#they should be friends just sayinnnnn

[midnight-mourning]

DCA Promptober Day 19: Ruin

I saw the word ruin and took it a different way if you know what I'm sayinnnnn God this is really where I'm at in life huh. I say, good for me, enjoy robot kissing

Content warning: Suggestive themes, it's making out with robots time, you know what you're in for

Word count: 546

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"N-Now friend, I, I think that you should maybe-" Sun stops, making a garbled sound mixed with static.

You pause your kissing, peering down at him with an innocent look, "Should maybe what?"

"Doing that is unfair and you know it," He mutters, it makes you chuckle. 

You trace your finger along the edge of his ray, humming. 

You think it was great that you'd ended up a shelf higher than usual in the supply closet this evening. You hadn't expected this level of control that would be given to you with such a vantage point. And you're greedily using it to get your way. Though, with Sun's lack of ability to form a coherent sentence, you'd argue he's also gotten his way.

Just likely not how he'd intended. 

He shivers, tone warning, "Starshine~ You're pushing your luck."

"Am I?" 

The glare he gives you doesn't quite work so well at this angle, "You are. I would suggest reconsidering before you take this any further."

"Oh, what's the matter?" Your hands shift to cup his face, "Are we getting a little flustered from all the extra attention?"

Your hands move again, quickly finding purchase at the back of his head and tracing patterns that cause him to again, short circuit. At least you think that's what's happening. You're not an engineer.

Sun's hands grip your wrists, pausing your inflictions.

 "No."

You huff, "Liar. If that was true you'd be actually telling me to stop, not beating around the bush about it."

"You're reading far too much into things," He says, while avoiding looking directly at you. 

With your hands unavailable you make do with being able to lean back down, mouth hovering over the bottom edge of his faceplate, "I don't think I am. Face it, you're out of your element and you're enjoying it. Though, maybe because that's not a common occurrence for you is why you're," You're just about to kiss him, pausing now to glance up and meet his gaze, "Hesitating."

While the Daycare Attendant's expression is usually unreadable, you feel right in that moment there's an especially palpable feeling radiating off him in that moment. It clicks when he releases your wrists, opting instead to take hold of your shoulders and kiss you fervently. 

Oh. He hadn't been expecting you to hesitate. 

As you kiss back his grip tightens, then loosens as those fingers start to travel. Down your arms, up underneath your shirt, finding a resting place that's definitely not after-school special appropriate, all the while still pressing kisses to, really any easily accessible piece of skin on you. 

You're panting when he finally pulls away, hands resting on either side of you as he leans in as close as physically possible. 

Sun's stare has a fire that shouldn't be possible, but you feel all the same, "And if I am? Enjoying it, that is."

Still so stubborn, but you can pick up on the uncertainty. You feel it's your job to fix that. 

You smirk, wrapping your arms around his neck as your fingers start to tangle into the wires behind his head. 

"Then let me ruin you, and assure you have no reason to be afraid."

A soft chuckle as he moves in once again, "Who says I was?"

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Something something, Sun's control issues would be reflected in how he treats his partners and vice versa-WHAT, who said that???

Man I've been giving y'all whiplash with these past few huh, this could have been angst but the vibes weren't there, oh well, here's the masterlist, thank you for reading!!

[wavyskies]

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[softlymaximoff]

Thought I already had your attention? Should I just replace the collar with my hand instead hm?

Don’t apologise - loveee these kinds of friendships. I’m like that with a lot of my friends here as well. Always calling them pet names, arm around them *sighs* it’s just how I am 🤷🏻‍♀️

That’s so early wth 😭 but damn time zones are crazy. We’re literally on opposite sides of the world 😬

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Your hands would make a great necklace as would your thighs 🙈 just sayinnnnn

Ahhhh yes the pet names, i call all my friends all those soft warm ones, “angel, sweetheart, honey, love, bear, a combination of em all, sweets, babie” just those soft names 🙃

Yeaaaaa it was well worth it tho!!! Outfits were a slay!!!! And yah!!! Are you in Canada??? Or just US in general or Europe somewhere??

[raj-veerapen]

Phone Call 1 

Featuring: Raj and Xavier @xaviernottheprofessor  Time: 11:30 PM, couple days after Thomas and Celeste’s wedding Triggers: Incarceration, Mental Health Issues, Raj’s Ex-Fiancée, Raj and Xavier’s Breakup  Note: When I say this one is a roller coaster, I have to admit I did not expect the ending 

Raj: after Xavier picks up Hey...um sorry if this is a bad time.

