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spiltcandycoatedpunkblood · 2 years ago

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wish I had a comprehensive list of all well-known people who fucking had something to do with last year's global hate campaign against an abuse survivor (which if I didn't have C-PTSD before that, I sure fucking do now) whatever they said or did because two of my worst trauma/mental illness/neurodivergence symptoms is paranoia, hypersensitivity and impulsiveness and I can't fucking enjoy doing my favourite things right now. even people who didn't and spoke out because lord knows I have lost so much and been hurt so much that I just need hope in the fucking human race again and that the people I find fun to watch and talk about aren't actually assholes. especially since even who appeared to be rational fell for this.

I'm so goddamn traumatised I just want to know without looking it up. I don't need that torture. It's so fucking difficult to feel hopeful about anything or anyone right now.

#free crying and depression episodes daily #trauma #anti depp #as if i didn't have enough trauma in my life #and have people that i've lost over this bullshit #funnily enough may 8th is coming up in a few days #free thinking about the year anniversary of the night a bunch of so called friends #turned out to be fucking pieces of shit over this #vent #like i need more reason to feel suicidal with all the other shit happening in the world #i can't even see or be open with my fucking partner #rant #abuse tw #i've been a sensitive neurodivergent person my whole life who struggles with loneliness and friendship daily #most of my family effectively don't exist to me #they're often shitty or dead or a straight up criminal #give me hope in this fucking world PLEASE #neurodivergence #how am i supposed to enjoy anything anymore #personal #i need no reason to feel jealous it's one of my worst traits #third rant on here over several days #i need to contact my GP and housing officer i'm straight up having #the worst mental health crisis yet #mental illness

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