#there's just sm I wanna do/see more of and I'm too caught up in current projects to commit to sumn new :(

[luv-again]

I hate that there's a huge chunk of sonic ships I like but just don't know what to do w </3

the tiny little pocket in the shadamy space is comfortable and so 😚💕 but there's so many other ships I like but can't express it unless it's thru writing and I'm too overloaded w projects to be able to explore that properly

[yourkimjaejin]

I'm Going Crazy

Time: May 2022

Moxy confesses some frustration to her oppa's

Taeyong, Doyoung and Johnny had noticed Moxy was off. 127 were currently at the third final practice before the group was whisked away for the long awaited Neo City tour in Japan. While all the members were busy with their own projects, The ladies of AG were busier.

The four members were dedicating all their time to Queendom, the mnet reality show ending with the crowning a new queen. The winning competitor gets a comeback show for their next comeback. Being on a performance reality show is hard. Doing that show while being a NCT member is harder

Aurora had been working on empty juggling AG practices and performances with Dream for their Glitch Mode comeback. Now Moxy was dealing with Queendom practices and rehearsal for 127's concert. A couple of days ago, SM informed the AG leader she'd possibly miss three shows in Japan while Queendom was finishing up.

Every practice the members had, Moxy had arrived late and stayed later to make up for the time she missed. Only the difference between then and now was Moxy demeanor.

The members knew her mind was on a whole other planet. Physically she executed every move but there was no smiling, no joking with Haechan, no clinging to Johnny and annoying Doyoung. Moxy just danced. Silently, taking every note and correcting herself accordingly.

At the next break, Moxy felt her body tipping forward but caught herself. The twenty-two year old stumbled over to her duffle bag and pulled out a water bottle chugging half the contents in a couple seconds

The three hyungs, slowly inched over making care to not startle the younger but she was so out of it. She barely registered the three sitting down before Taeyong reached over, shaking her knee.

Taeyong eyes were soft and open, "Wanna talk?"

Moxy felt the tears pool but held them back. Her three oppa's waited patiently for her to start speaking. Sensing the serious talk about to happen Taeil lead the other members out of the room to give the four privacy.

"I'm so tired." The words came out as a whisper. One lone tear falling down her cheek. "I just want Queendom to be over......I'm pissed I gotta miss Japan concerts once again." Her voice shakes at the last word. Silent anger dripping in every word. "I was extra late today cause.......I was filming choreography so Aurora could watch it while she's in Germany." More silent tears fell, Doyoung wiping away every single one. Moxy was quiet for a while before speaking again.

"I know I said I didn't care about winning......but there's this..small part of me...........that just grows every. single. time. we place second in the ranking........i..I just...I taste it. victory. I taste the crown. I want that comeback show. I want show everyone....." Moxy got too choked up to finish. More tears spilling over wet cheeks. Johnny and Doyoung surround her in their arms. They just held their dongsaeng until the tears dried leaving their mark with Moxy eyes turning red.

"It's ok to want the win. You shouldn't feel ashamed of that. All of us want NCT to succeed. That includes AG and I know you'll get there. AG's got four hard working women who would never let it fail without a fight." Taeyong took Moxy's hand in his drawing a small smile from the girl. "As for Japan, film a video for the fans. They'll be happy to see your face even though you're not there. They understand this competition is important to you, to us and to AG." Taeyong gripped her hands pulling her upright as the other six members reentered the room. Seeing that Moxy was feeling better, they all came over crowding around each other.

Haechan took his place, gripping Moxy's arm, "You know we're not letting stay late today right? You are gonna come home with us and we are gonna max out Taeyong hyungs card while eating samgyupsal." The sound of agreement drowned out Taeyong's affronted noise

"Arraso, Haechannie. Arraso." Moxy and the members began to goof off, lifting Moxy's spirits more before their choreographer came in.

Time to get back to work.