#they cry and theyre like 'i dont know why my face does this' and simons like 'oh my god shut up i know you know what crying is.'

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phantomquill is my krisnix

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hello yes i just finished lord of the flies (and then watched the 1963 movie immediately afterwards) & i rlly luv piggy so im gonna yell abt Just Piggy Things™ even if no one cares

piggy’s the first character we’re introduced to, after ralph ofc, so that means we’re supposed to get attached, and boy did i get attached..

ass-mar

the fact that he’s been called mean nicknames so long that his real name doesnt matter to him?? he doesnt care what hes called?? poor thing wtf??? hes like eleven hes too little for this

the Flashing Anime Glasses. especially the one w the fire when he starts laughing maniacally. same.

im talking about: “then he laughed so strangely that they were hushed, looking at the flash of his spectacles in astonishment.”

also: “’i got the conch,’ said piggy, in a hurt voice. ‘i got a right to speak.’” let him speak hes the only damn reasonable one. also stop hurting him hes been hurt enough goddamnit 

k but how much he loves ralph? and ralph is annoyed by him??? but then later he confides in him & cries over him & their friendship is my fav in the book so. they bond it just takes a while. but piggy was always good to ralph awe

“i was with him when he found the conch. i was with him before anyone else was.” he finally made a friend dont u take him from him ;-;

k speaking of the conch, in the first movie, his laugh when ralph’s blowing the horn for the first time??? aw??? a rare moment of joy in that sad ass movie?? 

‘63!film piggy is the sweetest & cutest i lob him. ‘90!film piggy was annoying as shit tho i refuse to talk about him.

in the ‘63!film when he puts his hands on his hips when jack says “shut up fatty” and then hides behind the tree when they all laugh at him.

god in the book it’s easy to forget theyre actual babies but with the movie u cant possibly forget and theyre so cute but defenseless it’s so sad

i kno these actors r like 70 or dead now but i wanna go back in time & give them a hug. especially piggy cuz hes a pouty chubby bub gOD IM SO SAD

one last note on the film before i get back to the book: the movie rlly encompassed how awkward i imagined piggy to be & i luv that. also his story time abt camberly was adorable + educational (for me, anyway)

how hurt he is when ralph tells the other boys his name, poor thing ugh :(

“’let him have the conch!’ shouted piggy. ‘let him have it!’” yes stand up for poor lil mulberry child

“piggy knelt by him, one hand on the great shell, listening and interpreting to the assembly.” hes so fuckin sweet??? hes like the mom of the island hes so nice to the littluns i luv him

and when he gets upset over the mulberry boy probably bein killed in the fire :’( hes the most sensible and the most empathetic of all the other boys. what a cinnamon roll. unproblematic fav. true neutral. 10/10. the best boy.

my second favorite line in the whole book: “then, with the martyred expression of a parent who has to keep up with the senseless ebullience of the children, he picked up the conch, turned toward the forest, and began to pick his way over the tumbled scar.” tired mama piggy lmao

he wants to make a sundial?? hes so smart aw

piggy thinking ralph’s patronizing smile was a friendly one :( :( he just wants a friendddd hes so naive & sweet im sadddd

i think it’s implied most of the other boys (particularly the choir boys & ralph) are from a nicer, more upper class part of england, &, despite his intelligence, piggy’s more lower class, judging by his cockney-esque accent (his use of ‘them’ instead of ‘those’, etc.) and also “piggy was an outsider, not only by accent, which did not matter…” idk why this is cute i dunno

“piggy arrived, out of breath and whimpering like a littlun.” me in pe. but also poor thing ;-;

“piggy sniveled and simon shushed him as though he had spoken too loudly in church.” i interpreted shushed as, like, consoled, more than, like, ‘quit crying, ya baby’, which was more what he was doing, but still…first of many cute piggy & simon interactions. i’d ship them but theyre like twelve so nah. but they cute as buddies