Xavier: had take a while to pick,excited and worried about who was calling, he laughs hey! No,no. I was just lying in bed. I can't really sleep anyway. Are you alright? Everyone okay?

Raj: Yeah, I'm fine. Amaya's out with some friends and I got off about an hour ago. It's just....remember when you helped me with the insurance stuff? I had forgotten about that but my card showed up today and I was wondering if you could help me out with signing up for a plan because I have no idea what any of this even means.

Xavier: Wait. he sits up and smiles Raj, thats fantastic! I'm so happy to hear that! Of course I can help. Let me uh, let me get my laptop real quick. Anddd okay got it. I'm going on the medicaid choice site right now. Emmie's wifi is amazing so...okay first we have to see if your doctors par with the insurance so want to give me names? I can look them up.

Raj:  awkward pause I don't actually have a doctor.

Xavier: oh. Right. Right. That's why I pushed this in the first place. Have you spoken to your therapist? Maybe they can submit the claims to the insurance. I know some doctors do that out of courtesy.

Raj: Not yet, from what I could tell she doesn't take insurance, but I can ask. It'd help out a lot of she could

Xavier: okay, perfect umm well, for our county,it would be Anthem and thats a great plan. And Raj, you can get a lot of benefits actually. You should look into it when you have time. Like food stamps even housing vouchers to help pay rent. 

Raj: But there's people who need those resources more than I do, and I don't want to go through the approval process and take a spot that should be going to someone else.

Xavier: but its not like you don't need it. Yes, there are people that need it and maybe more and hopefully they're getting help. The help is out there. The bottom line is you do need it. You're not claiming anything that shouldn't be for you. You fit the criteria. And besides, fuck capitlism, right? Eat the rich. This is one way to do it...just sayinnnnn.

Raj: deep sigh I know, I'm just......one of the things that I've been talking to my therapist about is trying to figure out why my first instinct whenever someone offers help is to deny it and why I don't believe that I should be allowed to have more than just what I need to survive. And this just kind of hits both of those.

Xavier: closes the laptop Anthem. Don't forget it.  Well, its a good thing to dwell on. Look, Raj  you have spent a good amount of your life helping others. Its remarkable. If you dont do for yourself, you run the risk of no longer being around to do those things.  Think of Amaya. She adores and needs you. And I'm not guilt tripping you.  I'm just saying we all have our place in this world and if yours is to give to others always then you have to stick around longer. Can't do that on a Ramen diet and poor medical treatment.  And you have to nourish your mind too. That's why you're in therapy right? he clears his throat um, have you thought that maybe this a generational trauma type of thing? Maybe you've been conditioned to feel this way? It feels instinctual because its all you know. That may be where you need to start.

Raj: I don't think it was generational, like we didn't have a lot growing up, but there was always a sense of taking care of yourself before others, so it was a sense of volunteering and helping the community but not........this. And like this is going to sound so fucking stupid now, that was what I was trying to do back before I was arrested. My salary was to support Amaya and Saanvi, make sure that we had what we needed as a family, that we had enough to spend on the occasional treat or fun day out. It was just....................................pause that sounds a little like a realization after prison that I stopped.

Xavier: listens intently. Its the first time Raj has ever spoken about his family  its not stupid. The other stuff? It's not important.  Like these luxuries, all the nonsense. It's just...it's okay to have too. Especially if people are helping others. And it sounds like maybe what happened with Saanvi and then prison....maybe it all was just the perfect situation for all of this to get worse for you.   frowns do you feel undeserving or do you feel like you don't want to take away from someone else. I know its both but I think that first part hits harder. Like you said, before prison you at least lived within your means and did what you had to for the community. You have to figure out what happened to your mindset in that interim when you were away.

Raj: Maybe....I honestly hadn't even connected Saanvi to it much, or even my time in prison. I just don't like thinking about either of them all that much. I guess I just never really let go of the fact that when I was there, the whole you aren't really a person just gets drilled into you.

Xavier: has half a mind to get out and go to Raj.  I'm sorry that happpened to you. God, I am so sorry. You are a real person. A person that I care about and want to see get through this ...sadness that you have. sighs Do me a favor and remember this for your next session. Its so good and so important, Ba---Raj. I think that once you see this through, you won't have to think about them all that much. You can look forward to happier memories, Just fill yourself with the things and people that make you the most happy. You need to heal. You deserve to heal. Okay?

