#they're lucky i was too emotionally devastated to get a smoke after reading this

[rawr-mortgage]

i still can't form coherent thoughts but just know that this ending...

(ESPECIALLY THAT LAST LINE) had me feeling like this:

LIKE WDYM HE'S SCARED OF THE SHEER WEIGHT OF HIS ATTACHMENT TO HER AND THAT HE WANTS TO CRY AT THE FEELING OF FINALLY HAVING SOMEONE WHO WANTS TO KNOW HIM FULLY AND LOVES HIM UNCONDITIONALLY? WDYM HE ONCE TOLD HER THAT IF SHE DECIDES TO GO BACK, IT'S ENOUGH THAT SHE'S OUT THERE IN THE WORLD HAPPY, CONTENTED, AND SAFE BECAUSE HER STAYING TRUE TO HERSELF AND INSPIRING HIM TO DO THE SAME GIVES HIM MEANING AND SUFFICIENT MOTIVATION TO CONTINUE LIVING? WDYM HE TRIES SO HARD TO COME OFF AS ALOOF AND NONCHALANT WHEN IN REALITY, HE FEELS HIS EMOTIONS SO STRONGLY AT TIMES THAT HE'S AT RISK OF BEING UNDONE BY THEM AND THAT LOVE DRIVES HIM TO ACT SELFLESS LIKE HE DID WITH HIS FATHER, WITH JUDE, AND NOW WITH MC? WDYM CYBIRD WDYM