#they're both good boys and they wouldnt hurt each other like that

[pumpkinsy0]

I just saw your Tim Shepard and Ponyboy post and may I please add more? Like, Tim coming over to the Curtis house just as they're getting ready to leave, giving Darry a 'I'm here. I'll look out for the kid too.' look.

Tim Shepard following the Curtis in his car, debating on how he's going to get himself a long sentence should Ponyboy be tried as an adult for manslaughter and sent to prison like Dallas had been.

Tim Shepard knowing that's two steps beyond where Curly is at and if Ponyboy was being sent to the reform then it wouldn't be half as bad, he'd have a buddy, he'd be protected.

Tim standing behind Darry, giving soft kicks to his ankles in a 'I'm still here, nudge' especially when he sees Darry freeze.

The Shepard boys lined up against the walls watching the trial. They're waiting for Tim to give a simple nod to cause ruckus and get jailed so the kid won't be in the holding cell alone.

Tim who gives a sigh of relief he hadn't realized he had been holding in when Ponyboy is free to go. Who ruffles Pony's hair affectionately, joking even "Next Soc you kill come to me, Dally is shit at hiding things. Found his blades all around town."

Darry who rolls his eyes and says "He ain't gonna be in that situation no more." But smiles back at Tim. Tim can read Darry like a book. 'Thank you' the brawny brother says with wet eyes. Tim who gives a nod before heading back to his side of town.

Darry who works a little overtime one weekend, just enough to bail Curly out so he can be with his big brother.

Just brothers looking out for one another's kid brothers and each other.

eating this up,,,,anon ily,,,

IM ADDING ON MORE CAUSE U GAVE ME EVEN MORE IDEAS :3

when pony starts talking about being drowned, tim tries comforting darry and soda in small ways, maybe like w a small pat on the shoulder and just leaving it there

before pony was supposed to go up on the stand and they were all getting ready at the house, tim came over and gave pony small tips on how to stay calm (hes been in that position quite a bit after all)

right before he goes home, he has to tell curly about the outcome of the trial, he told curly about when the trial was and knew curly wouldnt be able to sleep well if he didnt know whag was going on, he always said pony was a good kid after all

even tim and his gang had to bust out their sunday clothes so they could look good, and he told them if it was ever the time to b on their best behavior, it was today, darry doesnt deserve to worry about a ruckus being caused while his life could literally fall apart right here lmao

after the court, maybe tim joked w pony and said “how about we get that breakfast u asked me about a few days ago”(cause remember when tim was just at these niggas couch and just walked out😭) and he was one of the ppl that got pony to smile after that

gonna b honest w u, he prolly thought pony was SO fucked, so when he heard that “not guilty” verdict, he immediately looked over at darry and pat him hard as hell on the back, he was happy as hell

for a few weeks after everything, tim had some of his guys secretly looking out for pony, he knows that some socs were def upset that pony didnt get convicted and would try to hurt him

maybe tim taught pony some of his moves so he can defend himself better too, its only small moves thoigh, he knows darry wouldnt take pony learning how to full on fight like tim so kindly

tim knows darry doesnt rlly see eye to eye w curly and he gets it, but when theyre both just at the bar talking about their family, they both know how important their family is to each other and god knows in their life that family is rlly all u have, so theyd do anything to help out the other

i hate the outsiders tv show, but i love that they established that tim would look out for pony, tim and ponys relationship,,,i could talk about it 4eva,,

[reki-of-the-valley]

Thinking of Renga angst. Like only angst. No happy ending. No redemption. Just hurt.

I'm gonna write down my ideas to get it out of my system but I want to preface this with I love Langa. I genuinely believe that he is a good kid with a kind heart and that he is not twisted or horrible or manipulative. My spiralling ideas for angst don't represent how I think of him so if someone dares come to me with some fucking Langa hate, I won't hesitate to snap.

TL;DR I don't believe in anything I'm going to write here, I will never elaborate on it, but I'm going through something rn and I have to let it out somehow

Now I'm putting this under a cut because it will hurt and I don't want to trigger anyone

(unintentionally) emotionally abusive Langa. Langa who takes out his emotions on those he cares about. Langa who goes distant as soon as something doesn't go his way. Langa who snaps easily

But Langa who won't hesitate to say he's in love. Langa who does genuinely love Reki. Langa who, despite all his problems, wants to be the best he can for Reki. Langa who is trying but also causing so much harm

Emotionally dependant Reki. Reki who just wants someone to love him. Reki who just wants someone to be interested in him, in what he does. Reki who just wants someone who will listen to him

Reki who will jump head first into any relationship because "someone actually loves me"

Reki with self esteem issues. Reki with his inferiority complex. Reki who knows that he isn't all that strong, that he clings onto what he can, onto people who show the minimum amount of interest. Reki who thinks he's the problem.

So when Langa tells him that he loves him, Reki jumps on the opportunity. Because Langa is his best friend. Because he loves Langa. And Langa loves him. Someone finally loves him.

But it doesn't get better. They don't argue any less than before. Langa doesn't stop breaking his promises. Langa still isn't careful. If anything, he's even more reckless. Langa is always more reckless. He promises to be careful, but he isn't. Reki worries, terrified for Langa. Langa who loves him. Langa who says "I love you" every day to him before pressing kisses to his face

And every time Reki says something, Langa is snapping. He's not being reckless, Reki is just overreacting. Reki with his paranoia of everyone getting hurt when he's the only one ever getting hurt. Reki who is the one who's always wrapped up in bandages

Someone tries telling Reki that it isn't right, that Langa shouldn't be snapping like that at him, that Langa shouldn't be shaking him off as soon as Reki tries to make things better, but Reki doesn't listen. Because Langa loves him. And people in love don't hurt each other. Because Langa always comes back, saying sorry, pressing kisses to his face, saying "I love you"

Reki can deal with Langa's moods. "Langa's just going through stuff, y'know? Don't worry about me." Reki forcing a smile whenever someone asks what's wrong. Reki forcing himself to be happy around others when all he wants to do is cry. But he can't be sad. He can't be hurt. Langa loves him. Isn't that what he wanted all along? Someone who would love him, love him despite his problems? Love him wholly, fully, truly? Langa loves him. Langa loves all of him.

And it gets out of hand. Langa is more distant, more snappy. All those little things, every time Reki makes a mistake, Langa is looking down on him. But he isn't, is he? It's all in Reki's head. It has to be. Because Langa loves him. Langa loves him. Langa, who is amazing at everything he does, he can't be putting Reki down. It's all in Reki's head. And if Langa does say something, if he does tell him to quit trying, that he won't achieve anything, that he won't ever get it, if Langa pushes Reki to tears, then he's always there, he's there saying sorry, pressing kisses all over Reki's face, "I love you." It's always I love you.

It takes awhile for Reki to truly see how bad things have gotten. It takes tears almost daily, hidden in his bedroom, refusing to talk to his mother, refusing to look at his sisters, unable to look at anyone who cares about him without having this wave of tears threaten to pour out

He can deal with Langa's moods, except he can't. People in love don't hurt each other, except they do. Love doesn't magically make things better. Love doesn't make the pain go away

Reki almost doesn't do it. Reki almost can't do it. He can't leave Langa, but he knows he has to. He loves Langa, he really does, and he wants to believe that Langa loves him. Because despite it all, Langa is nice to him. He just... Has his moments. He has these moments where he isn't nice. Moments where he is so mean, so hurtful, so terribly awful that Reki just wants to cry. But he can't cry because then he'd be showing Langa that he is weak

It's messy, the breakup. It's a horrible mess. Langa is pleading, promising to be good, to be better, that he loves Reki. He always loves Reki. And Reki almost gives in. He almost gives in to the kisses pressed to his face. He almost gives in to another promise he knows will be broken. But he doesn't. He doesn't give in. If he can be strong just once in his life, it has to be now. It has to be saying goodbye.

And he manages it. He manages to leave. Not without an overflow of tears, but he manages to leave. To leave his only chance at love. Because no one but Langa has ever loved him.

Reki moves. With university, he manages to get out, far from every street corner that hurts so bad. He manages to get out of his hometown so filled with pain

But the hurt is still there. He can't commit to any kind of relationship anymore. That pretty girl that's clearly flirting with him, a pretty girl he would have loved to meet a year ago, a pretty girl that was showing interest in him, a pretty girl he could have shared everything with, he brushes her off. That boy who's slinging his arm around his shoulder, talking to him about their common interests, Reki walks away from him. He walks away from everyone. He doesn't talk to him mom much anymore. He barely texts Koyomi. His other friends from high school or from S are basically strangers to him now. There's still Langa, Langa with a little snowflake and a heart next to his name, but Reki knows he isn't supposed to talk to him. He knows that he'll only spiral and break down if he does. He wants, because the last thing Langa sent him was an I love you, but he doesn't do anything. He just stares at the message as he cries

Little by little, Reki isolates himself from everyone. He sees pieces of Langa in everyone he meets, painful shards of how their friendship first started with each greeting. He can't do it. He can't get attached anymore. He can't love anyone else. He can't hurt anymore.

Langa, Langa who loved him, genuinely loved him, he fucked Reki up so bad that he's just the shell of who he used to be. Reki knows that Langa did love him, but both their problems got in the way of what could have been happiness. Langa with his isolation out of fear of being left by someone he loves, Langa with his need to always go faster, father, bigger, Langa with his broken promises. And Reki with his paranoia of people getting hurt, Reki with his inferiority complex borderline martyr complex, Reki who never felt good enough to be loved but felt the weight of the world on his shoulders. In different circumstances, maybe they could have been happy. But they couldn't because neither one was ready to address their problems.

And that haunting knowledge that maybe they could have been happy, it keeps Reki up. Because that's all he wants: happiness.

[psychicbergara]

Can we still send headcanons?? this one is a bit less grounded in reality but im intrigued about shane having scout experience and having implied more than once that he knows how to handle a gun. In the Texarkana Phantom Killer specifically, the boys talk briefly about taking turns during night shifts so a serial killer wouldnt try and jump them, and when Ryan remarks he has never shot a gun, Shane tells him "you don't have to"; which to me reads like Shane saying "you don't have to know how to shoot a gun because I can do that for the both of us". Like, Shane is so mildmannered and cant land a punch to save his life, but the idea of him decisvely using a rifle in spite of that (to like fight off a horde of zombies or whatever in an apocalyptic wasteland) for the sake of protecting Ryan, is really appealing to me.

hfgkfjg im so sorry anon but the thought of shane handling a gun is making me cackle because for some reason i imagine him being SO clumsy with it.

but in an au like you mentioned, like a zombie apocalypse or wasteland, i can see him more likely knowing how to use one especially if he needs to protect people. but again, i dont think it would be his weapon of choice.

and since you mentioned zombies, it reminded me of this FANTASTIC shyan fic: theory number 7 by liminalweirdo. like the way this fic handles how the boys would use a gun is done so perfectly and they only use it in extreme extreme situations because in both of their minds, it's still inherently violent and they're scared of hurting each other. buh i adore this fic...

so sorry for the tangent but it's just SO GOOD. and shane does so much in this fic to protect ryan, i think you would adore it like i do. the protective shane trope is EVERYTHING to me

[kate-read-that]

Everyone knows there's two groups in Scott's town: bikers and players. On one hand, bikers are a mess to be around: always looking for trouble, making noise, partying all over the city.... a mess. Th issue is, most have good grades and know enough about machines and motors and such to give classes to the mechanics from town.

On the other hand, players are nice looking, kind hearted, smart boys that never make a fuss and are always there to help the community however they can. Most are football players, runners and basketball players or all of those at the same time. They're a charm to be around, if you're lucky enough to get in their circle.

"Welcome to Pop's, please sit wherever, its early yet" says Peter to his friends, careful to keep equilibrium on his rollers.

"Thanks Mr, we'll take the same table we usually do" Steve laughs and goes sit at their usual table with the rest.

Serving the table next to them, pretty blond looks at Peter with adoration.

"Is Claire still trying to get you to ask her out, Peter" MJ asks, fully knowing the answer already. Peter whines.

"I've tried to discourage her in a million ways! I'm bi, but I'm not interested in her, I dont know why she doesnt get it!"

"Man shes hot and funny, what is there not to be interested about?" Sam asks, one broe arched in disbelief.

"If you like her, ask her out! That'll get her off me" Peter begs while writing down their orders, even thought theres no need.

They always order the same food and wait until Peter finishes his turn to go so something around the city, and tonight's no exception, until new company arrives.

The door opens to Tony S., major douchebag of the city, and his friends, the major dumbasses, Nat, Clint and Bucky B. Peter's friends instantly look awkward and pissed, and the other persons in the diner look at Tony's and his friends with dread. Who know what they might be up to. The fact that they cant be thrown off high school because his amazing grades pisses off a lot of people.

Peter swallows and calms himself. He hopes Tony wont cause problems in the diner, because that's the last thing he needs and tmhe really doesnt want to kick anyone out. Besides, he isn't sure how he would kick them out if he had to.

Despite his nervousness, he rolls to them and smiles politely: " Welcome to Pop's, please sit wherever, today is not as full"

"What about you sit on my lap, darling?" Tony claimed he was bi a long time ago; more than claimed, he was caught having sex with some guy under the major's statue. Peter counts to five so he doesnt reply to that.

"Choose whatever table you want, I'll go serve you right now" he then turns around to give the cooker his friends orders, hoping he doesnt look too startled.

Tony usually mocks them in high school, and they mock right back, but he has never said anything sexual to him. It's strange, thinking of him that way, like someone you can have sex with. Peter shakes his head and rolls back to Tony's table.

Nat and Clint are too busy signaling at each other to notice he's there, and Bucky is checking something on the other side of the diner. Peter is too shy to say something when no one is paying attention, so he waits until Tony tells his friends to shut up and order already because they're making Parker loose his time.

Peter looks at him surprised, but smiles and starts taking notes. Clint has a little bit problem to order, because his deaf and his parents couldnt teach him to talk until he got in school, but he manages. Peter likes Clint, he's nice and seems a good person, but he doesnt understand why he mixes with the rest.

Nat is adopted and she's always in trouble for this thing or the other, she's always quiet but when she talks is like she's always trying to test you, somehow. Bruce had to give her math classes for a while and he said she's actually not that bad, but she still scares Peter.

Buckys parents are cool, they let him leave alone, which sounds incredible, but hes always argues with teachers and missing class, and hes always inappropriate and rude to people.

And Tony's parents are as rich as it gets, but they like to live away from big cities so they're here until tony graduates. Peter doesn't know much about them, except that they no longer pick Tony up when he gets arrested so one of the members of their staff does it. His uncle Sam is a cop, and he says theres nothing sadder than parents that dont care about his son enough to get mad at him.

So Peter tries to be kind to them, but it's so hard when all they do is mock him and his friends. Besides, Tony always has the expression, like he's to good for everyone else! It drives Peter mad.

"I'm going to have the Burguer 6, with chips and a piece of that ass" Tony pretends to read seriously from the menu, but his friends dont laugh. Peter's tired of the jokes, but he needs the job and Tony is not going to ruin this for him.

"Sure thing, dude, maybe when hell freezes. What else?" The others do laugh this time, to Peter's confusion, and order their meals.

.....

"Dude he absolutely hates you" Bucky seems to find this hilarious, even though hes Tony's best friend and he should support him, dammit!

"Of course he had to wear shorts, not like I could keep my mind straight or something" Tony moans, watching Peter roll away like the cute doll he is.

"You're like an animal dude" Clint says, little sloppy but understandable.

"Pathetic" Adds Nat, as if Tony needed confirmation of the screw up.

"And besides, since when is your mind straight?" Bucky laughs at his own joke, like the idiot he is, Tony thinks, while checking the other side of the diner again.

"At least I dont stalk Rogers from here like some kind of pervert" Tony smiles wide at Bucky's affronted face, blushing and frowning. "Whatever".

"Dude, just tell him you're into him and ask him on a date, this suave shit is not your style" Clint signs, too tired to try and talk. Tony signs back "Suave is totally think you jerk!"

"Not when you care" Nat interrupts as direct as always, looking seriously at him. "Food here is good but if you did yourself a favor and went straight to it we wouldnt have to come here and hear you whine"

"Straight?" Bucky chimes again, entertained. Nat hits him in the back of the head "Idiot."

"I will, alright? I will"

Rught then, Peter comes back with their drinks and Tony leans back.

"I dont know what I like the most, you coming to me in those cute rolls or you going away in that killer short"

All his friends look at him exasperated, and Tony cant believe he actually said that to Peter. Hes never going to get a date with his cheesy fucking lines.

But Peter laughs. Not a big laugh, okay, but a short, cute one that he tries to hide.

"Maybe youd like me better without both, huh Tony?" He leans towards Tony a little, his hand on Tony's shoulder for a second.

Hes gone just as fast as he came, leaving the whole table shocked.

Tony knows he should close his mouth, but he cant believe Peter Parker just legit flirted back at him. What the hell? He needs a cold shower right now, and his friends need to stop looking at him.

"Did you pay him to say that or something" Tony knows Bucky is trying to be funny, but truth is he cant explain that act either, and when he looks at Nat and Clint for help, they're just staring at him like a third head just grew out.

...

Peter is hyperventilating.

"I cant believe I flirted back. What the hell is wrong with me?" His friends are looking at him like he just told them he likes to dance hula naked in december, and Peter cant blame them

"Huh, maybe the fact that you've had the hots for him for years?"MJs voice cuts the air. Peter looks at her in disbelief.

"I have not! He's arrogant and careless and despective and rude and..."

"And hot and intelligent and funny, in your opinion" MJ adds, smiling "I've seen you laugh at his jokes when you think no one is watching, and you cant deny hes hot and smary"

"Maybe you should date him"

"Dont be ridiculous, I'm leaning to girls in this period of my life. And he's into you, not me"

Peter couldnt believe MJ. He did not have the hots for Tony, and Tomy was not funny, not all the time anyway, and Tony Stark was not into Peter in any way, shape or form.

And yet he had felt so good flirting with him. Seeing his amazement when Peter had answered. For once, Tony was not in control of everything and playing his jokes, he was shocked.

And Peter did that to him.

So Peter decided, what the hell, let's try this out. If he ends up being an asshole, my friends will kick his ass for me.

"If you like him, go ahead, but he looks like too much trouble for me" Steve said, looking worried. He and Bucky had been childhood friends, but they bad separated later in life and Steve didn't like to be close to him or his friends, Tony included.

"Yeah, and if he's a jerk to you well talk to him" Sam smiled threatingly, clapping his hands.

"Nat is really nice to be around when you meet her" added a blushing Bruce, who had been crushing on the ginger since they met but was way too shy to say or do anything.

