#this ain't your MCU Hawkeye

[aww-canon-no]

Room For One More- Winterhawk

Bucky will always be a Brooklyn Baby at heart, but he’s not James anymore.  He hasn’t been James for so long, and there’s a bridge between himself now and his past that he can’t cross again.

He tried.  Once for Steve, because it kills him a little bit each time he sees That Look on Steve’s face when Bucky says or does something that just isn’t...him.  But he’s given up.  There’s no point.

So he still visits his old haunts with Steve when they’re feeling nostalgic, and he will never, ever turn down a hot dog with mustard and onions.  And he’ll never get tired of seeing his best friend happy and carefree in ways Bucky didn’t think was possible.

But.

He needs a place to be himself.  Stark Tower and the city is just too much, so he buys a place upstate, and little by little he fills it with things.  Little by little, he stays at the Tower a little less.

The only one who really notices is Clint, because well...he’s aptly named.  Hawkeye.  Bucky really likes his sign name which apparently is the Deaf sign for ‘listen’ but instead of signing it by the ear, it’s signed against the eye.  

Clint tells everyone it’s because he’s good at listening, but Bucky secretly knows that Clint’s a goddamn gossip and likes to hover around and get in everyone’s business so he has blackmail material later when he needs them for something.

Bucky’s debating about what to do with his bed when Clint shows up.  Bucky didn’t hear him come in which is...a Thing.  Bucky always hears everything because he’s going to live and die a hyper-vigilant disaster, but it says something that he let his guard down knowing that Clint was nearby.

He turns and Clint taps his index fingers to his thumbs, his full lips forming a small, perfect O.  ‘What are you doing?’

Bucky makes a circle with fingers and thumb and shakes it under his chin.  ‘Nothing.’

Clint rolls his eyes and swipes his hand under his chin.  ‘Liar.’

Bucky is a pretty good liar.  Always has been.  But Clint sees him in ways no one really does.  Tony sees him as the man responsible for unspeakable things.  Nat sees him as someone who can relate- and he doesn’t have the heart to tell her he can’t.  Not the way she wants him to.  But he lets her keep that one because she deserves it.

Thor is in his own little world, and Steve just wants his best friend.

But Clints sees him.  As he is now.  As the man he’s fated to be until he finally dies.

Bucky sighs and shrugs, and Clint mirrors his gesture, then walks around to the other side of the bed and attempts to lift the mattress.  Clint’s a superhero in many ways, but that’s not one of them.

He lets out a heavy oomph because the mattress is one of those modern, ridiculous foam things that way a metric ton, and before Bucky can stop him, he crashes to the floor with a loud thud.

“Aww.  Floor.”

Bucky peers over and only sees Clint’s feet, then jumps half a foot when fingers circle his ankle and tug.

“What the fuck?” he asks aloud before remembering that Clint probably doesn’t have his hearing aids on since he’s relegated them to missions-only.

After a beat, and another tug on his ankle, Bucky drops down, rolls onto his back, and slides under.

Clint grins at him in the low light.  ‘Here-under bed-better.’

He can’t really argue.  ‘That-that.’  

If he could stay in a little cubby, he would.  But the others would eventually drag him out to socialize or whatever hellish new thing they’ve come up with.

Clint reaches out and puts a finger right up against Bucky’s left cheek dimple.  “Room for one more at your farm?” he asks aloud.

Bucky smiles and nods his fist in the air between them.

[arms-and-arrows]

Thoughts on the Hawkeye show? Kinda disappointed that they ain't giving my man a divorce or we see him coping about nat's death

I’m mostly reserving my thoughts. It’s touchy to be vocally pro-Renner in this political climate 🥴 Lol… I also have strong feelings about the end of Clint & Natasha in favor of the Yelena & Kate future which can sound a lot like distaste for those characters (& actresses). I struggle to be very enthused about them. That has everything to do with me grudgingly seeing the end of my favorite characters and absolutely zip to do with Yelena & Kate or Florence & Hailee.

To summarize? YES to both of your feelings on the trailer. The only satisfactory ending for me was nixxed when those set photos for AoU came out in 2014, so if you brush that bitterness aside, I have enjoyed the MCU like. 65% since. And that includes this, too.

[kelvintimeline]

Since I think you are also trapped in the neverending spiral of bullshit that is the MCU, I'm curious so I'm gonna ask: what are your expectations for Endgame? Aldo for the future of the MCU? Will it ever set us free? Because it sure as shit ain't giving us what we want/deserve and that's fact.

My expectations are just... it’s gonna be garbage. To me, Infinity war was a decent film and garbage sequel/continuation/culmination that disrespected the previous lore, thematic values, and heart of the individual franchises that went into it. It shat on Taika Waititi’s vision for Thor/The Asgardians, it absolutely shat on the Wakandas and everything Black Panther set up, and it couldn’t even respect one of its oldest tentpole characters--Steve.

My worst case scenario expectations: Steve dies, Tony gets to retire/mentor Peter (thus ingraining himself permanently into the Spidey leg of the MCU), characters who died before the snap don’t come back (Loki, Heimdall, the Asgardians in general), Scarjo gets a lot of screentime to Let The Audience Know She’s Getting Her Own Film but it doesn’t involve interacting with the Cap crew when she’s the most human and interesting, X men are immediately introduced in teh worst way ever. Bucky takes on the mantle of Cap as you hear the MCU shrug and say “Sam who?”

My best case scenario: Steve is deserumed/retires and passes the mantle onto Sam (who maybe shares it with Bucky so they can take turns and never feel overworked). Tony dies but we remember Pepper and Rhodey have each other and tbh are much better off without him. Wakanda says the Avengers aren’t allowed in their country ever again unless T’challa personally invites them. All of the Asgardians are back and Thor lets Heimdall be king, as he should be, as Thor needs to take a long vacation, which he takes with Valkyrie and he gets topped a lot. We live with the knowledge that both Thor and Loki are bottoms and use that to torment freaks who ship Thorki as its just another reason their ship wouldn’t work (tho it can’t compare tot he whole ‘it’s incest, fucking stop it’ element). Hawkeye retires off screen and it’s referenced in a single line. Antman points out that his daughter Cassie have friends named [insert other young avengers characters] so I can at least pretend that maybe in ten years we can get aFUCKING young avengers movie even tho I know they fucked it up. Vision is mined for Apple tech and is reborn as iPhone V.5 or some shit. Peter comes back to NYC to discover Miles MOrales is doing a better job saving the city than him and also stole his friend Ned because Ned was really just a ripped off version of Ganke anyways.

HONESTLY the movie will probably fall somewhere in the middle of that. It’ll be a decent but underwhelming conclusion to a lot of storylines. Gamora will never be respected as an abuse victim. Steve won’t get the swan song he deserves but maybe Tony will die too. Thanos will be humanized too much but ultimately die. Maybe Thor will get to smile again.

Who the fuck knows? All that I know is that I will be mostly free of Marvel after this, outside of maybe atching the Bucky/Sam show and keeping up with a couple other characters (T’challa/Peter MAYBE/Carol mAYBE/Scott mAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYBE)