#thhey remind me that my lashing out has consequences & that there is good inside of me & that i'm alive and okay | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

elytrafemme · 2 years ago

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one of the best things in life is having friends that make you feel normal if that makes sense bc like. i just had a certified trauma moment and then brushed my teeth and checked my phone to see my friend being like. do you wanna come over and watch this batshit bollywood film with me the cinematography is good. and i was like hell yeah if Shah Rukh Khan makes an appearance chances are its gonna be one hell of a ride. and then i just like now i just feel normal actually. friends are good

#nightmare.personal #my friends stabalize me through their just. oh i'll start crying if i think too hard about it #the amount of compassion my friends have despite my isolation behaviors and the amount of splitting i do #through the anger issues and flirting and all that shit people who see that i'm trying to be good #people who think that i am good and they themselves are so radiantly good and caring #and so fucking kind. they keep me afloat #because i can go through hell and they may only know by the slight bite in my voice sometimes because i don't #raelly vocalize most of the stuff i deal with to them #but even when i get snippish they're stilljust. so so kind to me #thhey remind me that my lashing out has consequences & that there is good inside of me & that i'm alive and okay #and then i start to feel more alive and more okay #i'm not always the best eprson to hold relationships with im very unstable and attract people who are similar #but i've found a pretty good group and i am trying as hard as i fucking can not to lose them #and my grip is slipping and i get so scared but every time i check #they're still there.

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