Peter kept working until he had to deliver Tony's food. He tried not to show he was nervous and he definitely didnt check his ass before going out the kitchen with the food.

"Number 6,8,12, and 3 for you guys, with chips for everyone and a piece of ass for Anthony" he looked at Tony intently, trying to guess his reaction. For a second Stark just stranded there, shocked, until he slapped Peter's ass so strongly all the diner turned around. Or maybe it was because Peter had let out the loudest moan a boy his size could produce.

Peter thought he was going to kill himself. What was that?? One thing is flirting,but that? He was so losing his job. Trying to keep as much dignity as he could, he said "That's more than a piece, and it hurt, you idiot" and he turned around and left, head high and eyes burning from shame.

....

Tony was going to kill himself.

"Dude, what the fuck? He was kidding you dumbass" Bucky, again, was laughing at him. Although this time Tony couldnt blame him, fuck it. What the hell was that?? It's not like Peter's bubble butt didnt deserve one or two good slaps, but Peter worked there!

On the other hand, how could have Tomy anticipated that Peter was going to react like that? That moan could have brought people from the death, nd it certainly brought some of Tony's parts as well.

"It seemed like he liked it" Nat said, like she was reading Tony's mind. She was trying to keep herself from laughing, while Clint signaled that he was scarred for life.

Tont got up without knowing what he was doing. People weren't looking directly anymore, but he knew they were still totally focused on his movements. He got in the staff room without problems. Apparently Claire was too shocked to say nothing about it.

As soon as he got in he saw Peter, sitting in a corner, head buried on his lap.

"Dude what the hell? Are you alright?" Tony rushed to him scared. Peter just laughed.

"You're kidding? I'm si getting fired after that. What the fuck, man? In which world is that an appropriate way of flirting?"

"So we were flirting?" Tony wanted to confirm, and he realized now he sounded like an ass.

"Oh my god you slapped my ass but you dodnt know we were flirting? Dude! You're all class arent you?" Peter frowned at him.

"Didnt seem like you cared" Tomy knew he was being a dick, but he couldnt help it when Peter was right there, all long legs and blushed and nervous and biting his goddamn lip making it even redder than usual. If possible, Peter got even more red. "I liked that a lot, but that doesnt mean you can do it in my job, you idiot"

"What about my place? When you finish here?" Tony knew he was going to be totally rejected after that but he had to try, right?

"Ah, no, I'm not letting you win after that. You're taking me on a date first, and if you behave I'll let you take me to your place and well see what happens" Peter said, knowing full well he was going to be ditched.

"Deal"

"Wait, you sirious?" Peter opened his eyes in disbelief.

"What, you're not?" Tony arched his brow.

"I am, I am. Okay, deal"

"Can I ask you something, before I leave?"

"What?"

"Would you wear those shorts to our date?"

[missjackil]

Season 8

I’ve seen a lot of discussion about Season 8 lately, most of you hate it, or at least the first half. Understandable really, it was a train wreck! I will go on record to say that yes, Sam was very OOC for not looking for Dean, but it’s canon, so we do have to accept it. 

I do think however, I may understand what Carver was going for with it. I’m not saying it was executed well, but from what all happened in the previous seasons, I think it was very important to establish who the brothers are to each other. Looking back through every season before this one, though there were some very good broments a lot the way, there were a lot of unnecessary fights, lies, insults and mistrust. How could they really sell to us how deeply they love each other while they keep hurting each other so badly? 

In this essay, I may come down hard on both brothers at times. Please dont take it that I hate either or that I’m a stan for one or the other. I love these boys... flaws and all, so if you’re okay hearing your fav isnt always perfect (whichever bro that might be) please continue :)

In the beginning of Season 8, we have this strange, awkward, and OOC clusterfuck that we all blame bad writing for. And it was, I agree, and so do Jared and Jensen, but they both love where it led and are proud of the finished product. 

I’ll start with the major OOC elephant in the room that is Sam not looking for Dean. He never really gives us a reason, even though later in the season he says that his whole world imploded, came raining down on him and he ran. We have to keep that as the only canonical reason as to why he didn't, so we only have headcanons to fill in the blanks. My main concern with it really is just that I am sure that Sam would have at least established Dean was dead for real, before moving on. There were no bodies, or even any blood, to indicate that Dean might be dead. I do believe that Sam would have or should have at least bought an Ouija Board , but then what could he do? Everyone he knew who could help him was dead. All the lore books they’d been using for 7 years were burned up in Bobby’s house. All that was left was Dad’s journal which had very little information in it. So he accepts Crowley’s words “You are in fact truly on your own”, fixed up the Impala and drove. 

