#they weren't kidding about your early 20s being rough/incredibly lonely

[maareyas]

It feels weird that I haven't made a "serious" drawing in a while tbh. I've been busy trying to get my shit together and actually start sending out job applications, but like. I keep feeling like I'm doing something wrong despite not having done anything yet at all (technically). Idek. I'm in a weird time. I want to draw again but I feel too guilty to do it.

in more optimistic news: a book I was looking forward to buying got restocked at a local shop! I still had enough money left over from doing commissions, so I ordered myself a copy 💙 unsurprisingly I felt guilty about spending money again but I remind myself that sometimes!!! I deserve to treat myself!!!