#theo : the chaldea master

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🍷master kamille for ereshkigal and one for void kam an theo :3

"Eresh eh? Heh, she's definitely extremely powerful and I would absolutely hate to face her as an enemy.. Yet she's also curious, compassionate to those in her realm and she does love humanity. She's also beautiful and I'm always amazed to see her in action. I'm glad to have her here in Chaldea, and I can only hope I can remain a Master worthy of her aid."

Void King:

".... A girl destined for a tragic fate, yet one who continues to fight with her determination to live. Truly an epitome of the folly that is mankind... And yet there is something admirable in that folly that I had forgotten before... Hmm? There's no need to look so sadly at me, I made my choices, so don't do something stupid like blame yourself. But if you wish to make amends regardless than I suppose you can continue to prove yourself a worthwhile Master and never waver in your views. Continue to show me this cruel yet beautiful folly that is mankind as long as you can... Theo."

@diegesis-x-dolonia

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" all my friends have hearms.....i don't know how to fell about that "

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Theo didn't know many Brittany songs but she did know some of rihanna's. So she tried to sing along even if she wass bad at it. " shine bright like a diamond! "

     “I’m addicted to you, don’t you know that you’re TOXIC.”

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@herokamijoutouma

" hey touma? What's was your life like before chaldea?" Theo asked, it was random and out of the blue but she wanted to get to know him. After all it's important to understand people you care about right?.

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Love, war and madness

Theo's kind and sweet and caring and loves easily but that seems to be it in the beginning of her story . The bases of a person barely anything their truly. Someone who loves to much and to easily. But Theo is monstrous and fake...at least that's what she thinks. In her other verses she faces a different dilemma when it comes to who she is and how she feels as a 'person'.

You know something that hit me really hard recently with Theo is how she thinks she's to broken to be human. How she is horrible for at one point wanting people to suffer just like she did. And after words she sobbed her heart out finding out the world did die.

And ill be honest at least once eveyone has had one negative thought about another be it envy or anger. And for a girl who's been abused her whole life ? With only glimpses of the sun and sky and who has no idea how to write her own danm name ? Who believed her own danm mother didn't care enough for her because she died and left her ? Who dosn't remember anyone saying her own name since she was six.

Yeah I'm surprised it took her thirteen years to get to that point.

Theo down to her core cares. She cares for others and cares for people who she's never truly meet. Cares for the timelines that are displaced and loves people not because shes good and not because she is a 'protagonist' but because shes understands pain and loneliness and wouldn't wish that on anyone. Because she understands, she lived through that loneliness. Because that loneliness was her only solitude and sanctuary from the pain. Because being alone meant she was safe. she understood how it could be comforting but also understands its negative effects. So she dose her best to love others and help them feel just a little less alone. Their are exceptions but no one wants to hear that know do they ?

And the fact that theo before chaldea barely even under stood and remembered what it meant to be loved kinda just hurts. The last time she was held was the day everything started and that was when she was five. At five kids should be learning the alphabet , sould be in school and crying about wanting candies and staying up just a little longer. Five year olds should not be covered in head to toe in bandages and in rags that barely count as clothes. Theo barely remembers what it was like to be loved. But she remembers what its like to love someone.

But Loveing someone or something isn't always a good thing.

Remember: Love is just as dangerous as hate, for it consumes you just the same. Love is not a gentle thing. Love is a all consuming and all encompassing thing.

Ive said time and time again theo loves to easily , cares to easily. She loves others. Other people's safety and wellness has always been something shes intoned to. Caring and loving someone has always been a driving force for theo in the nasu verse and has become a running theme in her other verse's

But just because she loves someone doesn't mean it'll fix everything ...no in fact it'll make a lot of Theo's problems worse. This is a girl who doesn't understand boundaries. This is a girl who has no view on her own self worth and doesn't understand what it means. This is a girl who will die if it made someone she loved happy.

Theo dose her best to be reliable and nice and the image the master of chaldea presents. But she can't. She's barely a person with the life she lived which was five years outside a hell hole. Everything she learns at chaldea is a first. Her first true look at love was rama's love and devotion to being with sita even if it was a futile endeavor. And then her first true look at the madness love can and dose bring is brynhilder....brynhilder who mistaken people slightly similar to her beloved seigird because of her sin's she committed in life.

The grand order is a one human war. The master of chaldea is the only one who will truly remember it and that's something theo agonizes over. All those people and memory's lost and just fixed like it was nothing.

Theo died in that war and relieved that war. Watched as her choices meant nothing, watched as a unbearable outcome took place and she moved forward to try and fix it. Because if she doesn't do it then someone else is suffering through this hell and she would hate that.

War ,loneliness , death and love shaped theo. It shaped her into something resembling a girl. And it's those aspects that theo hides. And its those aspects that Damocles was born from. She was 'born' from fire in a one man war agents the whole world and she was expected to win. The woman theo became died when Damocles was born.

She hides the hate and anger her war left her feeling. Hides the the apathy her loneliness and death has drilled into her over her own well being. Hides the madness her love will dive her into. She hides aspects of herself that are horrible because they don't befit a master of chaldea, nor dose it fit the counter guardian of humanity . She hides the bone crushing soul destroying sadness she feels as she tries so desperately to smile and be a piler of support she knows other's need. Not because she wants to be a hero but because she can't stand the idea of another person being alone. Because she was born alone and a world that was aflame and screaming for reprieve.

