robes that must have been embroidered by hand with long black hair too silken to be a wig styled up in a top knot.

The costume was stunning, but it was HGJ's expression that ensnared Wei Ying. Fiercely intense, and a gravity that made the character come alive.

For a moment, Wei Ying forgot she was looking at a fanmade cosplay. For a moment, it was like the character she'd admired so much had come to life right on her computer screen, all elegant lines and secret curves. Her hand had reached into her shorts of its own accord…bewitched.

And so followed a mad scramble to get as much content about HGJ as she possible could, imbibing every last ounce until Wei Ying felt like she knew everything she could about HGJ.

Despite being notortiously private about her personal life. HGJ regularly shares bts about her costume work and and what goes into creating cosplay. There was a panel she'd done for a con where she explained how she'd sewn every costume painstakingly by hand, and how long each costume took.

That more than anything, pulled Wei Ying deep into HGJ's orbit.

She'll never forget listening to that video, the soft cadence of HGJ's delicate voice, so seldom heard when she plays so many silent and serious characters, as HGJ spoke about her love for her craft. Wei Ying was lost to the moment, to the wonderful sensation of someone knowing exactly why one would spend hours and days on creating something. The pure love for her craft, shining in the golden contacts HGJ wore, the stage lights giving them a twinkle that seemed to come from within.

That's when Wei Ying realized her crush on HGJ was more than that.

But until this moment, she didn't have to worry about it. Wei Ying was perfectly content making artwork from a afar, ever getting any closer. A fan and her muse, the simplest pairing there was.

Except now Hanguang-jun is coming to her studio. For a private meeting. Today.

Needless to say, Wei Ying is feeling woefully unprepared. She'd at least had the wherewithal to hide her more salacious fanart away. HGJ does not need to know how often Wei Ying has imagined and tried to paint her breasts…that would be a bit too far.

Her studio as ready as it is ever going to be, all she needs now is to finish the prototype.

It's a crude model, really. Meant mostly to test the pose HGJ requested. It's not even painted, though Wei Ying did spend more time on it than she has for anyone else.

The clay is still wet to the touch, as the model sits on her workbench and she trails a careful finger down the side of HGJ's face. Her eyes are still hollow and blank, but the shape is correct, the lines meeting at the corners to taper off underneath arched brows she's etched in.

HGJ's high cheekbones were carved at an angle over a mouth with a tiny smile, barely there. The reference photo Wei Ying had used for HGJ's expression wasn't from the official photo shoot, but a bts video on HGJ's brother's feed (also public, and filled with so much delicious content). HGJ wasn't even looking at the camera. She'd been holding her pet bunny in her lap, smiling so sweetly down at it, the corners of her mouth just barely lifting up and the softness of her eyes breathtaking. Wei Ying had felt like she'd been suspended in midair with the force of that little smile.

She'd fully intended to use one of the more serious expressions from the photoshoot, but when the time came it's like her hands had a mind of their own. It was instinct and the image of that sweet smile that guided her as she etched in the lines of the model's face.

Once it was done, there was no way she could smudge it away. And so the small smile stays. Wei Ying's hand trails over to the slope of HGJ's nose, and she giggles as she gives the figure a gentle boop. The clay sculpture is pretty large, about the size of her torso (also not the standard. usually these reference models are smaller than the sized asked for. But well...if Wei Ying has to give the final sculpture to HGJ maybe she can keep this prototype for her collection...) but that doesn't mean she's willing to risk damaging it when it's still so fragile. She'd be devastated if something happened to HGJ, in whatever form she's in.

Her finger slides down over plump lips that Wei Ying has spent many lines drawing over and over again, sketches of that mouth in every expression, closed and pursed into a frown, even open and waiting… She has the lines of HGJ's lips practically memorized. Can imagine how they'd feel when she traces over her own.

She does that now, the fingers of her right hand tracing over her own lips as the pad of her left index finger trails back and forth over the model's lips. Chapped against glossed. Plush pink. How would HGJ's look free of lipstick, smudged and wiped away at the edges onto someone else. Lips bitten red.

Wei Ying's breath hitches and she pulls her lips into her mouth to bite down on. Her right hand falls into her lap.

She lets the tip of her finger trail to HGJ's pointed chin, then curves it down as if Wei Ying is lifting it up to draw her towards her. That would be ludicrous, to kiss a statue…except….

Wei Ying had taken care to carve HGJ's elegant veins that jut out from her neck, and follows them down her slender throat and over her collarbone, to where the shape of HGJ's breast sit, exposed to the frigid way that would surely harden her nipples into soft rosebuds if they were real.