“this was too bitter for piggy, who forgot his timidity in the agony of his loss. he began to cry out, shrilly: ‘you and your blood, jack merridew! you and your hunting! we might have gone home-’” this hurts because if jack hadn’t gone hunting, they may have been rescued before simon or piggy died :( :( :( horrible vague foreshadowing

simon getting piggy’s glasses for him when jack throws em ;-;

simon giving his piece of meat (not a euphemism, goddamnit) to piggy.. god simons so sweet hes my second fav

“only, decided ralph as he faced the chief’s seat, i can’t think. not like piggy…he could go step by step inside that fat head of his, only piggy was no chief. but piggy, for all his ludicrous body, had brains.” why does ralph resent piggy sm. it’s like it psychically hurts him to compliment him, even just in his own head. jeez. just cuz someones fat doesnt mean they cant be smart?? the 50s were weird

“piggy came and stood outside the triangle. this indicated that he wished to listen, but would not speak; and piggy intended it as a gesture of disapproval.” aka ‘i’m mad at everyone so im gonna stand two feet away & glare at you all’ aw haha

when he tiptoes onto the triangle cuz hes done w his protesting ahaha aw

“piggy held out his hands for the conch but ralph shook his head.” idk i thought the mental image was cute. “gimme pls” “nuh uh”

what he says about the beast & life being scientific…me & piggy would be buds if he was real lmao

“ralph nodded to piggy. ‘go on. ask him.’ piggy knelt, holding the conch. ‘now then. what’s your name?’ the small boy twisted away into his tent. piggy turned helplessly to ralph..” honestly piggy & ralph are the mom & dad of the colony (jack being the asshole uncle) it’s so cute

“’that’s a clever beast,’ said piggy, jeering, ‘if it can hide on this island.’” sarcastic piggy is sarcastic

more sarcastic piggy earlier in the book: “you got your small fire all right” i lob him

indignant & shrill piggy… and his quote: “’what are we? humans? or animals? or savages?’” honestly lowkey want that tattooed

i fuckin hate jalph but admittedly jack’s jealous lil “’that’s right–favor piggy as you always do.’” is salty & gay lmao

the whole three blind mice convo…i luv

particular highlight in that scene: “’i’m scared of him,’ said piggy, ‘and that’s why i know him. if you’re scared of someone you hate him but you can’t stop thinking about him. you kid yourself he’s all right really, an’ then when you see him again; it’s like asthma an’ you can’t breathe. i tell you what. he hates you too, ralph—’” POOR BABYYY 

also “’i know about people. i know about me. and him. he can’t hurt you: but if you stand out of the way he’d hurt the next thing. and that’s me.” IN THE END ROGER’S THE ONE WHO HURTS HIM UGH :(

“’keep piggy out of danger.’” YOU ASSHOLES LET HIM DIE

piggy holding his breath until his asthma acts up & then the boys just leave him??? what dicks

“jack cleared his throat and spoke in a queer, tight voice. ‘we mustn’t let anything happen to piggy, must we?’” AND THEN YOU LET HIM D I E U SALTY BITCH QUIT IT

“piggy put on his one glass and looked at ralph. ‘now you done it. you been rude about his hunters.’ ‘oh shut up!’” why dont more ppl ship them?? compared to jalph theres nothing??? theyre like a married couple it’s precious. like i said - mom & dad of the island.

piggy getting braver & being more of a leader once jack leaves!!! im proud of him!!

“he [simon] sought for help and sympathy and chose piggy” k the two most humane & sympathetic kids on the island, and the two doomed ones, gravitate towards each other & look out for each other & it so sadd

piggy being “so full of pride in his contribution to the good of society” he didnt deserve his fate he was so good im so sad

samneric & piggy making a little mini feast for them?? thats so cute??? 

also “piggy broke into noisy laughter and took more fruit. ‘he might be.’ he gulped his mouthful. ‘he’s cracked’.” piggy u get teased for bein different why would u tease simon (behind his back too) for bein diffrent u hypocrite. noisy laughter tho aw

piggy & ralph laying by the fire & talking…ralph didnt deserve piggy honestly he wasnt even grateful until the very end for such a good friend in such a horrible situation??? ugh