I don't believe Sam was suicidal. Crushed yes, depressed as hell but he won't kill himself without helping people in some way. Same with Dean. They may have wanted to die and would welcome death many times, but they're selfless martyrs, they won't eat a bullet or drive off a bridge, unless it was for a greater good. So Sam didnt look for Dean, because “Dean wouldnt want that” as we saw how pissed Dean was at Sam in S4 when he thought Sam sprung him from Hell, Sam had to remember that.  Sam also knows he wanted Dean to have a normal life when he was gone, and Dean was nearly successful. Also, in the very same episode that Dean apparently died in, Bobby told them both upon leaving, “when it’s your time... go” So Sam most likely thought Dean would be proud of him if he moved on. That IS why Dean taught him how to fix the Impala a few years back right?

So Sam tries to move on. I hated Amelia, but I dont think we were ever supposed to really like her or “ship” them, we were supposed to feel the fakeness, how awkward and just wrong it was. Sam never looked content with her, even though once she stopped treating him like trash, he smiled a lot, he never seemed happy. She was nothing more to him than a grief partner and a physical distraction. He probably enjoyed playing house though, having a dog, getting a paycheck, but it wasn't really his life. 

Meanwhile, Dean is in Purgatory with Cas and Benny, fighting monsters every day all day for a year. And this isn't a bad place for Dean honestly, he even referred to it as his “happy place” later, but it wasn't home, and Sam wasn't there. So in addition to slashing monsters all day, Dean was trying to find his way out to get back to Sam and their life. 

Dean comes out and finally, he meets back up with Sam. The reunion hug was amazing! One of my favorites. they both looked genuinely happy to be with their brother again, but it was sadly short-lived.  When Dean told Sam he wasn’t dead, he was in Purgatory, you can see the color leave Sam’s face. Like “Shit, I fucked up, I should have looked for him.” and then comes Sam’s big reveal that he got out of hunting. Watch how he says this. He’s not hiding it, he’s kind of cheerful about it, not like when Dean came back from Hell and he knew he was doing something Dean would be pissed at, he may have THOUGHT Dean would be pleased that he tried to move on, but obviously, Dean was not. 

Im not blaming either of them for what they felt. They’re both justified in it. Sam felt like Dean would want this for him, and Dean felt like Sam was out there looking for him, or at least missing him terribly, and needed to get back. Imagine if you will, as each other's spouse. One goes off to war, goes MIA and is presumed dead, though no body is found. It may have been established beforehand that if anything happened to the soldier, that his remaining spouse is to move on with their life. However the soldier isn't dead, he’s a POW and he busts his ass for a year to try to get home. You bet he’s going to be pissed off when he gets home to see his spouse DID move on and didn't even ask for proof he was dead first. 

Now we have Dean angry with Sam, Sam feeling guilty, but not willing to take the griping, so he’s going to fire back, and start threatening to leave. We have known from day 1 that Dean doesn't want Sam to abandon him. But he feels like Sam abandoned him in Purgatory, and now he’s trying to abandon him in the real world. 

I feel like, at this point, Sam felt like he had the upper hand. He had the “Stop nagging me or I'm out” card, but he didn't know Dean had a card left to play either. He had the “Leave me and I'll replace you” card.  This takes us to when Sam met Benny. Sam had been looking at schools again, weighing his options, so Dean thought it was time to introduce him to Benny. 

Dean hadn't seen Benny since they got back, so had he and Sam been in good graces, I don't think Dean would have run out to help him when he called, or at least he wouldn't have been secretive about it, but they were on shaky terms and if Sam wanted to play emotional chicken with him, Dean can play this game too. There was no reason at all for Dean to have told Sam to meet him at the dock. Dean had his car, Sam had to steal one to get there. Sam rushes because he thinks Dean needs him, and now he’s not answering his phone, and Sam is panicking. Dean had told him he was on this hunt with a friend, but Dean doesnt have any friends right? Certainly none he can trust to have his back in a hunt right? Dean must be in trouble! However, when Sam gets to the dock, Dean is pulling up with this big dude. The camera focuses on Sam and Benny’s hands long enough for us to notice that Benny’s hand is bigger than Sam’s. Sam turns from pissed off brother, reluctant hunting partner, to jealous spouse in 60 seconds. He goes for his blade, he’s going to kill this bastard! Dean shakes his head.... “no”. Sam had no idea Benny was a Vamp at that point, he was going to kill his replacement. Dean got this, oh so smug look on his face “Go ahead and leave me.... but don't think I’ll be alone”.

I'm going to leave it there because I don't want to analyze the entire season. What I want to show you is that Carver must have wanted to deconstruct the entire relationship, look at each piece of it, and show it to us, and then put it back together by the end of the season. By the end of Sacrifice, we learned Dean doesn't want to be without Sam but is willing to let Sam go and live his normal life, but to do that Dean wants to go out saving the world so Sam and everyone else can be safe. Sam doesn't want to be without Dean, but he thinks he's lost Dean’s trust, and he’s been replaced by Benny, Cas and holds Dean back from doing what he wants, so he’s going to save the world, even though it’s going to kill him in the process. 

