#then again i'm writing a fucking evangelion muse. why am i surprised

[thiirdboy]

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All things considered, it seemed like he was fairly lucky compared to everyone else. At least, as far as he could tell. Some of the faces around him were recognizable, albeit with fangs or wings or other newly acquired appendages. Others? He wouldn’t know them if you didn’t tell him who they were, they blended in so well.

Still, there was a little seed of panic that remained in the pit of his stomach; if he could use his A.T. Field without an EVA, what else could he do? And for that matter — what did he look like? He at least couldn’t feel any extra limbs or anything like that, but that just made him even less certain about what exactly had happened to him.

He had his suspicions, but he had to see it for himself.

He had to get through other hotel guests trying to give him a start and a rather grotesque reception desk worker, but eventually he managed to get to his room, relatively unscathed. And then...that was when he was finally able to get a good look at himself.

His actual form hadn’t changed much at all, but the dull blue of his eyes had faded, a piercing, rather familiar red taking its place. Here and there, his skin faded from its regular tan hue to a slowly undulating black and white striped pattern. He swore the color was traveling up and down his body, but for all he knew, it could’ve been a trick of the eyes.

And his shadow...long, so much longer than it should be, as if threatening to expand and swallow the room whole. And if he was correct to link his current appearance with a certain past experience of his, that wasn’t a figure of speech.

All of his memories from that time, of that Angel...they threatened to come back, to fill up his mind and drown out everything else. Memories of his mind being broken into, of being confined in the Entry Plug and shown everything he disliked about himself, believing his life was truly going to end in the Sea of Dirac because he dared to be sure of himself for once. Now he was the thing that did all of that to him.

He couldn’t go out there. He was going to hurt someone.