“when he understood how far ralph had gone toward accepting him he flushed pinkly with pride” see? good friendship. piggy just wanted a friend & to be considered valuable. and ralph finally started appreciating him

“piggy took off his glasses, stepped primly into the water, and then put them on again.” prim: stiffly formal and respectable; feeling or showing disapproval of anything regarded as improper. idk why this is funny to me

when he gets annoyed and starts slapping the water & yelling. temper tatrum lmao. dont blame him

“piggy stirred the sand under water and did not look at ralph. ‘p’raps we ought to go too.’ ralph looked at him quickly and piggy blushed. ‘i mean–to make sure nothing happens.’ ralph squirted water again.” they’re so fuckINGN CUTE

“piggy touched ralph’s wrist. ‘come away. there’s going to be trouble. and we’ve had our meat.’“ SO MUCH OF THIS STORY WOULDVE BEEN AVOIDED IF THE OTHER BOYS ACTUALLY LISTENED TO PIGGY

“ralph sat down in the grass facing the chief’s seat and the conch. piggy knelt at his left, and for a long minute there was silence.” i luv their dynamic sm. ruler & adviser. no questions asked. ultimate loyalty. so good.

piggy trying to be all rational about simon while ralph freaks out…what a scene. also i luv how awkward their convo w samneric immediately after is

piggy wants to be rescued most and hes the one whos killed!!!! bullshit!!!! justice for piggy!!!

when ralph says piggy should write a letter to his auntie & he takes it serious & ralph laughs & piggy doesnt get it. awe.

the scene where they take his glasses ;-; u made my boi piggy hav an ass-mar attack u monsters,

PIGGY GETTIN ALL BADASS & DETERMINED & TALKING ABOUT WHAT HES GONNA TELL JACK 

“he held out the conch to piggy who flushed, this time with pride” and then “piggy sought in his mind for words to convey his passionate willingness to carry the conch against all odds.” the conch is the only constant on the island, the only dependable thing he has besides ralph, so hes so invested in it, hes pretty much deemed himself the caretaker of the conch, and it dies with him…

the scene where piggy reassures ralph & it says “the twins were examining ralph curiously, as though they were seeing him for the first time” is probably my fav scene in the entire book…it just really shows, in a couple of lines, the characters that ralph & piggy are, and what their relationship is like, and why they’re a partnership throughout the whole book. fantastic.

“’am i safe?’ quavered piggy. ‘i feel awful–’” fuckin foreshadowing, i hate it. imagine being practically blind on a cliff and then, minutes later, falling to your death. god it’s terrible.

piggy crying for ralph not to leave him actually hurts like psychically in my chest. him and simon were babies??? i know it’s fiction but kids are the sweetest things, not even fictional kids deserve to be killed so mercilessly??? im so fuckin sad

his last words…powerful and iconic.

i dont wanna talk about his death. im very sad

k ik it’s terrible but when he died his skull cracked open & his brain more or less fell out (”and stuff came out”, “with his empty head”), and thats p macabre but it’s also symbolic and genius bc when roger killed him he also took away the only thing he had going for him, the only thing that gave him superiority over the others - his intelligence. his brain. 

of course, have to end on: “ralph wept for the end of innocence, the darkness of man’s heart, and the fall through the air of the true, wise friend called piggy.” cue me shutting the book, hugging it to my chest, and sobbing

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Shadowhunters Season 2 Episode 8 Thoughts- Notes

I've seen some spoilers and I'm already unhappy with this episode but let's see how it goes

Isn't this the party episode too? How did this beautiful party go so wrong?

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Oh shit, is that deal coming back?