Wei Ying has spent many nights staring at the ceiling of her room, idly tracing figure 8s around and around her small chest as she ruminates on HGJ's full breasts, the way they effortlessly lift and nearly slip out of her costumes, though the never actually do.

How they must be twice the size of Wei Ying's own, leaving her to lift her own and wonder how heavy HGJ's must be. Imagine the weight of them in her palms, how they'd look when she squeezes. The sounds HGJ would make, her quiet gasps echoing in the silence of the room. The way those honey brown eyes, her real ones, not the fake contacts she uses for her cosplay, would be fixed on Wei Ying's, long lashes fluttering as she leans forward to give Wei Ying a better angle.

The heat inside Wei Ying flares up, and she lets her hands pull her shorts away so she can lip her hand inside, trialing over coarse curls until she reaches the place that's hottest within her. Not for the first time, she wonders what it would feel like to touch HGJ in this place. Would it feel the same as it does when Wei Ying touches herself? Would it feel like something else entirely?

She draws circles around her lower lips with the fingers of her right hand as her left index finger trails down the center of HGJ's chest, over the valley between her breasts.

Perhaps she should have sculpted the mounds of her breasts closer together so they'd create the cleavage HGJ is known for. But like earlier, when she'd felt out of control with the need to carve her smile, Wei Ying had wanted to let HGJ voluptuous breasts hang free and apart, natural the way she always imagines her.

Besides, it would fit with HGJ's request to create a sculpture of her recent cosplay of Galadriel.

Wei Ying had just about lost her mind when she'd seen the gauzy fabric of HGJ's dress, how it left only the most intimate parts of her to the imagination as the sheer dress draped over the curves of her body. How she could so clearly see the outline of her full breasts, with no bra restraining them only a simple fabric to tastefully cover her nipples. Beneath her chest, the dip in her slender waist flared out into wide hips. The curve of her thighs, with a wide slit in the dress that revealed the tiniest tantalizing peek of pale skin…

The pale blue, nearly see through fabric had been both too little and too much. Wei Ying had felt like she needed to look away. She'd also felt like she never wanted to stare at anything else ever again.

Remaking the exact gauzy lines in a clay sculpture will be a fun challenge. She can already see the way she can carve the lines so the creases of HGJ's dress show it's there while the rest of the fabric clings to her shape and form, a glimpse of something that shouldn't be seen. That Wei Ying sculpts herself, a shrine to a goddess.

The thought makes Wei Ying gasp, as she dips one finger inside her, slipping through her drenched folds with ease.

The heat is jarring, almost burning where it stokes a fire deep within her core, spreading outward, consuming everything in its wake.

In contrast, HGJ's clay figure is nearly ice cold against her heated skin. But as her finger rest against the figure, it turns warm, as if a heart truly beats beneath that clay chest.

Would it be the same if she was trailing her fingers across the real HGJ's chest? With a frozen exterior melt into warmth? Would a pink stretch across her torso, matching the lips she bites down? Would her heart beat just as fast as Wei Ying's?

Wei Ying rocks against her finger, but one just isn't enough. She adds another, strokes herself with intent even as her eyes flutter closed as her other hand slides down to the contours of HGJ's flat stomach, then to the v that points towards a place Wei Ying can only imagine in her wildest dreams.

If she doesn't pay attention, she can almost imagine her left hand is touching something else, something alive and real.

She whimpers, feeling the fire burn bright and hot and all encompassing. She wants to throw her head back, let her gasps echo off the ceiling. She wants to recline in her chair, give herself completely over to her pleasure. But how can she, when that would mean she can no longer touch HGJ, even this mere imitation of her?

At the thought, she opens her eyes again, gasping as she struggles to keep them from shutting, as she shudders from her approaching climax, curling those fingers and rubbing at her clit, faster and faster.

HGJ's model is haloed in a yellow spotlight from her desklight, drawing the eye and entrapping it.

It's not the real deal, but if Wei Ying squints her eyes she can pretend the burnished red figure is Hanguang-jun, blurry but real. Here, in front of her, panting breaths a match to hers.

She can almost see it, hear the intake of breath as HGJ watches her. What would HGJ think id she saw her? What would she do if Wei Ying called out for her? If she begged for her aid?

Would she hang back and watch? Would she be mortified? Intrigued?

Would she…would she dare approach? Would she stand over Wei Ying as she lies back in her chair? Would she draw her hand down the side of Wei Ying's face, past her chin and her neck, following the path Wei Ying traveled along her clay figure? Would she let her hand pass through the valley between Wei Ying's smaller breasts, fingers feather light, down, down over her stomach to join where Wei Ying's fingers slide in and out, pumping rhythmically as she chases her release.

