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the-lazyyy-artist · 1 month ago

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I've never liked this feeling.

This feeling I've felt since I was 13. A yearning, a need to be loved. Yes, I know I'm loved by so many people who came, stayed, and left, but this ache is something that real people cannot heal.

Is this the curse of being in love with so many fictional characters? To long for their existence, to wish they were real, to touch and see them. It's something I can never get rid of.

I thought if I grew old enough, that pain would go away. But no. It stayed, and it even grew with me. The longing has become stronger, and I can't ignore it anymore.

Why must I be cursed with love for different artforms? To fall for every character my eyes laid eyes on?

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#lazyyy thoughts #i can't tag every fandom I've appreciated through the years #but it's so many I can't even remember some of them #yes this is a constant feeling #the way it eats me inside and I wake up lonely even tho I'm currently loved #it's so stupid but it burns so much of my soul to even think that somehow maybe these characters have a real person counterpart? you know?#idk #I'm tired of this feeling but I keep on nurturing it everytime because I would rather adore a fictional man than a real one.#they can't hurt me like how real people do.#maybe it's a coping mechanism idk #bye

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