Raj: I mean, it was my fault that it happened so it just felt like the natural consequences of things. pulls out a paper and starts taking notes on their conversation I will, I'm writing it down so I'll remember. But I'm sorry that I ended up dumping all of this on you, I wasn't trying to.

Xavier: sure and that's okay but you're still a person. Prison reform is definitely something worth talking about someday. smiles oh don't worry about any of that. We're friends right?

Raj: That's honestly something that I've never worked with, I just don't think I can mentally handle doing that kind of work.........which I guess is a healthy boundary to know? So maybe that's progress? And yeah, we're friends, but I don't think this is a regular friend conversation. You just make me feel safe.

Xavier: it is very healthy so its great you recogize it.  It is progress. Pat yourself on the back. he stares at the ceiling once he's lying down maybe not but I guess that's okay. I'm happy I make you feel safe. Hearing your voice...well, it's so nice.

Raj: lays down on his air mattress which makes annoying air mattress sounds I've missed hearing your voice too. I was honestly feeling guilty about how much I've missed you because I was sure that after everything you wouldn't want anything to do with me

Xavier: laughs ehhhh well, confession time? I was close. Just bitter. I was getting to the angry phase. It wouldn't have lasted long. Just anything from you and I'd be yours. * closes his eyes* sorry sorry. I know that's bloody confusing. But you understand.

Raj: Honestly, I pulled out my phone to text you more times than I could count, but I just thought that you'd be too angry. Or we'd start a cycle of accidentally hurting each other again. But it is definitely confusing. I haven't stopped thinking about you since the wedding

Xavier: it took a lot of restraint for me to not continue texting but I thought it'd be badgering and I figured there was no use. I guess in the spirt of being confusing, I haven't either but it hurts less. I'm at peace with a lot of things now. I don't know. laughs nervously you have no clue how much I fucking adore you, do you?

Raj; I'm glad that you're at peace that I was a complete asshole because I'm not yet. smiles I think I have an idea of it, because it's probably about as much as I adore you.

Xavier: runs a hand over his face and laughs. i mean you were an asshole. smiles But i was inconsiderate. I'm sorry about all of that. The house, tuition. I don't know how to love sometimes.  takes a deep breath You don't know...if you were here. The friends line would be very blurry. swallows hard yeah, yeah source for nice dreams at least. You being here and all. chuckles And just like that I'm a hot mess.

Raj: I'm not mad about the tuition, I mean I was, but honestly I think I was just more mad I had no idea. Like Amaya had never given me any indication that she wanted to go to college, so it wasn't just the shock you paid, but the fact she'd kept that from me. And then the house on top of it............trails off and sighs I wish that I knew how to react better, but I'm working on it. But I know, so insanely blurry. Part of me wants to see you right now, but I also don't want us to do something we'd regret in the morning.

Xavier: I'm sorry. I hope she's spoken about things more now? I've talked to her about that. She's just always afraid you'll feel obligated to do something for her and she worries about you too. She's such a good kid, Raj. nods I mean, it was a lot. And a commitment and just...a lot. sighs I didnt have much growing up and I just want to give as much of myself as I can. Especially to someone I want to spend the rest of my life with. I got overly excited. Oh God, Seb was right. I'm a golden retriever. laughs you'll get there. You're already making so much progress. I can say with my whole chest that the entirety of my being wants to see you right now. And we would absolutely do things we'd kind of regret. laughs softly But you'll definitely be in my dreams. I'll take that for now.

Raj: We have, we had a really long conversation about it about a week after....it all happened. And I know, and I just wish I could have just accepted it, but at least we both understand a little bit more as to why I reacted that way because it kind of took me by surprise too. The way that it all just bubbled over. chuckles You know, with how you keep mentioning these dreams, I'm kind of curious about what exactly you're thinking is going to happen in them.

Xavier: Good. I guess it wasn't the time. I can understand the universe telling us things. pauses a bit before letting out a soft sigh  Well, we're most definitely not friends in them.

Raj: I figured that part, considering that we're definitely not friends in any of my dreams either.

Xavier: that....well, that's just unfair. laughs and takes a moment to collect himself I'll help you relax and tell you all about my dreams as long as you tell me yours.

Raj: laughs back I think that sounds like a deal

FADE TO BLACK FOR PHONE SEXY TIMES because the two of them collectively decided phone sex isn’t real and if it’s not real you can’t regret it