Would she slip inside as well, bending over her, only touching that one most intimate place, Would she watch Wei Ying, those honey-brown filled with a new sort of intensity, something she's never worn for any of her cosplays. A vision just for Wei Ying.

Would she smile at her?

Wei Ying's orgasm crests and flares over her, all at once, rocking through her as the fire burns and burns and burns. She cries HGJ's name into the ceiling, caught in a wanton moan that goes on forever, obscenely so, until all that's left are Wei Ying's panting breaths.

When she returns to her body, feeling lightheaded, she registers the sticky wet sensation of her right hand as she pulls it out of her pants, feeling hollow inside. The tiny studio smells of sex as sweat beads down her back,

At some point during her climax she must have knocked over HGJ's figurine to where lies forlornly on its side.

"Shit," she whispers, checking over it with her clean hand and setting it down securely in its base. Thankfully it is undamaged, and she moves on to look for something to clean herself with.

It's not the first time she's done this here. She really should be more prepared for this sort of thing.

She cleans her hand as best as she can with her water bottle and hand sanitizer, wiping the rest away on her shorts. There's no mirror in this room but she's got enough time she can probably go to the bathroom and fix herself up, maybe air out the room before Hanguang-jun arrives—

There's a knock, quiet and polite, unintrusive, on the door to her studio, and Wei Ying jerks her head up in shock.

It's too early, she's supposed to have another ten minutes at least… it can't be.

The knock goes off again, this time louder and more firm. Wei Ying yelps, before covering her mouth with her hands. But it's too late.

Someone calls from the other side, "Is this the Yiling Matriarch's studio?"

It is. Fuck. Wei Ying is shaking, but she can't put this off any longer.

She opens the door.

TBC

(threadfic here)

[convenientalias]

I'm greedy, I want all the fic meme questions for Time Travelling Juice (seonho/sungrok) and for Long Car Rides (jo yeong/shinjae)!!

Oho. Yes. I could definitely ramble about those. (Also this post is long, so I'm adding a cut.)

Time Travelling Juice, for those not in the know, is the Sung-rok/Seon-ho time travel fix it fic I wrote. It's like 40k so I can admit I put some effort into it.

☼: how i came up with the idea-- The first seed wasn't actually a time travel fic. You see, when Seon-ho said to Sung-rok in the burning house that he was going to be a ruler of darkness I kind of thought he meant they were going to become bandits together or something. So I was like "AU where they really do run off to become bandits together." But then I was like "an IC Seon-ho will never abandon politics until he's used up his very last chance bc he's too damn ambitious". Then I was like "the only Seon-ho who wants to just go chill with the ppl he loves is Seon-ho the week he dies. and Sung-rok doesn't even really get to see that Seon-ho. Tragic." So then I was like "AU where dead Seon-ho does a Peggy Sue but also Sung-rok comes along and they Run Away and Become Bandits."

The fix-it aspect of this fic and the political intrigue etc that make up the majority of the fic were kind of incidental lols. Bc even in a second life, Seon-ho isn't going to just drop things that easily.

I also thought Sung-rok deserved a chance to yell at Seon-ho for only surviving him by a couple days. ☄: what the writing process was like-- Pretty typical. I made an outline for like. A long oneshot or a twoshot or a threeshot or something. Then I realized there was too much plot for that when I'd written a whole chapter and nothing had happened except Sung-rok time traveling. So I went on, reoutlining and reoutlining as inevitably chapters didn't cover as much ground as planned, until eventually I reached the ending. ✄: something i deleted before the final draft-- I don't think I deleted anything I actually wrote, or at least nothing too major, but in my initial outline Seon-ho was going to kind of kidnap Yeon when he ran away (for her protection, of course) and also possibly kidnap Bang-seok (to prevent his future murder). The latter would have been hilarious bc of how much Sung-rok would have objected to it on grounds of practicality. Unfortunately Sung-rok was right so that plot point had to be abandoned. ♡: my favorite part-- uhhhh this bar scene of pining and time travel reflections:

“Do you know,” he said, “none of the workers here recognize me?”

“Hurt your pride?”

“Don’t be stupid. You know what I mean.”

Sung-rok did know what he meant. After Yeon’s death, after Seon-ho had come here a number of times, a couple of the servers had known his name, as had the proprietor. They’d known Sung-rok, too, as the man who came to drag him out. They hadn’t particularly liked either one of them less. Seon-ho was a paying customer but he worked for the government and could easily be trouble. Sung-rok clearly hated the place but he got Seon-ho out before Seon-ho could get too drunk and troublesome. In short, their attitude had been solidly neutral. But if it had been an ambivalent relationship, there had been a relationship nonetheless, now erased.

