#this gave me so much serotonin you don't even know oof

[khaleesiofalicante]

Hola Dani...! How are you?? How has your weekend been?? 🤗

So here's the story (it's not really that long) but it involves TLND...

First I would like to apologize for every single time I have called "obliviousness" in stories unrealistic because Holy fuck!! 🙃

So today I got this delivered to my house...

I'm a shitty photographer but it's a bouquet of red and white roses with some Christmas flowers in it, very pretty 😍 and it smells amazing 🥰

And in it there was a simple card that said, I hope you're feeling better, love... and the signature and it's handwritten!!

Also in it... a small package of RAISINS!!!

Now, I don't hate raisins but I very much don't love either... I just won't stop eating something because it has raisins in it 🤷🏻‍♀️

So I obviously texted him to thank him for such a beautiful present and I wasn't even going to mention the raisins but HE himself brought it up and I asked, why raisins? And he says:

"Because of that book you were reading where the characters expressed their love by eating each other's raisins..."

To which I reply by explaining to him that it wasn't exactly like that and basically proceed to explain all the nuances of TLND Malec...

And it wasn't until hours later when I was talking to my favorite cousin that I realized (she pointed out) that he had used the motherfucking raisins to tell me he has feelings for me 🤦🏻‍♀️

No wonder I'm so chronically single, I can't tell when people like me 😭

And then I asked him, and he told me that he has had feelings for me for YEARS, he apologized for getting the raisins thing wrong and then asked me out on a date 🥺

Hindsight is now 20/20, I should have noticed because it was obvious 😫

And the thing is, I don't know if I want to go on a date with him, we've been friends for years and what if it doesn't work out??

I don't know what to do, he doesn’t even live in the country he's only here to spend the holidays with his family, although his mom told me a while ago that he wanted to move back 🤔

Wow... it was a long story 😬 but yeah, that's it, that's the thing that happened to me...

What would you do?

Soy amarte mucho mucho siempre 💚💚💚

I HAVE MANY THOUGHTS AND I WILL BE SHARING ALL OF THEM. A LIST IS REQUIRED RIGHT NOW. VERY MUCH SO.

First of all, I squealed at this whole thing. Wtf. I don't squeal. I only *makes dragon noises*

Red and white flowers are such a good combo. (i find them very catholic but okay that's just me). ALSO HANDWRITTEN NOTES? OKAY THEN.

"feeling better....love. AMOR. WHAT. OKAY.

AND NOT THE MOTHERFUCKING RASINS OMG? WTF? TLND BRINGING PEOPLE TOGETHER. I NEED A NETFLIX MOVIE RN.

Also this man is the 'he might be a little confused but he got the spirit' meme

ALSO YOU OBLIVIOUS NUGGET I CANNOT

*more screaming*

Okay. Okay. As to what to do now. You should obviously do whatever the fuck you want. Duh. You're smart. Amazing. THE best. You'd make the right decision!

*clears throat carefully* but if I may, this guy seems so sweet. (but he is still a guy ew). For me, the two most attractive qualities in a person are 1) paying attention to the things we're passionate about (i can't believe he remembered the raisin thing!!) 2) giving a shit (the gesture was so romantic i always thought what in the lightwood-bane is going on lol)

I know that you are worried about the friendship. That's a very valid concern when you start dating a friend. But here is the thing. If it works out, it works out. If it doesn't, it doesn't. Sometimes when it doesn't, it's a little awkward. That's very normal.

But I've noticed some guys act like a dick about it. Like, 'if you can't date me, i don't wanna be friends with you' or whatever. And if this guy is like that, if it someones who acts like a child because you both tried something and it didn't work out and you decided to move on as adults, then this guy is not not worth being your friend OR your boyfriend.

But if it works out, then that's amazing! If it doesn't and you decide to be adults about it, that's even more amazing! Because are there are no 'what ifs' and regrets.

As I said, it's up to you. I know you are dealing with a lot right now and this year has been difficult with a lot of ups and downs, so when good things come your way, it's important to seize them and give it a shot.

I hope you know you deserve ALL the good things. This guy kinda seems good so 👀

Anyway. I love you and I'm so excited for you!!!