Poor Izzy. Fucking Yin Fen

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Izzy looks so broken

RAPHAEL

I FUCKING LOVE RAPHAEL SO MUCH PEOPLE GIVE HIM SO MUCH SHIT

EW WTF WHY ARE THEY TRYING TO PUSH A RAPHAEL IZZY RELATIONSHIP

HELL NO NO WAY DISGUSTING

Raphael is helping Izzy even though he's morally against it I love him so much

Clary fucked up, take responsibility for your actions Clary.

Yeah, you got Luke's sister kidnapped

Magnus and Alec did not bang

MAX OMG MAX

OH FUCK MARYSE I HATE HER

MAX IS READY FOR HIS RUNE CEREMONY IM SO PROUD

WOW HIS DAD'S NOT EVEN GONNA BE THERE WOW

Max doesn't deserve to deal with this bullshit

OMG MAX DOESNT CARE ABOUT ALEC DATING MAGNUS LIFE IS GOOD

IN THE BOOKS MAX DIED BEFORE HE EVEN KNEW ABOUT MALEC AND NOW HE CAN BE A PART OF THIS AND OMG MY HEART

OMG THE PARTY IS FOR MAX

"Have you met me" AHHH MY BABY MY HEART THAT WAS SO CUTE

OMFG ALEC WANTS MAGNUS TO THROW THE PARTY TO SHOW HIS MOM HOW MUCH HE MEANS TO HIM FUCK MY LIFE

"You sure about this?// Why wouldn't I be?" JUST STAB MY FACE WHY DON'T YOU

MALEC OMFG LIFE IS SO GOOD

OH FUCK VALENTINE KNOWS THE WARLOCK THAT HAS THE DEAL OVER CLARY FUCK

Ooh Valentine's gonna blackmail her

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Simon is so nervous aww

"The last thing I wanna do is screw that up" low-key crying brb

UUUUUGGGGHHHH I DONT SHIP THEM

I DONT SHIP CLIMON AT ALL

YES, THE PEOPLE WHO LOVE HIM YOURE SO RIGHT ALEC

ALEC STANDING UP FOR THE ONES HE LOVES IS MY KINK

OMG CATS ARE WE GONNA GET CHAIRMAN?!

BUT MAGNUS AND ALEC DIDN'T BANG

I WAS SO SHOOK I WAS THINKING EXACTLY WHAT MAGNUS WAS THINKING

OMG JACE CAN FEEL THAT ALEC IS HAPPIER MY HEART

JACE IS SUCH A GOOD BROTHER I LOVE HIM

THEY BOTH JUST WANT ALEC TO BE HAPPY AND THEY KNOW THAT AND THEYRE OKAY OMFG MY HEART

JACE AND MAGNUS FUCK ME

THEY RUINED IT WITH CLIMON WHY

MAIA YASSSS

SHE LOOKS SO GOOD

JACE FUCK OFF YOU THINK SHES YOUR SISTER

Simon's so clueless it's so cute- Jace is literally holding a drink

MAIA IS THE FUCKING BEST MVP I LOVE HER

OOH WILL MAIA RUIN THIS BY MAKING CLARY JEALOUS

MAGNUS IS TRYING HIS BEST AND MAYRSE IS BEING SUCH A BITCH SHUT THE FUCK UP MAYRSE I GET THAT YOURE SALTY BECAUSE YOURE GOING THROUGH A DIVORCE BUT YOU DONT GOTTA BE A BITCH TO MAGNUS

OMG NOOOO

WHY IS SIMON KISSING MAIA

THEY MADE HIM A FUCKBOI WHY?!?!?!

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OMG SIMON WTF

IM WITH CLARY WTF IS THIS

SIMON WTF IS WRONG WITH YOU

EVERY TIME MAGNUS CALLS CLARY BISCUIT AN ANGEL GETS ITS WINGS

MAGNUS IS SUCH A GOOD FRIEND HE'S SO SUPPORTIVE OF CLARY

I DONT SHIP RAPHAEL AND IZZY THIS IS DISGUSTING

BUT YOU ARE STRONG IZZY

RAPHAEL DOES NOT WANT TO DO THIS WTF IZZY WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU

MAGNUS GOT HIM A GIFT HE'S SO SWEET I LOVE HIM

WOW MAX STFU

OMFG MAYRSE IS AN AWFUL PERSON

SHE TAUGHT MAX TO BE PREJUDICE TOWARDS DOWNWORLDERS WTF

AND SHE SAID JACE ISNT HIS BROTHER WTF IS WRONG WITH HER

ALEC IS STANDING UP FOR HIS FAMILY AND IM SO HERE FOR THIS

OMG WTF MARYSE YOURE NOT GONNA KILL HIM IN MAGNUS' APARTMENT AT MAX'S PART

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RAPHAEL IS SO SWEET OMFG I LOVE HIM WHY IS SIMON SUCH AN ASSHOLE TO HIM

OMG MAGNUS HELPED HIM THROUGH HIS ADDICTION I LOVE MAGNUS SO MUCH HES SUCH A GOOD PERSON

WOW IZZY YOU "don't have time for this" RUDE

I STILL BELIEVE IT'S JACE WITH A RUNE

WAIT NEVER MIND

OH SHIT HALLUCINATIONS

WTF IS UP WITH CLARY

ALEC NO HE FEELS SO BAD

OH SHIT THEYRE BOTH HAVING HALLUCINATIONS

WHO THE FUCK CRASHED THIS PARTY

WAIT SO SIMON ISNT A FUCKBOI?!

ALEC NO

ALEC WTF

THESE DEEP INSECURITIES ARE SO SAD MY BABY YOURE NOT A FAILURE YOURE NOT JUST A MURDERER YOURE A GREAT SHADOWHUNTER I LOVE YOU

ALEC NO OMG

HE JUMPED

WTF

IM SCREAMING

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I KNEW MAGNUS WOULD SAVE HIM

"Maia is at the bar.// And Alec is on the ground." This is why I love Simon

EVERYONE NEEDS TO STOP FIGHTING

Ooh a book

OMG THE WARDS

MAGNUS' MAGIC IS SO COOL

OMG ITS HER ITS THE WARLOCK WOMAN THAT CLARY HAD A DEAL WITH

I KNEW IT

OMG A WARLOK FIGHT YESS

MAGNUS THROW DOWN

THIS IS THE BEST FIGHT SCENE THEYVE DONE OMG THIS IS SO GOOD

MAGNUS IS SO POWERFUL YESS

WHY DID SHE HAVE TO FUCK UP THIS PARTY

HER DAUGHTER NOO I LIKE HER DAUGHTER

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They are family and they do need to know.

Oh I thought she was talking about her rune making abilities

SHE IS TALKING ABOUT IT

OH SHIT THEY KNOW SHE HAS ANGEL BLOOD

Clary is being so brave and caring I love her

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HOLY FUCKING SHIT THIS WAS THEIR BEST EPISODE TO DATE HANDS DOWN THIS WAS AMAZING

THE PREVIEW OMG

CLARY IS SUCH A GOOD PERSON

OH SHIT MALEC IS FIGHTING

Okay I thought Alec punched Magnus which would have been 100% not okay but upon further analysis he punched Raphael which I am also not happy with but it's more understandable since Izzy is there and Alec said Magnus "knew enough" which probably means that Alec found out about Izzy's Yin Fen addiction and is mad at Magnus for not telling him (WHICH I SAID WOULD HAPPEN IN MY PREVIOUS NOTES ()) so Alec's probably mad at Raphael for drinking from Izzy but it's really not his fault because RAPHAEL IS A GOOD PERSON JUST TRYING YO DO HIS BEST

(Okay so apparently Malec did bang and they just didn't add it in which is a bit fucked up to me considering they showed Jace and that Seelie (?) girl which was unnecessary but okay just erase one of their biggest moments like Cassandra it's fine I'm not mad I'm not deeply hurt and offended that Izzy got that weird scene with Meliorn but Magnus and Alec didn't get their first time it's whatever I'm not deeply hoping that they'll show it in flashbacks in a future episode ITS WHATEVER)