“You’ve never been here,” Sung-rok said, “and in the future, we won’t come here again.”

Seon-ho turned and smiled at him. “So resolute. Sung-rok, you know, it doesn’t matter. My body has never been here. It’s never tried opium either. But I still know the high, and I still know this place. Turning back time doesn’t make me clean.”

“If it doesn’t,” Sung-rok said, “then I will.” He met Seon-ho’s gaze evenly. “In this life, you’ll never run to drink or to smoke. You’ll never so much as want to. I will never allow you to be hurt again.” ☠: something i found challenging-- It was kind of hard to balance the different kinds of fix-it-ing I wanted to be doing. Like on the one hand, I wanted Seon-ho to cut all his political and familial ties. On the other hand, he had to settle some things with Yeon and Hwi. And on a third hand, I really just wanted to be writing a Sung-rok/Seon-ho slow burn but I'm honestly much more of a fast-burn writer. And I was kind of trying to at least touch on of each of these things (1. politics and plotting 2. Yeon and Hwi 3. Sung-rok romance) in each chapter, which was kind of a lot to handle. ☾: how i thought people would respond to the fic-- Wasn't expecting it to be super popular bc Sung-rok is a minor character. But ppl like time travel, so I still expected some readers :) ☽: how people *actually* responded-- It got a bit more attention than I expected, and I had a few regular commenters, so that was nice. ∞: something i wish i’d done differently-- Well now I kind of wish that Yeon HAD run off with Seon-ho and Sung-rok but I also think she and Hwi should be together and forcing Hwi and Sung-rok to hang out for a prolonged period of time would be a disaster so. I guess I don't really wish I'd done that.

★: something i’m proud to have accomplished-- I think this is still the only multi-chapter Sung-rok/Seon-ho fic on AO3, so that's cool. And possibly the fandom's only time travel fic? We have some reincarnation fic which is kind of similar but a Peggy Sue fix-it is a specific genre and I don't think there are any other MCTNA Peggy Sues.

Long Car Rides is a Jo Yeong/Kang Sin-jae fic where the two go on a trip to Haenam to investigate a lead on Lee Lim's organization. Shippy happenings ensue.

☼: how i came up with the idea-- This was an exchange fic for chiiyo86. They mentioned liking casefic. I can't remember how I got from there to "also there should be a road trip" but I'm sure there was some logic behind it. ☄: what the writing process was like-- Brainstorming based off chiiyo86's letter, writing an outline, writing the fic. Pretty simple. ✄: something i deleted before the final draft-- Again I don't think I deleted anything I actually wrote but due to circumstances I had to scrap forcing a "there was only one bed" situation. Great tragedy for me. ♡: my favorite part-- Yeong getting petty bc he wants Sin-jae to pay for their not-date. (If Sin-jae pays... maybe it's a date???)

“You’ll pay for Jo Eun-sup’s chicken but not for mine?” Yeong leaned back in his seat, smile turning to scowl. “Why not pay for it? It’s on sale.”

Sin-jae stared at him. “…are you actually that cheap?”

“Cheap?” Yeong’s scowl intensified. “I’ve been making and buying you coffee for months now.”

“Wait, that was supposed to be some sort of quid pro quo? I thought it was…” He’d really just thought it was Yeong being rich and, well, sort of friendly. But fuck if he was going to admit they were friends. “I thought you were trying to bribe me into coming back to the Kingdom of Corea. Like, look how good we can treat you in the Royal Guard, come join up kind of shit.” ☠: something i found challenging-- The casefic aspect. I kind of suck at casefic. How do ppl write mysteries? I don't know at all. ☾: how i thought people would respond to the fic-- I hoped a lot of ppl would like it! Yeong/Sin-jae is a bit niche but my last Yeong/Sin-jae fic had gotten a lot of comments. ☽: how people *actually* responded-- A bit less attention than I'd hoped for, but more comments/kudos accumulated over time. More comments/kudos than I get on average, certainly. ∞: something i wish i’d done differently-- Eh, no real regrets. Could be longer? That comes down to the casefic aspect again, though. To prolong it I would have needed better ideas for that element. ★: something i’m proud to have accomplished-- Hmm I don't think I did anything super interesting with this fic but I do think it's cute and kind of funny. So I'm satisfied.

Thanks for the ask! I didn't have the energy to answer all the questions last night lols. But I did enjoy rambling about my writing, as always.