Dean had told Sam that he didn't burn Benny’s body when he killed him, and Sam said he understood, and he might need him later. 

So I hope you can see why I feel Carver did this. I for one knew that Sam and Dean loved each other, but I honestly didnt see this “nothing comes before you” type bond before S8. So he took everything, from the very root, in the beginning, and laid it all out on the table for us, before giving us this epic defining moment in the Church between Sam and Dean. Sam would rather die than lose his place with Dean, and Dean would rather kill them all and let the world burn than to lose Sam, 

So even though I think the beginning was poorly executed, I do appreciate what it was showing us and I love the finished product. There hasn't been a more defining season in the whole series. As much as you might hate S8, you probably wont ever put the church scene out of your mind, and what led up to it. So, in my humble opinion, rocky start Mr Carver, but well played 🙌

[kouyurii]

i can't stop laughing ann HAHAHAHAHHA, atsumu just straight up says the most outlandish thing possible and osamu's partner being like

AHAHAHAHH MY GOD just like this bitch, wtf did you just say?

i feel like atsumu would probably be better at it if he was trying to flirt with them, maybe? like trying to convince them that he is the better twin just to see how they would react and if they would fall for him instead. if so, it shows him that they were using osamu to get to him, and once he finds out, there is this huge disgusted but smirk face on him as he spits out the worse things possible to their face. like man, you wouldn't wanna get behind that side of him, because if you hurt osamu, you're gonna get terror rain down on you, mate. no doubt

but yes, osamu would definitely do that!! if he finds out you agreed to all that he says, well, he tips his hat down and the knife he is using... well, man, that made the loudest cut down possible to freak you out. but he pretends that everything is fine, except his voice is much darker as he excuses himself to go and tell atsumu. maybe not immediately, but definitely will start implying at it until atsumu finds out

because, i feel like, even if the boys were to trust the other's instincts, sometimes they are stubborn and won't listen to them, especially if they think they're in "love". so it will definitely take a while for them to open their eyes to see past the honeymoon stages, especially atsumu, i think. but they will see it appear and be like fuck, and once that realisation hits, that bitch is dropped

OFC it's another story if you pass their lil stupid test uwu the smiles on the faces when that happens would be so cute to look at hehehehe

NOOO NOT ATSUMU FLIRTING WITH THEM FJSJJDJS pLS that's so smart omg he probably wouldnt even think of doing that until someone actually tried to use osamu to get to him tho 😞😞 him losing his shit at the fact that someone just tried to hurt samu like that im so 🥺🥺

osamu having to resist the urge to slice the s/o ro pieces right there and then T-T pls the next time he sees atsumu (without the s/o there) he would just tell him straight up that theyre no good for him :(

aghh the way atsumu finds it harder (compared to osamu) to believe that his s/o isnt good for him aaaaaaa 😭😭 but yeah i do think theyd trust each other more than anything (and trust that their brother wouldnt tell them this for his own benefit) so no matter how much it hurts theyd both dump the shitty s/o if the other told them they should ;-;

JDKSJSKKS AWH OMG YES THE WAY THEY WOULD SOFTEN IF THEY REALISE THAT THE S/O ACTUALLY DESERVES THEIR TWIN IM 🥺🥺 probably for the both of them their whole body would relax and their heart would feel a million times lighter bc at least for now they know youre not just here to hurt their brother :((

ALSO MINNIE LOOK AT THIS ART I SAW ON INSTA IM WEEPING IT'S SO CUTE I THOUGHT OF YOU IMMEDIATELY

[millennialzadr]

ok so i’m reblogging this with part of the outlines bc i reread it and it gave me mad feelings 😔 like… bro. i really be the softest gay i know

honestly!! i ABSOLUTELY LOVE scenes of high emotional intensity for dib and zim, it very much suits their characters and they have barriers that NEED to be broken down, some of them with kicking and screaming and crying!!! and harrowing events that force them to have stark realizations or go against what they believe in are amazing, i’m SO grateful to people who write those kinds of scenes for them, but in spite of all that, i do also love the idea of them just….. just chilling out. and being made to chill out together with no outside interference so that all they have to focus on is each other, in a safe comfortable environment where they can just be calm. like you said about zim’s nerves, he’s WRACKED with constant fear and stress, and on a different level but to the same degree so is dib! and even if they werent, falling in love with someone who used to be your sworn enemy OBVIOUSLY comes with a LOT of internal conflict (and external conflict!) and is really very stressful and has the potential to be very sad and hurtful! and while this and all the other emotionally explosive stuff is most certainly the most likely scenario as far as what’s accurate for the characters, i think exploring a calm au centered around rest and recovery could be really nice! it’s not even my first choice of what i’d like to consider canon (the story of knotted would be my first choice) but the scenes that appeared in my head came from a place of just needing some comfort, which honestly, the boys really need.

