#this comic is from 2022 but I touched it up. so if you've seen it before that's why.

[cosmitasia]

❤️💛💙💜

[drypainting]

various comic sketches for different projects (dec 2024 - jan 2025).

my first serious multi-page comic was made 2018 -- both my most recent comic and first were made in january AND made for fanfic. there's seven years' difference between those two but being a fan of other fanworks has not changed at all. more thoughts and past artwork underneath the cut

bits from my first serious comic (2018). i've simplified my process wrt to shading because it took me a whole week of being in front of a screen day-to-night to finish five pages. i also didn't color it, because, fuck, man. i hate coloring. i was burnt out for a whole month before i started drawing again.

these one-pagers (amongst others) preceded the multi-page one by a few months or so. iirc i gave up using screen tones very quickly...

a few thumbnails of two dudes beating each other up hotly. i had good taste as a seventeen y/o, ngl. i did the first page (not seen here) i think a few years later:

(2022) i'm not happy with this, but i accept that my skill in art would never grow in a linear fashion. BUT. i think the composition of this particular part was kinda cool.

(2020) i didn't touch multi-page comics for months at a time. they took up a lot of work and i was frequently exhausted.

this one (2020) was fully shaded but i prefer the lines. i think i was in the process of lining it again but i lost the process when i fucked up the save. i had a whole story and everything-- it was an au stuck in my head for a while, but tbh i quickly lost interest when no one else was into it. the line art is sloppier, but i approached it w a, "finished, not perfect" attitude. at the time i thought i had peaked in 2018-2019 (still do) and my enthusiasm for art was on the decline.

in my past reflections i was so hard on myself. didn't give myself enough grace-- i barely had enough energy and focus to do another one of those labor-intensive multi-page comics of the same quality as the ones i made around 2018.

it's not a standard i hold myself to anymore.

(dec 2024 - jan 2025) i think my interest in art (and by extension, comics) is back on the upswing. i acknowledge that it probably won't stick around forever--my skills and interests wax and wane--but i think i've made peace with my self-criticism. i was very hard on myself as a teenager. this will probably will change in the future too.

but i think that's okay.

there wasn't really a point im trying to make here. i just fucked up really badly today and i'm trying to scrape together some sense of esteem in myself LMAO. it'll be fineeeeeeee.

anyway, i'm proud of all the stuff i've done. i've always wanted to be a mangaka since i was a child. and i still am wanting...

here's julia ortega and chris if you've made it to the bottom. thanks for reading all my shit!!