And this is why her loving someone hurts. Because if she loves someone she'll try more. She'll try and live. Try and be genuine, try and be open with what shes feeling even if she doesn't understand it. She'll try and shoulder her loves ones burdens with them.

Them loving someone means she'll stop trying to make everyone happy and try her best to make someone she cares for happy and sometimes that means she'll have to be better and improve herself. But that could also mean she would gladly be the match that burn the world down.

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A cup of coco

@pulseofthestars

" mmmm yes....though I suppose it gets easier. " theo sat by him with her own cup and smiled." Living here is nice. Being a master is an experience but...i...im not quite used to this I suppose "

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"....okay...but. ... Zaire you could have asked her out you know? "

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“No…but he has terrible luck so knowing him he’ll be late or something. ” theo paused before sighing “ you think so? ”

“Ah, the unlucky sort, well as they say, better late then never. Besides I heard there is nothing wrong with going alone, which is what I might do…and yes Theo, I do think so.”

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Kibō starts shooing Tragedy, sorrow, melancholy with a broom

" pfffft you don't have to do that I'm use to them "

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"..im gonna go to bed "

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" i don't get it....why do you want to be stepped on "

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Your true position

"...what?"

[cantillat-moved]

@x-dawn-x-given-x​: “I will not be broken… I will not be… fine, you win stop with the face.” -theo to archer

❝ You can be pretty weak-willed, don’t you? ❞ All he was doing was to quietly judge the master’s actions. It was pretty well-known that Archer is either the overbearing mother of Chaldea or an insufferable cynical ass. There is no in-between and looking disapprovingly or getting under people’s skin was one of his pastimes. 

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" hm. maybe it's 'cause I grew up very closed off? Growing up in a room like box makes learning anything non magic-related kinda... hard?" Theo said before sighing. She moved to sit down as she watched the other girl float around

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“ okay ” theo honestly wasn’t one to judge. Yes the kink was odd by hey everyone liked their own thing.

“Kinda surprised you didn’t know. It’s not all that uncommon~.” She shrugged, starting to float into the air and turn upside down.

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The red haired master had been doing her best to be active as of lately, her worry was starting to get the best of her. With everything that has happened and continues to happen its a wonder that she even gets to do anything remotely relaxing. And that's what she was attempting to do untill she came across a long cloak.

A mischives grin was seen on her face as she placed the cloak on and smirked.

"Hm ? What is this master of chaldea you wish for my help with something like this ?"

She moved to place her head agents the palm of her hand as her smirk grows and the mischievous look grew worse.

" Very well then I shall indulge you this once "

She tried to mimic the golden beast and his mannerisms. Key word try.

" ah... That was terrible.... Really bad ! " Theo grew flustered as she covers her face. The red haired master moves to sit down feeling embarrassment hit her hard.

" ah... I really should get back to work.." She mumbled finding the silly impulse genuinely fun but did not wish to indulge in this. She was the master of chaldean and their was no time for her to be silly and play games.

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"I wonder if chaldea has any research-related to older magic like Solomons lesser key. I know they are evil but.... Some of them wanted to live. And could show understanding.... I.... I want to understand them even if it's a little bit. "

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" i.... No...please...no... Please... We have to go back ! We need to go back !!! As long as i can fight we can still - "

Theo couldn't stand up. Couldn't bring herself to move as the shadow border continued down its path. Her body hurt, she could barely lift a finger. Theo couldn't put any of her feelings to words. Couldn't for the life of her voice what everything felt like.

" chaldea... Is ....lost ?"

Green lifeless eyes looked at the door as her hands held the brief case close to her chest.

" it's....gone... Everything... All of it..."

She couldn't do it.

Not again.

" ah...."

Couldn't for the life of her watch as another loved one died to give her a chance. Her heart hurt. It barely beat like it should. Her shoulder's felt so heavy as her arm's slowly held the brief case a little tighter to her chest.

" ah....ah...."

She couldn't watch again. Why did she have to watch again ? Why did it have to happen again?

Her voice rose slowly. Barely above a whisper as tears gathered in her eyes.

She never had a home untill she came to chaldea. Chaldea had become the proof of her existence. Became the place she realised she was human and she didn't need anyone to know what she did. She had all she needed in chaldea and she was ready to let it go and move on. Ready to wake up from a wonderful dream and live in the real world and face another day. Ready to give up fighting and be human just like she so despretly wished for.

She was ready to leave her home and start a new journey.

But not like this. Not like this- please not-

"AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH "

She cried untill her cries become a scream and soon enough her cries were nothing that a human should make. It was loud and filed with sorrow for something not truly hers. She cried till her voice was raw and she had no more tears to give. Had no more sorrow to spend.

Humanity had ended and they once again were the last ones left-

But this time...her home was gone and she no longer felt sure of herself. She wasn't human, Wasn't meant to be a master , could barely manage as she was intended for and her body was breaking apart at the seams...

Chaldea was lost to her.

But-

It didn't mean all hope was lost. As long as she drew breath, As long as she could stand,

She'll fight ,

She fight another day. Struggle another day. because if she didn't ... Then it really would be meaninglessness wouldn't it ? She had said she would struggle till the bitter end didn't she? She said she would define what meaning her life had hadn't she ? She held the brief case like it was a life line. And maybe it was...

The proof of her grand journey that she never wanted and the bonds of her beloved chaldea.