so my story would be one that centered around recovery from pain and trauma and growing close while being safe and relaxed, in a quiet environment where the boys are no longer fighting and generally don’t have much to do, and have the freedom to just be lazy and pass the time. they could gently start to deal with their respective issues through mutual support (by which i mean like. oh my anxiety is getting better cause i feel more safe and spending way more time resting and my friend is teaching me coping methods, and hey this thing has always bothered me but talking about it with my friend gave me a little bit of peace, and i feel less depressed because i have someone to spend time with and i feel a lot less lonely too)

AND THE LOVE PART, even that would be gentle, because instead of the boys catching feelings while they’re still just partners or regular friends and both of them internally freaking out about how wrong that is and how worried they’d be about the other finding out, this scenario would be one where the boys become physically close before they ever start catching feelings, so once they finally do, it feels more natural because they pretty much already do everything that a couple does! the cuddling would start, both do things to care for the other’s health and well being etc and its a very like, dutiful symbiotic relationship, they would treat everything they did for each other like they were keeping the other happy for their own gain when in reality the gratitude and trust that comes from those services would just build and build until they’re like wow, this is really nice and i appreciate this person for making me happy. then when zim’s heat obviously leads to dib ‘helping’ him find relief to the point where they have their first time, they start to kiss and display romantic affection regularly AGAIN just because it feels good! they don’t HAVE to think in terms of ‘if i kiss you it means im in love with you’ because they’d already been thinking in terms of 'im hugging you because it makes you feel better and if you weren’t happy and healthy i wouldnt have a place to stay/couldn’t do my research’

so the 'i’m kissing you because it feels good and i need my fill of affection’ kisses would just be a totally normal thing, and all of this affection would be the trigger that would eventually lead to actual feelings bc obviously romantic affection makes you feel things even if your partner wasn’t an amazing, intelligent, interesting and familiar person who basically felt like your soulmate already. and then the feelings would be a lot less threatening bc they could be passed off as a reaction to the affection, so there would be no freaking out needed and they really wouldn’t even have to face their feelings until long down the road when their ritual was so regular and comfortable that it was kind of silly to deny that they were a couple, and the conversation that would have to happen about 'what are we’ 'do irkens even feel love’ 'do you feel the same’ would be supported by the relationship they’d already built instead of them feeling like their attraction came out of nowhere and they had to be scared and confused because of it

SO, SOFT AU! ITS VERY VERY SOFT WITH CASUAL AFFECTION, REST, RECOVERY AND TENDER LOVING CARE BEING THE CENTERPOINTS

Do you have any au's?

OH WHY… YES, YES I DO 😳

ok I’m gonna try to keep this short but I’ve had this au since spring/summer before i even made this blog, I’ve been meaning to make an intro post for it for forever but I’m just very slow and VERY distractable dfjdkfj

so i have an au that I’ve been calling the ‘Soft AU,’ and… yeah it’s as fluffy and gay as it sounds

it came into being when i first rediscovered iz and zadr and was having a comfort based hyperfixation, and my brain was just barfing out scene after scene of the softest most tender scenarios, but since I’m also a virgo who needs reason and logic to live, my brain was eventually like, how would they get there?? how could this possibly happen???

and so after months of daydreaming, writing out headcanons and outlines and infodumping to my friend, i eventually had an entire AU, based on themes of rest, comfort, recovery from trauma and mental illness, and casual affection between two affection starved outcasts who learn to lean on each other and eventually boost each other up and out of the dark 💕

HERE is a super quick summary!

TL;DR: A little over a decade after arriving on earth, Zim’s banishment is reinstated and as a result his entire base and all his equipment is confiscated, leaving him stranded on Earth with no way off the planet and in danger of being caught and killed by the humans. Dib offers him a deal that he’ll hide Zim instead of turning him in in exchange for letting him study Zim. They live together in Dib’s apartment and eventually get used to each other. Loneliness induced affection ensues. Hooray!!

so that’s my AU!! Zim and Dib live together and are mutually beneficial allies to friends to lovers!! and maybe, JUST MAYBE this will become a fic, we’ll see 👀👀👀

if anyone is interested in reading more, I’ve written out outlines, headcanons and character bios, and even started a playlist! you can find all of it right here!

also i would just die if anyone is interested enough to leave questions or comments, idk if yall can tell but i would be so excited to share more lmfao, I’m gonna start working on the drawings for my intro post asap!!

THANK YOU GUYS FOR THE ASKS LMAO IT WAS RLY FUN TO INFODUMP ❤❤❤